E8 - I'm Disappointed in You

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    Kyo-kun!
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    Please, there's...
    something I'd like to tell you.
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    "Fruits Basket"
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    --Kyo-ku--
    --Me, too.
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    There's something I've been
    wanting to ask you for a while.
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    If I'm fooling myself,
    please, laugh at me.
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    Make fun of me as much as you want.
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    Do you...
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    Do you... love me?
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    I mean... you know, right?
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    Are you stupid?
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    Shit, my hunch was right.
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    You picked me of all people?
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    I thought you loved your mom best.
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    Was that a lie? Is that all just...
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    ...canceled now?
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    I can't deal with this.
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    It's not fair.
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    Why did I wish to spend the time
    I have left by her side?
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    If this is the result,
    I wish I weren't with her.
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    Kyo-kun!
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    I don't want to tell.
    I don't want her to know.
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    I don't want to admit it.
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    But... this just isn't fair.
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    Please listen! I--
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    You don't know anything!
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    You don't know what I did!
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    I pity you for loving me.
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    I'm so ridiculously sorry for you.
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    I'm sorry.
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    I'm sorry.
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    She would've lived. If I'd helped.
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    Your mom would've.
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    I... knew your mom.
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    That day...
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    The day of the accident,
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    I was standing nearby,
    and I recognized her right away.
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    Her profile and her hair color
    were the same as back then.
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    We met a long time ago,
    right after Shisho took me in.
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    Back then, I was still too self-conscious
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    to go straight home to the dojo
    after school, so I'd wander around.
[04:31] ---
    What's your deal?
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    You're too young to dye your hair orange!
    Is that natural or what?
[04:38] ---
    Wh-What's your problem?!
    Mind your own business!
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    Don't get fresh with me or I'll kill you!
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    Aw, it's so cute
    how totally not cute you are!
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    Don't call me "cute," old lady! Hag!
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    The little brat said something! Adorable!
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    You're gonna get kidnapped
    if you don't stop bein' so cute.
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    Better go home. You'll worry your mom--
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    I don't have one! She died!
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    --And your dad?
    --I don't need him! Wish he'd die!
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    He wants me dead, too!
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    That sounds lonely.
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    Hey, you! Is your hair real?
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    "Hey, you" is pretty rude.
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    Call me Kyoko. I'm Kyoko Honda.
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    Huh? Her name's like mine.
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    How 'bout you? What's your name?
[05:42] ---
    Not telling.
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    "He doesn't like
    that they're similar"
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    Aha. Guess I'll call you "squirt," then.
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    --She said she worked nearby.
    --What's a "squirt"?
[05:49] ---
    --She said she worked nearby.
    --A squirt's a squirt.
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    Come by again sometime, squirt.
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    I went to see her a lot.
[05:57] ---
    "Kyoko Honda" told me about lots of stuff.
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    About herself, about "Katsuya Honda,"
    and... about "Tohru."
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    I wondered what the daughter
    of someone like her would be like.
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    Today, I'll show you something special.
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    My treasure!
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    Tohru.
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    I wondered what her laugh would be like.
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    Squirt...
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    What should I do? Tohru hasn't come home.
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    I looked for her, but I can't find her.
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    I can't find her anywhere! She's gone!
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    Get it together.
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    I'll...
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    I'll find her, I swear!
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    You wait at home. I'll help her.
    I'll protect her for sure!
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    That's a man's promise!
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    A man's promise.
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    Why couldn't I keep it?
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    Squirt!
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    Thank goodness I found you!
    You were still searching for her, huh?
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    Tohru's safe and sound!
    Someone helped her!
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    I'm sorry I caused you trouble.
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    Hey. That hat...
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    Oh, this?
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    Tohru says the kid who
    helped her was wearing it.
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    Do you recognize it?
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    I picked that hat out for myself,
    and Shisho bought it for me...
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    ...and it ended up with him.
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    No. It's not mine anymore
    now that he touched it.
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    He... He sucks.
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    He has everything. People care about him.
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    So why does he have to take stuff from me?
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    But he helped Tohru.
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    He still sucks! He's a bad guy!
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    I was... gonna help her...
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    He was born luckier than me,
    so why is he getting in my way now?
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    That's how you want him, right?
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    You need for there to be a bad guy. Right?
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    Are you on his side, too?!
    You're saying it's my fault?!
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    No. The taking sides thing is pointless,
    like the "good" and "bad" thing.
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    Don't live your life
    worrying about that stuff.
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    It's a waste of a good, kind boy like you.
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    You're talking crazy! You... traitor!
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    I'm done with you, and her, too!
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    Hey, squirt!
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    I'll hold you to that promise another day.
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    I never went back.
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    I was lonely because I felt betrayed,
    and ashamed because I couldn't help,
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    and stung because it felt like
    he'd taken something from me.
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    I avoided seeing her again.
    Because I was sulking.
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    And then...
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    That day, I saw her again.
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    I was trying to decide
    whether to speak to her,
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    when I saw a car
    coming zooming toward us...
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    I thought, "Oh, shit, I have to help her."
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    If I grabbed her arm
    and pulled her back against me...
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    But... But I'm not human.
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    If I pulled her against me,
    I'd turn into a cat...
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    ...and people would find out
    I wasn't human.
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    So I let her die.
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    If I'd just pulled her back...
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    ...she wouldn't have
    gone flying like that...
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    ...or had to feel pain.
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    I know she wouldn't have died.
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    But I weighed your mom's life
    against my selfhood...
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    ...and I chose me.
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    I protected myself.
    I put myself above someone's life!
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    Even though I...
    Even though I loathe myself.
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    I hate myself so much, I wish
    I'd just go away and disappear...
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    ...but somehow in the end,
    I always protect myself.
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    I go easy on myself and run away.
    Every. Damn. Time.
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    Even right now.
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    I'm too scared to even look at your face.
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    My mom...
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    She went flying and died, too.
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    It wasn't a car accident, but...
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    She said she felt guilty
    for giving birth to me.
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    Said she felt sorry for me, and it
    was hard, and she couldn't stay with me.
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    She was sobbing.
    And the next day... she died.
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    An accident?
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    I heard there was a suicide note.
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    People heard her fighting with
    her husband the night before, too.
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    It's your fault!
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    Kyo, you drove your mother to this!
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    You...
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    You...
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    No!
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    No, it's not my fault! It's not my fault!
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    No! No! No!
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    Knock it off already. Just admit it.
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    You know the truth,
    and that's why you've been running.
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    Just admit it already.
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    Everything is my fault.
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    I robbed them.
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    I...
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    I let them die.
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    Honestly, I almost cried.
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    That sounds lonely.
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    Because even if I didn't
    understand exactly what you meant,
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    I felt forgiven.
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    Forgiven for existing,
    by a total stranger.
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    Maybe that's not what you intended, but...
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    I met somebody weird.
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    Weird?
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    Oh, uh... not in a bad way, though!
    Just different.
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    They said to visit them again.
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    Even though we're not friends...
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    Well, you'd better visit them again, huh?
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    I thought Shisho was the only person
    in the world who'd want me around.
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    Mom always seemed like
    she was checking my reactions.
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    Dad spewed hatred at me.
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    The Somas looked
    down on me in contempt.
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    Just about everyone rejected me,
    so she was like a ray of light. Hope.
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    I wanted to meet Tohru, too, really.
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    I wanted to, but I only actually
    went to see her that one time.
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    I didn't like how lonely she looked.
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    I wished for the two of them to be happy.
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    I wanted their days to be happy ones.
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    In my child's mind, I didn't want them
    to be lonely, so I always worried.
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    "Are they lonely today?"
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    "Are they smiling today?"
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    It was like something
    bloomed in my chest, and I worried.
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    So that day, for the first time,
    I consciously decided to visit.
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    Not that it ended well.
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    And then our reunion ended like that...
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    She said she'd never forgive me.
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    She was lying in a pool of blood,
    and she noticed me there and said...
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    "I'll never forgive you."
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    That's what it sounded like.
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    I just... froze.
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    --My mind went blank.
    I couldn't think right.
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    --Call an ambulance, fast!
    --My mind went blank.
    I couldn't think right.
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    I ran away.
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    Kyo. What happened?
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    Shisho took me to live in the mountains.
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    I just stayed frozen in the dark.
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    Shisho tried to get me to keep living.
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    But I couldn't forgive myself
    for what I'd done.
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    I felt like I had to be the one
    to die this time.
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    So I decided...
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    It's not my fault.
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    It's his fault. Yuki's.
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    It was him. The Rat stole all my hope.
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    I blamed Yuki.
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    I created a "bad guy" and made him
    take responsibility for everything.
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    It wasn't logical. It didn't need to be.
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    I just needed him to be the bad guy.
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    Whatever, as long as I could
    make anything inconvenient his fault
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    so that I could pretend to forget.
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    As long as I could just keep hating him...
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    I focused on that and erased my memory
    of letting your mother die.
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    I can't believe I'd forgotten
    all this time.
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    When I saw the hat
    in your room the other day,
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    I remembered what happened.
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    I'd conveniently repressed the memory
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    and shifted all my guilt onto the bad guy.
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    My whole life, protecting myself's
    been the one thing I'm good at.
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    I'm the worst, huh?
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    When I "got better,"
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    I decided to leave the mountains
    and use hatred to keep me alive.
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    Shisho's smile looked sad.
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    I was summoned when I got back--my dad
    had told Akito I dropped off the map.
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    Akito scolded me.
    We argued. We made a bet.
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    If you can defeat Yuki before
    you graduate high school,
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    I'll stop calling you a monster.
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    I'll even welcome you as a zodiac member.
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    Maybe I was secretly happy to hear that.
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    Not because I wanted to be welcomed.
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    Because I had another reason to hate.
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    So I went straight to him.
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    I never dreamed I'd meet you that day.
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    Kyo-kun, this is Tohru Honda.
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    What is she doing here?
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    Can you forgive me?
[19:09] ---
    The guy who ran away?
    Who always runs away?
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    Who never said anything--
    who always pretended he didn't realize?
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    I felt irritation and fear, too.
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    I didn't mean to get
    too involved with her.
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    I didn't mean to fall in love.
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    And yet...
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    I can't forgive me.
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    I'll never forgive you.
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    I agree with your mom.
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    And I don't want you
    to forgive me, either.
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    Not now.
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    I won't.
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    Is that what I have to say?
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    Forgive, or don't forgive?
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    Are those the only
    choices I have left now?
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    My mom... I can't believe
    she would really tell you that.
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    I can't believe it, but...
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    But if she truly did
    say that, then... I...
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    I...
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    ...have to rebel against Mom!
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    Kyo-kun, isn't there any way
    you can accept that I love you,
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    no matter what?
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    I'm disappointed in you.
[21:12] ---
    I won't be disappointed in you.
[21:14] ---
    That--
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    Kyo!
[21:17] ---
    Kyo?! Stop!
[21:21] ---
    Honda-san...
[21:23] ---
    Honda-san, you should go inside
    and dry off. You'll catch a cold.
[21:31] ---
    That idiot!
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    I was completely selfish, wasn't I?
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    I just confessed my own sins,
    said everything I wanted to say...
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    ...and ignored your feelings.
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    And then I ran even though
    I knew that sometimes in this world,
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    you never get the chance
    to see someone again to apologize.
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    I thought I knew...
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    ...but if I'm just gonna repeat history...
[22:07] ---
    ...it's no better than not knowing.
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    "What's Your Name?"
[23:46] ---
    What's your name?
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