E38 - The Sounds That Make You Want to Cry

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[00:01] Echidna
    You made it past all those barriers
[00:03] Echidna
    to enter the castle of dreams?
[00:06] Echidna
    Talk about rude.
[00:13] Subaru
    Seriously, what is with you?
[00:16] Subaru
    What do you want from me?!
[00:18] Satella
    For so long...
[00:20] Satella
    For so very long...
[00:23] Satella
    I have loved you...
[00:26] Satella
    and no one else.
[00:28] Subaru
    Stop...
[00:30] Satella
    I love you.
[00:32] Subaru
    Stop it.
[00:33] Satella
    I have loved only you for so, so long.
[00:39] Subaru
    I said stop, damn it!
[00:43] Subaru
    Both you and Echidna are insane!
[00:45] Subaru
    I've had it! I've had it with you both!
[00:48] Subaru
    I won't accept help from any of you!
[00:50] Subaru
    I'll find a way to fix everything myself!
[00:52] Subaru
    Isn't that good enough for you?!
[00:54] Minerva
    So you're just going to
    keep dying, starting over,
[00:58] Minerva
    and making everyone cry? Really?
[01:01] Minerva
    Must be nice to be you.
[01:02] Minerva
    No matter how everyone else feels,
[01:04] Minerva
    you can always make the excuse
    that you're suffering the most.
[01:08] Subaru
    Are you...
[01:09] Subaru
    Are you saying I'm just pretending
    to be some tragic hero?!
[01:11] Minerva
    No, I'm not.
[01:13] Minerva
    I'm saying that deciding you're the only
    one who needs to suffer is cowardly.
[01:17] Minerva
    That twisted thinking makes you
    way more vile than any witch.
[01:22] Minerva
    And above all...
[01:25] Minerva
    It's really ungrateful to her.
[01:31] Subaru
    Vile?
[01:34] Subaru
    Ungrateful?
[01:38] Subaru
    What the hell?!
[01:40] Subaru
    You're the one who made me like this!
[01:45] Subaru
    All the pain, all the suffering, all of it...
     everything... only happens to me!
[01:50] Subaru
    If I had done nothing,
    would anything be different?!
[01:53] Subaru
    Aren't I stuck with a horrible future anyway?!
[01:55] Subaru
    Who else but me would have done
    all the things I've done?!
[02:00] Satella
    ...urt.
[02:02] Satella
    Don't be hurt.
[02:04] Satella
    Don't suffer.
[02:05] Satella
    Don't look sad.
[02:08] Subaru
    You have... the nerve to...
[02:11] Satella
    So... love...
[02:14] Subaru
    So that's what it all comes down to?
[02:17] Subaru
    You're that desperate for me to love you?!
[02:20] Satella
    No.
[02:21] Satella
    Love yourself more.
[02:25] Subaru
    Wh—
[02:26] Subaru
    What the hell did you just say?
[02:29] Satella
    Don't be hurt. Don't grieve.
[02:32] Satella
    Treasure yourself more.
[02:34] Subaru
    You're the one who gave me the
    ability to Return by Death!
[02:39] Satella
    I love you.
[02:41] Satella
    So I want you to love yourself,
    and protect yourself.
[02:44] Subaru
    If I lost this ability out of love for myself,
[02:48] Subaru
    what would I even have left?!
[02:50] Subaru
    There's nothing I can use but my own life!
[02:53] Subaru
    As long as I get hurt more than
    anyone else, so I can protect them,
[02:57] Subaru
    no one else will ever have to suffer at all!
[03:01] Subaru
    It's not like anyone cares what
    happens to a loser like me, right?!
[03:05] Subaru
    No matter how bad I get beaten up,
[03:08] Subaru
    as long as everyone else
    makes it to the future...
[03:11] Subaru
    As long as we can start tomorrow
    without losing anyone... then...
[03:20] Subaru
    Rem is gone.
[03:23] Subaru
    If I had been stronger...
[03:26] Subaru
    If I had put myself on the front lines
[03:28] Subaru
    without worrying about what
     might happen to me...
[03:32] Subaru
    I could've prevented it.
[03:37] Subaru
    I don't want...
[03:39] Subaru
    to lose anyone else the way I lost Rem!
[03:51] Sekhmet
    You're not a child.
[03:53] Sekhmet
    Look at you... crying, wailing, trying to
     handle everything on your own.
[03:58] Sekhmet
    You're acting just like
[04:01] Sekhmet
    a lonely little child.
[04:06] Typhon
    Baru, you're crying?
[04:10] Typhon
    Look how much someone made
    you cry. You poor thing.
[04:15] Typhon
    So who...
[04:17] Typhon
    made you cry?
[04:28] Satella
    I love you.
[04:32] Subaru
    Stop it...
[04:35] Satella
    It's because you gave me everything.
[04:39] Satella
    That's why I...
[04:41] Subaru
    Stop it!
[04:46] Typhon
    Baru?
[04:51] Echidna
    Ah, that is indeed one option, Natsuki Subaru.
[05:00] Minerva
    His tongue...
[05:02] Minerva
    You complete moron!
[05:07] Minerva
    This'll be a piece of cake!
[05:10] Minerva
    Stay out of the way, Typhon!
[05:12] Typhon
    Baru made his own choice!
[05:14] Tyhpon
    You stay out of the way, Nerva!
[05:16] Minerva
    I will not allow self-harm, suicide,
    or murder to happen in my presence!
[05:22] Minerva
    Sekhmet...
[05:24] Sekhmet
    Emotionally, I'm on the boy's side, too.
[05:29] Sekhmet
    And... I'm on Typhon's side, too.
[05:42] Satella
    Why haven't you realized
[05:45] Satella
    that you should be included among
    the ones you wish to save?
[05:51] Satella
    It should be so obvious...
[05:59] Satella
    What could you have possibly
    seen in those two trials?
[06:08] Kenichi
    I'm expecting the best from you, son.
[06:10] Nahoko
    Take care.
[06:11] Subaru
    I...
[06:12] Julius
    I wanted to call you a friend.
[06:16] Wilhelm
    Why? Why?!
[06:19] Wilhelm
    Why did you die so easily?
[06:20] Wilhelm
    Subaru-dono, you are...
[06:22] Subaru
    No matter what I believe...
[06:22] Beatrice
    I knew you couldn't be "that person."
[06:26] Subaru
    No matter what I wish for, I...
[06:30] Rem
    Show me how awesome you can be, Subaru-kun.
[06:36] Emilia
    Thank you, Subaru.
[06:38] Emilia
    For saving me.
[06:43] Subaru
    I don't want to die.
[06:45] Minerva
    See?! That's how you really feel!
[07:11] ---
    Is there...
[07:13] Subaru
    any value in my life?
[07:17] Subaru
    What can I do except die and repeat everything?
[07:31] Subaru
    Can I really believe...
    that the people I like...
[07:41] Subaru
    also... like me?
[07:46] Satella
    I allow it.
[07:51] Satella
    You are the one who saved me,
[07:54] Satella
    so I will allow you to be saved, too.
[07:59] Satella
    It is my wish for you
[08:02] Satella
    to be saved.
[08:17] Echidna
    Minerva aside,
[08:19] Echidna
    I'm more surprised by the
    way you two just acted.
[08:25] Typhon
    Stay out of this, Daph!
[08:28] Daphne
    You know, Subarun made some
    pretty big boasts to me.
[08:32] Daphne
    So I'd love to see him at least
    try to follow through on them.
[08:37] Echidna
    That's an intriguing thought.
[08:40] Echidna
    And you were the one who called him back
    from the brink of death, weren't you,
[08:44] Echidna
    Carmilla?
[08:46] Echidna
    You even used Faceless Bride. Whatever for?
[08:51] Carmilla
    No... reason...
[08:53] Carmilla
    I just... think... l-love is important.
[08:58] Carmilla
    Even if he doesn't want to see it,
[09:01] Carmilla
    there is love there...
[09:03] Carmilla
    And I...
[09:06] Carmilla
    I can't stand to see it taken and not returned.
[09:13] Echidna
    Sekhmet and Typhon respected his wishes,
[09:16] Echidna
    and Minerva healed him.
[09:19] Echidna
    Daphne helped prolong his life,
[09:21] Echidna
    and Carmilla used her Authority to make
    him aware of the love he didn't see.
[09:26] Echidna
    So while each of you may have your own reasons,
[09:29] Echidna
    you all wish to help Natsuki Subaru.
[09:36] Echidna
    This truly is interesting.
[09:38] Echidna
    Don't you agree?
[09:41] Subaru
    Seriously... what is the deal with all of you?
[09:48] Subaru
    I can't understand or agree with almost
    any of your reasons for backing me.
[09:52] Subaru
    No wonder they call you witches.
[09:54] Echidna
    Since you're back to vilifying us,
[09:56] Echidna
    shall I assume you've recovered your strength?
[09:59] Subaru
    I don't even know what to do anymore.
[10:03] Echidna
    Then let me ask you this, Natsuki Subaru.
[10:08] Echidna
    If I lend you my assistance,
[10:11] Echidna
    you can be assured that you will arrive at a
    future in which you save those you want to save.
[10:16] Echidna
    If you don't know what you should do,
[10:19] Echidna
    would you extend your hand to me?
[10:23] Echidna
    I will take you to the future
    you desire, without fail.
[10:28] Echidna
    You have my word.
[10:35] Subaru
    Echidna... I'm afraid of getting hurt.
[10:41] Subaru
    I hate hurting, suffering, and being sad.
[10:45] Subaru
    I don't want to feel pain,
[10:47] Subaru
    and I don't want to see terrible
    things happen to anyone else.
[10:53] Subaru
    I don't want to die.
[10:55] Subaru
    So, since sacrifice is a prerequisite
    to taking your hand...
[11:00] Subaru
    I can't take it again.
[11:05] Subaru
    If I might have any value to
    them beyond my own death,
[11:09] Subaru
    I'm going to look for it.
[11:12] Subaru
    If I can find it, I have a feeling
[11:14] Subaru
    I can repay them in some way other than death.
[11:18] Echidna
    That path is lined with thorns.
[11:21] Echidna
    If you thought of your death as a tool,
[11:23] Echidna
    your heart would be all you needed to offer.
[11:27] Echidna
    But to deny that and try to claim both
    your own heart and other people's futures
[11:31] Echidna
    would be exceedingly difficult, and above all...
[11:40] Echidna
    greedy.
[11:44] Subaru
    It's true that you've saved
    me time and time again.
[11:50] Subaru
    No matter what you had
    in mind, that part is true.
[11:58] Echidna
    That poor, stupid Garfiel
    fears the outside world.
[12:02] Echidna
    To free him from his circumstances,
    you'd have to break that spell.
[12:07] Subaru
    Echidna?
[12:08] Echidna
    Oh, I'm just being a sore, meddling loser.
[12:12] Echidna
    I don't want you thinking all the
    other witches were good at heart,
[12:15] Echidna
    but only Echidna was evil to the very end.
[12:20] Echidna
    It's still true that I am a girl,
    and that I'm fond of you, after all.
[12:30] Subaru
    You're all monsters beyond my comprehension.
[12:34] Subaru
    We'll never understand each other,
    and I doubt I could ever like you.
[12:38] Subaru
    But...
[12:41] Subaru
    Thanks for being willing to let me die.
[12:44] Subaru
    Thanks for not letting me die.
[12:48] Subaru
    Thanks for letting me hear those
    precious voices I needed to hear.
[12:53] Subaru
    I do thank you for that.
[13:01] Subaru
    I don't understand you.
[13:05] Subaru
    But it's a fact that the Return by Death
    power you gave me has saved me many times.
[13:10] Subaru
    Is Return by Death one of the
    options available to me?
[13:15] Subaru
    If not relying on it too much is
    what it takes to love myself...
[13:22] Subaru
    I can't say that'll be easy.
[13:26] Subaru
    But I'll try to like myself a
    little more, like you said.
[13:32] Satella
    You'll be all right?
[13:34] Subaru
    Yeah.
[13:35] Subaru
    Compared to dying, it's nothing.
[13:44] Satella
    Don't fret all alone.
[13:47] Satella
    Fight alongside the people
    who care about you.
[13:53] Satella
    Don't forget that there are
    people who grieve when you die.
[13:59] Subaru
    I...
[14:06] Satella
    And one day,
[14:10] Satella
    you must come...
[14:16] Satella
    to kill me.
[14:23] Subaru
    I swear...
[14:25] Subaru
    I'm going to save you.
SIGN    The Sounds That Make You Want to Cry
SIGN    The Sounds That Make You Want to Cry
[14:37] Subaru
    It's you...
[14:41] Otto
    You're awake?
[14:43] Subaru
    Otto?
[14:44] Subaru
    This is...
[14:46] Subaru
    I'd normally be inside.
[14:49] Subaru
    Did you carry me out?
[14:51] Otto
    Patrasche did.
[14:53] Otto
    She started thrashing around,
[14:55] Otto
    and the moment I released
    her from the carriage...
[14:59] Subaru
    Wait...
[15:00] Subaru
    Anyone who enters the graveyard without
    the qualification is rejected.
[15:05] Subaru
    Why would you try a crazy thing like that?
[15:07] Subaru
    I would've come outside as soon as I woke up.
[15:11] Subaru
    Why'd you save me?
[15:14] Otto
    You really don't know why?
[15:22] Otto
    Of course. Yeah, you're right.
[15:26] Subaru
    What? What did Patrasche say?
[15:29] Otto
    She said, "Don't make me say why."
[15:32] Otto
    You really don't know?
[15:37] Otto
    Now, listen...
[15:39] Otto
    Leaping to save someone when
    you think they're in danger,
[15:42] Otto
    saving them regardless of the risk to yourself,
[15:44] Otto
    and smiling when they wake up...
[15:46] Otto
    I believe the feelings behind that are the same,
[15:48] ---
    whether you're a human or a ground dragon.
[15:53] Otto
    You're beyond dense. It must be nice to be you.
[16:03] Otto
    N-Natsuki-san?
[16:04] Subaru
    No, no... It's not what you think...
[16:07] Subaru
    It's just... the timing...
[16:12] Subaru
    I see. You actually like me, huh?
[16:18] Subaru
    Never thought you'd be the
    first one I learned that from.
[16:22] Subaru
    Thanks, Patrasche.
[16:33] Otto
    Are you all right? What happened?
[16:36] Subaru
    Were you worried? Wait, do you like me, too?
[16:39] Otto
    Could you not say such gross things?!
[16:42] Otto
    I'm only thinking of what comes next!
[16:44] Subaru
    Yeah, I know. We're friends, after all.
[16:49] Otto
    Natsuki-san?
[16:50] Subaru
    Does this mean I passed the second trial?
[17:04] Otto
    Hey!
[17:05] Subaru
    Damn it... What was...
[17:09] Subaru
    It rejected me?
[17:12] Subaru
    Did I lose my qualification? Why?
[17:18] Subaru
    That nasty little...
[17:19] Otto
    What happened? Is there anything I can—
[17:22] Subaru
    There's something I need to do.
[17:24] Subaru
    Take Patrasche back to the carriage.
[17:26] Otto
    But—
[17:26] Subaru
    Please.
[17:43] Roswaal
    A way to leave the Sanctuary without
    going through the graveyard?
[17:47] Roswaal
    That is quite the bold suggestion.
[17:50] Roswaal
    I do believe this might not be the first time.
[17:56] Subaru
    It's the first time we've discussed this.
[17:59] Subaru
    It'd be pointless to even try to count
[18:01] ---
    how many times we've
    interrogated each other now.
[18:05] Roswaal
    It would seem you have
    quite the history with me.
[18:09] Subaru
    I've learned a lot of other stuff, too.
[18:12] Subaru
    Like about the facility Ryuzu-san is in,
[18:14] Subaru
    and that Garfiel is the Apostle of Greed.
[18:17] Roswaal
    Well, that is splendid indeed!
[18:20] Roswaal
    But to forego the graveyard
    seems awfully cowardly.
[18:25] Roswaal
    Do you have a reason for such haste?
[18:27] Subaru
    Of course not.
[18:29] Subaru
    I just...
[18:31] Subaru
    can't bear to watch Emilia keep
    going in there and getting hurt.
[18:35] Roswaal
    That is precisely what you are for.
[18:38] Roswaal
    Surely you don't mean to say it would
    pain you to undergo it for her?
[18:42] Subaru
    That's—
[18:43] Roswaal
    Not the case? Truly?
[18:46] Roswaal
    If you truly love Emilia-sama,
    it should be a simple task for you.
[18:50] Roswaal
    Emilia-sama should come first,
     and yourself after.
[18:53] Roswaal
    Am I wrong?
[18:54] Subaru
    I...
[18:55] Satella
    Don't forget that there are
    people who grieve when you die.
[19:05] Roswaal
    I see you still have not
    sharpened your resolve enough.
[19:13] Roswaal
    Just a little... Yes, I had
    just a little bit of hope.
[19:19] Roswaal
    That maybe, just maybe,
[19:21] Roswaal
    I could see the future I desired...
[19:26] Roswaal
    But you have yet to even stand at
    the starting line of your resolve.
[19:31] Subaru
    The starting line... of my resolve?
[19:34] Subaru
    I don't know what that means!
    What do you think I—
[19:36] Roswaal
    I expect you to possess
[19:37] Roswaal
    the will to carry out your objective,
[19:40] Roswaal
    even if it means trampling
    on Emilia-sama's will.
[19:43] Roswaal
    Understand?
[19:44] Roswaal
    If you truly do it all for Emilia-sama's sake,
[19:48] Roswaal
    then you must ignore what Emilia-sama wants.
[19:52] Roswaal
    A child who dreams of a childish paradise
[19:54] Roswaal
    is not capable of the resolve necessary
    to walk through the hell you must choose.
[19:58] Subaru
    That's totally backwards, isn't it?!
[20:00] Subaru
    If it's for Emilia—
[20:02] Roswaal
    There is life.
[20:04] Roswaal
    So long as there is life, there is a future.
[20:07] Roswaal
    So long as there is a future, there is hope.
[20:09] Roswaal
    So long as there is hope,
    there is possibility.
[20:12] Roswaal
    So long as there is possibility,
    people can be saved.
[20:15] Roswaal
    Am I wrong?
[20:23] Roswaal
    Nothing to say in response, I see.
[20:26] Roswaal
    How many more times must you disappoint me?
[20:31] Roswaal
    In that case, while you work
    on sharpening your resolve,
[20:35] Roswaal
    let me press you on one more matter.
[20:40] Roswaal
    I believe you have already faced many of the
    problems that arise within this Sanctuary,
[20:45] Roswaal
    but those problems are not
    limited to the Sanctuary alone.
[20:49] Subaru
    You mean the mansion? You know about—
[20:52] Roswaal
    Of course.
[20:58] Roswaal
    The order to have assassins
    attack the mansion...
[21:03] Roswaal
    came from me personally, after all.
[21:16] Subaru
    Wait... Wait. Hang on a second.
[21:21] Subaru
    It was you?
[21:23] Roswaal
    I sent assassins to the mansion
[21:25] Roswaal
    to help sharpen your resolve.
[21:28] Subaru
    My resolve?
[21:29] Roswaal
    Even with your Authority,
    you cannot save both.
[21:34] Roswaal
    You must decide which is more important to you.
[21:38] Roswaal
    Once you make that choice,
    you can never take it back.
[21:41] Roswaal
    Eventually, you will be perfected...
[21:43] Roswaal
    as a being who can only save one and no others.
[21:51] Subaru
    You're seriously insane.
[21:53] Roswaal
    Yes, indeed. I've been insane for a long time.
[21:57] Roswaal
    Ever since the moment I was enchanted
    by those eyes 400 years ago,
[22:00] Roswaal
    I have been insane.
[22:04] Subaru
    Four hundred years ago?
[22:06] Roswaal
    Natsuki Subaru-kun, why aren't you insane yet?
[22:11] Roswaal
    To overcome circumstances that
    one must be insane to face,
[22:14] Roswaal
    to walk the path of isolation,
[22:16] Roswaal
    the human heart is only a hindrance.
[22:19] Roswaal
    So I will force it upon you.
[22:28] Roswaal
    What...
[22:30] Roswaal
    are you trying to do?
[22:34] Subaru
    Wait...
[22:36] Subaru
    Please. Please forgive me.
[22:39] Subaru
    It was... It was all my fault... so...
[22:42] Roswaal
    Raise your head, Subaru-kun.
[22:45] Roswaal
    Nothing is your faul—
[22:46] Subaru
    You're wrong!
[22:48] Subaru
    I want to do what you said, but I can't.
[22:50] Subaru
    I lost the qualification to undergo the trial.
[22:53] Roswaal
    What?
[22:54] Subaru
    Please! Setting assassins on
    the mansion won't do any good!
[22:58] Subaru
    No matter who dies, it won't...
[23:00] Subaru
    So please...
[23:04] Roswaal
    No, I refuse.
[23:06] Roswaal
    In fact, I now see an even
    greater need to do so.
[23:10] Roswaal
    If you truly wish it, Echidna will
    surely restore your qualification.
[23:15] Roswaal
    That's the nature of her greedy personality.
[23:18] Roswaal
    You can get the qualification back.
     You can fix this.
[23:22] Roswaal
    Therefore, my actions will not change.
[23:25] Roswaal
    I will continue to corner you,
    to sharpen your resolve...
[23:29] Roswaal
    until you are perfected.
[23:33] Roswaal
    Don't get conceited, Natsuki Subaru.
[23:35] Roswaal
    You're not the only one who understands Echidna!
[23:41] Subaru
    If... If you hate me, then make
     me the only one you...
[23:45] Roswaal
    Hate you?
[23:50] Roswaal
    I could never hate you.
[23:53] Roswaal
    You are my hope.
[23:56] Roswaal
    The only ones who allow me
    to feel any kind of hope
[23:59] Roswaal
    are you and Ram.
[24:02] Roswaal
    From the bottom of my heart,
[24:04] Roswaal
    I believe in you.
[24:16] Subaru
    I will...
[24:19] Subaru
    I will... never be like you.
[24:24] Subaru
    I'm human.
[24:27] Subaru
    I'll always... be human.
[24:45] Subaru
    Damn it! Damn it!
[24:59] Subaru
    What am I supposed to do?
[25:02] Subaru
    What do I do?
[25:05] Subaru
    What do I do? What do I do?
[25:07] Subaru
    What do I do? What do I do?
[25:09] Subaru
    What do I do? What do I do? What do I do?
[25:11] Subaru
    What do I do? What do I do? What do I do?
[25:14] Subaru
    What do I do?! What do I do?! What do I do?!
[25:15] Otto
    Would you like me to tell
    you what you should do?
[25:25] Subaru
    Otto?
[25:27] Otto
    Yes, hello.
[25:29] Otto
    And good morning.
[25:31] Otto
    That's right. It's me.
[25:33] Subaru
    Mor...
[25:38] Subaru
    What are you doing here?
[25:39] Otto
    Let's put that aside for the moment.
[25:42] Otto
    We need to talk about you first.
[25:44] Otto
    You were deliriously muttering to yourself,
    with a face like someone about to die.
[25:48] Subaru
    Delirious?
[25:49] Otto
    Yes.
[25:50] Subaru
    I see...
[25:54] Subaru
    You always seem to find me when
    I'm in the freakiest states.
[25:58] Otto
    I can't be a trader without my quick wit.
[26:01] Subaru
    Sorry, but I don't have time
    to crack jokes with you.
[26:04] Subaru
    I need to think, so right now—
[26:06] Otto
    You were at your wits' end, right?
[26:08] Otto
    And you want to know what you should do?
[26:10] Otto
    Just leave it to me.
[26:12] Subaru
    Leave what to you?
[26:14] Otto
    Now, listen. This will take preparation.
[26:17] Subaru
    Preparation?
[26:18] Otto
    Yes. First, take a long, deep breath.
[26:23] Subaru
    Huh?
[26:23] Otto
    Quickly, now.
[26:42] Otto
    Stop trying
[26:44] Otto
    to put on a tough front around your friends,
[26:46] Otto
    Natsuki Subaru!
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