E14 - The Sickness Called Despair

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[00:20] Subaru
    Haven't I made everything work out all right?!
[00:24] Subaru
    Without me, it would've been a lot worse.
[00:26] Subaru
    All of it was because I was there!
[00:30] Subaru
    You should have a greater debt to me
    than you could ever repay!
[00:42] Wilhelm
    Shall we stop for now?
[00:45] Emilia
    So I'll repay all of them now.
[00:48] Emilia
    And we'll end this.
[00:56] Felix
    I swear, Julius, your good
    nature is going to waste,
[00:59] Felix
    playing the villain for someone like him.
[01:02] Julius
    I haven't the slightest idea
    what you're talking about.
[01:06] Felix
    How could you get yourself punished,
    trying to protect a guy like that?
[01:09] ---
    It's foolish!
[01:10] Julius
    I only acted as I wished,
    true to my own nature.
[01:13] Julius
    Righteously, in my own way,
[01:16] Julius
    and without shame, as I wished.
[01:20] Felix
    Are you sure about this?
[01:22] ---
    Old Man Wil is busy preparing, too...
[01:25] Crusch
    It was a request from our guest.
[01:27] ---
    I cannot ignore it.
[01:29] Felix
    If they're just practicing,
    it's nyo big deal, but...
[01:32] Felix
    Frankly, it appears to me
    he's just making excuses.
[01:37] Crusch
    Excuses?
[01:38] Felix
    He wants to say, "I'm just
    fine. I'm working hard."
[01:44] Crusch
    Can you blame him?
[03:24] Reinhard
    Forgive me.
[03:26] Subaru
    Hang on...
[03:27] ---
    What do you have to apologize for?
[03:30] Subaru
    None of this was your fault!
[03:34] Reinhard
    No, I am a friend to you,
    as well as to Julius.
[03:38] Reinhard
    My own lack of virtue was
    responsible for my failure
[03:41] Reinhard
    to stop a disagreement between my two friends.
[03:44] Reinhard
    That duel had no meaning.
[03:48] Subaru
    No meaning?
[03:51] Reinhard
    No...
[03:52] ---
    What came of you two fighting there?
[03:55] Reinhard
    You were hurt,
[03:56] Reinhard
    and Julius tarnished his own career.
[04:00] Reinhard
    Why not try to have a calm,
    open discussion with him?
[04:04] Reinhard
    I'm sure that will clear up the misunder—
[04:06] Subaru
    Reinhard.
[04:08] Subaru
    I get how you feel, and I appreciate it.
[04:11] Subaru
    You really are a nice guy.
[04:13] Reinhard
    Then...
[04:14] Subaru
    But I can't accept that proposal!
[04:16] Subaru
    We're done talking.
[04:17] ---
    Go back now.
[04:19] Reinhard
    Subaru...
[04:21] Reinhard
    Why?
[04:22] ---
    What did you gain from that duel?
[04:24] Reinhard
    You've only suffered losses.
[04:27] Reinhard
    Even Emilia-sama—
[04:28] Subaru
    You'd better head back for today, Reinhard.
[04:30] Subaru
    Before your mistress gets lonely
    and starts yelling for you.
[04:40] Subaru
    Mind your own damn business.
[04:51] Wilhelm
    Shall we stop for now?
[05:03] Rem
    You must be tired after practice, Subaru-kun.
[05:10] Subaru
    Rem, you don't think I'm pathetic?
[05:14] Rem
    I do.
[05:16] Subaru
    You do? Seriously?
[05:18] Subaru
    Then why are you still here
    with a pathetic loser like me?
[05:22] Subaru
    Because you were told to?
[05:23] Rem
    The fact that I think you're pathetic
[05:25] Rem
    and my staying with you are not contradictory.
[05:28] Rem
    Besides, even if I had not been ordered to,
[05:31] Rem
    I'm certain I would have stayed.
[05:34] Subaru
    Why?
[05:36] Rem
    Because I want to.
[05:40] Rem
    Shall we go out tomorrow, Subaru-kun?
[05:44] Rem
    You haven't gone anywhere in the
    three days since we arrived.
[05:59] Kadomon
    Interested in the royal selection, too?
[06:01] Subaru
    Whoa! Don't sneak up on me with that face!
[06:04] Subaru
    Wait, where's Rem?
[06:11] Subaru
    Don't make someone without
    experience watch your shop.
[06:14] Kadomon
    Five candidates, huh?
[06:16] Kadomon
    If you ask me, letting a half-elf be
    one of them is pure insanity.
[06:21] Kadomon
    "Emilia," eh?
[06:23] Kadomon
    There's no way a relative of the
    witch could become our ruler.
[06:26] Kadomon
    They've gotta be crazy.
[06:29] Subaru
    Why does everyone say that?
[06:30] Subaru
    It doesn't mean she has anything
    to do with the witch!
[06:34] Kadomon
    Huh?
[06:36] Subaru
    Just because she's a half-elf,
    don't lump them together
[06:38] ---
    and brush her off!
[06:40] Kadomon
    H-Hey...
[06:41] Subaru
    That Emilia girl... I mean...
[06:45] Subaru
    She might really care about this
    kingdom's people, too!
[06:48] Kadomon
    Hang on, why are you getting so worked up?
[06:50] Subaru
    I...
[06:52] Emilia
    It was for you, wasn't it?
[06:55] Subaru
    Why is it...
[06:57] ---
    Because of the Jealous Witch?
[06:58] Subaru
    You think all half-elves are dangerous,
[07:01] ---
    just because the witch was one?!
[07:03] Kadomon
    That's right!
[07:05] Kadomon
    Everyone's scared of the witch.
[07:07] ---
    That's common knowledge.
[07:12] Kadomon
    As long as people see her that way,
[07:14] ---
    she can't win.
[07:17] Kadomon
    Jeez,
[07:19] ---
    who would actually choose to support her?
[07:26] Kadomon
    Try not to say the word "witch"
    too loudly in public.
[07:30] Kadomon
    You never know who's listening, or where.
[07:39] Subaru
    You didn't tell me
[07:43] ---
    everyone felt that way about you...
[07:46] Emilia
    I can't understand if you
    don't tell me, Subaru.
[07:49] Subaru
    I can't understand if you
    don't tell me, either.
[08:16] Crusch
    Natsuki Subaru, would you
    mind joining me for a bit?
[08:20] Subaru
    Crusch-san... Right?
[08:22] Crusch
    That's right.
[08:24] Crusch
    Oh, yes...
[08:25] ---
    This is the first time you've seen
    me out of business attire.
[08:30] Crusch
    The breeze is pleasantly cool tonight.
[08:32] Crusch
    Perfect conditions for sharing a drink,
[08:35] ---
    as we gaze upon the night sky.
[08:40] Subaru
    But I can't drink alcohol.
[08:42] Crusch
    You're welcome to drink water.
[08:45] Crusch
    I won't be drinking enough to get drunk.
[08:59] Crusch
    How goes the healing of your gate?
[09:03] Subaru
    H-Hey!
[09:05] Subaru
    Oh...
[09:07] ---
    Oh... Well, it goes, I guess...
[09:10] Crusch
    I see.
[09:10] ---
    Well, Felis is excellent with healing magic.
[09:14] Crusch
    You can trust him.
[09:19] Subaru
    You always seem busy, too.
[09:22] Crusch
    In response to a certain occurrence,
[09:23] Crusch
    my family is currently gathering
    people and objects.
[09:28] Crusch
    Plus, since word of the
    royal selection spread,
[09:31] Crusch
    I've received proposals every day.
[09:33] Crusch
    I'm sure the other candidates have, as well.
[09:35] Subaru
    P-Proposals?!
[09:36] ---
    You mean, as in marriage?
[09:39] Subaru
    Oh, yeah.
[09:40] ---
    I guess they're all single...
[09:43] Crusch
    Does that bother you?
[09:44] Subaru
    Not really. It's just...
[09:47] Subaru
    Oh, right!
[09:48] ---
    Wilhelm-san said he had a beautiful wife.
[09:53] Crusch
    Are you aware that Wilhelm serves me?
[09:58] Subaru
    Huh? Why?
[10:02] Felix
    What are nyou doing here, Subaru-kyun?
[10:05] Felix
    And Crusch-sama!
[10:06] ---
    Why are you dressed so vulnerably?!
[10:08] Crusch
    Is it strange?
[10:10] ---
    It's no different than what
    I wear to dine with you.
[10:12] Felix
    That's exactly the problem!
[10:15] Felix
    Men are nyothing but wolves!
[10:18] Subaru
    You're a man, too.
[10:20] Crusch
    That's enough joking, Felis.
[10:22] Crusch
    All who were present at the royal selection
[10:25] ---
    know whom Subaru loves.
[10:28] Felix
    Yeah. I heard they had a fight, though.
[10:31] Felix
    I swear, Subaru-kyun, you're so easy to read!
[10:36] Crusch
    Don't cast your gaze down, Natsuki Subaru.
[10:39] ---
    Huh?
[10:40] Crusch
    When your eyes are clouded, your soul darkens.
[10:42] Crusch
    That means your future is closed to you,
[10:45] Crusch
    and you lose sight of your reasons to live.
[10:47] Crusch
    When you do what you know to be right,
[10:50] ---
    what can you do by looking downward?
[10:53] Crusch
    Lift your head, face forward,
[10:55] ---
    and reach out your hands.
[10:57] Crusch
    I do not want to regard you
    as an insignificant enemy.
[11:02] Felix
    If Crusch-sama says so,
[11:04] ---
    you have nyo choice.
[11:06] Felix
    The point is, Subaru-kyun, you need to
    hurry and make up with Emilia-sama.
[11:11] Felix
    Think about what you can do
[11:13] Felix
    to accomplish that, and do it.
[11:18] Subaru
    What I can do?
[11:27] Subaru
    There is something I can do.
[11:33] Subaru
    Something that only I can do.
[11:37] Subaru
    Yeah, that's right...
[11:38] ---
    You don't even have to tell me.
[11:45] Crusch
    The wind is picking up.
[11:48] Crusch
    It looks as if the weather will
    be rough again tomorrow.
[11:58] Wilhelm
    Shall we stop for now?
[12:00] Subaru
    Don't be silly...
[12:02] Subaru
    You've seen how far I've come in taking blows!
[12:05] Wilhelm
    Your attitude seems quite
    different this morning.
[12:09] Subaru
    Last night, Crusch-san gave
    me some good advice.
[12:14] Subaru
    If I just get a chance, I can make
    any problem disappear!
[12:20] Wilhelm
    Then, let us call it a day.
[12:24] Subaru
    Huh?
[12:25] Wilhelm
    Well, I think teaching swordsmanship,
    which will make a man stronger,
[12:29] Wilhelm
    to one who has abandoned the option
    to get stronger seems meaningless.
[12:36] Subaru
    What do you...
[12:38] Rem
    Subaru-kun!
[12:41] Rem
    We must discuss something important.
[12:46] Crusch
    Has Rem told you what's going on?
[12:48] Rem
    What I felt was...
[12:50] ---
    Something like a presence,
    through the sense I share with my sister.
[12:54] Rem
    My sister could have used
[12:55] ---
    her clairvoyance to get a
    clearer picture, but I...
[12:58] Felix
    So I guess you picked up a nyasty sort
    of synesthesia from her, huh?
[13:02] Crusch
    We don't know the details, either.
[13:05] Crusch
    But it came from the Mathers domain,
[13:06] Crusch
    which you know as Margrave
    Roswaal's territory.
[13:09] Crusch
    Evidently, some troubling movement was
    seen in the vicinity of his mansion.
[13:14] Crusch
    Parts of the domain are already on high alert.
[13:17] Subaru
    Troubling movement?
[13:19] Crusch
    We did foresee this situation.
[13:22] Crusch
    From the moment the margrave declared
    his intention to back Emilia, a half-elf.
[13:28] Subaru
    You mean there's trouble happening
    because of that prejudice?
[13:31] Crusch
    That is likely a correct summation.
[13:36] Subaru
    The moment I leave her side, this happens?
[13:40] Subaru
    Everyone around her is an enemy.
[13:42] Subaru
    The only one who can take her side...
[13:47] Subaru
    is me.
[13:49] Subaru
    Well, then...
[13:51] Subaru
    We have to go and help, right?
[13:54] Rem
    Y-You mustn't, Subaru-kun.
[13:56] Rem
    You have to obey Emilia-sama's orders.
[13:58] Rem
    She told you to focus on healing!
[14:01] Rem
    And I agree!
[14:02] Rem
    Healing must take priority now.
[14:05] Subaru
    Rem, we're the only ones
[14:09] ---
    who can take Emilia's side!
[14:13] Subaru
    You heard that, Crusch-san.
[14:16] Subaru
    We're going back to the mansion,
    back to where Emilia is.
[14:19] Subaru
    Until it's taken care of, my healing will—
[14:21] Crusch
    Natsuki Subaru.
[14:23] Crusch
    If you leave here,
[14:25] ---
    that will make you my enemy.
[14:28] Crusch
    Allow me to correct one idea you have.
[14:31] Crusch
    I have only allowed you to stay here
    as a guest, receiving treatment,
[14:35] Crusch
    because I am contracted to do so.
[14:37] Subaru
    Contracted?
[14:38] Crusch
    Emilia and I formed a contract
[14:41] ---
    regarding your treatment.
[14:44] Crusch
    However,
[14:45] ---
    if you abandon that contract yourself,
[14:47] Crusch
    I am not obligated to continue protecting you.
[14:50] Crusch
    The moment you leave this household,
[14:52] Crusch
    Emilia and I will not hesitate
    to become enemies.
[14:56] Subaru
    I was wrong about you.
[14:59] Subaru
    I thought, just maybe,
    you and I could get along.
[15:03] Subaru
    Yeah, of course... That was just a
    little joke over drinks, right?
[15:07] Subaru
    I was stupid to take you seriously
[15:09] ---
    when you told me,
    an enemy, to do what I could.
[15:12] Subaru
    You don't want me to leave
    because getting Emilia
[15:14] Subaru
    out of trouble will be bad for you, right?
[15:17] Felix
    Nyow I think you have it all wrong—
[15:19] Crusch
    Felis, enough.
[15:20] Felix
    No, I will say it.
[15:21] Felix
    The mistake he's making is a bit too grave.
[15:25] Felix
    Even if you leave, nothing will change.
[15:28] Felix
    You'd be wasting your time.
[15:29] Felix
    After making a fool of yourself at the castle
[15:32] Felix
    and being clobbered by Julius,
    nyou still don't realize that?
[15:35] Felix
    If you stay to finish your treatment,
    you'll be much better off.
[15:41] Subaru
    I've decided. I'm going back to Emilia.
[15:45] Suabru
    Though it wasn't for long,
    thanks for taking care of me.
[15:47] Felix
    Is it nyot true that a good man
[15:49] ---
    knows how to take a warning?
[15:51] Subaru
    It's thanks to your warning that
    I've made up my mind.
[15:55] Subaru
    Thank you.
[16:00] Subaru
    Rem, how long until we reach the mansion?
[16:02] Rem
    About two and a half days, I think.
[16:04] Subaru
    Over two days?
[16:06] ---
    It took less than half a day to get here!
[16:08] Rem
    We cannot go that way.
[16:09] ---
    There is a fog over the road,
[16:11] Rem
    so we need to take a detour.
[16:12] Subaru
    Who cares about fog?
[16:14] Rem
    The fog is created by the White Whale.
[16:16] Rem
    Should we encounter it,
[16:18] ---
    we would not survive.
[16:27] Rem
    Thank you for lending us your
    dragon-drawn carriage.
[16:31] Rem
    In my master's stead, I offer my gratitude for
[16:33] ---
    the favor you have shown us till today.
[16:36] Wilhelm
    It's nothing. Please take care.
[16:42] Subaru
    Are you getting anything from Ram?
[16:45] Rem
    No, our shared sense is consciously
    controlled, to an extent.
[16:49] Rem
    This morning, I think
[16:50] ---
    that what I sensed was something
    that exceeded my sister's control.
[16:55] Subaru
    So Ram didn't even mean
    to let us know about it...
[17:02] Subaru
    Is she trying to keep
    us from getting involved?
[17:06] Subaru
    But why?
[17:08] ---
    She needs me by her side...
[17:12] Subaru
    I can save her.
[17:14] Subaru
    Once I do, I'm sure she'll understand.
[17:17] Subaru
    She has to.
[17:34] Subaru
    Why are we stopping?
[17:35] ---
    We have to hurry.
[17:36] Rem
    I'm sorry, Subaru-kun.
[17:38] ---
    The ground dragon cannot go any farther.
[17:51] Subaru
    I can't sleep.
[17:55] Rem
    Subaru-kun, are you awake?
[17:57] Subaru
    Yeah.
[18:07] Rem
    I cannot sleep,
[18:08] ---
    so I hoped we could talk.
[18:10] Subaru
    Oh... You, too?
[18:13] Subaru
    Can't help that, I guess.
[18:21] Subaru
    You're really worried about the mansion
[18:23] Subaru
    after what you felt through your shared sense?
[18:28] Subaru
    It'll be fine.
[18:30] Subaru
    We're not the sort of lovable little kids
    to get our feelings hurt so easily.
[18:33] Subaru
    We'll get right back, and I'll fix things.
[18:39] Rem
    Yes, I have put all my faith
    in you, Subaru-kun.
[18:54] Subaru
    R-Rem-san, um,
[18:57] ---
    why are you holding on to me?
[19:00] Rem
    Because I want to.
[19:07] Subaru
    I... I know this feeling...
[19:11] Rem
    I am healing your gate,
[19:12] ---
    just as Felix-sama did, Subaru-kun.
[19:15] Subaru
    O-Oh, healing!
[19:17] ---
    You're healing me... Of course you are.
[19:22] Subaru
    Because you want to, huh?
[19:27] Subaru
    She'll probably be angry with
    me at first, won't she?
[19:32] Rem
    If you take the time to properly face her
[19:36] Rem
    and communicate how you feel with words,
[19:39] Rem
    I'm sure she will understand.
[19:41] Rem
    You are a wonderful person, after all.
[19:45] Subaru
    I am?
[19:47] ---
    Yeah... I am, right?
[19:50] Subaru
    Emilia is hopeless without me.
[19:55] Subaru
    Because I
[19:57] ---
    care about her... so much...
[20:06] Rem
    So save just a tiny bit of that for me, too.
[20:14] Rem
    Don't go anywhere. Okay, Subaru-kun?
[20:25] Subaru
    Rem, wake up! We oversle—
[20:33] Guy
    Well, now! Good morni—
[20:35] Subaru
    Where's the blue-haired girl
    who was here with me?!
[20:38] Guy
    Th-The lady you were with, u-uh—
[20:41] Subaru
    I can't hear you!
[20:41] Guy
    I was saying that she left during the night.
[20:45] Guy
    Here are your things...
[20:53] Subaru
    What the hell?
[20:54] ---
    What are you thinking, Rem?
[20:57] Subaru
    I thought that you would understand me...
[21:07] Rem
    "Dear Subaru-kun.
[21:09] Rem
    When you read this letter,
[21:12] Rem
    I'm sure you will be very angry with me.
[21:16] Rem
    I shall not ask
[21:18] ---
    for your forgiveness for leaving you
    to go to the mansion.
[21:20] Guy
    The one in there might agree to your offer.
[21:22] Rem
    But please understand.
[21:25] Rem
    Bringing you to the mansion right
    now would be very dangerous.
[21:30] Subaru
    Are you the one called Otto?
[21:34] Rem
    So please wait here for me to return."
[21:34] Rem
    I'll accept your payment, but I think
    this is very reckless, Natsuki-san!
[21:43] Subaru
    So you think I'm a useless
    good-for-nothing, too, Rem?
[21:49] Otto
    I think I've just been introduced to
    someone who could be real trouble.
[21:55] Subaru
    Okay, fine. If you won't trust me,
[21:58] Subaru
    then why should I depend on you?
[22:14] Otto
    I'm sorry, but can we please turn back now?
[22:18] Subaru
    Huh? After coming this far?
[22:20] Otto
    My ground dragon is frightened.
[22:23] Otto
    It instinctively knows that this place
    is too dangerous to approach.
[22:28] Subaru
    Where are we now?
[22:31] Otto
    We're already in the Mathers domain,
[22:34] Otto
    near a village called Arlam.
[22:35] Subaru
    Got it!
[22:37] Otto
    Natsuki-san, you can't go out there!
    Let's turn back!
[22:41] Subaru
    This is far enough, Otto.
[22:44] Subaru
    You can take the money and all my stuff.
[22:46] Otto
    I can't do that.
[22:47] Otto
    Please rethink this!
[22:49] Otto
    Natsuki-san!
[22:57] Subaru
    What is this?
[23:01] Subaru
    It's too quiet...
[23:26] Subaru
    What was that?
[23:38] Subaru
    Damn it!
[23:50] Subaru
    I'm back...
[24:59] ---
    Rem...
[25:01] Subaru
    Rem... What happened to Rem?
[25:07] Subaru
    Right. Rem... Rem is...
[25:11] Subaru
    Rem... Rem... Rem... Rem...
[25:23] Rem
    "So please wait here for me to return.
[25:28] Rem
    When this is all taken care of,
[25:30] ---
    I shall return for you.
[25:32] Rem
    Please take care of yourself.
[25:35] Rem
    And please... I beg you to wait for my return.
[25:39] Rem
    Please.
[25:41] Rem
    From your
[25:45] Rem
    Rem."
SIGN    The Sickness Called Despair