E10 - Always Lost

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[00:07] Umiri
    What happened after that?
[00:10] Umiri
    To the band.
[00:13] Taki
    It's finished.
[00:19] Umiri
    I see.
[00:21] student A
    I'm worried about the next text.
[00:23] student A
    Oh! Morning's greetings!
[00:24] student B
    Morning's greetings.
[00:28] Mutsumi
    Morning's greetings.
[00:28] student C
    It's already almost summer vacation!
[00:30] Soyo
    We have finals before that, though.
[00:32] student D
    I bet they'll be easy
    for you, Soyo-chan.
[00:33] Soyo
    That's not true!
[00:35] student C
    Will you teach me?
[00:36] Soyo
    I don't know. Should I?
[00:38] student D
    The way you teach is really great, you know?
[00:41] Soyo
    Is it?
SIGN    #10 Always Lost
[00:46] Tomori; internal
    It all went wrong again.
[00:50] Tomori; internal
    All of it... All of it...
[00:55] Tomori; internal
    I hate sad things.
[00:58] Tomori; internal
    I hate suffering.
[01:01] Tomori; internal
    I should never have done it.
[01:02] Eri; background
    Kanako, does your hair
    smell different today?
[01:04] Mai; background
    The smell?
[01:05] Tomori; internal
    Everything...
[01:05] Kanako; background
    I used my older sister's shampoo!
[01:07] Eri; background
    I thought so! It's sort of—
[01:08] Tomori; internal
    Everything...
[01:09] Eri; background
    Oh, Tomori-chan! Morning!
[01:11] Kanako; Mai
    Morning!
[01:13] Tomori
    Morning.
[01:14] Tomori; internal
    The tears won't come...
[01:15] Tomori; internal
    The edges of my eyes sting and hurt.
[01:16] Anon; background
    You used it before
    and got yelled at, didn't you?
[01:18] Kanako; background
    I did.
[01:19] Tomori; internal
    What should I do?
[01:20] Anon; background
    But I'm jealous, you know?
SIGN    Aesop's Fables
[01:23] Tomori; internal
    I don't know how to express these things...
[01:27] Tomori; internal
    but I wanted to really talk
    about everything...
[01:30] Tomori; internal
    I wanted them to really hear me...
[01:34] Tomori; internal
    If I'd really...
[01:36] Tomori; internal
    been able to say everything...
[01:39] Tomori; internal
    It's all a mess.
[01:42] Tomori; internal
    Pill bug.
[01:45] Tomori; internal
    My ears are plugged up with so many words.
[01:49] Tomori; internal
    No.
[01:51] Tomori; internal
    The wailing clamor comes and goes...
[01:55] Tomori; internal
    then disappears.
[01:57] Tomori; internal
    This isn't right.
[01:59] Tomori; internal
    I just know I must have made
    a mistake somewhere.
[02:04] Tomori; internal
    That's how it always is.
[02:06] Tomori; internal
    Even though it's there,
    I can't touch it anymore.
[02:09] Tomori; internal
    Even though I could see it, it disappears.
[02:13] Tomori; internal
    Everything is gone.
[02:17] Tomori; internal
    Every last thing.
SIGN    Astronomy Club
[02:19] Tomori; internal
    Every last thing.
[02:22] Tomori; internal
    Because I couldn't say anything.
[02:25] Tomori; internal
    Once again...
[02:27] Tomori; internal
    I couldn't become human.
[02:30] Tomori; internal
    I wish I could go away,
[02:33] Tomori; internal
    but I'm always doing the wrong thing.
[02:35] Tomori; internal
    My mouth grows empty.
[02:38] Tomori; internal
    I thirst for words.
[02:42] Tomori; internal
    What should I do?
[02:52] Uika
    This won't recline. That
    was annoyingly loud, wasn't it?
[02:56] Tomori
    This seat...
[03:05] announcement
    We will now begin our screening.
[03:07] Uika
    Thank you. That was a huge help.
[03:07] announcement
    Please relax and enjoy
    the entire presentation.
[03:18] announcement
    That concludes today's programming.
[03:22] announcement
    There are stairs
    in the theater, so please...
[03:38] Uika
    That's dangerous!
[03:48] Uika
    Are you all right?
[03:51] Uika
    It looked to me like you were about to cry.
[04:06] Uika
    Even in the city,
    you can see the North Star.
[04:10] Uika
    I thought I wouldn't be able to
    see the stars in Tokyo,
[04:13] Uika
    so I was surprised
    the first time I spotted it.
[04:21] Tomori
    Ursa Major.
[04:24] Tomori
    Ursa Minor.
[04:27] Tomori
    Um...
[04:30] Uika
    This is like a song.
[04:36] Uika
    When you sing, it feels like
    it reaches people, right?
[04:38] Uika
    Even things you have a hard time saying...
[04:40] Uika
    more than words, the feeling gets through.
[04:58] Uika
    I hope your feelings get through.
[05:09] Tomori
    A song?
SIGN    Song Poem
[05:33] Tomori; internal
    This is a song.
[05:47] Tomori
    Perform live with me.
[05:51] Anon
    What will we do about Soyo-san?
[06:00] Ririko
    What? Perform live?
[06:02] Ririko
    Solo?
[06:03] Tomori
    Yes.
[06:05] Ririko
    This is super sudden.
[06:07] Ririko
    We might be able to do it at the beginning.
[06:10] Ririko
    Right here.
[06:11] Ririko
    Is it okay if it's a short slot?
[06:16] Ririko
    Okay. Wait just a minute, okay?
[06:20] Taki
    Tomori is?
[06:21] Ririko
    Taki-chan, she didn't tell you?
[06:24] Ririko
    I don't know what happened,
    and I'm not going to pry,
[06:27] Ririko
    but your big sis here is worried about you.
[06:31] Taki
    When is it?
SIGN    Regular Concert
SIGN    Performing
SIGN    Takamatsu Tomori
SIGN    Fuzzy Drops
[06:33] customer A
    Takamatsu? I wonder who that is?
[06:36] customer B
    Akari? How do you read that name?
[06:39] Rāna
    Stare.
[06:39] staff A
    Ririko-san!
[06:41] Ririko
    Yes?
[06:42] staff A
    What should we do with these?
[06:44] Ririko
    Oh, just leave them there.
[06:45] staff A
    Okay!
[06:46] Ririko
    Rāna-chan, don't eat that.
[06:48] staff B
    Ririko-san?
[06:49] Ririko
    Yes?
[06:50] Ririko
    Oh! You ate it!
[06:52] Rāna
    I didn't eat it.
[07:33] Tomori
    Everyone is gone and I don't have music,
[07:38] Tomori
    but this... is a song.
[07:46] Tomori
    I will sing a song.
[07:51] Tomori
    Once, there were people
    who pulled me by the hand...
[07:55] Tomori
    There were people who sang with me.
[07:59] Tomori
    I destroyed it all.
[08:01] Tomori
    I got lost...
[08:03] Tomori
    so lost.
[08:06] Tomori
    I took detours.
[08:08] Tomori
    Even so, there were people
    who helped me move forward.
[08:12] Tomori
    I let go of their hands.
[08:16] Tomori
    I didn't want to forget.
[08:18] Tomori
    I didn't want to lose anything.
[08:21] Tomori
    I gathered up the fragments
    still left inside me.
[08:26] Tomori
    They became a song...
[08:29] Tomori
    That's right. This is a song.
[08:43] Tomori
    I don't know... the right way to sing,
[08:48] Tomori
    but I want you to hear this song.
[08:51] Tomori
    I want you to sing this song.
[08:54] Tomori
    I want you here beside me again,
    you who are no longer here...
[08:58] Tomori
    you, who have changed...
[09:01] Tomori
    and left me behind.
[09:03] Tomori
    I want this song to reach
    you, so I'll scream it.
[09:07] Tomori
    Even if this voice grows hoarse and thin...
[09:12] Tomori
    until the moment this song reaches you...
[09:15] Tomori
    I'm determined to keep singing it.
[09:23] crowd
    That was amazing, wasn't it?
[09:25] crowd
    That was incredible.
[09:30] Rāna
    An interesting girl.
SIGN    Haneoka Girls' Academy
[09:38] classmate E
    I heard that Tomori-chan
    is performing live by herself.
[09:41] classmate F
    Huh? What about her band?
[09:42] classmate E
    Sometimes there's a girl on guitar.
[09:44] classmate G
    Really?
[09:45] classmate E
    It seems like everyone's talking about it!
[09:47] crowd A
    I've never heard anything like it before.
[09:49] crowd B
    The lyrics are different from before, right?
[09:52] crowd C
    And the guitar arrangements
    are different, too.
[09:54] crowd D
    These girls are interesting, right?
[09:56] classmate E
    Tomori-chan!
[09:57] classmate E
    We went and saw your performance yesterday!
[09:59] classmate G
    Your reading was amazing!
[10:01] classmate G
    I cried!
[10:03] classmate F
    When are you performing again?
[10:03] Mai
    Tomori-chan's become kind of
    a big deal, right?
[10:04] Tomori; background
    Um...
[10:05] classmate G; background
    Let's all go together!
[10:05] classmate E; background
    Who's going?
[10:07] Kanako
    Yeah, she has.
[10:07] classmates; background
    Me!
[10:08] Anon
    I guess she really
    doesn't need me after all.
[10:11] Taki
    Why is the stray cat playing with Tomori?
[10:13] Ririko
    Well, Rāna-chan loves interesting things.
[10:17] Ririko
    Taki-chan, aren't you
    going to play with them?
[10:18] Taki
    I...
[10:20] Rāna
    Play drums.
[10:21] Taki
    What? I'm in the middle of work.
[10:23] Ririko
    Oh, don't worry about that.
[10:24] Taki
    What?
[10:25] Taki
    Hey!
[10:26] Ririko
    Bye!
[10:26] Taki
    Don't pull me, stray cat!
[10:29] Taki
    I...
[10:31] Tomori
    The world is so far away for me.
[10:34] Tomori
    A solitary star just spins and spins.
[10:38] Tomori
    Even though I grew
    as much as I possibly could...
[10:40] Tomori
    I wasn't able to become human.
[10:43] Tomori
    Pools of spring sunlight...
[11:17] Tomori
    But I still have to sing this song.
[11:21] Tomori
    I didn't want to hurt anyone.
[11:23] Tomori
    I didn't want to let go of their hands.
[11:26] Tomori
    I'm sorry, my dear ones.
[11:29] Tomori
    The things I want to convey
    to you always get stuck in my throat...
[11:33] Tomori
    and never become voiced.
[11:36] Tomori
    At the very least, I want to leave this...
[11:38] Tomori
    this song!
[11:47] Taki
    I thought that I was thinking of you,
    Tomori, but I wasn't really thinking at all.
[11:53] Taki
    I'm sorry for bringing
    in Umiri without asking.
[11:56] Taki
    You said you hate bands,
    but you performed anyways.
[11:59] Taki
    I couldn't understand what you
    were thinking at all.
[12:03] Taki
    But...
[12:06] Taki
    after hearing your song, I do understand.
[12:14] Tomori
    Taki-chan.
[12:16] Tomori
    Thank you... for coming.
[12:19] Taki
    Tomori...
[12:26] Tomori
    Mutsumi-chan?
[12:34] Mutsumi
    What will you do about Soyo?
[12:37] Taki
    How do you even know about it?
[12:38] Tomori
    How is Soyo-chan?
[12:41] Mutsumi
    Soyo... doesn't know anymore.
[12:44] Taki
    Doesn't know what?
[12:45] Taki
    Hey!
[12:53] Eri
    Anon-chan, morning!
[12:55] Anon
    Morning!
[12:56] Mai; Kanako
    Morning!
[13:02] Tomori
    Play guitar.
[13:05] Tomori
    Perform live with me.
[13:08] Anon
    You don't need me, do you?
[13:09] Tomori
    I do!
[13:11] Tomori
    I need you, Anon-chan!
[13:12] Tomori
    If you're not there, Anon-chan...
[13:14] Anon
    Don't shout!
[13:15] Tomori
    Play guitar!
[13:24] Tomori
    Anon-chan!
[13:26] Anon
    Don't follow me!
[13:29] Tomori
    Anon-chan!
[13:30] Anon
    You're so stubborn!
[13:44] Anon
    You already have a guitarist, don't you?
[13:46] Tomori
    You said, "Let's do it together!"
[13:49] Tomori
    About the band! To me!
[13:51] Anon
    It's not like I actually wanted to do it.
[13:54] Tomori
    Then why did you invite me?
[13:57] Anon
    What's it matter?
[13:58] Tomori
    Anon-chan!
[14:01] Anon
    It was all to look good!
[14:08] Tomori
    Anon-chan, you were struggling
    with all your might.
[14:16] Tomori
    So was Soyo-chan.
[14:17] Tomori
    So was I. Because we're all lost.
[14:23] Tomori
    Together...
[14:26] Tomori
    Let's be lost together.
[14:40] Anon
    Oh, man.
[14:44] Anon
    This is all your fault, Tomori-chan.
[14:52] Anon
    Soyo-san?
[14:58] Anon
    I need to talk to you.
[15:00] Anon
    Wait!
[15:02] Anon
    Soyo-san!
[15:03] Soyo
    Don't follow me.
[15:04] Anon
    I'm gonna follow you until you listen
    to what I have to say!
[15:28] Soyo
    Why don't you come in?
[15:35] Anon
    This is such a super high-class hotel,
[15:36] Anon
    there's zero signs
    that anyone lives here at all.
[15:38] Anon
    Do you live by yourself?
[15:40] Soyo
    I live with my mother.
[15:42] Anon
    Oh. Thanks.
[15:45] Anon; internal
    This aroma...
[15:47] Anon; internal
    This is what we both drank
    the first time we met.
[15:50] Soyo
    I'm amazed that you can talk to me.
[15:53] Soyo
    You heard everything, didn't you?
[15:54] Anon
    I did.
[15:56] Anon
    It made me angry,
[15:57] Anon
    but it also made me think,
    "I guess Soyo-san is human, too."
[16:00] Soyo
    What?
[16:02] Anon
    You're super different from what you show.
[16:03] Anon
    You tell tons of lies.
[16:05] Anon
    And there's a part of you
    that's sort of malicious, right?
[16:07] Soyo
    Are you trying to pick a fight?
[16:09] Anon
    I heard you're lost.
[16:10] Soyo
    What?
[16:11] Anon
    Tomori-chan said so.
[16:12] Soyo
    What does that mean?
[16:13] Anon
    Tomori-chan is waiting.
[16:17] Anon
    Even if you say you don't
    need me, I'm still doing it.
[16:22] Soyo
    Even though I know you
    started just to look good.
[16:24] Anon
    That's right.
[16:26] Anon
    You and I started this band, right?
[16:32] Soyo
    In that case...
[16:35] Soyo
    I'll put an end to it for you.
[16:40] crowd A
    Next up is Tomori-chan!
[16:41] crowd B
    There are more people here
    in the audience now.
[16:46] Anon
    Wow.
[16:47] Anon
    There's a huge crowd out there.
[16:50] Rāna
    You finally came.
[16:51] Anon
    What do you mean, "finally"?
[16:53] Tomori
    Anon-chan.
[16:58] Taki
    Are you ready for this?
[16:59] Anon
    Yes, yes.
[17:05] Taki
    Wait! Tomori?
[17:08] Tomori
    Excuse me...
[17:10] Tomori
    Up there, um...
[17:18] Soyo
    H-Hey!
[17:21] Soyo
    Let go!
[17:27] Soyo
    W-Wait.
[17:29] Soyo
    Don't get the wrong idea!
[17:31] Soyo
    I came to end things!
[17:48] Soyo
    Hey!
[18:07] Tomori
    I don't understand.
[18:09] Tomori
    I can't ever find it.
[18:11] Tomori
    Not the right answer. Not what normal is.
[18:14] Tomori
    The world is so very, very far away.
[18:17] Tomori
    It's in a place where I can't reach it.
[18:20] Tomori
    And the spring that embraced
    the pools of sunlight...
[18:22] Tomori
    feels like it will disappear
    because the summer shines too brightly.
[18:26] Tomori
    If I'm just going to end up withered
    and dry on the asphalt,
[18:31] Tomori
    then I wish I'd stayed
    hidden under the rocks.
[18:58] Tomori
    I destroyed it all again!
[19:01] Tomori
    I didn't want to lose it.
    I didn't want to forget it!
[19:03] Tomori
    But I wasn't strong enough
    and I ended up letting go...
[19:06] Tomori
    even though I knew that it was important
[19:08] Tomori
    Oh, everything's ended up a mess,
[19:11] Tomori
    but if everything hasn't disappeared
    yet... then I want to go back!
[19:14] Tomori
    I want to tell them!
[19:15] Tomori
    If it's allowed, then
    I don't want to give up!
[19:19] Tomori
    I didn't want anyone to find me.
[19:22] Tomori
    But being with you made me so very happy
[19:25] Tomori
    And I haven't told you that, so...
[19:28] Tomori
    So, please!
[19:29] Tomori
    I didn't want to hurt anyone
[19:31] Tomori
    I didn't want to leave you this way
[19:34] Tomori
    What should I do?
[19:36] Tomori
    The words I couldn't say...
[19:39] Tomori
    are still words I want to reach you!
[19:51] Tomori
    The song I sing
[19:54] Tomori
    I'll sing it now
[19:55] Tomori
    Please reach...
[19:57] Tomori
    all the way to your heart
[19:59] Tomori
    Is there still time?
[20:01] Tomori
    To go beyond words,
    I'll shout what's in my heart
[20:09] Tomori
    Because this is the only way I can do it
[20:15] Tomori
    I'll keep singing until it reaches you
[20:34] Tomori
    I want to cry together
[20:37] Tomori
    I want to laugh together
[20:39] Tomori
    Even if our paths only run parallel
[20:44] Tomori
    Still holding tightly to yesterday
[20:47] Tomori
    Trembling with a throbbing pain
[20:50] Tomori
    The more it hurts the more your emotions
    come through, so I won't leave you
[21:09] Tomori
    I'll sing this song that
    will link my hands with yours
[21:15] Tomori
    I don't want to let go
[21:19] Tomori
    Let's stay together forever
[21:22] Tomori
    I'll sing this song that
    will help us become ourselves
[21:30] Tomori
    I'll sing and let's begin here one more time
SIGN    #11 Even So