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E12 - Life is a Never-Ending Dream

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[00:00] ---
    KAEDE
[00:02] ---
    Kaede, you should get up soon.
    Breakfast will be ready.
[00:10] ---
    Wh-Who are you?
[00:11] ---
    Huh?
[00:12] ---
    Eh? Where is this place?
[00:14] ---
    I...
[00:16] ---
    What is this?
[00:18] ---
    Kaede?
[01:51] ---
    Kaede-san's symptoms could be those
    of a type of dissociative disorder.
[01:55] ---
    Dissociative disorder?
[01:57] ---
    An illness where there is a loss of sense
    and awareness that you are yourself.
[02:02] ---
    As is the case with Kaede-san,
[02:05] ---
    patients experience symptoms
    including omission or memory loss.
[02:10] ---
    Currently, she has no memories of living
    with her parents or big brother to now.
[02:16] ---
    Why would such a...
[02:18] ---
    It's believed that extreme stress or
    mental trauma can cause this.
[02:23] ---
    Kaede developed Puberty Syndrome due to
    people badmouthing her on social media, right?
[02:31] ---
    Correct.
[02:32] ---
    It caused Kaede to suffer.
[02:33] ---
    DIE, KAEDE
[02:35] ---
    So much that she decided to sever a part
    of her memory to escape that crushing feeling.
[02:42] ---
    She did so to protect from
    being totally broken.
[02:45] ---
    So that's why it's dissociative...
[02:47] ---
    When Kaede lost her memory,
    I didn't know how to interact with her.
[02:51] ---
    At first, I was hesitant...
[02:54] ---
    Kaede, I brought you a book.
[02:56] ---
    You were looking forward to
    the new volume of this series.
[02:59] ---
    Here.
[03:00] ---
    Th-Thank you very much.
[03:03] ---
    Um... So "Kaede-san" really liked these books?
[03:10] ---
    The way she talks is different.
[03:12] ---
    How she holds chopsticks is different.
[03:14] ---
    The order she eats her dishes is different.
[03:17] ---
    She buttons her pajamas from the top.
[03:20] ---
    The way she walks is different.
[03:21] ---
    She's different from Kaede...
[03:23] ---
    Different... Different...
    Everything about her is different.

[03:29] ---
    I'm home.
[03:30] ---
    Welcome home.
[03:35] ---
    Mom! Kaede has...
    She has bruises all over her body again!
[03:40] ---
    Oh, I see...
[03:43] ---
    It's all right, Kaede...
[03:47] ---
    You'll be all right...
[03:49] ---
    Mom wasn't able to accept
    what happened to Kaede.

[03:51] ---
    It's fine, you'll be fine, Kaede.
[03:53] ---
    And she ended up with mental illness herself.
[03:56] ---
    And as for me...
[04:07] ---
    At the hospital I was brought to,
    nobody would believe my story.

[04:12] ---
    No matter how much I explained, they thought
    it was a preconception, something mental,

[04:16] ---
    and that the wounds were self-inflicted.
[04:19] ---
    I couldn't do anything.
[04:22] ---
    I couldn't do anything for Kaede.
[04:25] ---
    I was sick of everything,
    and snuck out of hospital one day.

[04:29] ---
    That was when I met her.
[04:33] ---
    Did you know?
[04:35] ---
    The distance to the horizon seen at eye level
    is roughly four kilometers.
[04:42] ---
    Shoko-san quietly listened to my story,
    and believed every bit of it.
[04:48] ---
    From then on, I snuck out of the hospital
    time and time again.
[04:53] ---
    Shoko-san was always there
    at Shichirigahama Beach.
[04:58] ---
    Were you thinking about
    your little sister again?
[05:01] ---
    I was thinking about you, Shoko-san.
[05:03] ---
    I see. You were having lewd thoughts.
[05:05] ---
    That's not it.
[05:07] ---
    I was wondering why you
    believed what I said.
[05:11] ---
    About Kaede's wounds, my scar,
    and Puberty Syndrome.
[05:16] ---
    No matter what I said,
    nobody would listen to me seriously.
[05:19] ---
    Nobody believes what I've seen
    with my own eyes.
[05:24] ---
    There are as many worlds to see
    as there are people in them, I'm sure.
[05:29] ---
    Just like how the horizon you can see
    is further than the horizon I can see.
[05:36] ---
    Same for the ocean breeze.
[05:38] ---
    Some will say it feels refreshing...
[05:40] ---
    while others say they dislike it because
    it makes their skin and hair feel sticky.
[05:45] ---
    I think it was some sort of fate
    that brought us together,
[05:47] ---
    so as a senpai in life,
    I'll give you some wonderful advice.
[05:51] ---
    Do people normally say "wonderful"
    for their own stuff?
[05:55] ---
    I didn't have a big dream or
    high hopes for my life, either.
[06:01] ---
    But I was still able to
    find meaning for my own life.
[06:06] ---
    What I think, Sakuta-kun...
[06:08] ---
    ...is that life is here for us to become kinder.
[06:12] ---
    To become kinder...
[06:15] ---
    I live life every day hoping that I'm a
    slightly kinder person than I was the day before.
[06:32] ---
    You know what, Shoko-san...
[06:35] ---
    What is it?
[06:36] ---
    Is it okay to live my life like you do?
[06:40] ---
    Of course it is.
[06:42] ---
    Now that you know of pain
    that others cannot understand,
[06:46] ---
    I'm sure you can become kinder
    than anyone else.
[06:49] ---
    And I'm sure you can be supportive
    of someone else.
[06:54] ---
    These values were unknown to me.
[06:56] ---
    KAEDE
[06:57] ---
    When I was released from the hospital,
    I bought a pen and notebook on the way home.

[07:03] ---
    What's this?
[07:04] ---
    The doctor said yesterday how
    you should write some stuff.
[07:07] ---
    What happened that day,
    what you thought. It can be anything.
[07:12] ---
    Okay...
[07:13] ---
    We should start with your name.
[07:14] ---
    All right.
[07:16] ---
    Oh, hold on.
[07:18] ---
    Yes?
[07:19] ---
    About your name...
[07:20] ---
    It's all right. I can write it properly.
[07:23] ---
    "Kaede" is spelled like "Flower,"
    followed with "Maple" like the tree, right?
[07:27] ---
    We should write "Kaede" in all hiragana.
[07:29] ---
    Hiragana?
[07:31] ---
    The person here right now
    is the current "Kaede."
[07:37] ---
    Sorry for everything 'til now.
[07:41] ---
    I-It's only you, Big Brother!
[07:44] ---
    You're the only one who understands Kaede!
[07:56] ---
    KAEDE AZUSAGAWA
[07:57] ---
    I'm trusting you with Kaede.
[07:59] ---
    And you take care of Mom, Dad.
[08:01] ---
    Yeah...
[08:03] ---
    Kaede.
[08:05] ---
    Take your time.
    You don't have to over do it.
[08:09] ---
    Mom and I will be waiting for you.
[08:14] ---
    Kaede is afraid of how everyone looks at her.
[08:18] ---
    Everyone is looking at "Kaede-san."
[08:21] ---
    Of course, I wanted Kaede's
    memories to return, too.

[08:25] ---
    I wanted her to come back to us.
[08:28] ---
    But, if that came to be,
    what would happen to the current Kaede?

[08:34] ---
    That's the whole story about Kaede.
    Sorry I kept quiet about it until now.
[08:38] ---
    It's all right.
    You were looking out for Kaede, right?
[08:41] ---
    You're right about that...
[08:43] ---
    I mean, as I watched Kaede
    slowly becoming friends with everyone,
[08:47] ---
    I couldn't bring myself to mention it.
[08:49] ---
    I felt it was okay to stay like this.
[08:51] ---
    I understand. I'm not that mad about it.
[08:54] ---
    But...
[08:56] ---
    I wish you told us a bit earlier.
[08:58] ---
    So you ARE mad about it.
[09:00] ---
    NOVEMBER 17th
[09:01] ---
    Good morning, Kaede.
[09:03] ---
    G-Good morning, Big Brother.
[09:06] ---
    Kaede might not make it much longer.
[09:08] ---
    Her whole body is in pain.
[09:11] ---
    You frolicked around a lot yesterday,
    so you just have muscle cramps.
[09:15] ---
    You don't have a fever...
[09:21] ---
    A film shoot in Kanazawa?
[09:23] ---
    Guess I won't be able
    to see you for a while again.
[09:26] ---
    We're filming at a studio in Tokyo
    until the day after tomorrow,
[09:29] ---
    so I'll be coming home.
[09:31] ---
    Call me if anything happens.
[09:33] ---
    I'll call you even if nothing happens!
[09:34] ---
    I meant if something happens
    to Kaede-chan.
[09:38] ---
    I'm home.
[09:43] ---
    Kaede, I'm home—
[09:44] ---
    W-Wah!
[09:47] ---
    What are you doing?
[09:49] ---
    Ow!
[09:51] ---
    Be a good girl and stay asleep.
[09:52] ---
    Since making it all the way
    to the beach yesterday,
[09:54] ---
    Kaede doesn't want this good groove
    to be interrupted by muscle cramps!
[09:58] ---
    Kaede wants to head outside again today.
[10:00] ---
    - Seriously?
    - Seriously!
[10:02] ---
    And it's your uniform debut?
[10:03] ---
    It's a uniform debut.
[10:05] ---
    I bought some pudding.
[10:06] ---
    Hurray!
[10:07] ---
    Ow...
[10:08] ---
    P-Please don't change the subject.
[10:11] ---
    It's all right. The outside world
    isn't going anywhere, so no need to panic.
[10:15] ---
    Is Kaede all right?
[10:17] ---
    You're all right.
[10:18] ---
    But, Kaede doesn't know the girl we met
    at the beach yesterday...
[10:23] ---
    She's someone "Kaede-san" knows, right?
[10:26] ---
    If you want to know,
    I'll tell you what kind of a girl she is.
[10:29] ---
    Kaede has trouble dealing
    with people who know "Kaede-san."
[10:32] ---
    It's troubling, but...
[10:34] ---
    Not knowing is scary, too!
[10:38] ---
    That was Kotomi Kano,
    an acquaintance from before kindergarten.
[10:42] ---
    She used to live above us
    in the same apartment complex.
[10:46] ---
    She used to play with "Kaede"
    from a very young age.
[10:50] ---
    Apparently, she was at the beach
    thinking about rereading this book.
[10:51] ---
    The Poison Apple the Prince Gave Me
[10:54] ---
    Apparently, she borrowed it from "Kaede."
[10:59] ---
    What's this?
[11:00] ---
    Can I look at it?
[11:02] ---
    Sure.
[11:04] ---
    I want to be friends with Kae-chan again
    —Kotomi
[11:08] ---
    friends
[11:14] ---
    Komi-chan...
[11:15] ---
    Kaede! Just now—
[11:18] ---
    Kaede! Kaede!
[11:23] ---
    Honestly, until Kaede-san is conscious again,
    I can't say anything for sure.
[11:29] ---
    However, there's a possibility that there will be
    a change to her memories when she awakens.
[11:35] ---
    Meaning what?
[11:36] ---
    KAEDE AZUSAGAWA
[11:48] ---
    Well, Kaede isn't the type
    you'd call a princess, either...
[11:53] ---
    Kaede?
[11:56] ---
    Big Brother?
[11:58] ---
    This place...
[11:59] ---
    You collapsed and brough here
    in an ambulance.
[12:03] ---
    Did Big Brother change Kaede's clothes!?
[12:05] ---
    It wasn't, so relax.
[12:07] ---
    It was done by the nurse and Mai-san,
    with some help from Toyohama.
[12:10] ---
    It would've been fine if you did it, Big Brother.
[12:14] ---
    You're Kaede... Right?
[12:16] ---
    Kaede is still Kaede, okay?
[12:20] ---
    Kaede has regained consciousness.
[12:22] ---
    Test results showed no abnormalities,
    so she may be released today.

[12:26] ---
    I'm glad...
[12:27] ---
    However...
[12:28] ---
    The fact she collapsed may indicate
    that "Kaede's" memories are coming back.
[12:33] ---
    If Kaede regains her previous memories,
[12:36] ---
    there's a possibility that all of her
    current memories will disappear.

[12:40] ---
    No way...
[12:43] ---
    TAXI AREA
[12:44] ---
    Was Dad here?
[12:46] ---
    Yeah. He was worried about you.
[12:51] ---
    Hey, Kaede, what do you want
    to do the most right now?
[12:54] ---
    Eat pudding.
[12:55] ---
    Something to celebrate your hospital release.
    It can be something bigger than that.
[12:59] ---
    Eat a giant pudding, then!
[13:01] ---
    Well, we can eat that, but I was talking more
    about going to see pandas or something.
[13:08] ---
    Pandas are second on the list.
[13:10] ---
    What's first?
[13:11] ---
    First is...
[13:13] ---
    Going to school.
[13:17] ---
    NOVEMBER 19th
[13:18] ---
    Kaede says that she wants to go to school.
[13:21] ---
    I see.
[13:23] ---
    And I want to grant her that wish.
[13:25] ---
    All right.
[13:26] ---
    I'll explain the situation to her middle school
    before tomorrow ends.
[13:33] ---
    Sakuta...
[13:35] ---
    Are you eating properly?
[13:37] ---
    I am.
[13:38] ---
    I see...
[13:41] ---
    And you know, it's all right to do it
    after everything settles down, but...
[13:44] ---
    What?
[13:46] ---
    You should introduce me to
    the girl you're dating right now.
[13:50] ---
    Oh... Yeah, when things settle down.
[13:54] ---
    NOVEMBER 20th
[13:55] ---
    The shoot in Kanazawa
    was going to be for two weeks?
[13:58] ---
    Yup. I'm sure you'll be lonely not seeing me,
    but I'll be sure to call you every night.
[14:03] ---
    I'll wait in front of the phone every night!
[14:06] ---
    Take life more seriously and study.
[14:11] ---
    So Sakuta, you're not scared?
[14:15] ---
    When you think about Kaede-chan.
[14:17] ---
    Of course I'm scared.
    I'm about to wet my pants as we speak.
[14:20] ---
    I'm asking a serious question.
[14:22] ---
    But as a big brother, there are things
    you never show a little sister.
[14:26] ---
    Piss, poop... and whining.
[14:30] ---
    Because I'm the big brother.
[14:32] ---
    If there was something I could do,
    I'd like to do it.
[14:37] ---
    But there's nothing I can do.
[14:40] ---
    I'm sorry...
[14:42] ---
    Oh, geez, I'm such an idiot!
[14:44] ---
    Big Sister didn't say anything about it
    because there was nothing we could do!
[14:47] ---
    I really am sorry!
[14:49] ---
    NOVEMBER 22nd
[14:52] ---
    Hello, I'm Tomobe, the school counselor.
[14:55] ---
    At first, it can be as simple as
    walking to school for a little bit.
[15:00] ---
    And it doesn't have to start in the classroom.
    You can go to the nurse's office first.
[15:04] ---
    W-Would the nurse's office count
    as going to school?
[15:07] ---
    Yes, of course it would.
[15:09] ---
    But that's different from everyone else, right?
[15:11] ---
    That is true.
[15:13] ---
    But even though they may look the same,
    everyone is actually different.
[15:17] ---
    For instance, there are tall kids and short kids.
[15:20] ---
    Some kids are good at running,
    and some are not.
[15:24] ---
    Each person has their own pace.
[15:26] ---
    That's why, if it's the result
    of you doing your best,
[15:30] ---
    it's fine to say that it counts
    as you "going to school."
[15:33] ---
    Th-Then, it can be circled
    even if it's the nurse's office?
[15:36] ---
    Circled?
[15:38] ---
    C-Circling this.
[15:39] ---
    * GO TO SCHOOL
[15:42] ---
    I think that's fine.
[15:43] ---
    Th-Then, Kaede would definitely like
    to go to school.
[16:16] ---
    You're kidding me!
[16:17] ---
    For real!
[16:18] ---
    And what do you think she said?
[16:20] ---
    Eh? What?
[16:22] ---
    It's not like they're laughing
    about you, Kaede.
[16:25] ---
    Really?
[16:26] ---
    If you think you can make people laugh
    that easily, you're sorely mistaken.
[16:30] ---
    T-The path of the comedian is a steep one.
[16:34] ---
    We tried hard today, so why don't we
    head back and eat some pudding?
[16:44] ---
    Kaede is determined to finally make it
    all the way to school today.
[16:47] ---
    She will do her best.
[16:48] ---
    You don't have to be so impatient about it.
[16:50] ---
    K-Kaede is not being impatient!
[16:53] ---
    Even Tomobe-san said
    you can take it slow, didn't she?
[16:58] ---
    Kaede?
[17:00] ---
    That's not good enough...
[17:02] ---
    Not good enough?
[17:08] ---
    Kaede, let's take a break
    from practicing today, okay?
[17:13] ---
    Kaede!
[17:18] ---
    Kaede!
[17:19] ---
    You don't have to overdo it!
[17:21] ---
    There is a need to overdo it!
[17:22] ---
    Kaede doesn't have the time to take it slow!
[17:28] ---
    So, she knew about it...
[17:39] ---
    What's up with that?
    Totally cracking me up!
[17:40] ---
    Too wicked!
[17:45] ---
    Why...
[17:47] ---
    Why...
[17:48] ---
    Kaede...
[17:51] ---
    Why are they no good!?
[17:53] ---
    Kaede wants to go to school!
    Why won't they move at all!?
[17:58] ---
    Kaede.
[17:58] ---
    Kaede will not go home!
[18:00] ---
    Not home...
    but practice until she can go to school!
[18:04] ---
    Practice!
[18:08] ---
    All right.
[18:10] ---
    I'll make it so that
    you can go to school, Kaede.
[18:12] ---
    Eh? Really?
[18:14] ---
    Really.
[18:15] ---
    But we'll resume practice
    after a short break.
[18:19] ---
    A break?
[18:21] ---
    Yeah, in the best place I can think of.
[18:29] ---
    There are lots of people.
[18:30] ---
    If you're scared of this many people,
    you'll never make it to school.
[18:34] ---
    O-Okay. Will try harder.
[18:39] ---
    B-Big Brother, are we at this "best place" yet?
[18:43] ---
    Don't worry. We'll be there soon.
[18:48] ---
    Big Brother, are we there yet?
[18:50] ---
    Almost.
[18:55] ---
    There. We have arrived.
[19:00] ---
    The Zoo! It's the zoo, Big Brother!
[19:03] ---
    I told you it was the best place
    I could think of.
[19:07] ---
    Please take your time.
[19:09] ---
    It smells like Nasuno before a bath!
[19:11] ---
    It does smell like beasts.
[19:14] ---
    Oh! Pandas! Big Brother, there's the pandas!
[19:17] ---
    There are pandas right there!
[19:20] ---
    Pandas! Pandas are walking around!
[19:22] ---
    They're walking.
[19:24] ---
    That panda over there is eating!
[19:25] ---
    It's eating.
[19:27] ---
    Pandas are big.
[19:28] ---
    You'd expect "giant" pandas to be big.
[19:30] ---
    Oh, it looked over at us!
[19:33] ---
    The panda is eating again.
[19:36] ---
    They said on TV before that
    bamboo isn't very nutritious,
[19:40] ---
    so pandas need to spend a majority
    of the day eating to survive.
[19:44] ---
    It's a tough life being a panda, too.
[19:46] ---
    Everyone is doing their best
    to live their lives.
[20:04] ---
    Big Brother, it's the lesser pandas!
[20:06] ---
    They are lesser.
[20:07] ---
    They're smaller.
[20:08] ---
    They're "lesser," after all.
[20:10] ---
    But they're cute!
[20:13] ---
    Kaede really loves pandas after all.
[20:16] ---
    It's a bit lonely to say goodbye to them...
[20:18] ---
    You can just come here again.
[20:19] ---
    But Kaede is...
[20:26] ---
    Here, this is for you. An annual pass.
[20:30] ---
    With this, you can come see pandas
    every day if you wanted to.
[20:33] ---
    A-Amazing!
    Big brother really is a big brother!
[20:37] ---
    It's okay for Kaede to come back here again?
[20:39] ---
    Of course it is.
[20:42] ---
    I went to the effort of buying it,
    so it'd be a waste of money not to.
[20:47] ---
    Kaede wants to come here many times
    and get our money's worth!
[21:04] ---
    Kaede was able to make a purchase, too!
[21:07] ---
    Want me to carry that?
[21:08] ---
    Kaede purchased the pudding,
    so Kaede will carry it!
[21:14] ---
    Big Brother, our house is that way, right?
[21:16] ---
    This is a shortcut.
[21:29] ---
    A shortcut, didn't know that.
[21:31] ---
    Well, you're still an amateur
    when it comes to roads around here.
[21:34] ---
    Are you a seasoned veteran?
[21:36] ---
    You could call me a pro.
[21:38] ---
    Amazing!
[21:44] ---
    Big Brother, this is...
[21:45] ---
    T-The school!
[21:47] ---
    It's night now, so stay quiet.
[21:50] ---
    There.
[21:51] ---
    Y-You shouldn't, Big Brother.
[21:53] ---
    Come on.
[21:54] ---
    But...
[21:55] ---
    We're only going to peek in for a little bit.
[21:58] ---
    J-Just a little bit, okay?
[22:04] ---
    This is your first trip to school.
[22:10] ---
    Oh, this is class 3-1.
[22:12] ---
    Is this Kaede's classroom?
[22:24] ---
    Big Brother.
[22:26] ---
    Next time at school
    will hopefully be in the daytime.
[22:29] ---
    Since you've conquered school at night,
    that should be easy.
[22:33] ---
    As of today, every goal
    in the notebook can be circled.
[22:37] ---
    Oh, it's been that many already?
[22:39] ---
    Panda, pudding and school
    were the last to complete.
[22:42] ---
    Then we have to celebrate.
[22:44] ---
    Yes!
[22:45] ---
    Oh, but school will still be a triangle.
[22:48] ---
    I think you'd be okay circling it.
[22:50] ---
    That'll be for after
    coming to school during the day.
[22:52] ---
    I see.
[22:54] ---
    Now, there is a feeling
    that it can be accomplished.
[22:56] ---
    Kaede feels like she can head to school
    during the day tomorrow!
[23:00] ---
    You're right.
[23:01] ---
    Looking forward to tomorrow!
[23:03] ---
    Really can't wait for tomorrow to come!
[23:06] ---
    NOVEMBER 27th
[23:10] ---
    Kaede, it's morning.
[23:12] ---
    Are you still asleep?
[23:21] ---
    Morning, Big Brother.
[23:23] ---
    Huh? That is you, right?
[23:27] ---
    Yeah...
[23:28] ---
    Ugh, my legs are so swollen!
[23:30] ---
    You did run around the zoo a lot yesterday.
[23:32] ---
    The zoo?
[23:33] ---
    I didn't go.
    Big Brother, what's wrong with you?
[23:37] ---
    Kaede, you...
[23:39] ---
    Wait, was my room always like this?
[23:43] ---
    You're...
[23:45] ---
    Kaede, right?
[23:47] ---
    Of course I am.
    Sheesh, what are you talking about?
[24:55] ---
    Nothing less from you, Big Brother.
    Such a rascal.
[24:57] ---
    Next Time
    #13 The Dawn After an Endless Night