E3 - Our Feelings Aren't Always Pretty

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[00:01] (Flashback) Mao
    I really like you, Hisashi.
[00:07] Hisashi
    Is that why? Yeah, that must be it.
[00:11] Hisashi
    I must like Mao, too.
[00:35] (Flashback) Mao
    When this is all over, I'll come talk
    to you. Just wait until then.
[00:44] (Flashback) Hisashi
    Yeah, I guess he's right.
[00:47] (Flashback) Hisashi
    Got it.
SIGN    Twilight Out of Focus
SIGN    Twilight Out of Focus
[02:27] Yukitaka
    Why do you keep hassling me?
[02:30] Yukitaka
    Just leave me alone!
[02:34] Yukitaka
    I just want to get through
    high school without any trouble.
[02:40] Hisashi
    Then why'd you give Agatsuma that letter?
[02:44] Hisashi
    Are you sure you aren't trying
    to start something?
[02:48] Giichi
    Cut!
[02:49] Giichi
    Okay.
[02:52] Runa
    Pack it up!
[02:54] Giichi
    Yeah.
[02:56] Giichi
    Otomo's nailing it.
[02:58] Runa
    He's really focused. The drama club
    even said they wanted to recruit him.
[03:02] Giichi
    And that face.
[03:03] Runa
    Yeah, he looks great.
[03:06] Giichi
    I guess he's finally ready to commit.
[03:09] Giichi
    On the other hand...
[03:11] Giichi
    Mao. Mao?
[03:15] Giichi
    You trying to hide or something?
    That won't work on me.
[03:18] Giichi
    You aren't focused at all.
    Your head is in the clouds.
[03:21] Giichi
    And to top it off, the shoot's
    running behind. Get it together, man.
[03:29] Mao
    It's not like I screwed anything up.
[03:31] Giichi
    What was that?!
[03:32] Mao
    If you've got a problem, give
    the camera to someone else.
[03:38] Giichi
    Hey, asshole! What did just you say?
[03:38] Runa
    Hold on, now!
[03:40] Giichi
    Hey! Look at me!
[03:42] Runa
    Look, we had a good shoot today.
[03:45] Runa
    We've still got tomorrow,
    so let's call it a day.
[03:47] Giichi
    Hmph!
[03:49] Giichi
    Grr! Grr!
[03:49] Runa
    Oh, boy. That sure set him off.
[03:51] Runa
    He's really on edge today.
[03:53] Runa
    And tomorrow's another important
    day of shooting. Scene 18, right?
[03:57] Runa
    Since we're shooting the kiss scene...
[04:00] Runa
    Um, hey!
[04:02] Runa
    Mao, you okay?
[04:04] Mao
    Huh?
[04:06] Mao
    Mm-hmm.
[04:09] Mao
    Just like Ichikawa said,
    my head's in the clouds.
[04:12] Mao
    Even though I put a lid on things...
[04:14] Mao
    I'd better pull myself together.
[04:22] Hisashi
    They said we're shooting the kiss tomorrow.
[04:25] Mao
    Oh. Right.
[04:27] Hisashi
    I'm so nervous. Kissing in public?
[04:30] Hisashi
    Actors sure have it rough.
SIGN    You and the Seasons, etc...
[04:32] Mao
    Yeah, but you're an actor now too, Hisashi.
[04:36] Hisashi
    I'm still nowhere near Honjo's level, though.
[04:39] Hisashi
    I really doubt I can do this.
[04:42] Mao
    Huh? Do what?
[04:45] Hisashi
    Kiss someone I'm not even into.
[04:52] Mao
    This is so awkward.
[04:53] Mao
    Hisashi must be angry at me
    for running away after what I did.
[04:59] Mao
    Aren't you gonna get that?
[05:01] Hisashi
    Is it too loud?
[05:03] Mao
    No.
[05:06] Hisashi
    Are you jealous?
[05:07] Mao
    There. Looking at me
    with those feverishly tempting,
[05:12] Mao
    probing eyes again.
[05:17] Hisashi
    Just kidding. I won't answer.
[05:20] Hisashi
    And, declined.
[05:23] Mao
    Are you going somewhere?
[05:25] Hisashi
    The lounge.
[05:27] Hisashi
    It's easier for me to memorize lines
    if I read them somewhere noisy.
[05:30] Hisashi
    Tomorrow's a big day on set, right?
[05:35] Mao
    I can't let myself get worked up like this.
[05:38] Mao
    I've got to get a hold of myself.
    At least until the shoot is over.
[05:43] Giichi
    Honjo, push him away as hard as you can.
[05:46] Giichi
    Then Otomo, let go so you don't get hurt.
[05:49] Giichi
    I'll let you guys figure out the timing.
[05:51] Yukitaka
    It's fine. I'll give him a signal.
[05:53] Yukitaka
    Otomo, a little more to your right.
[05:59] Runa
    Scene 18, shot 4. Let's do a take.
[06:04] Giichi
    Ready.
[06:08] Giichi
    Action!
[06:10] Mao
    I just have to shoot like I always do.
    I've already imagined this scene in my head.
[06:15] Mao
    Many, many times.
[06:17] Mao
    That's why...
[06:19] Mao
    When we really did kiss,
    it was nothing like what I imagined.
[06:24] Mao
    It was totally different from a movie.
[06:26] Hisashi
    What, did you think you were
    going to get kissed, Honjo?
[06:31] Mao
    I'm getting overwhelmed by feelings
    right now that aren't all very pretty.
[06:36] Mao
    Like, "I need more than this."
    "I want him all to myself."
[06:41] Mao
    Even the image I have of Hisashi in our
    room this year, always looking so in love...
[06:46] Mao
    I wanted to rip it to shreds
    and throw it all away.
[06:49] Yukitaka
    Please stop teasing me!
[06:55] Yukitaka
    Is it really that funny that
    I get so nervous around you?
[07:00] Yukitaka
    It isn't Agatsuma. I'm more
    interested in you right now.
[07:04] Yukitaka
    I don't even understand
    these feelings myself.
[07:11] Hisashi
    I'm sorry for teasing you.
[07:13] Hisashi
    Would you let me start over?
[07:16] Hisashi
    This time I'll do it for real.
[07:18] Mao
    I know this is all part of a movie,
[07:22] Mao
    but I still can't stand to see
    Hisashi kissing someone el—
[07:29] Hisashi
    Mao!
[07:32] Giichi
    Mao?
[07:34] Giichi
    Are you okay? Did you hit your head?
[07:39] Giichi
    Mao!
[07:41] Mao
    Ouch... The camera?
[07:43] Giichi
    Forget it. Are you good?
    At least you're conscious.
[07:47] Giichi
    I'll take him to the nurse's office.
    Somebody give me a hand.
[07:51] Hisashi
    No, I'll take him.
[07:53] Giichi
    Otomo...
[07:56] Giichi
    By yourself? Can you manage?
[07:59] Hisashi
    Easy.
[08:00] Hisashi
    Someone go along—
[08:01] Mao
    Ichikawa.
[08:02] Mao
    The camera's more important.
    Check if it's okay.
[08:05] Giichi
    All right.
[08:16] Mao
    Damn it.
SIGN    Nurse's Office
[08:18] Nurse
    You seem to have a mild concussion.
[08:21] Nurse
    But you don't have a headache,
    so just rest here awhile.
[08:25] Nurse
    Will you stay with him?
[08:26] Hisashi
    Sure.
[08:28] Hisashi
    Mao, how are you doing?
[08:37] Mao
    Ugh! Damn it!
[08:45] Mao
    I'm all mixed up.
[08:47] Mao
    I couldn't concentrate and screwed up
    the most important shot.
[08:52] Mao
    What are the third-years gonna say
    if the camera is dead?
[08:56] Mao
    And Ichikawa not blaming me
    makes me feel even guiltier.
[09:00] Mao
    Why am I getting jealous over a damn movie?
[09:04] Mao
    I'm such an idiot.
[09:08] Hisashi
    Oh well. We'll just have to shoot it again.
[09:18] Nurse
    Are you feeling all right?
    I've got to step out for a bit.
[09:21] Nurse
    I'll be with the baseball club,
    so call for me if you need anything.
[09:24] Hisashi
    All right.
[09:30] Hisashi
    Listen, I... For me,
    this is kind of a relief.
[09:34] Hisashi
    You seemed so calm the whole time,
    Mao, like it didn't even bother you.
[09:39] Hisashi
    But were you actually
    thinking about us after all?
[09:43] Hisashi
    That would make me happy, but...
[09:46] Hisashi
    I know that sounds cruel.
    Like I'm happy that you screwed up.
[10:00] Hisashi
    Were you thinking about me?
[10:09] Hisashi
    Hey, Mao. Look over here.
[10:17] Mao
    Wha—?
[10:19] Hisashi
    If you can't lie to this thing,
    then talk to me.
[10:23] Hisashi
    Tell me how you feel, Mao.
[10:25] Hisashi
    Don't hide it. Tell me everything.
[10:29] Hisashi
    Come on. The camera's rolling.
[10:41] Mao
    Hisashi, I really like you.
[10:45] Mao
    But it's turning me into an awful person.
[10:49] Mao
    I want you to like me, too.
    I want you all to myself.
[10:53] Mao
    Whenever I think about the guy you were
    dating before, it makes me so jealous.
[10:59] Mao
    I don't want you to see anyone but me.
[11:04] Hisashi
    I feel the same way!
[11:07] Hisashi
    I want you all to myself.
    I want you to see only me.
[11:15] Hisashi
    Does this make me a bad person?
[11:43] Hisashi
    Mao, can I break my promise and go to you?
SIGN    Roll call.
SIGN    Otomo? Tsuchiya?
[12:09] Hisashi
    Otomo, present.
SIGN    Tsuchiya?
[12:16] Mao
    Present! Tsuchiya, present!
SIGN    Okay.
[12:28] Mao
    Hisashi, wai—
[12:32] Hisashi
    You scared?
[12:35] Hisashi
    Sorry. I can't promise you
    that it'll be easy.
[12:42] Hisashi
    But I want to see how you react, Mao.
[12:46] Hisashi
    I want to see what you'll
    let me get away with.
[12:55] Mao
    See? There it is again. Hisashi's bad habit.
[13:00] Mao
    His eyes are testing me.
    They're probing into my core.
[13:05] Mao
    But I don't hate that.
[13:10] Mao
    Test me as much as you want.
[13:13] Mao
    Whether I let you or not,
    I have only one response.
[13:17] Mao
    I like you.
[13:20] Mao
    Don't worry. I'll accept any part of you.
[13:24] Mao
    Don't hold back, okay?
[13:26] Mao
    It is my first time, but
    I have an idea of how it goes.
[13:30] Mao
    I studied a lot of pink films.
    You don't have to be gentle.
[13:35] Hisashi
    Seriously.
[13:37] Hisashi
    I've got nothing on you, Mao.
[13:46] Hisashi
    Mao... Mao...
[13:49] Mao
    Hisashi called my name as if delirious,
[13:53] Mao
    while thrusting so deep
    inside me, over and over.
[13:58] Mao
    I felt him swelling up inside me...
[14:13] Hisashi
    Feeling okay? Are you sore at all?
[14:17] Mao
    Is this...
[14:18] Hisashi
    Is this?
[14:19] Mao
    Is this how lovers have always done it?!
[14:22] Mao
    I should have filmed it! For posterity!
[14:26] Hisashi
    Huh?
[14:27] Mao
    Seems like a tricky theme, though. Eros...
[14:29] Hisashi
    So... should I be relieved?
[14:32] Hisashi
    An erotic movie, huh?
    Let's film the next time.
[14:34] Mao
    Huh? Huh?
[14:35] Hisashi
    Oh, that's not what you meant.
[14:37] Hisashi
    But I'm glad you aren't sore.
[14:41] Hisashi
    Want to sleep a bit?
[14:43] Mao
    I'm not sleepy at all.
[14:45] Mao
    Would you talk to me? Tell me about you.
[14:49] Mao
    You never talk about yourself.
    I want to know more.
[14:53] Hisashi
    Coming from you?
[14:55] Hisashi
    Talk about myself... hmm.
[14:58] Mao
    Or just tell me what's been
    on your mind recently.
[15:01] Hisashi
    The last scene of the movie we're making.
[15:04] Hisashi
    It ends when the president
     transfers schools,
[15:07] Hisashi
    and the two of them break up, right?
[15:10] Mao
    Yeah. They shake hands in the library
    and go their separate ways.
[15:14] Mao
    The class president leaves first,
    and then Hisa—
[15:18] Mao
    Otomo goes later.
[15:20] Mao
    Then the credits roll on
    a shot of the empty library.
[15:25] Hisashi
    When I read the script,
    I thought it was such a sad story.
[15:29] Hisashi
    They finally developed feelings for
    each other, but then had to break up.
[15:34] Hisashi
    I'd interpreted it as a tragedy.
[15:36] Hisashi
    But now I imagine Otomo
    chasing after the president.
[15:44] Hisashi
    Maybe he remembers the time they kissed
    in the library, runs after him,
[15:48] Hisashi
    and then embraces him.
[15:56] Hisashi
    He'd probably say, "Even if we're far apart,
    our hearts will stay connected."
[16:01] Hisashi
    I'd never really thought about
     what a movie means before.
[16:05] Hisashi
    No, not just movies... about anything.
[16:08] Hisashi
    I just took things the way they were.
[16:11] Hisashi
    That was enough for me then.
    Not anymore, though.
[16:15] Hisashi
    I want to pay more attention
    to things going forward.
[16:17] Hisashi
    To think about myself,
    about you, about family...
[16:22] Hisashi
    About the future, about acting.
    And about tomorrow's shoot.
[16:29] Mao
    I want to think about the future, too.
[16:34] Mao
    About a way I can stay in your life forever.
[16:45] Hisashi
    Are you sleepy?
[16:47] Mao
    No.
[16:50] Hisashi
    One more time. I'll just use my hands.
[16:54] Mao
    Mm-hmm.
[17:11] Mao
    Good morning, Hisashi.
[17:12] Hisashi
    Morning, Mao.
[17:15] Hisashi
    This is bad. We're late. Wanna skip?
[17:20] Mao
    I'm not gonna skip.
    The shoot's after class.
[17:23] Hisashi
    Okay, then I'll hurry. My hair is a mess.
[17:28] Hisashi
    Huh?
[17:29] Hisashi
    Hey, is this thing rolling?
    There's a light on.
[17:33] Mao
    Okay, I'm ready to go. Hurry up, Hisashi.
[17:36] Hisashi
    Yeah, okay.
[17:38] Hisashi
    We're gonna have to run.
[17:40] Hisashi
    One second, Mao.
[17:57] Mao
    I'm sorry for all the trouble
    I caused yesterday.
[18:03] Hisashi
    Forget it. Nobody thinks it was your fault.
[18:07] Hisashi
    But are you feeling okay?
[18:08] Mao
    Wha—? What do you mean?
[18:11] Mao
    Physically, I'm fine.
[18:15] Giichi
    I mean, has something been bothering you?
[18:18] Giichi
    You've really been out of it recently.
    I've been worried about you.
[18:23] Giichi
    What?
[18:24] Runa
    Nothing. It's just... you actually
    do care about people?
[18:28] Giichi
    Oh, shut up!
[18:29] Giichi
    Of course a director cares about his team.
[18:34] Giichi
    We've gotta have each other's backs.
    Who knows? Next time could be me.
[18:38] Giichi
    And we've still have tons
    of challenges like this ahead.
[18:41] Giichi
    Even when someone makes
    a mistake, or trips up,
[18:45] Giichi
    we've got to keep filming together.
[18:50] Giichi
    But even if we shoot it right,
    it might never reach its audience.
[18:54] Giichi
    Maybe nobody will see it...
    or maybe they'll trash it...
[18:59] Giichi
    Oh, this sinking feeling!
[19:02] Runa
    Oh, he's entered his negative phase.
    Well, happens every time.
[19:05] Mao
    This is kind of early, though.
    It's usually after we wrap—
[19:08] Giichi
    Would you shut up?
    You know how sensitive I am!
[19:11] Runa
    Yeah, gotta have each other's backs.
[19:14] Mao
    I think I have you covered today.
    I feel like I can get the perfect shot.
[19:20] Mao
    I'm sure we'll keep repeating this
    over and over again.
[19:23] Mao
    We get all worked up for it,
    but then fail, get depressed...
[19:27] Mao
    But despite all that, once this one is done,
    we'll start making another new movie.
[19:32] Mao
    Because we want to reach someone.
    We want to change something
[19:36] Mao
    over and over again.
[19:37] Runa
    Hey, take a look at this!
[19:39] Runa
    Teru is talking to Otomo. That's so unusual!
[19:43] Giichi
    Whoa. It's been, what, maybe half a year
    since I've seen Teru open his mouth?
[19:48] Runa
    Nah, you're exaggerating.
[19:48] Mao
    I think Hisashi and I will change, too.
[19:50] Giichi
    Not at all.
[19:52] Mao
    Bit by bit. I have a feeling we will.
[19:56] Giichi
    Great light today, though. A honey-colored
    sunset that seems about to melt.
[20:00] Runa
    You're a poet now?
[20:02] Runa
    It is pretty, though.
[20:08] Runa
    Let's get started before we run out of light!
[20:10] members
    Okay!
[20:12] Runa
    Let's do a take!
[20:15] Mao
    Something will change. The idea
    does make me a little nervous,
[20:19] Mao
    but I'm not scared anymore.
[20:21] Giichi
    Everybody ready?
[20:24] Giichi
    Action!
[20:26] Mao
    I just need to center this moment
    and watch as it passes
[20:30] Mao
    without looking away,
    making sure they keep going.
[20:34] Mao
    "Would you let me start over?
    This time I'll do it for real."
[20:38] Mao
    The class president slowly nods,
    their shadows grow close,
[20:43] Mao
    and they kiss.
[20:46] Mao
    They share an unsteady embrace
    and then Otomo, embarrassed, blurts out,
[20:53] Mao
    "I like you... so much."
[20:59] Hisashi
    I like you. I really do.
[21:03] Mao
    I feel my heart skip a beat.
    The tip of my nose tingles.
[21:09] Mao
    The "Otomo" inside the camera looks so happy.
[21:13] Mao
    If his lines were different, he wouldn't
    have sounded nearly as blunt,
[21:17] Mao
    but I bet the director will go with this take.
[21:21] Mao
    That's why I've got to keep
    the camera rolling.
[21:25] Mao
    Even if tears well up in my eyes
    and everything goes out of focus,
[21:28] Mao
    even if everything becomes fuzzy,
    blurry, and indistinct,
[21:33] Mao
    I have to keep the camera rolling
    until they both melt into the twilight.
[21:40] Mao
    Yes. I like you, too.
[21:46] Giichi
    Cut! Okay!
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[23:35] Mao
    "Like the Movies."