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E9 - My Self in the Seashell

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[00:16] ---
    "your heart"
[00:20] ---
    Akari-chan's heart... is inside me?
[00:26] ---
    I hope this song can fill you with hope:
[00:31] ---
    "Only One Yell."
[00:43] ---
    Akari... what should I do?
[01:10] ---
    Our eyes are focused
    on the stage we dreamed of

[01:14] ---
    Keep moving forward one step at a time
[01:18] ---
    Anytime, anywhere;
    I knew I could do more

[01:23] ---
    I could fly higher than yesterday
[01:27] ---
    Tears fall down our cheeks,
    we stumble and fall ourselves

[01:31] ---
    Sometimes we even wanted to run away
[01:35] ---
    But hold onto that hope, don't give up
[01:38] ---
    That's right, it all starts here
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    Going! One day, I'll fly
[01:44] ---
    Going! anywhere I want
[01:47] ---
    Going! We always believed in this path
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    So we'll keep going down it,
    no matter what happens

[01:58] ---
    Going! I'm sure our dream will come true
[02:01] ---
    Going! So never stop
[02:03] ---
    Going! chasing after that dream
[02:07] ---
    It's our promise,
    so let's reach that wonderful place

[02:13] ---
    We're meant to shine up there
[02:20] ---
    Our glorious days!
[02:44] ---
    I'm sorry, can I try again?
[02:46] ---
    Is that stage really
    where you want to be, Rena?
[02:52] ---
    Do you really love singing, Rena?
[02:55] ---
    Do you truly want to sing
    from the bottom of your heart?
[03:14] ---
    ♬ One day, even on the days
    when it's raining hard ♬
[03:21] ---
    ♬ I hear a voice calling me ♬
[03:33] ---
    I'm so nervous about today's interview.
[03:36] ---
    Wow, I didn't think you
    got nervous, Uta-senpai.
[03:40] ---
    Since you're used to acting
    in TV shows and movies and all.
[03:45] ---
    I'll never be used to it. I get
    nervous even when I have a script.
[03:50] ---
    And there're no scripts
    for interviews. I just can't!
[03:53] ---
    Why don't you just
    be yourself, Uta-senpai?
[03:57] ---
    Be myself?
[03:59] ---
    I mean, that's why your
    Cheerers are voting for you,
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    not because you're playing a role,
    but because they like you.
[04:07] ---
    So you'll cheer me on?
[04:10] ---
    Of course!
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    And you won't vote me out?!
[04:13] ---
    Huh?!
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    Can we not talk about this?
[04:16] ---
    What? Why?! Are you going
    to vote for me, then?!
[04:20] ---
    I-I didn't say that!
[04:22] ---
    What about you, Suzune?
    Do you know who you're voting for?
[04:27] ---
    Why aren't you saying anything?
    Are you gonna vote for me or something?!
[04:32] ---
    Huh? Sorry, what'd you say, Uta-chan?
[04:36] ---
    Suzune-senpai, is everything okay?
[04:38] ---
    You came back late last night,
    so something must be off...
[04:42] ---
    No, I'm fine.
[04:48] ---
    "How Does Everyone Feel About the Vote?"
[04:51] ---
    "How do YOU feel about the vote?"
[04:54] ---
    I've lived my whole life with
    my many brothers and sisters.
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    We ate together, slept together,
    did everything together, really.
[05:05] ---
    So if someone told me to pick
    two of them to go away forever,
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    I just couldn't.
[05:13] ---
    I feel the same way about
    my fellow members in the Project.
[05:17] ---
    We're all friends now, and to me,
    we're like a second family.
[05:23] ---
    I know asking this will make
    some people mad, but...
[05:28] ---
    There's really not another way
    to weed two people out?
[05:33] ---
    "How are you feeling right now?"
[05:35] ---
    About the same, really.
[05:37] ---
    I've auditioned for tons of TV roles
    before and lost the parts.
[05:41] ---
    Losing here would be nothing new.
[05:45] ---
    I'm guessing the reason
    they're making us vote
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    is to test who's got
    what it takes to stay.
[05:55] ---
    So basically, I just need
    to stay strong and be honest.
[06:06] ---
    So I'm going to make my
    opinions known, loud and clear!
[06:12] ---
    "How are you feeling about
    the encroaching vote?"
[06:14] ---
    Ever since I was little,
    I've loved eating jingisukan.
[06:19] ---
    Have you heard of it?
[06:20] ---
    Typically, the meat is
    marinated and then grilled,
[06:25] ---
    but you can also grill the meat,
    then dip it in the marinade.
[06:29] ---
    It's super yummy! You all have to try it!
[06:33] ---
    I'm sure you can find a place
    near you that makes it!
[06:40] ---
    "Please talk about the VOTE!"
[06:42] ---
    Um, I'd really like to go have
    jingisukan with everyone someday.
[06:50] ---
    But not just that.
[06:52] ---
    I want to sing together
    with everyone again.
[06:57] ---
    We live all over the country, you know!
[07:03] ---
    This is the only chance we have!
[07:08] ---
    The only interview left is Rena-chan's.
[07:12] ---
    Yep. With the vote so close,
    we'd better schedule it while we can.
[07:18] ---
    Worst case scenario, we don't get her in.
[07:21] ---
    We can't let that happen.
[07:25] ---
    Rena-chan?
[07:26] ---
    She's not at the studio.
[07:28] ---
    Could she be in her room?
[07:31] ---
    What's up, Jun-chan?
[07:33] ---
    She apparently keeps
    putting off her interview.
[07:37] ---
    The crew's not sure what to do.
[07:39] ---
    I see. I'll try talking to her.
[07:43] ---
    Thanks, ma'am!
[07:59] ---
    Your interview was so good, Nodoka!
    I so agree with what you said!
[08:03] ---
    Really? We have to go get some
    dipping jingisukan together!
[08:07] ---
    I meant the last half.
[08:10] ---
    Where you said you wanted
    to sing together with us again.
[08:16] ---
    When we sang Naked Blue
    together in Round 2,
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    I felt we really came together,
    like, as a group!
[08:24] ---
    Yeah, me, too! That's why
    I want to sing together again!
[08:29] ---
    Same here.
[08:31] ---
    Right?
[08:32] ---
    But...
[08:33] ---
    We like, seriously have
    to be ready for whatever happens.
[08:38] ---
    I love everyone, and super
    wanna stay together,
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    but that doesn't change the fact
    that we still have to vote.
[08:46] ---
    You're right.
[08:51] ---
    Are we seriously cool with this?
[08:55] ---
    We're all here to make people smile,
    to make people happy.
[09:01] ---
    But they're making us do something
    to make someone cry...
[09:10] ---
    I saw your interviews. Seems the
    two of you have opposing thoughts.
[09:15] ---
    Do you already know who you're voting for?
[09:18] ---
    If the rules say I must vote,
    then I'll vote.
[09:22] ---
    I never expected all nine of us
    to make it through to this round.
[09:26] ---
    If you don't want to vote,
    you don't have to.
[09:30] ---
    They're not forcing you
    to go through these auditions.
[09:33] ---
    You're right.
[09:35] ---
    But if we don't vote,
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    then we'll be breaking the rules
    and get disqualified, right?
[09:40] ---
    I couldn't fathom making it this far
    and being disqualified like that.
[09:48] ---
    I'm here to clean your room!
[09:53] ---
    I'm coming in!
[09:56] ---
    Huh? Where could Rena-chan have gone?
[10:18] ---
    Rena-chan?
[10:20] ---
    There you are!
[10:22] ---
    Are you okay? The crew's
    getting worried about you.
[10:27] ---
    Yes, I'm fine. I'm sorry
    to make more work for you.
[10:31] ---
    Hold it.
[10:33] ---
    Mind if we have a little chat?
[10:39] ---
    Every year, I meet all sorts of girls.
[10:43] ---
    Everyone spends this one precious
    summer chasing their dreams.
[10:51] ---
    They worry, they fight,
    they get angry, they cry...
[10:57] ---
    But still, you're a mystery
    to me, Rena-chan.
[11:01] ---
    Most girls will open up their shells
[11:05] ---
    and polish the pearl inside them
    to a gleam to show everyone,
[11:08] ---
    in the hopes that that will
    get them to win each round.
[11:11] ---
    But not you.
[11:15] ---
    Your shell's been shut tight
    this entire time,
[11:18] ---
    and you haven't shown us
    that gleaming pearl at all.
[11:20] ---
    Why is that?
[11:23] ---
    Because I...
[11:24] ---
    I don't know if I have a pearl inside me.
[11:27] ---
    It could just be a rock.
[11:33] ---
    I don't think you've got
    a rock under that shell.
[11:57] ---
    "If singing vanished from the world,
    I couldn't live on--singing is my life!"
[12:04] ---
    "If singing vanished from the world,
    I couldn't live on--singing is my life!"
    Do you really love singing, Rena?
[12:07] ---
    Do you truly want to sing
    from the bottom of your heart?
[12:19] ---
    For the longest, longest time,
    I've dreamed of standing here.
[12:23] ---
    I love singing, and I love
    Akari Amasawa-chan, too.
[12:30] ---
    So I'm going to put my
    whole heart into my performance.
[12:34] ---
    Thank you for listening!
[12:51] ---
    So how did you get here?
    Was it your hard work and talent alone?
[12:57] ---
    Or is it because my sister is with you?
[13:01] ---
    Is it because you had her help?!
[13:05] ---
    I don't want to disappoint
    all the people who've given us Yells.
[13:10] ---
    I think that's the most
    important thing to us right now.
[13:24] ---
    I want to live on with all I have and
    smile so someone else can feel hopeful.
[13:31] ---
    That's the life I want to live!
[14:00] ---
    Rena-chan?
[14:03] ---
    I'm, uh... I'm so--
[14:06] ---
    I'm sorry.
[14:07] ---
    Huh?
[14:08] ---
    I'm sorry for what I said yesterday.
[14:11] ---
    That was really mean of me to say...
[14:14] ---
    No, it's all because of my letter.
[14:17] ---
    The donor and recipient aren't
    supposed to find out who they are...
[14:22] ---
    It's not your fault, Suzune-san.
[14:25] ---
    Especially...
[14:27] ---
    ...when I didn't join this world
    because I loved singing.
[14:32] ---
    I just wanted to follow
    in my sister's footsteps.
[14:35] ---
    Even though there's no way
    I could ever be like her.
[14:39] ---
    That's not true...
[14:41] ---
    But I'm not like you at all.
[14:44] ---
    You have what my sister had.
[14:47] ---
    She loved singing, and always
    put her heart into it.
[14:51] ---
    So I can say you made it this far
    all on your own ability, Suzune-san.
[14:57] ---
    You loved your sister, didn't you?
[15:01] ---
    Yes. I did. I still love her now.
[15:05] ---
    So I know I might sound like a hypocrite,
[15:10] ---
    but I really was happy to find out.
[15:12] ---
    Huh?
[15:13] ---
    To finally meet the person
    whose life she saved...
[15:17] ---
    I never thought I would.
[15:21] ---
    I just don't know how to react.
[15:29] ---
    Please, take this.
[15:34] ---
    Thank you so much for saving my life.
[15:41] ---
    Suzune-san...
[15:43] ---
    No... Suzune.
[15:48] ---
    I'll be rooting for you the whole way.
[15:52] ---
    Take care of my sister for me, okay?
[15:55] ---
    Huh?
[15:56] ---
    Take her to that stage she loved so much.
[16:02] ---
    I have to go. The crew is waiting for me.
[16:09] ---
    Rena said that?
[16:10] ---
    I hear she's doing her interview now.
[16:14] ---
    Oh, good, she is gonna do it!
[16:17] ---
    I wonder what she's gonna say.
[16:20] ---
    Okay, Rena-chan, we're ready!
[16:23] ---
    Okay.
[16:28] ---
    Rolling in five, four, three, two...
[16:43] ---
    Hey, welcome back, Suzune-chan!
[16:45] ---
    We're watching everyone's interviews.
[16:47] ---
    Rena's the only one missing now.
[16:49] ---
    Where is Rena-chan?
[16:50] ---
    She's not back yet.
[16:52] ---
    Wonder where she went.
[16:54] ---
    Maybe she was embarrassed
    to watch them with us.
[16:58] ---
    Welp, let's start it without her, then.
[17:06] ---
    "How are you feeling right now?"
[17:08] ---
    Selection Project started its run
    seven years ago with Season 1.
[17:14] ---
    Out of all the hopefuls nationwide,
    one girl won the whole thing:
[17:19] ---
    my big sister, Akari Amasawa.
[17:23] ---
    For as long as I can remember,
    I thought of her as the nicest,
[17:27] ---
    cutest, sweetest sister a girl
    could ever have asked for.
[17:31] ---
    I dressed like her, even tried
    to match her handwriting.
[17:34] ---
    She loved strawberries,
    so they became my favorite, too.
[17:39] ---
    But one day, I started having less
    and less time to spend with her...
[17:45] ---
    Because she wasn't just mine anymore.
    She was everyone's idol.
[17:49] ---
    I was sad at first, but I started to like
    Akari Amasawa more and more,
[17:55] ---
    and soon, I was trying
    to be her biggest fan.
[17:59] ---
    I even bought all her merch.
[18:02] ---
    It was then that she said something
    that has always stayed with me.
[18:08] ---
    "Singing is my life."
[18:10] ---
    I could never say those
    words myself, not now.
[18:15] ---
    Because no matter how much
    I love my sister,
[18:17] ---
    I could never match her love for singing.
[18:20] ---
    I've walked the same road she did,
[18:22] ---
    and come to the Selection Project,
    in pursuit of a goal:
[18:25] ---
    to know how it felt when
    my sister stood up on that stage.
[18:31] ---
    But that's not a good enough
    reason to be here.
[18:33] ---
    Everyone is betting their lives on
    making their idol dream come true.
[18:39] ---
    All I'm doing is trying to be my sister.
[18:42] ---
    I don't have the right to stand
    with them on that stage.
[18:45] ---
    I don't have the right to shove them
    aside to get up there myself.
[18:52] ---
    I can't say I want to sing up there...
[18:55] ---
    ...because I don't really have a reason.
[18:59] ---
    Rena-chan?
[19:03] ---
    Thank you so much for
    giving me your Yells, everyone.
[19:10] ---
    What's up with Rena? What happened?
[19:14] ---
    That last sentence sounded
    kind of like an apology.
[19:18] ---
    But Rena-senpai hasn't done anything
    she needs to apologize for.
[19:22] ---
    Maybe she doesn't feel like
    competing anymore.
[19:28] ---
    That's why she's making it
    easy for us to vote for her.
[19:32] ---
    Even if she is, are you
    going to vote for her, Nagisa?
[19:36] ---
    If we voted out Rena and made our debut,
[19:39] ---
    would you really be able to stand up
    on that stage with a smile?
[19:41] ---
    I...
[19:43] ---
    I couldn't.
[19:45] ---
    Listening to Rena's interview
    cinched it for me.
[19:48] ---
    There's no way I could smile
    on stage with any of us missing!
[19:53] ---
    Same. I can't go on with
    a family member missing.
[19:57] ---
    But Rena-chan just said she might not
    have a reason to sing at all...
[20:02] ---
    If Rena's lost her motivation, then
    there's not much we can do about that.
[20:07] ---
    We might as well vote for her
    to make things easier on her.
[20:12] ---
    Shiori-senpai, do you think
    it's okay to vote for her, then?!
[20:16] ---
    I-I meant hypothetically!
    I certainly wouldn't go that far!
[20:21] ---
    Still, if she really
    doesn't want to go on,
[20:25] ---
    forcing her to would
    just be cruel, wouldn't it?
[20:31] ---
    I think Rena-chan is just
    really unsure of what to do.
[20:36] ---
    She doesn't know what her goal is.
[20:41] ---
    Because she's been following
    after her sister all this time.
[20:46] ---
    We've all made it this far, though...
[20:49] ---
    But I can say one thing.
[20:51] ---
    We've gotta put on a smile,
[20:54] ---
    or we won't be able
    to fill anyone with hope.
[21:13] ---
    One day, even on the days
    when it's raining hard

[21:20] ---
    I hear a voice calling me
[21:23] ---
    You were always by my side,
    no matter what

[21:28] ---
    To keep me focused forward
    and moving ahead

[21:34] ---
    If I get to stand on the
    stage of my dreams one day

[21:40] ---
    I know when I'm up there
[21:45] ---
    I'll think of your face
[21:49] ---
    Let my song, let my voice connect
    with those precious memories

[21:56] ---
    I never realized how much
    they'd supported me

[22:00] ---
    Let my song, let my voice ring out
    far across the distance

[22:06] ---
    Every last one of these warm emotions
[22:11] ---
    Your feelings will give me hope
[22:16] ---
    For my dreams to come true,
    I need Only One Yell!

[22:33] ---
    Okay, girls, your fateful moment is here!
[22:38] ---
    Will those who've made their
    decisions come forward and vote!
[22:46] ---
    Never in any season have
    we had all nine make it this far!
[22:49] ---
    Now, these record-breaking girls will
    put their fate into black and white!
[22:53] ---
    From the regional finals until now,
[22:57] ---
    their journey is approaching its finale!
[23:08] ---
    Just one vote could change
    the course of their lives forever!
[23:26] ---
    Only seven get to stay!
[23:29] ---
    Two have to go!
[23:33] ---
    Who will it be?!
[23:38] ---
    "My Self in the Seashell"