# E9 - My Self in the Seashell
Source: [Crunchyroll](https://www.crunchyroll.com/watch/GG1U28KEG/my-self-in-the-seashell)
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"your heart"
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Akari-*chan*'s heart... is inside me?
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I hope this song can fill you with hope:
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"Only One Yell."
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Akari... what should I do?
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*Our eyes are focused
on the stage we dreamed of*
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*Keep moving forward one step at a time*
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*Anytime, anywhere;
I knew I could do more*
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*I could fly higher than yesterday*
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*Tears fall down our cheeks,
we stumble and fall ourselves*
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*Sometimes we even wanted to run away*
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*But hold onto that hope, don't give up*
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*That's right, it all starts here*
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*Going! One day, I'll fly*
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*Going! anywhere I want*
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*Going! We always believed in this path*
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*So we'll keep going down it,
no matter what happens*
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*Going! I'm sure our dream will come true*
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*Going! So never stop*
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*Going! chasing after that dream*
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*It's our promise,
so let's reach that wonderful place*
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*We're meant to shine up there*
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*Our glorious days!*
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I'm sorry, can I try again?
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Is that stage really
where you want to be, Rena?
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Do you really love singing, Rena?
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Do you truly want to sing
from the bottom of your heart?
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♬ One day, even on the days
when it's raining hard ♬
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♬ I hear a voice calling me ♬
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I'm so nervous about today's interview.
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Wow, I didn't think *you*
got nervous, Uta-*senpai*.
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Since you're used to acting
in TV shows and movies and all.
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I'll never be used to it. I get
nervous even when I have a script.
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And there're no scripts
for interviews. I just can't!
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Why don't you just
be yourself, Uta-*senpai*?
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Be myself?
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I mean, that's why your
Cheerers are voting for you,
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not because you're playing a role,
but because they like *you*.
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So you'll cheer me on?
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Of course!
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And you won't vote me out?!
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Huh?!
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Can we not talk about this?
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What? Why?! Are you going
to vote for me, then?!
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I-I didn't say that!
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What about you, Suzune?
Do you know who you're voting for?
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Why aren't you saying anything?
Are you gonna vote for me or something?!
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Huh? Sorry, what'd you say, Uta-*chan*?
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Suzune-*senpai*, is everything okay?
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You came back late last night,
so something must be off...
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No, I'm fine.
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"How Does Everyone Feel About the Vote?"
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"How do YOU feel about the vote?"
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I've lived my whole life with
my many brothers and sisters.
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We ate together, slept together,
did everything together, really.
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So if someone told me to pick
two of them to go away forever,
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I just couldn't.
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I feel the same way about
my fellow members in the *Project*.
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We're all friends now, and to me,
we're like a second family.
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I know asking this will make
some people mad, but...
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There's really not another way
to weed two people out?
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"How are you feeling right now?"
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About the same, really.
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I've auditioned for tons of TV roles
before and lost the parts.
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Losing here would be nothing new.
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I'm guessing the reason
they're making us vote
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is to test who's got
what it takes to stay.
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So basically, I just need
to stay strong and be honest.
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So I'm going to make my
opinions known, loud and clear!
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"How are you feeling about
the encroaching vote?"
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Ever since I was little,
I've loved eating *jingisukan*.
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Have you heard of it?
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Typically, the meat is
marinated and then grilled,
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but you can also grill the meat,
then dip it in the marinade.
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It's super yummy! You all have to try it!
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I'm sure you can find a place
near you that makes it!
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"Please talk about the VOTE!"
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Um, I'd really like to go have
*jingisukan* with everyone someday.
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But not just that.
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I want to sing together
with everyone again.
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We live all over the country, you know!
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This is the only chance we have!
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The only interview left is Rena-*chan*'s.
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Yep. With the vote so close,
we'd better schedule it while we can.
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Worst case scenario, we don't get her in.
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We can't let that happen.
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Rena-*chan*?
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She's not at the studio.
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Could she be in her room?
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What's up, Jun-*chan*?
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She apparently keeps
putting off her interview.
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The crew's not sure what to do.
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I see. I'll try talking to her.
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Thanks, ma'am!
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Your interview was so good, Nodoka!
I so agree with what you said!
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Really? We have to go get some
dipping *jingisukan* together!
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I meant the last half.
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Where you said you wanted
to sing together with us again.
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When we sang Naked Blue
together in Round 2,
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I felt we really came together,
like, as a group!
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Yeah, me, too! That's why
I want to sing together again!
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Same here.
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Right?
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But...
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We like, seriously have
to be ready for whatever happens.
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I love everyone, and super
wanna stay together,
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but that doesn't change the fact
that we still have to vote.
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You're right.
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Are we seriously cool with this?
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We're all here to make people smile,
to make people happy.
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But they're making us do something
to make someone cry...
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I saw your interviews. Seems the
two of you have opposing thoughts.
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Do you already know who you're voting for?
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If the rules say I must vote,
then I'll vote.
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I never expected all nine of us
to make it through to this round.
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If you don't want to vote,
you don't have to.
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They're not forcing you
to go through these auditions.
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You're right.
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But if we don't vote,
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then we'll be breaking the rules
and get disqualified, right?
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I couldn't fathom making it this far
and being disqualified like that.
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I'm here to clean your room!
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I'm coming in!
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Huh? Where could Rena-*chan* have gone?
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Rena-*chan*?
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There you are!
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Are you okay? The crew's
getting worried about you.
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Yes, I'm fine. I'm sorry
to make more work for you.
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Hold it.
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Mind if we have a little chat?
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Every year, I meet all sorts of girls.
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Everyone spends this one precious
summer chasing their dreams.
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They worry, they fight,
they get angry, they cry...
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But still, you're a mystery
to me, Rena-*chan*.
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Most girls will open up their shells
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and polish the pearl inside them
to a gleam to show everyone,
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in the hopes that that will
get them to win each round.
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But not you.
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Your shell's been shut tight
this entire time,
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and you haven't shown us
that gleaming pearl at all.
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Why is that?
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Because I...
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I don't know if I have a pearl inside me.
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It could just be a rock.
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I don't think you've got
a rock under that shell.
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"If singing vanished from the world,
I couldn't live on--singing is my life!"
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"If singing vanished from the world,
I couldn't live on--singing is my life!"
Do you really love singing, Rena?
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Do you truly want to sing
from the bottom of your heart?
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For the longest, longest time,
I've dreamed of standing here.
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I love singing, and I love
Akari Amasawa-*chan*, too.
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So I'm going to put my
whole heart into my performance.
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Thank you for listening!
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So how did you get here?
Was it your hard work and talent alone?
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Or is it because my sister is with you?
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Is it because you had her help?!
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I don't want to disappoint
all the people who've given us Yells.
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I think that's the most
important thing to us right now.
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I want to live on with all I have and
smile so someone else can feel hopeful.
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That's the life I want to live!
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Rena-*chan*?
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I'm, uh... I'm so--
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I'm sorry.
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Huh?
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I'm sorry for what I said yesterday.
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That was really mean of me to say...
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No, it's all because of my letter.
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The donor and recipient aren't
supposed to find out who they are...
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It's not your fault, Suzune-*san*.
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Especially...
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...when I didn't join this world
because I loved singing.
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I just wanted to follow
in my sister's footsteps.
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Even though there's no way
I could ever be like her.
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That's not true...
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But I'm not like you at all.
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You have what my sister had.
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She loved singing, and always
put her heart into it.
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So I can say you made it this far
all on your own ability, Suzune-san.
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You loved your sister, didn't you?
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Yes. I did. I still love her now.
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So I know I might sound like a hypocrite,
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but I really was happy to find out.
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Huh?
**[15:13] ---**
To finally meet the person
whose life she saved...
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I never thought I would.
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I just don't know how to react.
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Please, take this.
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Thank you so much for saving my life.
**[15:41] ---**
Suzune-*san*...
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No... Suzune.
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I'll be rooting for you the whole way.
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Take care of my sister for me, okay?
**[15:55] ---**
Huh?
**[15:56] ---**
Take her to that stage she loved so much.
**[16:02] ---**
I have to go. The crew is waiting for me.
**[16:09] ---**
Rena said that?
**[16:10] ---**
I hear she's doing her interview now.
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Oh, good, she *is* gonna do it!
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I wonder what she's gonna say.
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Okay, Rena-*chan*, we're ready!
**[16:23] ---**
Okay.
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Rolling in five, four, three, two...
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Hey, welcome back, Suzune-*chan*!
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We're watching everyone's interviews.
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Rena's the only one missing now.
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Where is Rena-*chan*?
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She's not back yet.
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Wonder where she went.
**[16:54] ---**
Maybe she was embarrassed
to watch them with us.
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Welp, let's start it without her, then.
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"How are you feeling right now?"
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*Selection Project* started its run
seven years ago with Season 1.
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Out of all the hopefuls nationwide,
one girl won the whole thing:
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my big sister, Akari Amasawa.
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For as long as I can remember,
I thought of her as the nicest,
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cutest, sweetest sister a girl
could ever have asked for.
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I dressed like her, even tried
to match her handwriting.
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She loved strawberries,
so they became my favorite, too.
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But one day, I started having less
and less time to spend with her...
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Because she wasn't just mine anymore.
She was everyone's idol.
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I was sad at first, but I started to like
Akari Amasawa more and more,
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and soon, I was trying
to be her biggest fan.
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I even bought all her merch.
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It was then that she said something
that has always stayed with me.
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"Singing is my life."
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I could never say those
words myself, not now.
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Because no matter how much
I love my sister,
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I could never match her love for singing.
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I've walked the same road she did,
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and come to the *Selection Project*,
in pursuit of a goal:
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to know how it felt when
my sister stood up on that stage.
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But that's not a good enough
reason to be here.
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Everyone is betting their lives on
making their idol dream come true.
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All I'm doing is trying to be my sister.
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I don't have the right to stand
with them on that stage.
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I don't have the right to shove them
aside to get up there myself.
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I can't say I want to sing up there...
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...because I don't really have a reason.
**[18:59] ---**
Rena-*chan*?
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Thank you so much for
giving me your Yells, everyone.
**[19:10] ---**
What's up with Rena? What happened?
**[19:14] ---**
That last sentence sounded
kind of like an apology.
**[19:18] ---**
But Rena-*senpai* hasn't done anything
she needs to apologize for.
**[19:22] ---**
Maybe she doesn't feel like
competing anymore.
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That's why she's making it
easy for us to vote for her.
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Even if she is, are you
going to vote for her, Nagisa?
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If we voted out Rena and made our debut,
**[19:39] ---**
would you really be able to stand up
on that stage with a smile?
**[19:41] ---**
I...
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I couldn't.
**[19:45] ---**
Listening to Rena's interview
cinched it for me.
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There's no way I could smile
on stage with any of us missing!
**[19:53] ---**
Same. I can't go on with
a family member missing.
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But Rena-*chan* just said she might not
have a reason to sing at all...
**[20:02] ---**
If Rena's lost her motivation, then
there's not much we can do about that.
**[20:07] ---**
We might as well vote for her
to make things easier on her.
**[20:12] ---**
Shiori-*senpai*, do you think
it's okay to vote for her, then?!
**[20:16] ---**
I-I meant hypothetically!
I certainly wouldn't go that far!
**[20:21] ---**
Still, if she really
doesn't want to go on,
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forcing her to would
just be cruel, wouldn't it?
**[20:31] ---**
I think Rena-*chan* is just
really unsure of what to do.
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She doesn't know what her goal is.
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Because she's been following
after her sister all this time.
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We've all made it this far, though...
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But I can say one thing.
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We've gotta put on a smile,
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or we won't be able
to fill anyone with hope.
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*One day, even on the days
when it's raining hard*
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*I hear a voice calling me*
**[21:23] ---**
*You were always by my side,
no matter what*
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*To keep me focused forward
and moving ahead*
**[21:34] ---**
*If I get to stand on the
stage of my dreams one day*
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*I know when I'm up there*
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*I'll think of your face*
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*Let my song, let my voice connect
with those precious memories*
**[21:56] ---**
*I never realized how much
they'd supported me*
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*Let my song, let my voice ring out
far across the distance*
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*Every last one of these warm emotions*
**[22:11] ---**
*Your feelings will give me hope*
**[22:16] ---**
*For my dreams to come true,
I need Only One Yell!*
**[22:33] ---**
Okay, girls, your fateful moment is here!
**[22:38] ---**
Will those who've made their
decisions come forward and vote!
**[22:46] ---**
Never in any season have
we had all nine make it this far!
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Now, these record-breaking girls will
put their fate into black and white!
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From the regional finals until now,
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their journey is approaching its finale!
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Just one vote could change
the course of their lives forever!
**[23:26] ---**
Only seven get to stay!
**[23:29] ---**
Two have to go!
**[23:33] ---**
Who will it be?!
**[23:38] ---**
"My Self in the Seashell"