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E7 - Higashira Isana Doesn't Know What Love Is

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[00:01] Yume
    When I made my confession...
[00:03] Yume
    We'd been spending every day of summer
    break together at the school library.
[00:07] Yume
    On the last day before second term,
    I professed my feelings in a love letter.
[00:11] Yume
    It's customary to leave such letters
    in the recipient's shoe cubby.
[00:17] Yume
    Naturally, that was my intention.
[00:20] Yume
    However, when the time finally came,
    I lost my nerve.
[00:24] Yume
    And before I could recover, he walked in.
[00:27] Yume
    All I could do was watch as he changed shoes.
[00:31] Yume
    My mind raced as we made
    our way to the library together.
[00:35] Yume
    "What do I do?
    Should I try again tomorrow?"
[00:38] Yume
    "No, I can't. This is the
    last day of summer break."
SIGN    Thursday, August 27th
[00:41] Yume
    "If I don't tell him now,
    I'll never get the chance again."
[00:44] Yume
    If only I'd found my resolve sooner...
[00:50] Yume
    The reason I'd defaulted
    to such an old-fashioned tradition
[00:54] Yume
    was simply because I hadn't the
    courage to confess to him directly.
[00:58] Yume
    As I waited for him to read my letter,
[01:01] Yume
    I was overcome with regret and
    thoughts of self-loathing.
[01:04] Yume
    "This sucks. I wanna run away.
    I wanna go home."
[01:07] Yume
    And after what felt like an eternity,
    he finally looked up and said...
[01:13] (Flashback) Mizuto
    I don't think I truly deserve your affection,
[01:16] (Flashback) Mizuto
    but I'm excited to be your boyfriend.
[01:19] Yume
    And so, in the summer of my
    second year at middle school,
[01:21] Yume
    I got what you might call a boyfriend.
[01:26] Yume
    Looking back, I can only describe it
    as youthful indiscretion.
SIGN    My Stepmom's
    Daughter Is
    My Ex
SIGN    Higashira Isana Doesn't Know What Love Is
SIGN    We know your secret. If you don*'t want people to find out,
     come to the place shown below after school*. Alone.
[03:08] Isana
    "We know your secret."
[03:11] Isana
    "If you don't want people to find out,
[03:12] Isana
    come to the place shown
    below after school. Alone."
[03:18] Waitress
    Welcome!
[03:19] Waitress
    Table for one, is it?
[03:21] Isana
    U-Um...
[03:22] Akatsuki
    Table for three!
SIGN    We know your secret. If you don*'t want people to find out,
     come to the place shown below after school*. Alone.
SIGN    Here
[03:28] Yume
    Sorry, Higashira-san.
[03:30] Yume
    Akatsuki-san only meant the note as a prank.
[03:32] Yume
    There's nothing to be scared of.
[03:34] Isana
    I-It was just a prank?
[03:37] Isana
    You're not blackmailing me?
[03:38] Yume
    Of course not!
[03:40] Yume
    Why don't I pay for your drinks?
    What do you say?
[03:42] Akatsuki
    But we weren't lying about
    knowing your little secret.
[03:48] Akatsuki
    Know what I mean?
[03:50] Isana
    W-Well, if I had to guess...
[03:52] Isana
    Could it be you found the VTuber channel
    I did a test stream of a while back?
SIGN    CHAT
SIGN    Izanami Homura
SIGN    Test
SIGN    Views
SIGN    Like Dislike Share Clip Save
[03:57] Yume
    That's not even in the ballpark!
[03:58] Akatsuki
    That's way more out there
    than what we've got!
[04:01] Isana
    Th-That wasn't it?!
[04:03] Isana
    Shoot! Does that mean I spilled
     the beans on myself?
[04:07] Akatsuki
    Well, putting aside your embarrassing past...
[04:10] Akatsuki
    Higashira-san,
     you like Mizuto-kun, don't you?
[04:14] Isana
    Huh?
[04:15] Isana
    Well, of course I do.
[04:20] Akatsuki
    Oh... Uh...
[04:22] Yume
    Higashira-san.
[04:24] Yume
    Akatsuki-san doesn't mean you like him
    as a friend. She means romantically.
[04:28] Isana
    R-Romantically? You mean
    like in those romcoms?
[04:32] Yume
    That's it.
[04:34] Akatsuki
    Think "love."
[04:36] Isana
    You think I love Mizuto-kun?
[04:40] Isana
    I'm sorry, but you've got the wrong idea.
[04:45] Akatsuki
    Yume-chan, if you'd be so kind...
SIGN    Edit
[04:51] Akatsuki
    Wait for it...
[04:53] Akatsuki
    We've got video too!
SIGN    Done
[04:57] Akatsuki
    Just imagine it.
[04:59] Akatsuki
    Let's say Irido-kun were to...
[05:01] Akatsuki
    Psst, psst...
[05:02] Akatsuki
    Psst, psst, psst, psst, psst...
[05:04] Akatsuki
    Psst, psst, psst, psst...
[05:06] Akatsuki
    Psst, psst... Psst, psst, psst...
[05:10] Akatsuki
    Gotcha!
[05:13] Isana
    Th-That's what I look like right now?
SIGN    But I look like a harlot, of all things!
[05:18] Akatsuki
    Well? Do you admit it now?
[05:24] Isana
    ...for him?
[05:26] Isana
    Do you really think I have feelings for him?
[05:32] Yume & Akatsuki
    Huh?
[05:34] Isana
    I h-honestly couldn't tell you myself.
[05:36] Isana
    I've never experienced anything
     of the sort before in my life.
[05:40] Akatsuki
    What?! Are you for real?
[05:42] Yume
    Your first crush? At this age?
[05:47] Akatsuki
    Wow. That's, like, so...
[05:48] Yume
    Interesting. Nostalgic, even.
[05:51] Akatsuki
    Well, now that that's settled,
    we can finally get down to business.
[05:55] Isana
    What business?
[05:56] Akatsuki
    Higashira-san...
[05:58] Akatsuki
    We're gonna help you land
    a date with Mizuto-kun!
[06:01] Akatsuki
    Both me and Yume-chan!
[06:03] Yume & Isana
    What?!
[06:05] Yume
    U-Um, Akatsuki-san?
    I never said anything about helping...
[06:09] Akatsuki
    Whaddya say, Higashira-san?
[06:11] Akatsuki
    I doubt you'd be able to find a better
    duo for the job than Yume-chan and me.
[06:17] Isana
    No, that's okay...
[06:19] Akatsuki
    Huh? Why not?
[06:21] Isana
    I wasn't lying when I said
    I like him as a friend.
[06:25] Isana
    I'm quite happy just being able
    to talk like we have been.
[06:30] Isana
    A-And besides...
[06:31] Isana
    If I were to pursue anything more,
    I'd just end up looking pathetic.
[06:36] Yume
    Zero confidence in herself.
[06:38] Yume
    Convinced that nothing
    she does is good enough.
[06:41] Yume
    Avoiding everything because of it.
[06:43] Yume
    Determined to maintain the status quo,
    even when she's unhappy with it...
[06:48] Yume
    She's basically who I was
    back in middle school.
[06:52] Yume
    Don't throw in the towel before you try!
[06:54] Yume
    Save that for when you've
    exhausted all possibilities!
[06:58] Yume
    You want to be his girlfriend, don't you?
[07:00] Yume
    You want to be more than friends, don't you?
[07:03] Yume
    Well, it could happen if you ask him out!
[07:05] Yume
    You could walk to and from school
    holding hands every day.
[07:08] Yume
    You could go on dates together.
[07:10] Yume
    You could exchange gifts on Christmas, too!
[07:13] Yume
    If you catch a cold,
    he could wait on you hand and foot.
[07:17] Yume
    Well?! All of that could be your life!
[07:20] Yume
    Knowing that,
    are you still content just being friends?
[07:25] Isana
    I w-wanna be his girlfriend.
[07:28] Isana
    I w-wanna flirt with him.
[07:30] Isana
    I want him to tell me he likes me.
[07:31] Isana
    I w-wanna be more than just friends with him.
[07:38] Akatsuki
    All right.
[07:39] Akatsuki
    Then it's settled!
[07:41] Akatsuki
    Our mission starts bright and early tomorrow!
[07:43] Akatsuki; Yume & Isana
    Yeah!
[07:46] Yume
    Wait... Am I really okay with this?
[07:55] Isana
    So, what would you have me do, exactly?
[07:58] Akatsuki
    First, we need to assess the situation.
[08:00] Akatsuki
    We'll observe how you two normally interact
[08:03] Akatsuki
    and target his weak point from there.
[08:05] Isana
    His weak point? Are you sure
    Mizuto-kun has one of those?
[08:08] Yume
    Why are you asking me?
[08:10] Akatsuki
    Sure he does!
[08:12] Akatsuki
    No matter how uninterested
     Irido-kun pretends to be,
[08:14] Akatsuki
    with a boy and a girl,
[08:16] Akatsuki
    there's always a way!
[08:18] Isana
    Are you sure about that?
[08:19] Yume
    Are you quite certain?
[08:21] Akatsuki
    Well, we're assessing the situation
    to find out, aren't we?
[08:24] Akatsuki
    Come on, you two! Let's ready up!
SIGN    Library
SIGN    Haganai:
    I Don't Have
     Many Friends
SIGN    TIME-LAPSE SLO-MO VIDEO PHOTO SQUARE PAN
[08:38] Akatsuki
    I can't believe Irido-kun hasn't taken
    one look when her boobs are right there.
SIGN    Haganai: I Don't Have
     Many Friends
[08:43] Yume
    You're right.
[08:45] Yume
    I'm starting to feel sorry
    for her at this point.
SIGN    Haganai: I Don't Have
     Many Friends
SIGN    Haganai:
    I Don't Have
     Many Friends
[08:53] Yume
    What? What's wrong?
[08:54] Akatsuki
    That! Right there!
SIGN    TIME-LAPSE SLO-MO VIDEO PHOTO SQUARE PAN
[08:57] Yume
    O-Oh no...
[08:59] Mizuto
    Hey, Higashira.
[09:00] Isana
    Yes?
[09:01] Akatsuki
    Th-This is bad!
[09:03] Mizuto
    I can see your underwear.
[09:06] Isana
    Th-Thanks for telling me.
[09:09] Isana
    U-Um... I'm gonna go to the restroom!
[09:13] Isana
    Erm...
[09:14] Isana
    Do you think he sees me as
    girlfriend material at all?
[09:18] Yume & Akatsuki
    Not one bit.
[09:20] Isana
    I thought not.
[09:23] Akatsuki
    Looks like we're gonna have to get physical
    to make him appreciate your womanly charm.
[09:28] Isana
    What do you mean by "physical"?
[09:30] Akatsuki
    Don't act all innocent with me, young lady.
[09:33] Akatsuki
    I'm talking about those mighty
    melons you're packing!
[09:36] Akatsuki
    Whoa, they're sho amazhing!
[09:38] Isana
    C-Could you stop that, please?
[09:42] Yume
    You really think that's going to work?
[09:44] Akatsuki
    As I was saying,
    quantity over quality, right?
[09:47] Akatsuki
    The more he touches them,
    the more he'll think about them.
[09:52] Akatsuki
    There's not a guy in the world who'd
    forget touching a boob, right?
[09:55] Akatsuki
    So let's get to it, shall we?
SIGN    Library
[10:02] Mizuto
    You okay? Got an upset tummy or something?
[10:05] Isana
    N-No, no need to worry.
[10:07] Yume
    Can you believe this guy?
[10:09] Akatsuki
    Now, now.
[10:10] Akatsuki
    Okay! Go for it, Higashira-san!
[10:13] Isana
    M-Mizuto-kun, could you take
     a look at this part?
[10:16] Mizuto
    Hmm? What part?
[10:18] Isana
    Th-This part. Right here.
[10:20] Yume
    She really did it!
SIGN    TIME-LAPSE SLO-MO VIDEO PHOTO SQUARE PAN
[10:23] Akatsuki
    Well? How about that?!
[10:24] Mizuto
    Higashira.
[10:26] Isana
    Y-Yes?
[10:28] Mizuto
    Your breasts are touching me.
[10:31] Yume & Akatsuki
    This guy...
[10:33] Isana
    That would be the point.
[10:35] Mizuto
    Huh?
[10:37] Yume & Akatsuki
    Huh?
SIGN    Haganai: I Don't Have Many Friends
    Yomi Hirasaka
[10:39] Isana
    Since you seem to favor the less endowed,
[10:41] ---
    I thought I'd take it upon
    myself to convert you.
[10:44] Isana
    Come now.
[10:46] Isana
    Feast your senses on the
    voluptuous female figure.
SIGN    TIME-LAPSE SLO-MO VIDEO PHOTO SQUARE PAN
[10:49] Mizuto
    H-Hey, quit it already!
[10:51] Yume
    But that face...
[10:54] Akatsuki
    Show him that instead.
[10:56] Akatsuki
    You chickened out, huh?
    Right back to the friend zone.
[10:58] Isana
    I may have feelings for Mizuto-kun,
    but he is still my friend.
[11:02] Isana
    Is it wrong of me to have
    a crush on a friend?
[11:05] Isana
    Does liking someone really mean I
    have to give up their friendship?
[11:09] Yume
    Akatsuki-san and I consider
    the people we like to be special.
[11:15] Yume
    We don't think of them as friends,
    but as something far more precious.
[11:21] Yume
    But that isn't the case for Higashira-san.
[11:23] Yume
    To her, liking someone is just
    an extension of friendship.
[11:28] Yume
    She doesn't believe having feelings
[11:30] Yume
    for someone is a reason
    to sacrifice friendship with them.
[11:34] Yume
    That's who she is.
[11:37] Yume
    I'm sorry, Higashira-san.
[11:40] Yume
    We won't ask you to change
     how you act anymore.
[11:42] Yume
    I think you're better off staying
    true to yourself anyway.
[11:46] Yume
    Right, Akatsuki-san?
[11:47] Akatsuki
    I think you're right.
[11:49] Isana
    Th-That's a relief.
[11:50] Akatsuki
    But the fact remains...
[11:52] Akatsuki
    Your lack of confidence still
    isn't doing you a ton of favors.
[11:56] Isana
    My lack of confidence?
[11:58] Akatsuki
    If you believed in yourself a little more,
[12:02] Akatsuki
    Irido-kun would start looking
     at you differently for sure.
[12:05] Akatsuki
    And on that note...
[12:07] Akatsuki
    It's time for Higashira-san's
    special makeover!
[12:11] Yume & Isana
    Makeover...?
SIGN    My Stepmom's Daughter Is My Ex
SIGN    Haganai: I Don't Have
     Many Friends
[12:16] Isana
    M-Mizuto-kun?
SIGN    TIME-LAPSE SLO-MO VIDEO PHOTO SQUARE PAN
[12:26] Akatsuki
    All right, now we've got this in the bag.
[12:30] Yume
    I hope so.
[12:31] Mizuto
    Higashira, your...
[12:33] Isana
    Y-Yes?
[12:34] Mizuto
    What's up with your lips?
[12:36] Mizuto
    Did you eat fried chicken or something?
[12:40] Mizuto
    You'll gain weight if you eat
    too much fatty food, you know?
[12:43] Mizuto
    You should be more careful.
SIGN    TIME-LAPSE SLO-MO VIDEO PHOTO SQUARE PAN
[12:46] Akatsuki
    I wouldn't say this to
    Higashira-san's face...
[12:49] Akatsuki
    But I have no idea what
    on earth she sees in him.
[12:52] Yume
    S-Same here.
[12:58] Akatsuki
    Go, go!
[13:13] Yume
    H-Has he...
[13:15] Akatsuki
    Finally taken notice of her?!
[13:22] Isana
    Why do you keep moving away, Mizuto-kun?
[13:26] Mizuto
    I like my personal space.
[13:29] Mizuto
    If you invade any further,
    all that awaits you is hell.
[13:36] Isana
    Well, well.
[13:37] Isana
    Why don't you show me
    this "hell" you speak of?
SIGN    Haganai: I Don't Have Many Friends
    Yomi Hirasaka Buriki
[13:44] Isana
    Wh-What are you doing?!
[13:46] Mizuto
    I'm showing you hell.
[13:49] Mizuto
    Aren't you happy? Now you can
    practice fixing your hair.
[13:52] Akatsuki
    He's totally...
[13:54] Yume
    He's hiding his embarrassment.
[13:56] Isana
    Th-This is bullying!
[13:59] Isana
    Bullying, I tell you!
[14:01] Mizuto
    You might be right.
[14:02] Isana
    In that case...
[14:03] Isana
    You should get bullied too.
[14:07] Mizuto
    If you insist.
[14:22] Isana
    There's no way!
[14:23] Isana
    I can't confess. It's too soon!
[14:26] Yume
    Maybe we should give her a
    little more time, Akatsuki-san.
[14:31] Yume
    I'm sure she needs to prepare mentally.
[14:33] Isana
    Sh-She's right! I'm not prepared at all!
[14:36] Akatsuki
    Then prepare yourself right now.
[14:38] Isana
    What?
[14:39] Akatsuki
    Listen up.
[14:40] Akatsuki
    If you can't psych yourself
    up right now, you never will.
[14:44] Akatsuki
    Quit expecting your future self
    to do all the heavy lifting.
[14:47] Akatsuki
    Never put off till tomorrow
    what can be done today!
[14:50] Akatsuki
    The longer you put it off,
    the harder it'll be.
[14:54] Akatsuki
    If you let him view you as a
    friend for months or years,
[14:57] Akatsuki
    he'll be way more put off when
    you do make the confession!
[15:00] Akatsuki
    That's why your chances of success
    are higher the sooner you strike.
[15:07] Isana
    B-But...
[15:08] Isana
    I'm awkward. And annoying.
[15:13] Isana
    The only good thing about me is my chest.
[15:15] Akatsuki
    At least your confidence
     in your breasts is rock-steady.
[15:19] Akatsuki
    What do you think, Yume-chan?
[15:22] Yume
    He seems to enjoy spending
    time with you, Higashira-san.
[15:26] Yume
    So if you said you wanted to spend more
    time together, I doubt he'd refuse.
[15:32] Isana
    You think so?
[15:35] Isana
    Do you really think I can be his girlfriend?
[15:39] Yume
    I do.
[15:41] Yume
    I guarantee it.
SIGN    Irido
[15:47] Akatsuki
    So he asked if they could meet
    up behind the school at five.
[15:53] Akatsuki
    He's probably realized
    she's gonna confess to him, huh?
[15:57] Yume
    Probably.
[15:58] Akatsuki
    Man, now even I'm getting nervous.
[16:03] Yume
    I get that.
[16:04] Akatsuki
    Well, Yume-chan,
[16:05] Akatsuki
    are you excited that your stepbrother's
    about to get a girlfriend?
[16:09] Yume
    You think he'll say yes?
[16:12] Akatsuki
    Don't you? I mean, that's the typical thing.
[16:15] Akatsuki
    But I guess Irido-kun
    isn't your typical guy, huh?
[16:19] Yume
    He's not?
[16:20] Akatsuki
    Yeah. If I had one worry,
    I guess it'd be that.
[16:24] Akatsuki
    Like whether he sees any value
    in getting a girlfriend or not.
[16:28] Akatsuki
    I guess he probably doesn't.
[16:31] Akatsuki
    He seems like he'd be just fine without one.
[16:33] Akatsuki
    Like he's the type who doesn't
     see any value in having a partner.
[16:37] Akatsuki
    So if a guy like him were to get a girlfriend...
[16:56] Akatsuki
    Yup, lookin' good.
[16:58] Isana
    D-Do I really look okay?
[17:02] Akatsuki
    You're fine, you're fine.
[17:03] Akatsuki
    Cute as a button!
SIGN    Friday, June 24th
[17:06] Yume
    It's almost time.
[17:09] Isana
    I'm starting to get nervous.
[17:11] Akatsuki
    Okay then, we'll stay hidden over here
    and support you from the shadows.
[17:15] Akatsuki
    Good luck!
[17:17] Yume
    You'll be fine. You can do this.
[17:25] Isana
    Right, I'll do my best.
[17:41] Mizuto
    I'm here, Higashira.
[17:44] Isana
    U-Um... Th-Thank you
    for coming t-to meet me.
[17:49] Mizuto
    Sure.
[17:51] Isana
    S-So... you know...
[17:54] Isana
    Th-There's something I wanted
    to tell you, Mizuto-kun.
[17:58] Isana
    To express my gratitude...
[18:00] Isana
    No, scratch that. What I mean is...
[18:02] Isana
    Um... Um...
[18:04] Mizuto
    Higashira.
[18:04] Isana
    Y-Yes?!
[18:06] Mizuto
    Just tell me what you have to say at your
    own pace. In whatever order you'd like.
[18:10] Mizuto
    I can put the pieces together from there.
[18:16] Isana
    Do you remember when we first met at the
    library and you came up to talk to me?
[18:23] Isana
    That made me so happy.
[18:25] Isana
    And not just because I'd met someone
    who shared similar interests.
[18:29] Isana
    But because when we spoke, you actually
    seemed to enjoy talking to me.
[18:34] Isana
    People have always told me that
    I'm weird, annoying, and a freak.
[18:40] Isana
    So truly, deeply...
[18:42] Isana
    I was so happy to have someone actually
    listen to me when I ramble.
[18:46] Isana
    Not only that, but for the first time ever,
    someone actually responded to me.
[18:53] Isana
    It's been so much fun.
[18:56] Isana
    So I wanna spend more time with you.
[18:58] Isana
    I wanna spend all my time with you.
[19:03] Isana
    So... please let me be your girlfriend.
[19:10] Isana
    I like you.
[19:18] Mizuto
    You always told me you saw me as a friend.
[19:20] Isana
    Th-That hasn't changed!
[19:23] Isana
    I like you as a friend too.
[19:25] Mizuto
    I enjoy spending time
    with you too, Higashira.
[19:29] Mizuto
    You're the first person I've ever met
    that I've clicked with so effortlessly.
[19:34] Mizuto
    So if we were to date, there's no
    doubt in my mind that we'd be happy.
[19:40] Mizuto
    Sure, we'd still fight.
[19:42] Mizuto
    Knowing us, we'd likely forget all about it
    while discussing some new book.
[19:48] Mizuto
    But I'm sorry.
[19:52] Mizuto
    I'm sorry, but I can't go out with you.
[19:56] Isana
    Wh-Why?
[19:59] Mizuto
    I'm selfish.
[20:01] Mizuto
    I can't be attentive to more
    than one person at a time.
[20:05] Mizuto
    And the one slot that I have...
[20:07] Mizuto
    It's already occupied by someone else,
    even though she doesn't deserve it.
[20:12] Mizuto
    And I know in my heart
[20:15] Mizuto
    that despite having no obligation to her,
     I still can't bear to see her cry.
[20:21] Mizuto
    So I'll apologize again and again.
[20:23] Mizuto
    I'm sorry.
[20:24] Mizuto
    I'm doing you a disservice by using someone
    else to turn you down, and I apologize.
[20:29] Mizuto
    But it's not your fault at all.
[20:31] Mizuto
    There's no one else to blame either.
[20:33] Mizuto
    This is on me.
[20:35] Mizuto
    These are just feelings I know I
    have that I simply cannot deny.
[20:40] Mizuto
    So I'm sorry, Higashira, but I...
[20:44] Mizuto
    I can't be your boyfriend.
[20:51] Akatsuki
    So if a guy like him were to get a girlfriend...
[20:55] Akatsuki
    since he wouldn't be doing it
    for pride or status,
[20:59] Akatsuki
    it'd have to be someone he just wants
    to have by his side that badly.
[21:05] Yume
    Even though it's obvious you'd
    be better off with her than me...
[21:12] Yume
    Even though I'm nothing but
    a stepsister to you now...
[21:18] Yume
    Why are you letting someone who isn't
    even your girlfriend anymore
[21:23] Yume
    be the one by your side?
[23:03] Akatsuki
    Well, explain yourself!
[23:05] Isana
    Explain what?
[23:07] Yume
    This, of course.
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[23:09] Isana
    It's a picture of me and Mizuto-kun
    talking in the library.
[23:14] Isana
    Is there something wrong with that?
[23:16] Akatsuki
    He just rejected you, didn't he?
[23:18] Yume
    How can you talk to him
     like nothing's changed?
[23:21] Isana
    Um... I may have gotten my heart broken,
[23:24] Isana
    but it's not like we stopped being friends.
[23:27] Yume & Akatsuki
    Huh?
[23:28] Isana
    If anything, now that he's rejected me,
[23:30] Isana
    it makes being friends more easygoing
    and straightforward, don't you think?
[23:35] Yume & Akatsuki
    Have you lost your mind?!