E9 - Past
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[00:03] ---
Come home.
[00:05] ---
You know you can't stay here.
[00:07] ---
No!
[00:09] ---
I'm... not ready.
[00:12] ---
How long are you going
to act like a child?
[00:16] ---
You just stopped answering my calls,
and then you came all the way out here.
[00:19] ---
What if somebody with
bad intentions took you in?
[00:22] ---
Well...
[00:24] ---
Yoshida-san is a good person.
[00:30] ---
Sayu, adults aren't like kids. They can
pretend to be good people all they want.
[00:34] ---
Yoshida-san isn't like that!
[00:38] ---
Don't try to use him against me!
[02:12] ---
Yes. I'm sorry.
SIGN "Past"
[02:17] ---
Sorry about that. I took the day off work,
so I can hear all you have to say.
[02:23] ---
Thank you.
[02:26] ---
Let me start with this.
[02:27] ---
Has anything inappropriate
happened between you two?
[02:29] ---
No.
[02:29] ---
Absolutely not!
[02:31] ---
I see.
[02:33] ---
So let me thank you for taking her in.
[02:40] ---
No...
[02:41] ---
I was worried about the environment
she'd found herself in.
[02:46] ---
I can imagine.
[02:48] ---
Sayu, Mother is worried.
[02:51] ---
You're lying!
Mom would never worry about me!
[02:54] ---
She's looking for you, if nothing else.
[02:57] ---
That woman would never do
something like that!
[03:01] ---
Tell me the real reason.
[03:06] ---
Your teacher's come looking for you
several times since you left.
[03:11] ---
She doesn't want any incidents,
[03:14] ---
so she's told him you've locked
yourself inside your room.
[03:17] ---
It seems that the school now thinks
she may be locking you in there.
[03:23] ---
And she wants me to go back
to prove them wrong?
[03:28] ---
Then what she's worried about
is what people will say.
[03:31] ---
Not Sayu's feelings?
[03:34] ---
I don't believe so.
[03:36] ---
But I can't say definitely
that she's put much thought into it at all.
[03:42] ---
Once our mother gets an idea,
she doesn't give it up.
[03:44] ---
It will be difficult for you
to continue to run.
[03:49] ---
Can we have a few days, at least?
[03:53] ---
A few days?
[03:55] ---
Just a few.
[03:57] ---
Is that possible?
[03:59] ---
It seems to me
that Sayu needs time to think.
[04:07] ---
Would you let me talk to Sayu
for a moment, alone?
[04:11] ---
I promise I won't take her away.
[04:15] ---
All right.
[04:16] ---
Is that okay with you too, Sayu?
[04:18] ---
Yeah.
[04:22] ---
I'm sorry.
[04:24] ---
This must've surprised you, right?
[04:27] ---
I'm sure it was a shock to you, too.
[04:29] ---
I thought that you'd get to go home
when you were ready.
[04:33] ---
That it was your choice.
[04:36] ---
Yeah.
[04:37] ---
But we found out it's not that simple.
[04:42] ---
Yoshida-san!
[04:44] ---
What's wrong?
[04:46] ---
I'm a little scared.
[04:48] ---
I thought I had to go back someday,
[04:50] ---
but now that the day's finally here,
[04:53] ---
I realize how weak I am.
[04:57] ---
I'm scared, too.
[05:00] ---
So don't worry.
[05:06] ---
Yoshida-san, when I'm with you,
I feel relaxed.
[05:10] ---
Thank you. I'll go talk with my brother.
[05:14] ---
Okay, good luck!
[05:28] ---
It's a good thing!
[05:31] ---
I was hoping Sayu'd go back, anyway.
[05:36] ---
But now...
[05:42] ---
There aren't many adults out there who'd
take in another's child out of pure goodwill.
[05:47] ---
Yeah.
[05:49] ---
I was worried about
what might've happened to you.
[05:53] ---
But I feel a little better.
[05:56] ---
He seems really worried about you, huh?
[06:01] ---
Yeah.
[06:05] ---
Mother calls and asks if I found you.
[06:10] ---
Every single day.
[06:11] ---
I see.
[06:13] ---
After what happened, she's been unstable.
[06:17] ---
It's been worse since you left.
[06:21] ---
So you should go back, for now.
[06:24] ---
I'll help you all I can.
[06:28] ---
At first, I ran because it was painful.
[06:32] ---
But that was true no matter where I went.
[06:37] ---
I realized I was alone
no matter where I went.
[06:41] ---
And then I met Yoshida-san.
[06:44] ---
He taught me how stupid I'd been.
[06:46] ---
About how important the things
I lost coming here were.
[06:52] ---
So I told myself that I needed to start
thinking for myself about what I want to be.
[06:59] ---
Until I know what I'm going to take back home
with me, after coming all this way,
[07:05] ---
I don't want to go home.
[07:12] ---
I see.
[07:13] ---
You've changed a little, too.
[07:17] ---
You speak your mind more than you did before.
[07:23] ---
Yeah. You may be right.
[07:26] ---
I can buy you a week at most—
convince her that I just haven't found you yet.
[07:33] ---
Do you mean...?
[07:36] ---
I mean, "Take a week to think."
[07:44] ---
Thank you.
SIGN Today
SIGN You up?
SIGN Yeah.
SIGN What is it?
SIGN Can you come to Yoshida-san's house ASAP? I need to talk to you.
SIGN Got it.
SIGN I'll be there in 30.
SIGN Thanks
[07:59] ---
I see. So you've gotta
head back in a week, huh?
[08:04] ---
Yeah.
[08:06] ---
Man, I'm gonna miss you.
[08:10] ---
Your brother gave your decision more
respect than I thought he would.
[08:14] ---
I guess so.
[08:16] ---
You've got a week.
You need to use it to think.
[08:20] ---
Yeah.
[08:23] ---
So I want to tell you
what's happened to me until now.
[08:28] ---
Okay. My friend's facing her past.
[08:32] ---
I need to support her,
or I'm not a real friend.
[08:34] ---
Yeah...
[08:35] ---
Are you nervous, Yoshida-cchi?
[08:38] ---
Shut up!
[08:42] ---
Okay, I'll tell you, then.
[08:45] ---
I never got along with my mother.
[08:50] ---
And that was one of the reasons that,
when I got to high school,
[08:53] ---
I never really wanted
to put effort into anything.
[08:56] ---
Not my schoolwork,
not hanging out with friends...
[08:59] ---
I didn't care about any of it.
[09:01] ---
Everyone else avoided me,
and that was fine.
[09:06] ---
But...
[09:08] (Flashback) ---
Sayu-chan, can I eat lunch with you?
[09:10] (Flashback) ---
Okay, I guess...
[09:18] (Flashback) ---
Um, what is it, Yuuko?
[09:21] (Flashback) ---
You look really cool in profile.
[09:24] (Flashback) ---
What the heck?
[09:26] (Flashback) ---
Why are you so cool?
[09:28] (Flashback) ---
"Why"?
[09:32] ---
Yuuko was like me. She didn't fit in.
[09:37] ---
To the others, I'm sure it just looked like
two class rejects hanging out.
[09:42] ---
But I really enjoyed being with Yuuko.
[09:47] (Flashback) ---
You look your best
when you're smiling, Sayu-chan.
[09:52] ---
Because of her, I started to smile.
[09:57] ---
But...
SIGN Math II
[10:00] ---
Yuuko started being bullied
by a group of girls.
[10:07] (Flashback) ---
You okay?
[10:09] (Flashback) ---
Yeah.
[10:11] (Flashback) ---
But why is this happening to you?
[10:18] (Flashback) ---
Yuuko?
[10:23] (Flashback) ---
Sayu-chan, one of the guys on the basketball team
asked you out, and you rejected him, right?
[10:29] (Flashback) ---
Y-Yeah...
[10:32] (Flashback) ---
One of them likes him. I think that's why.
[10:37] (Flashback) ---
But wouldn't they go after me then?
[10:41] (Flashback) ---
Well... you have a pretty face. You're cool.
[10:49] (Flashback) ---
Sayu-chan, you just don't look like a bad person.
[10:52] (Flashback) ---
No matter what lies they tell about you,
[10:54] (Flashback) ---
they can't get everybody to hate you.
[10:57] (Flashback) ---
So they went after you instead?
[11:01] (Flashback) ---
But it's fine.
[11:03] (Flashback) ---
I'm gloomy. I'm not pretty at all.
[11:07] (Flashback) ---
It's weird for me to be hanging out with you.
[11:12] (Flashback) ---
Yuuko...
[11:14] (Flashback) ---
They said I was like your groupie.
[11:16] (Flashback) ---
But they're not wrong.
[11:18] (Flashback) ---
That's not true!
[11:22] (Flashback) ---
Yuuko, you're my first friend!
[11:35] (Flashback) ---
Here.
[11:39] ---
My friend was being bullied because of me.
[11:43] ---
And I didn't even realize it.
[11:45] ---
It made me sick.
[11:51] (Flashback) ---
I'm sure she's got the idea by now.
[11:53] (Flashback) ---
Right?
[11:54] (Flashback) ---
Little Miss Princess needs to choose
better friends, don't you think?
[11:58] (Flashback) ---
Right?
[12:00] (Flashback) ---
I bet she thinks hanging out with the girl
with no friends makes the boys like her more.
[12:06] (Flashback) ---
Yuuko!
[12:16] (Flashback) ---
Sayu-chan!
[12:32] (Flashback) ---
I'll never betray you.
So let's fight together!
[12:37] (Flashback) ---
Sayu-chan!
[12:46] ---
I thought we'd be okay, together.
[12:48] ---
That we couldn't lose.
[12:52] ---
But looking back,
I think I'd made a big mistake.
[13:03] (Flashback) ---
Wh-What are you doing, Yuuko?
[13:09] (Flashback) ---
Sayu-chan.
[13:11] (Flashback) ---
Th-That's really dangerous.
Come back...
[13:16] (Flashback) ---
I've been waiting for you here.
[13:20] (Flashback) ---
When I first saw you,
I thought you were really pretty.
[13:26] (Flashback) ---
Solitary, beautiful...
Keeping everyone away.
[13:30] (Flashback) ---
What are you talking about?
[13:32] (Flashback) ---
But I'm not very smart,
so I got close to you anyway.
[13:37] (Flashback) ---
And when I talked to you,
you were just an ordinary, cute girl.
[13:42] (Flashback) ---
Kind, caring, with a wonderful smile.
[13:49] (Flashback) ---
And I ruined that.
[13:53] (Flashback) ---
I turned the solitary and beautiful Sayu-chan
[13:56] (Flashback) ---
into a stupid girl who hangs
out with a loser like me.
[14:01] (Flashback) ---
You're not like me!
[14:04] (Flashback) ---
You can shine brighter!
[14:06] (Flashback) ---
And I—
[14:08] (Flashback) ---
the person who admires you most—
[14:12] (Flashback) ---
I ruined it.
[14:15] (Flashback) ---
Did you know you've stopped
laughing altogether lately?
[14:20] (Flashback) ---
All you think about is protecting me.
You always look so depressed.
[14:26] (Flashback) ---
O-Of course! You're my friend!
[14:29] (Flashback) ---
Thank you.
[14:31] (Flashback) ---
But you know,
that hurt me more than anything.
[14:36] (Flashback) ---
This isn't your fault, you know.
[14:40] (Flashback) ---
Yuuko?
[14:42] (Flashback) ---
So keep on smiling, okay?
[15:28] (Flashback) ---
Are you home?
[15:29] (Flashback) ---
Ogiwara-san, are you there?
[15:31] (Flashback) ---
Leave us alone!
I told you we have nothing to do with it!
[15:36] (Flashback) ---
Ogiwara-san, wait!
[15:38] (Flashback) ---
Ogiwara-san, just answer a few questions!
[16:01] (Flashback) ---
Mom...
[16:03] (Flashback) ---
This is all your fault!
[16:05] (Flashback) ---
Stop making my life harder, damn it!
[16:08] (Flashback) ---
I'm sorry.
[16:09] (Flashback) ---
Why are they mad at us
about somebody else's suicide?
[16:13] (Flashback) ---
Issa's working so hard, but all you do is...
[16:17] (Flashback) ---
I'm sorry.
[16:21] (Flashback) ---
Don't tell me.
You didn't kill her, did you?
[16:34] (Flashback) ---
Shut the hell up.
[16:37] (Flashback) ---
Of course I didn't!
[16:40] (Flashback) ---
You'll never understand!
[16:42] (Flashback) ---
My best friend was bullied
because of me, and she died!
[16:46] (Flashback) ---
You'll never understand how that feels!
[16:53] (Flashback) ---
If I bother you that much, I'll just leave.
[16:59] (Flashback) ---
Sayu, is it okay for you to leave the house?
[17:02] (Flashback) ---
Sayu!
[17:04] (Flashback) ---
Let me go!
[17:05] (Flashback) ---
I'm done with this place!
[17:08] (Flashback) ---
Calm down.
[17:09] (Flashback) ---
What happened?
[17:12] (Flashback) ---
Mom asked me...
[17:15] (Flashback) ---
if I killed Yuuko!
[17:20] (Flashback) ---
She did what?
[17:26] (Flashback) ---
I understand. You should probably
get some distance from Mother.
[17:36] (Flashback) ---
Goodbye.
[17:38] (Flashback) ---
Sayu, take this.
[17:41] (Flashback) ---
There's 300,000 yen inside.
[17:43] (Flashback) ---
If you don't go on a spending spree,
it'll last you two weeks.
[17:46] (Flashback) ---
I can't take that.
[17:48] (Flashback) ---
And I can't have you running away
without any money.
[17:51] (Flashback) ---
Listen. You need to stay in a real hotel.
[17:55] (Flashback) ---
And contact me if you feel you're in danger.
[18:00] (Flashback) ---
If you can promise me those two things,
[18:02] (Flashback) ---
I can keep Mother from finding out.
[18:06] (Flashback) ---
Thank you.
[18:07] (Flashback) ---
You've been through a lot.
[18:10] (Flashback) ---
Get some rest.
[18:14] (Flashback) ---
Okay.
[18:19] ---
I ran away from my mom and was finally free,
[18:25] ---
but I never felt any better.
[18:28] ---
All I felt was loneliness.
[18:31] ---
At some point, the money
my brother gave me ran out.
[18:35] ---
And then the emptiness and
the feelings of worthlessness crept in.
[18:40] ---
Even his kindness started
to feel like pity to me.
SIGN Ogiwara Issa
[18:44] ---
In the end, I didn't mean anything to anyone.
[18:50] ---
By the time I realized that,
even I was surprised at how much I didn't care.
[18:57] ---
And then...
[18:59] (Flashback) ---
Hey, what's a girl your age
doing out at this hour?
[19:05] (Flashback) ---
I ran away from home.
[19:07] (Flashback) ---
I don't have anywhere to go.
[19:10] (Flashback) ---
Fine. It's dangerous to be out here alone.
[19:12] (Flashback) ---
You can stay with me tonight.
[19:17] (Flashback) ---
It's not a bother?
[19:19] ---
At first, I didn't even realize I'd said it.
[19:22] ---
And that's how it started.
[19:26] ---
At first, I thought maybe he was letting
me stay out of the goodness of his heart.
[19:30] ---
But after a few days, he wanted sex.
[19:34] ---
And since I didn't want
to go home, I gave in.
[19:42] ---
I'm really stupid, huh?
[19:43] ---
I don't even remember the name
of the guy I was with my first time.
[19:47] ---
Sayu-chan...
[19:49] ---
And you know the rest.
[19:52] ---
Once it started, I just kept going.
[19:56] ---
Sex for a place to stay.
[19:58] ---
I kept that up...
[20:01] ---
until I met Yoshida-san.
[20:04] ---
That's everything that happened to me
after I left Hokkaido until I met Yoshida-san.
[20:11] ---
I see...
[20:13] ---
Thanks for telling me.
[20:16] ---
Sayu-chan, you really
hung in there, didn't you?
[20:23] ---
Yeah...
[20:25] ---
You really did, huh?
[20:28] ---
Yeah, I did.
[20:31] ---
I really did.
[20:46] ---
She calmed down.
[20:48] ---
I see.
[20:50] ---
I knew there was something,
[20:53] ---
but I didn't think it'd be this bad.
[20:56] ---
Yeah.
[20:58] ---
Her friend committed suicide,
[20:59] ---
and her mom, who should've been more
supportive than anybody, blamed her instead.
[21:03] ---
Even an adult couldn't handle that.
[21:06] ---
So, what will you do?
[21:08] ---
About what?
[21:10] ---
About Sayu-chaso.
[21:13] ---
Just let her go home?
[21:17] ---
Her family's come to get her.
[21:18] ---
I'm a stranger. I can't do a thing.
[21:21] ---
A stranger? After all that's happened?
[21:26] ---
This is a problem for her family to solve.
[21:29] ---
Who knows if her family's even on her side?!
[21:32] ---
What do you want to do, Yoshida-cchi?
[21:34] ---
Were you listening?
[21:36] ---
It's not my place to get involved.
[21:38] ---
That's not what I'm asking.
[21:41] ---
I'm not asking what your "place" is!
[21:45] ---
I'm asking what you want to do about her.
[21:49] ---
What I...
[21:54] ---
...want to do?
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SIGN Watch next week, okay?
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