E9 - Stepsister and Diary

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[00:08] Saki
    He's always very neutral with people.
[00:12] Saki
    He compromises to get along with
    me and my difficult personality.
[00:16] Saki
    He doesn't have any preconceptions about me.
[00:20] Saki
    He appreciates all the effort and
    hard work I try not to let people see.
[00:25] Saki
    He understands what I'm like.
[00:33] Saki
    So I want to get to know him better.
[00:38] Saki
    I wish I could understand him, too.
[00:42] Saki
    Asamura Yuta...
[00:44] Saki
    I'm attracted to him.
[00:51] Saki
    He's the kind of guy who
    pays attention to detail.
SIGN    THE BEEHIVE
SIGN    TAMURA KANAE
SIGN    Just out on August 22!
[00:55] Saki
    It took him no time to find a book
    I'd spent ten minutes searching for.
[01:02] Saki
    But then, when he told me she
    would've found it even quicker...
[01:08] Saki
    I realized how small-minded
    I must be, and it frustrates me.
[01:16] Saki
    The next day... Isn't that when
    the AC in the living room broke?
[01:22] Saki
    That evening, Asamura-kun confronted me.
[01:27] Saki
    He asked if Maaya had
    invited us to go to the pool.
SIGN    Oh.
[01:31] Saki
    I don't even want to
    remember how I reacted.
SIGN    Then you don't need to force yourself to go.
[01:35] Saki
    I mean, I can't waste my time playing.
SIGN    Aren't you going? To the pool?
[01:40] Saki
    I just can't.
SIGN    No, I'm not.
[01:44] Saki
    I think I was really at my limit.
[01:51] Saki
    I lashed out at him with
    a dismissive response
[01:54] Saki
    because I didn't want to
    hear any more about it.
SIGN    I'm going on ahead
[01:57] Saki
    What I said was so harsh, I can hardly
    believe it came from my own mouth.
SIGN    I don't
     want to.
SIGN    Yeah, thanks.
[02:06] Saki
    I sounded like a child.
[02:11] Saki
    That was such a horrible day.
[02:14] Saki
    The worst part was that I knew
    I was having these awful thoughts,
[02:18] Saki
    but I didn't want to be
    forced to deal with them.
[02:24] Saki
    She has such long, beautiful hair.
[02:27] Saki
    Even I think it's lovely.
    It suits Asamura-kun's modest style.
[02:34] Saki
    I wonder if he likes girls
    with long, pretty hair.
[02:41] Saki
    At least my hair is long, too.
[02:47] Saki
    What in the world am I thinking? Seriously...
[02:53] Saki
    After finishing dinner,
    he brought it up again.
[02:57] Saki
    He said he wanted me
    to go have fun at the pool.
[03:01] Saki
    Why is he worried about something like that?
    I need to spend my time studying.
[03:07] Saki
    I can't afford to go out and play.
[03:15] Saki
    Ah, I've seen that look before.
[03:20] Saki
    When I was in middle school,
[03:22] Saki
    there was one time when Mom
    wanted to take me to the beach.
[03:27] Saki
    Considering our financial situation,
[03:30] Saki
    I didn't think we could afford it.
SIGN    It's okay. I've got tests coming up.
[03:34] Saki
    I didn't want to force Mom
    to take a day off work.
SIGN    Okay, maybe next time.
[03:39] Saki
    That's when she made that face.
    A kind of disappointed look.
[03:45] (Flashback) Taichi
    Sunday, August 6th.
[03:48] (Flashback) Taichi
    We're at the beach today.
[03:50] (Flashback) Taichi
    Oh, Yuta! Don't run, okay?
[03:57] (Flashback) Taichi
    Gosh, what did I just say?
[04:00] (Flashback) Taichi
    Here. Can you stand up?
[04:18] (Flashback) Young Saki
    Wanna play?
[04:36] Saki
    It feels so warm.
[04:39] Saki
    Even in this cool breeze,
[04:43] Saki
    the inside of me feels nice and warm.
[04:48] Saki
    And when I take a deep breath
    and exhale, I feel lighter somehow.
[04:54] Saki
    In both body and mind.
[04:58] Saki
    I've been thinking about it a lot...
[05:05] Saki
    and I guess I could go to the pool.
SIGN    Episode 9 "Stepsister and Diary"
[06:51] (Flashback) Akiko
    Saki...
[06:53] (Flashback) Akiko
    Saki.
[06:56] (Flashback) Akiko
    Saki?
[07:02] (Flashback) Akiko
    Look. We're here.
[07:20] (Flashback) Young Saki
    They're so cute.
[07:23] (Flashback) Young Saki
    They're so cool!
[07:28] (Flashback) Akiko
    Are you sure this is the one you want?
[07:30] (Flashback) Young Saki
    Yup! This is the one!
[07:35] (Flashback) Young Saki
    Growr!
[08:03] (Flashback) Young Saki
    Mommy, look at this!
[08:08] Tomoya
    Asamura, don't you work at a bookstore?
[08:10] girl
    Do you really?
[08:11] girl
    Wow!
[08:11] Yuta
    Yeah.
[08:12] Keisuke
    Can you make a lot of money at a bookstore?
[08:14] boy
    Well? Well?
[08:15] Yuta
    Oh, I don't know.
[08:16] Maaya
    Sounds great!
[08:17] Yuta
    It's the first job I've ever had.
[08:19] Yumi
    But all you've done over break is work
     and study? That's so responsible!
[08:23] Maaya
    Responsible! Mr. Responsible!
[08:25] Daisuke
    All I've done is sleep the whole time.
[08:27] girl
    For real!
[08:28] Yuta
    I'm not that responsible, though.
[08:29] girl
    I'm the same way.
[08:30] boy
    Aw, don't be modest!
[08:31] Maaya
    Totally!
[08:34] Saki
    Today's the day.
[08:37] Saki
    I'm not really that good
    at dealing with friends.
[08:43] Saki
    I'm always bad at reading the room.
[08:47] Saki
    But today actually wasn't too painful.
[08:52] Saki
    I think I have Asamura-kun to thank for that.
[08:55] Saki
    He's a lot better with people than I am.
[08:59] Saki
    But when he doesn't like
    something, he just says so.
[09:04] Saki
    I think that's one of the reasons
    I'm attracted to him.
[09:08] boy
    Yahoo!
[09:41] Maaya
    All right, now we're going to play
    some kickboard Othello! It's super easy!
[09:46] all
    Okay!
[09:50] Saki
    Instead of trying to stand out,
[09:53] Saki
    he's always trying to make
    sure everyone else has fun.
[09:57] Saki
    I thought that was really cool.
[10:03] Saki
    Even though it seems like
    nobody else notices.
[10:08] Saki
    Maybe I'm the only one who does.
[10:12] Saki
    I don't know. That makes
    me feel kind of proud...
SIGN    What you just did...
SIGN    That was really cool
[10:18] Saki
    and a little scared.
[10:21] Yuta
    I mean, I don't want to become the center
    of attention and then risk screwing up.
[10:27] Yuta
    It's a team game, after all.
[10:30] Saki
    Really?
[10:32] Saki
    Well, ignoring the objective
    reality of the situation,
[10:36] Saki
    subjectively, I wanted
    to compliment you for it.
[10:40] Saki
    I just thought it was really cool.
[10:43] Saki
    Like a stagehand who's devoted
    to assisting everyone.
[10:48] Yuta
    Are stagehands really that cool, though?
[10:51] Saki
    Well, everyone's standards are different.
[10:56] Yuta
    I guess that's true.
[10:59] Yuta
    But if you keep talking like that,
    I'm gonna get embarrassed.
[11:09] Saki
    No, that was it.
[11:40] Saki
    All right. Maybe I'll go swim a little more.
[11:57] boy
    Let's go!
[11:58] boy
    Okay!
[11:58] boy
    Here!
[12:00] boy
    Got it!
[12:16] Yuta
    Uh-oh.
[12:38] Yuta
    I like her.
[12:49] Yuta
    Honestly, I've never been great with girls.
[12:53] Yuta
    Probably because of how my mom and dad were.
[12:57] Yuta
    It gave me a really cynical view of
    relationships between men and women.
[13:02] Yuta
    That's why I've never fallen in love
    with anyone before now.
[13:10] Yuta
    And yet...
[13:12] Yuta
    This emotion, this feeling that most people
    regard as so sacred and glorious...
[13:19] Yuta
    How did it sneak up on me like this?
[13:23] Yuta
    And why right now?
[13:25] Yuta
    And why, of all people...
[13:30] Yuta
    She's my little sister.
[13:32] Yuta
    But she's also Ayase-san.
[13:37] Yuta
    My...
[13:40] Yuta
    little stepsister.
[13:44] Saki
    You and Maaya have sure gotten friendly.
[13:47] Yuta
    Huh? Oh, yeah, I wanted to
    thank her for the invitation.
[13:53] Yuta
    She really took care of everything.
    I had a great time.
[13:58] Yuta
    Narasaka-san is pretty incredible.
[14:01] Saki
    Thank you.
[14:02] Yuta
    Huh?
[14:03] Saki
    She's my friend. I'm happy to hear
    that people appreciate her.
[14:11] Yuta
    Did you have a good time?
[14:13] Saki
    Yeah, thanks to you.
[14:24] Saki
    Ever since I was a kid,
    I've liked swimming at pools.
[14:27] Saki
    I hadn't been able to enjoy swimming
    for a while, so this was really fun.
[14:33] Saki
    I'm really glad I listened to you, Asamura-kun.
[14:42] Yuta
    I mean, I didn't really do anything.
[14:48] Yuta
    Ayase-sa—
[15:05] Yuta
    That sure startled me.
[15:07] Saki
    I did see a lot of people in yukata today.
[15:22] Saki
    Asamura-kun, I think you're incredibly
    thoughtful and considerate.
[15:27] Yuta
    Huh?
[15:28] Saki
    I really admire that.
[15:34] Yuta
    You think so?
[15:36] Saki
    Yeah, I think so.
[15:41] Saki
    I realized this was my chance to say it.
[15:44] Saki
    You see how hard people try.
[15:47] Saki
    I know I said this at the pool,
    but I think that part of you is really cool.
[15:53] Saki
    He shines so brightly in my life.
    He looks so cool to me.
[16:01] Saki
    I think you're great...
[16:04] Saki
    Which is why...
[16:09] Saki
    Big Brother.
[16:17] Saki
    Um, sorry. Did I surprise you?
[16:21] Saki
    You're always taking care of me
    and going out of your way for me.
[16:27] Saki
    You're someone I can truly rely on.
    Like a real brother, you know?
[16:33] Yuta
    I'm glad, Ayase-san.
[16:37] Saki
    But it still sounds kind of weird, huh?
[16:41] Yuta
    I don't think so.
[16:43] Saki
    You don't?
[16:47] Yuta
    Honestly, that was a close call.
[16:50] Yuta
    Her calling me that, as unexpected as it was,
    brought me back to my senses.
[16:57] Yuta
    Ayase-san's friendly behavior, her praise...
    It was all for her brother.
[17:06] Yuta
    She trusts me.
[17:08] Yuta
    Meanwhile, here I was,
    trying to break all our rules.
[17:24] Yuta
    I can't do this.
[17:27] Yuta
    How am I supposed to act when I get home?
[17:32] Saki
    I hope he didn't notice how much
    my hands were trembling.
[17:37] Saki
    I have to keep repeating it to myself.
[17:41] Saki
    The two of you are siblings, girl!
[17:46] Saki
    But maybe, just maybe...
[17:49] Saki
    If Asamura-kun did like me and
    chose to share how he felt with me,
[17:57] Saki
    would I be able to fully reject those feelings?
[18:02] Saki
    I'm scared.
[18:05] Saki
    If he takes even one step forward,
    I just know I would...
[18:13] Saki
    I would completely fall apart.
SIGN    Friday, August 28th
[18:24] Saki
    Oh, Mom? What about work?
[18:26] Akiko
    I took the day off.
[18:28] Taichi
    Is Yuta still in bed?
[18:31] Akiko
    He must be exhausted. Why don't
    we let him sleep a little longer?
[18:35] Taichi
    Saki-chan, do you have work again today?
[18:38] Saki
    I took yesterday and today off.
[18:40] Akiko
    Did Yuta-kun, too?
[18:42] Saki
    Yeah.
[18:43] Akiko
    Great! Then we can all spend
    some time together!
[18:46] Akiko
    The whole family!
[18:49] Saki
    I'm glad she's happy.
[18:51] Saki
    I want her to be happy enough
    to make up for all the hard times.
[18:56] Saki
    So I... Yeah.
[18:59] Saki
    That's why I'm going to
    lock away these feelings.
[19:04] Saki
    I don't want to spoil our parents' happiness.
[19:09] Saki
    I don't want to cause trouble for Asamura-kun.
[19:28] Saki
    I pray that nobody finds out how I feel.
[19:39] Akiko
    Saki told us that you have
    the day off from work.
[19:44] Yuta
    That's right.
[19:44] Taichi
    And at this point, you're a
    confirmed cram school skipper, too!
[19:50] Yuta
    You mean you knew about that
    and still didn't wake me up?
[19:54] Taichi
    This sort of thing is good
    for you once in a while.
[19:59] Akiko
    Thank you, Yuta-kun.
[20:01] Yuta
    Huh?
[20:03] Akiko
    For taking Saki to the pool.
[20:07] Yuta
    Oh.
[20:08] Yuta
    Actually, it was Ayase-san's
    friend who invited us.
[20:14] Akiko
    But if you hadn't dragged her along,
    that girl probably wouldn't have gone.
[20:24] Yuta
    You might be right about that.
[20:27] Akiko
    I'm so glad you're her older brother.
[20:34] Akiko
    Oh, that's right, Yuta-kun!
    Saki's favorite thing!
[20:38] Yuta
    Oh, what you mentioned before?
[20:40] Akiko
    Yeah. I'll show you what it is.
[20:43] Akiko
    Here.
[20:46] Yuta
    Huh? This is it?
[20:48] Saki
    I'm back.
[20:49] Akiko
    Welcome home! Ooh, that's new!
[20:53] Yuta
    Welcome ho—
[20:55] Taichi
    Whoa, you look totally different!
[20:58] Akiko
    It looks great on you!
[20:59] Taichi
    Yeah!
[21:03] Yuta
    Welcome home, Ayase-san.
[21:11] Saki
    Thank you, Big Brother.
[21:21] Saki
    I pulled my diary out and
    reread what I'd written so far.
[21:26] Saki
    I realized that I'd been much more blunt
    and honest in my diary than I thought.
[21:34] Saki
    All of my thoughts about growing
    more and more attracted to him
[21:39] Saki
    were spelled out right there on the page.
[22:14] Saki
    But my diary entries for this week
    will only exist in my mind.
[22:21] Saki
    If I leave a written record,
[22:23] Saki
    there's always a chance that
    he may find it someday.
[22:53] Saki
    I'm never going to write down
    how I truly feel ever again.
[23:01] Saki
    When I want to relive my memories,
    I'll do it inside my head.
[23:06] Saki
    I shouldn't spend my days trying to
    connect with him as just some girl.
[23:15] Saki
    I'm only his little sister.
[23:19] Saki
    I have to live with him as his stepsister.
[23:23] Saki
    And in my life as his stepsister,
[23:26] Saki
    I don't need a diary anymore.
SIGN    Episode 10 "Relations and Regrets"