# E9 - Stepsister and Diary
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**[00:08] Saki**
*He's always very neutral with people.*
**[00:12] Saki**
* He compromises to get along with*
* me and my difficult personality.*
**[00:16] Saki**
*He doesn't have any preconceptions about me.*
**[00:20] Saki**
* He appreciates all the effort and*
* hard work I try not to let people see.*
**[00:25] Saki**
*He understands what I'm like.*
**[00:33] Saki**
*So I want to get to know him better.*
**[00:38] Saki**
*I wish I could understand him, too.*
**[00:42] Saki**
*Asamura Yuta...*
**[00:44] Saki**
*I'm attracted to him.*
**[00:51] Saki**
* He's the kind of guy who*
* pays attention to detail.*
***SIGN*** THE BEEHIVE
***SIGN*** TAMURA KANAE
***SIGN*** Just out on August 22!
**[00:55] Saki**
* It took him no time to find a book*
* I'd spent ten minutes searching for.*
**[01:02] Saki**
* But then, when he told me she*
* would've found it even quicker...*
**[01:08] Saki**
* I realized how small-minded*
* I must be, and it frustrates me.*
**[01:16] Saki**
* The next day... Isn't that when*
* the AC in the living room broke?*
**[01:22] Saki**
*That evening, Asamura-kun confronted me.*
**[01:27] Saki**
* He asked if Maaya had*
* invited us to go to the pool.*
***SIGN*** Oh.
**[01:31] Saki**
* I don't even want to*
* remember how I reacted.*
***SIGN*** Then you don't need to force yourself to go.
**[01:35] Saki**
*I mean, I can't waste my time playing.*
***SIGN*** Aren't you going? To the pool?
**[01:40] Saki**
*I just can't.*
***SIGN*** No, I'm not.
**[01:44] Saki**
*I think I was really at my limit.*
**[01:51] Saki**
* I lashed out at him with*
* a dismissive response*
**[01:54] Saki**
* because I didn't want to*
* hear any more about it.*
***SIGN*** I'm going on ahead
**[01:57] Saki**
* What I said was so harsh, I can hardly*
* believe it came from my own mouth.*
***SIGN*** I don't
want to.
***SIGN*** Yeah, thanks.
**[02:06] Saki**
*I sounded like a child.*
**[02:11] Saki**
*That was such a horrible day.*
**[02:14] Saki**
* The worst part was that I knew*
* I was having these awful thoughts,*
**[02:18] Saki**
* but I didn't want to be*
* forced to deal with them.*
**[02:24] Saki**
*She has such long, beautiful hair.*
**[02:27] Saki**
* Even I think it's lovely.*
* It suits Asamura-kun's modest style.*
**[02:34] Saki**
* I wonder if he likes girls*
* with long, pretty hair.*
**[02:41] Saki**
*At least my hair is long, too.*
**[02:47] Saki**
*What in the world am I thinking? Seriously...*
**[02:53] Saki**
* After finishing dinner,*
* he brought it up again.*
**[02:57] Saki**
* He said he wanted me*
* to go have fun at the pool.*
**[03:01] Saki**
* Why is he worried about something like that?*
* I need to spend my time studying.*
**[03:07] Saki**
*I can't afford to go out and play.*
**[03:15] Saki**
*Ah, I've seen that look before.*
**[03:20] Saki**
*When I was in middle school,*
**[03:22] Saki**
* there was one time when Mom*
* wanted to take me to the beach.*
**[03:27] Saki**
*Considering our financial situation,*
**[03:30] Saki**
*I didn't think we could afford it.*
***SIGN*** It's okay. I've got tests coming up.
**[03:34] Saki**
* I didn't want to force Mom*
* to take a day off work.*
***SIGN*** Okay, maybe next time.
**[03:39] Saki**
* That's when she made that face.*
* A kind of disappointed look.*
**[03:45] (Flashback) Taichi**
Sunday, August 6th.
**[03:48] (Flashback) Taichi**
We're at the beach today.
**[03:50] (Flashback) Taichi**
Oh, Yuta! Don't run, okay?
**[03:57] (Flashback) Taichi**
Gosh, what did I just say?
**[04:00] (Flashback) Taichi**
Here. Can you stand up?
**[04:18] (Flashback) Young Saki**
Wanna play?
**[04:36] Saki**
*It feels so warm.*
**[04:39] Saki**
*Even in this cool breeze,*
**[04:43] Saki**
*the inside of me feels nice and warm.*
**[04:48] Saki**
* And when I take a deep breath*
* and exhale, I feel lighter somehow.*
**[04:54] Saki**
*In both body and mind.*
**[04:58] Saki**
*I've been thinking about it a lot...*
**[05:05] Saki**
*and I guess I could go to the pool.*
***SIGN*** Episode 9 "Stepsister and Diary"
**[06:51] (Flashback) Akiko**
Saki...
**[06:53] (Flashback) Akiko**
Saki.
**[06:56] (Flashback) Akiko**
Saki?
**[07:02] (Flashback) Akiko**
Look. We're here.
**[07:20] (Flashback) Young Saki**
They're so cute.
**[07:23] (Flashback) Young Saki**
They're so cool!
**[07:28] (Flashback) Akiko**
Are you sure this is the one you want?
**[07:30] (Flashback) Young Saki**
Yup! This is the one!
**[07:35] (Flashback) Young Saki**
Growr!
**[08:03] (Flashback) Young Saki**
Mommy, look at this!
**[08:08] Tomoya**
Asamura, don't you work at a bookstore?
**[08:10] girl**
Do you really?
**[08:11] girl**
Wow!
**[08:11] Yuta**
Yeah.
**[08:12] Keisuke**
Can you make a lot of money at a bookstore?
**[08:14] boy**
Well? Well?
**[08:15] Yuta**
Oh, I don't know.
**[08:16] Maaya**
Sounds great!
**[08:17] Yuta**
It's the first job I've ever had.
**[08:19] Yumi**
But all you've done over break is work
and study? That's so responsible!
**[08:23] Maaya**
Responsible! Mr. Responsible!
**[08:25] Daisuke**
All I've done is sleep the whole time.
**[08:27] girl**
For real!
**[08:28] Yuta**
I'm not that responsible, though.
**[08:29] girl**
I'm the same way.
**[08:30] boy**
Aw, don't be modest!
**[08:31] Maaya**
Totally!
**[08:34] Saki**
*Today's the day.*
**[08:37] Saki**
* I'm not really that good*
* at dealing with friends.*
**[08:43] Saki**
*I'm always bad at reading the room.*
**[08:47] Saki**
*But today actually wasn't too painful.*
**[08:52] Saki**
*I think I have Asamura-kun to thank for that.*
**[08:55] Saki**
*He's a lot better with people than I am.*
**[08:59] Saki**
* But when he doesn't like*
* something, he just says so.*
**[09:04] Saki**
* I think that's one of the reasons*
* I'm attracted to him.*
**[09:08] boy**
Yahoo!
**[09:41] Maaya**
All right, now we're going to play
some kickboard Othello! It's super easy!
**[09:46] all**
Okay!
**[09:50] Saki**
*Instead of trying to stand out,*
**[09:53] Saki**
* he's always trying to make*
* sure everyone else has fun.*
**[09:57] Saki**
*I thought that was really cool.*
**[10:03] Saki**
* Even though it seems like*
* nobody else notices.*
**[10:08] Saki**
*Maybe I'm the only one who does.*
**[10:12] Saki**
* I don't know. That makes*
* me feel kind of proud...*
***SIGN*** What you just did...
***SIGN*** That was really cool
**[10:18] Saki**
*and a little scared.*
**[10:21] Yuta**
I mean, I don't want to become the center
of attention and then risk screwing up.
**[10:27] Yuta**
It's a team game, after all.
**[10:30] Saki**
Really?
**[10:32] Saki**
Well, ignoring the objective
reality of the situation,
**[10:36] Saki**
subjectively, I wanted
to compliment you for it.
**[10:40] Saki**
I just thought it was really cool.
**[10:43] Saki**
Like a stagehand who's devoted
to assisting everyone.
**[10:48] Yuta**
Are stagehands really that cool, though?
**[10:51] Saki**
Well, everyone's standards are different.
**[10:56] Yuta**
I guess that's true.
**[10:59] Yuta**
But if you keep talking like that,
I'm gonna get embarrassed.
**[11:09] Saki**
No, that was it.
**[11:40] Saki**
All right. Maybe I'll go swim a little more.
**[11:57] boy**
Let's go!
**[11:58] boy**
Okay!
**[11:58] boy**
Here!
**[12:00] boy**
Got it!
**[12:16] Yuta**
*Uh-oh.*
**[12:38] Yuta**
*I like her.*
**[12:49] Yuta**
*Honestly, I've never been great with girls.*
**[12:53] Yuta**
*Probably because of how my mom and dad were.*
**[12:57] Yuta**
* It gave me a really cynical view of*
* relationships between men and women.*
**[13:02] Yuta**
* That's why I've never fallen in love*
* with anyone before now.*
**[13:10] Yuta**
*And yet...*
**[13:12] Yuta**
* This emotion, this feeling that most people*
* regard as so sacred and glorious...*
**[13:19] Yuta**
*How did it sneak up on me like this?*
**[13:23] Yuta**
*And why right now?*
**[13:25] Yuta**
*And why, of all people...*
**[13:30] Yuta**
*She's my little sister.*
**[13:32] Yuta**
*But she's also Ayase-san.*
**[13:37] Yuta**
*My...*
**[13:40] Yuta**
*little stepsister.*
**[13:44] Saki**
You and Maaya have sure gotten friendly.
**[13:47] Yuta**
Huh? Oh, yeah, I wanted to
thank her for the invitation.
**[13:53] Yuta**
She really took care of everything.
I had a great time.
**[13:58] Yuta**
Narasaka-san is pretty incredible.
**[14:01] Saki**
Thank you.
**[14:02] Yuta**
Huh?
**[14:03] Saki**
She's my friend. I'm happy to hear
that people appreciate her.
**[14:11] Yuta**
Did you have a good time?
**[14:13] Saki**
Yeah, thanks to you.
**[14:24] Saki**
Ever since I was a kid,
I've liked swimming at pools.
**[14:27] Saki**
I hadn't been able to enjoy swimming
for a while, so this was really fun.
**[14:33] Saki**
I'm really glad I listened to you, Asamura-kun.
**[14:42] Yuta**
I mean, I didn't really do anything.
**[14:48] Yuta**
Ayase-sa—
**[15:05] Yuta**
That sure startled me.
**[15:07] Saki**
I did see a lot of people in yukata today.
**[15:22] Saki**
Asamura-kun, I think you're incredibly
thoughtful and considerate.
**[15:27] Yuta**
Huh?
**[15:28] Saki**
I really admire that.
**[15:34] Yuta**
You think so?
**[15:36] Saki**
Yeah, I think so.
**[15:41] Saki**
*I realized this was my chance to say it.*
**[15:44] Saki**
You see how hard people try.
**[15:47] Saki**
I know I said this at the pool,
but I think that part of you is really cool.
**[15:53] Saki**
* He shines so brightly in my life.*
* He looks so cool to me.*
**[16:01] Saki**
I think you're great...
**[16:04] Saki**
*Which is why...*
**[16:09] Saki**
Big Brother.
**[16:17] Saki**
Um, sorry. Did I surprise you?
**[16:21] Saki**
You're always taking care of me
and going out of your way for me.
**[16:27] Saki**
You're someone I can truly rely on.
Like a real brother, you know?
**[16:33] Yuta**
I'm glad, Ayase-san.
**[16:37] Saki**
But it still sounds kind of weird, huh?
**[16:41] Yuta**
I don't think so.
**[16:43] Saki**
You don't?
**[16:47] Yuta**
*Honestly, that was a close call.*
**[16:50] Yuta**
* Her calling me that, as unexpected as it was,*
* brought me back to my senses.*
**[16:57] Yuta**
* Ayase-san's friendly behavior, her praise...*
* It was all for her brother.*
**[17:06] Yuta**
*She trusts me.*
**[17:08] Yuta**
* Meanwhile, here I was,*
* trying to break all our rules.*
**[17:24] Yuta**
I can't do this.
**[17:27] Yuta**
How am I supposed to act when I get home?
**[17:32] Saki**
* I hope he didn't notice how much*
* my hands were trembling.*
**[17:37] Saki**
*I have to keep repeating it to myself.*
**[17:41] Saki**
*The two of you are siblings, girl!*
**[17:46] Saki**
*But maybe, just maybe...*
**[17:49] Saki**
* If Asamura-kun did like me and*
* chose to share how he felt with me,*
**[17:57] Saki**
*would I be able to fully reject those feelings?*
**[18:02] Saki**
*I'm scared.*
**[18:05] Saki**
* If he takes even one step forward,*
* I just know I would...*
**[18:13] Saki**
*I would completely fall apart.*
***SIGN*** Friday, August 28th
**[18:24] Saki**
Oh, Mom? What about work?
**[18:26] Akiko**
I took the day off.
**[18:28] Taichi**
Is Yuta still in bed?
**[18:31] Akiko**
He must be exhausted. Why don't
we let him sleep a little longer?
**[18:35] Taichi**
Saki-chan, do you have work again today?
**[18:38] Saki**
I took yesterday and today off.
**[18:40] Akiko**
Did Yuta-kun, too?
**[18:42] Saki**
Yeah.
**[18:43] Akiko**
Great! Then we can all spend
some time together!
**[18:46] Akiko**
The whole family!
**[18:49] Saki**
*I'm glad she's happy.*
**[18:51] Saki**
* I want her to be happy enough*
* to make up for all the hard times.*
**[18:56] Saki**
*So I... Yeah.*
**[18:59] Saki**
* That's why I'm going to*
* lock away these feelings.*
**[19:04] Saki**
*I don't want to spoil our parents' happiness.*
**[19:09] Saki**
*I don't want to cause trouble for Asamura-kun.*
**[19:28] Saki**
*I pray that nobody finds out how I feel.*
**[19:39] Akiko**
Saki told us that you have
the day off from work.
**[19:44] Yuta**
That's right.
**[19:44] Taichi**
And at this point, you're a
confirmed cram school skipper, too!
**[19:50] Yuta**
You mean you knew about that
and still didn't wake me up?
**[19:54] Taichi**
This sort of thing is good
for you once in a while.
**[19:59] Akiko**
Thank you, Yuta-kun.
**[20:01] Yuta**
Huh?
**[20:03] Akiko**
For taking Saki to the pool.
**[20:07] Yuta**
Oh.
**[20:08] Yuta**
Actually, it was Ayase-san's
friend who invited us.
**[20:14] Akiko**
But if you hadn't dragged her along,
that girl probably wouldn't have gone.
**[20:24] Yuta**
You might be right about that.
**[20:27] Akiko**
I'm so glad you're her older brother.
**[20:34] Akiko**
Oh, that's right, Yuta-kun!
Saki's favorite thing!
**[20:38] Yuta**
Oh, what you mentioned before?
**[20:40] Akiko**
Yeah. I'll show you what it is.
**[20:43] Akiko**
Here.
**[20:46] Yuta**
Huh? This is it?
**[20:48] Saki**
I'm back.
**[20:49] Akiko**
Welcome home! Ooh, that's new!
**[20:53] Yuta**
Welcome ho—
**[20:55] Taichi**
Whoa, you look totally different!
**[20:58] Akiko**
It looks great on you!
**[20:59] Taichi**
Yeah!
**[21:03] Yuta**
Welcome home, Ayase-san.
**[21:11] Saki**
Thank you, Big Brother.
**[21:21] Saki**
* I pulled my diary out and*
* reread what I'd written so far.*
**[21:26] Saki**
* I realized that I'd been much more blunt*
* and honest in my diary than I thought.*
**[21:34] Saki**
* All of my thoughts about growing*
* more and more attracted to him*
**[21:39] Saki**
*were spelled out right there on the page.*
**[22:14] Saki**
* But my diary entries for this week*
* will only exist in my mind.*
**[22:21] Saki**
*If I leave a written record,*
**[22:23] Saki**
* there's always a chance that*
* he may find it someday.*
**[22:53] Saki**
* I'm never going to write down*
* how I truly feel ever again.*
**[23:01] Saki**
* When I want to relive my memories,*
* I'll do it inside my head.*
**[23:06] Saki**
* I shouldn't spend my days trying to*
* connect with him as just some girl.*
**[23:15] Saki**
*I'm only his little sister.*
**[23:19] Saki**
*I have to live with him as his stepsister.*
**[23:23] Saki**
*And in my life as his stepsister,*
**[23:26] Saki**
*I don't need a diary anymore.*
***SIGN*** Episode 10 "Relations and Regrets"