1 - When you lose your composure, you cannot reach the truth or reality

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[00:10] Ritsu
    Here I am, talking to you
    again like this today.
[00:16] Ritsu
    What I longed for was a peaceful
    world where I could live
[00:20] ---
    without harboring anxiety.
[00:23] Ritsu
    Yet... I knew that was a dream
    that wouldn't come true.
[00:29] Ritsu
    So...
[00:30] Ritsu
    I should at least be allowed to dream.
[00:42] μ
    My heartbeat resonates through the sky,
[00:48] μ
    through endless, repeating days,
[00:53] μ
    as I carry my hidden wounds.
[01:04] μ
    The only freedom I'm allowed
[01:16] μ
    is wandering.
[01:21] μ
    So since you're here,
[01:24] μ
    I want you to play your harmony for me.
[01:32] μ
    It's like a brilliant ocean,
[01:36] μ
    the spilling colors melting away.
[01:44] μ
    Close your eyes, close your eyes.
[01:46] μ
    It's all right now.
[01:52] Ritsu
    In the end, our lives
[01:55] ---
    are possibly nothing more than
    stories woven in between dreams.
[02:00] Ritsu
    Don't you think so, μ?
[02:06] Announcer
    A newly released song from μ has
    made it to this week's charts!
[02:10] Announcer
    The sentiments packed in this song...
SIGN    Social Psychology
[02:18] Marie
    Good morning, Shikishima-kun.
[02:22] Ritsu
    Good morning, Mizuguchi-san.
[02:24] Marie
    What are you reading there?
[02:30] Marie
    Hmm, math?
[02:32] Ritsu
    No, psychology.
[02:34] Marie
    Again?!
[02:35] Marie
    Is the human mind really that interesting?
[02:38] Marie
    I don't get it.
[02:41] Ritsu
    This is called a Johari Window.
[02:43] Ritsu
    It's an exercise to expand
    one's unseen possibilities,
[02:46] ---
    or in other words, to learn one's true self.
[02:51] Ritsu
    It compares aspects of your
    personality to a window.
[02:53] Marie
    Hmm, a window?
[02:57] Ritsu
    The rows of the window show whether
    you understand yourself or not.
[03:01] Ritsu
    The columns show whether others
    understand you or not.
[03:05] Ritsu
    This makes four windows:
[03:07] ---
    the open, the blind, the hidden,
    and the unknown.
[03:12] Marie
    Uh-huh.
[03:13] Ritsu
    By revealing more of yourself to others
    or learning what others think of you,
[03:19] ---
    you can expand the open.
[03:22] Ritsu
    In doing so, you gain awareness of
    aspects even the self hasn't noticed.
[03:26] Ritsu
    Well? Interesting, right?
[03:32] Marie
    The stuff you're talking
    about is complicated.
[03:34] Ritsu
    Is it?
[03:35] Marie
    It is. Also...
[03:38] Marie
    The hidden?
[03:39] Marie
    Couldn't that be something
    even you don't want to know?
[03:48] Station
    The train will be arriving
    momentarily on platform two.
[03:51] Station
    For your safety, please stand back.
[03:53] Station
    The doors are now closing.
[03:54] Station
    Please refrain from running onto the train.
[03:59] Sign
    Miyabi Municipal Kishimai High School
[04:02] Takatsu
    Hey, look! This, this!
[04:05] Toyama
    What? What is it, Takatsu?
[04:08] Takatsu
    See!
[04:10] All
    μ's new song!
[04:11] Yumita
    That's the one playing this morning.
[04:12] Others
    -Huh? Seriously?
[04:13] Others
    -I want to hear!
[04:13] Yumita
    They already started distributing it?
[04:15] Takatsu
    I know a site where they distribute it early.
[04:17] Others
    -How?!
[04:19] Ritsu
    Soon it will be a year since I started
    here at Kishimai High School.
[04:25] Teacher
    Now then, solve this problem... Shikishima.
[04:30] Ritsu
    If someone asked me whether I was
    happy right now, I'm sure—
[04:35] Ritsu
    No, before I give a direct answer,
[04:38] ---
    let's think about what "happiness" is first.
[04:45] Ritsu
    For example, is it time spent
    with friends during breaks?
[04:47] Ritsu
    Is it being able to share different
    emotions with those friends?
[04:51] Ritsu
    Is it having a hobby one can get absorbed in?
SIGN    Jungian Psychology
SIGN    General Introduction to Psychology
[04:55] Ritsu
    Is it time spent enjoying beautiful music?
[05:00] Ritsu
    Is it having others acknowledge
    oneself and one's abilities?
[05:05] Ritsu
    Is "happiness" being able to recognize
    happiness is constituted of such things,
[05:09] ---
    which frankly can be
    plentifully found at one's feet?
[05:15] Ritsu
    So if someone asked me whether I was
    happy with high school life,
SIGN    Library
[05:19] ---
    I would hold my chest out
    with pride and answer:
[05:26] Suzuna
    I'm reading the same book he did again.
[05:33] Takatsu
    Hey, let's go to a ramen shop!
[05:35] Toyama
    Ramen, again?
[05:37] Toyama
    You really love it, Takatsu.
[05:38] Takatsu
    When you're talking about high school
    guys, you think ramen, right?
[05:41] Takatsu
    It's part of our youth!
[05:43] Yumita
    Really?
[05:44] Yumita
    I don't think you'd call
    that enjoying our youth.
[05:49] Both
    I'm jealous.
[05:50] Takatsu
    I'm not!
[05:52] Takatsu
    Hey, Ritsu, let's hurry up
     and hit the ramen shop!
[05:54] Ritsu
    You know, sometimes bias causes myopia.
[05:59] Toyama
    There it is. Professor Shikishima's
    psychology lecture.
[06:02] Takatsu
    "Myopia"? What's that?
[06:05] Ritsu
    The northern pike is a large,
    ugly freshwater fish,
[06:08] ---
    but let's say we put it into an
    aquarium divided by a glass wall.
[06:12] Ritsu
    Then, we unleash lots of
    small fish in the other side.
[06:16] Ritsu
    The northern pike will rush
    forward to eat the small fish
[06:19] ---
    and hit the glass wall.
[06:22] Ritsu
    Afterward, even if you remove the glass wall,
[06:26] ---
    the northern pike won't attack
    the small fish anymore.
[06:30] Ritsu
    Because of its preconception.
[06:32] Takatsu
    I don't understand.
[06:34] Ritsu
    Uh, then...
[06:37] Ritsu
    Imagine it's you inside the aquarium.
[06:40] Takatsu
    It's cold.
[06:41] Ritsu
    Now, let's say there's ramen on
    the other side of a glass wall.
[06:43] Yumita
    This is surreal.
[06:44] Ritsu
    Takatsu-kun, you're dying to eat the ramen,
[06:47] ---
    so you run into the glass wall and
[06:49] Ritsu
    make a bloody mess of yourself.
[06:52] Ritsu
    Now afterward, even if the
    glass wall is removed,
[06:54] ---
    you'll think that glass wall is still there,
    so you'll hesitate to charge at it.
[06:58] Takatsu
    I think I'd still charge at it.
[07:01] Takatsu
    I mean, there's ramen there, right?
[07:03] Ritsu
    You might end up covered in blood again.
[07:05] Takatsu
    So what?
[07:07] Takatsu
    I'd welcome getting covered in
    blood if it means eating ramen.
[07:10] Takatsu
    Besides, there are no glass walls around us.
[07:15] Yumita
    Okay, you lose, professor!
[07:17] Toyama
    Ritsu, you overthink everything.
[07:20] Takatsu
    Wait for me, ramen!
[07:22] Toyama
    Hey, wait up!
[07:23] Yumita
    -Come, let's go, Ritsu!
[07:25] Takatsu
    Thick, rich, with extra garlic!
SIGN    Meeting our customers leads to tomorrow's bowl.
[07:27] Takatsu
    Here! This is the shop that comes
    highly recommend by gossip Narukonne!
[07:33] Ritsu
    Who's that?
[07:34] Ritsu
    The headphone girl in our class,
     Morita Naruko, right?
[07:37] Ritsu
    She's famous.
[07:38] Takatsu
    See! She says the rich, pollack roe
    and pork belly butter ramen is superb!
[07:43] Ritsu
    "It's a dream combination of fulsome
    pork belly and savory pollack roe."
[07:47] Ritsu
    "The two contrasting qualities
    form a yin and yang of creation."
[07:53] Ritsu
    "I tip my hat to their sense in combining
    these two incompatible flavors."
[07:57] Ritsu
    "It's truly chaos."
[08:00] Ritsu
    What is this?
[08:01] Morita
    Yes, it's here!
[08:02] Morita
    It's hit me!
[08:06] Morita
    That's a great review if I say so myself!
[08:07] Morita
    Thanks to me, this store is sure
     to have people lining up now!
[08:11] [Messenger] Phone
    Unusual Incidents Welcome!!
[08:11] [Messenger] Phone
    If you have interesting
    information, send it to me!
    
    Oh yeah, pawning it off on others now!
[08:12] [Messenger] ---
    If you have interesting
    information, send it to me!
    
    Oh yeah, pawning it off on others now!
    
    We're free
[08:12] [Messenger] ---
    If you have interesting
    information, send it to me!
    
    Oh yeah, pawning it off on others now!
    
    We're free
    
    Oh, this morning I stepped on
    my grandfather's toothbrush.
[08:13] [Messenger] ---
    Oh yeah, pawning it off on others now!
    
    We're free
    
    Oh, this morning I stepped on
    my grandfather's toothbrush.
[08:13] [Messenger] ---
    Oh yeah, pawning it off on others now!
    
    We're free
    
    Oh, this morning I stepped on
    my grandfather's toothbrush.
    
    Wow, harsh.
[08:13] [Messenger] ---
    We're free
    
    Oh, this morning I stepped on
    my grandfather's toothbrush.
    
    Wow, harsh.
[08:13] [Messenger] ---
    We're free
    
    Oh, this morning I stepped on
    my grandfather's toothbrush.
    
    Wow, harsh.
    
    The bottom of my foot smells like denture bond.
[08:13] [Messenger] ---
    Oh, this morning I stepped on
    my grandfather's toothbrush.
    
    Wow, harsh.
    
    The bottom of my foot smells like denture bond.
[08:13] [Messenger] ---
    Oh, this morning I stepped on
    my grandfather's toothbrush.
    
    Wow, harsh.
    
    The bottom of my foot smells like denture bond.
    
    I'm so happy, I fell like I'm
    cloud nine from the big news!
[08:13] [Messenger] ---
    Oh, this morning I stepped on
    my grandfather's toothbrush.
    
    Wow, harsh.
    
    The bottom of my foot smells like denture bond.
    
    I'm so happy, I fell like I'm
    cloud nine from the big news!
    
    Me, me! Yesterday, you won't
    believe, I-I-I-I got a boyfrefre!
[08:13] [Messenger] ---
    Wow, harsh.
    
    The bottom of my foot smells like denture bond.
    
    I'm so happy, I fell like I'm
    cloud nine from the big news!
    
    Me, me! Yesterday, you won't
    believe, I-I-I-I got a boyfrefre!
[08:14] [Messenger] ---
    I'm so happy, I fell like I'm
    cloud nine from the big news!
    
    Me, me! Yesterday, you won't
    believe, I-I-I-I got a boyfrefre!
[08:14] Morita
    Still hardly any reaction on this topic, huh?
[08:17] Morita
    Hmm?
[08:18] Morita
    "My friend suddenly disappeared,
    but does anyone know anything?"
[08:23] Morita
    It's fishy! It's fishy!
[08:26] Ritsu
    It's fishy.
[08:27] Yumita
    This is damn good.
[08:29] Takatsu
    Right?
[08:30] Toyama
    It's a harmony of savory pollack
    roe and fulsome pork belly!
[08:33] Takatsu
    I'd definitely break that
    glass wall to get to the ramen!
[08:45] Ritsu
    Not bad.
[08:46] Takatsu
    See? Right choice, wasn't it?
[08:47] Yumita
    Way to go, Narukonne.
[08:48] Toyama
    The staff here are the ones making it.
[08:52] Ritsu
    Still, this smell seems familiar...
[08:59] Toyama
    Boss, seconds here, hard noodles!
[09:00] Boss
    Got it!
[09:01] Yumita
    Same for me!
[09:02] Boss
    Got it! Two, hard!
[09:02] Ritsu
    Excessive consumption of carbohydrates is unhealthy.
[09:06] Toyama
    I have an extra stomach for ramen.
[09:11] Mifue
    It's good.
[09:15] Mother
    Really? That's good.
[09:18] Mifue
    Mother, are you dieting again?
[09:20] Mother
    If I let my guard down for even a minute,
     I'll get fat in no time.
[09:24] Mother
    You're lucky, Mifue.
[09:27] Mother
    You don't gain weight from eating.
[09:29] Mother
    Well, take your time and enjoy it, Mifue.
[09:42] Mifue
    What are you doing here?
[09:44] μ
    Hey, is it fun here?
[09:48] μ
    Tell me, Mifue.
[09:51] Ritsu
    Please.
[09:53] Owner
    What?
[09:54] ---
    Aristotle? On the Soul?
[09:57] Owner
    Have you started delving into philosophy, too?
[10:00] Ritsu
    I thought I'd expand my perspective more.
[10:02] Ritsu
    So, when do you think you can get it in?
[10:05] Owner
    Tomorrow.
[10:06] Owner
    Books are good, but make sure you study, too.
[10:09] Ritsu
    I know.
[10:17] Mother
    Welcome home. Dinner's ready.
[10:19] Ritsu
    Oh, I ate ramen on the way.
[10:22] Mother
    What are you saying?
[10:23] Mother
    You high schoolers have separate
    stomachs for ramen, don't you?
[10:34] Ritsu
    This hurts...
[10:35] Ritsu
    I definitely ate too much.
[10:37] μ
    My heartbeat resonates through the sky,
[10:42] μ
    through endless, repeating days,
[10:48] μ
    as I carry my hidden wounds.
[10:49] Ritsu
    Something about that sensation...
[10:57] Ritsu
    What? Noise?
[10:59] μ
    Over and—
[11:03] Aria
    Please!
[11:05] Aria
    Stop μ!
[11:07] Aria
    Help me!
[11:12] Ritsu
    What was that?
[11:16] Mifue
    Mother, I'm home.
[11:17] Mother
    Oh, welcome home, Mifue-chan.
[11:20] Mother
    Dinner's almost ready.
[11:22] Mother
    Let's eat together.
[11:24] Mother
    It was cold out today, right?
[11:26] Mother
    So I'm making a stew.
[11:27] Mother
    I wanted to eat some, too.
[11:29] Mother
    I hope it turns out well.
[11:31] Mother
    Right, Mifue-chan?
[11:37] Mifue
    Mother?
SIGN    When you lose your composure, you cannot reach the truth or reality.
[11:49] Yumita
    What are you guys doing this weekend?
[11:50] Toyama
    Oh, hey, let's go to that place, Sea Paraiso.
[11:53] Takatsu
    "Sea Paraiso"? Never heard of it.
[11:54] Ritsu
    Hey...
[11:56] Ritsu
    About μ's new song...
[11:58] Takatsu
    It's a great song, right?
[11:59] Toyama
    I can feel the sadness seeping into my heart.
[12:03] Ritsu
    Yeah. So in that song, did you
    hear anything sounding like
[12:06] ---
    spoken lines in the middle?
[12:10] Ritsu
    Like "help me" or something.
[12:18] Ritsu
    Hey, answer me, guys.
[12:21] Takatsu
    Hey, let's go for ramen again today.
[12:23] Yumita
    That shop from the other day was good.
[12:24] Ritsu
    Come on, listen to this!
[12:39] μ
    My heartbeat resonates through the sky,
[12:49] Ritsu
    What? What's gotten into you?
[13:03] Naruko
    Oh! It's the fighter, Satake Shogo!
[13:06] Naruko
    He's on another rampage!
[13:07] Marie
    Hey, Morita-san!
[13:13] Ritsu
    Huh?! Toyama-kun? Hey!
[13:30] Ritsu
    Toyama-kun, what is it?
[13:31] Ritsu
    Are you aiming for the gain-loss effect?
[13:36] Ritsu
    It's impossible.
[13:38] Ritsu
    Hey? What do you think?
[13:43] Ritsu
    Oh, hey! Wait!
[14:05] Ritsu
    A Johari Window always
    has the hidden window,
[14:08] Ritsu
    aspects of the self that you
    know but others don't.
[14:13] Ritsu
    By revealing those aspects
    of yourself to others,
[14:15] ---
    you can learn what others think of you.
[14:19] Ritsu
    Then by spreading the open window,
[14:21] ---
    you shine light on the other windows.
[14:24] Ritsu
    According to Freud,
[14:26] ---
    the conscious mind is only a
    fragment of a person's mind,
[14:30] Ritsu
    with the remaining majority being
    occupied by the subconscious.
[14:33] Ritsu
    And some days, the subconscious
    will speak to the conscious mind.
[14:37] Ritsu
    So don't you think we can interpret
    that as the voice of our hearts?
[14:42] Shop
    You're getting into complicated things again.
[14:44] Ritsu
    Oh, uh, in other words, when the voice
    is completely different from my own,
[14:48] ---
    or when I hear a voice I've never
    heard before talking to me,
[14:52] ---
    or when everyone around me suddenly starts
    acting differently than I've known them to...
[14:58] Ritsu
    That's...
[15:03] Ritsu
    No, please forget about it.
[15:06] Ritsu
    Thank you for the Aristotle.
[15:09] Owner
    Books are good, but make sure you study, too.
[15:23] Ritsu
    I don't understand.
[15:24] Announcer
    Next up is the news.
SIGN    The Flower Festival Hosted Again This Year
[15:26] Announcer
    The Flower Festival that
    draws huge crowds every year
[15:28] ---
    will be starting in Shikei Park.
[15:31] Announcer
    μ will be performing on
    stage again this year,
[15:34] Announcer
    and we can see the crowd is already
    getting excited before her performance.
[15:37] Ritsu
    What on earth is going on?
[15:37] Announcer
    Incidentally, please view the
    special Flower Festival website
SIGN    Psychology
SIGN    Entry Level Behavioral Psychology
SIGN    The Origins and History of Consciousness
[15:40] ---
    for information on tickets to μ's concert.
[15:46] Voice
    That's self-punishment.
[15:50] Voice
    It's a self-defense mechanism.
[15:52] Voice
    By punishing oneself, the individual
    hopes to avoid attacks from others.
SIGN    About Self Punishment
[16:06] Ritsu
    Something's off.
[16:12] Teacher
    What is it, Shikishima?
[16:14] Teacher
    You can't solve it?
[16:16] Teacher
    All right, that's enough.
[16:19] Teacher
    Return to your seat.
[16:24] Ritsu
    At first, I thought it was
    just a minor incongruity.
[16:29] Ritsu
    Yet the incongruity steadily grew,
[16:32] ---
    invading my world with certainty.
[16:38] Ritsu
    The gears turning in my head
    steadily stopped meshing together.
[16:44] Ritsu
    They were supposed to be
    turning at the proper rhythm,
[16:47] ---
    but it was as though all of sudden,
    they had ran out of machine oil.
[16:53] Ritsu
    All the gears composing
    the life I had been living
[16:58] ---
    began grating as they turned
    in a discordant rhythm.
[17:04] Ritsu
    When did I first feel this inconsistency?
[17:08] Ritsu
    I'm sure I had a chance
    to notice it much earlier,
[17:12] Ritsu
    yet why did I let that chance slip by?
SIGN    Miyabi Municipal Kishimai High School Graduation Ceremony
[17:20] Kotono
    To all of you graduating,
[17:22] Kotono
    congratulations on today.
[17:25] Kotono
    Starting today, you all will be taking
[17:29] ---
    your first new steps outside this school.
[17:32] Kotono
    I'm certain that a wonderful,
    rosy world awaits you all.
[17:39] Kotono
    I pray from the bottom of
    my heart that happiness
[17:44] ---
    shines down upon you all like starlight.
[17:46] Announcer
    Next up, representing the graduating class,
[17:50] ---
    Hibiki Kensuke of Class 3-3,
     with the formal address.
[17:53] Kensuke
    To those of you following after us,
[17:55] Kensuke
    today we are celebrating this
    great day of our graduation.
[18:01] Kensuke
    If I were to close my eyes and look
    back on these past three years,
[18:03] ---
    I would find nothing but fun
    memories wrapped in happiness.
[18:08] Kensuke
    And while I hope that that
    sentiment may carry on forever,
[18:12] ---
    we would like to set forth
    into a new world once more.
[18:17] Kensuke
    This has been the graduate
    representative, Hibiki Kensuke.
[18:26] Ritsu
    Aristotle writes, "To perceive is to suffer."
[18:34] Ritsu
    Up until now, I never held any doubts
    about my average, peaceful everyday life.
[18:39] Ritsu
    No, that's wrong.
[18:41] Ritsu
    Some part of my mind was
    avoiding those doubts.
[18:45] Ritsu
    Which means I was merely acting,
    pretending not to notice.
SIGN    Miyabi Municipal Kishimai High School Entrance Ceremony
[18:50] Ritsu
    Yet once I perceived it, it became
    impossible to escape those incongruities.
[18:55] Ritsu
    So just as every dream must end,
    no matter how long...
[19:07] Ritsu
    Eventually, a reality
[19:11] ---
    that far surpasses what
    "incongruity" can express
[19:14] ---
    bears it fangs.
[19:22] Ritsu
    What on earth? What are you?
[19:28] Kensuke
    Can you hear me?
[19:32] Kensuke
    Uhh, I'm Hibiki Kensuke,
    representative of the new students.
[19:37] Kensuke
    We look forward to our
    time here, upperclassmen!
[20:00] μ
    When I was a child, I had nothing to fear.
[20:07] Ritsu
    μ...
[20:07] μ
    I believed that I was someone special.
[20:15] μ
    I will change this world,
[20:22] μ
    the way I want, with my own hands.
[20:27] μ
    Now reach your hand out and take hold,
[20:31] μ
    of the one and only me.
[20:35] μ
    Sing my praises out loud,
[20:38] μ
    about how special I am.
[20:42] μ
    Don't be afraid, come close.
[20:45] μ
    Love me, though I'm no one.
[20:52] Kotaro
    Run!
[20:55] Suzuna
    What on earth is going on?!
[20:57] Kotaro
    I don't know!
[20:58] μ
    I don't want to accept that
    I'm the same as others.
[20:59] Kotaro
    I don't know...
[21:02] Marie
    Shikishima-kun?
[21:05] μ
    If I pretend not to see, and
    conveniently close my eyes,
[21:05] Marie
    What's going on?
[21:07] Ritsu
    Huh? What's going?
[21:11] Marie
    H-Hey!
[21:12] μ
    I'll remain a child, never growing up.
[21:13] Marie
    Hey!
[21:15] Marie
    Shikishima-kun, you keep acting strange!
[21:18] Marie
    Where are you going?!
[21:19] Ritsu
    This isn't the time to worry about where!
[21:19] μ
    I want to keep dreaming until I die.
[21:25] μ
    Open your eyes, and reflect me,
[21:28] μ
    insignificant me.
[21:32] μ
    Wrap me up, and hold me tight,
[21:36] μ
    as childish as I am.
[21:39] μ
    Accept me in your arms
[21:43] μ
    and love me, though I'll
    eventually disappear.
[21:50] Ritsu
    What's happening?
[21:56] Ritsu
    What's happening?
[22:04] Ritsu
    Somebody explain this...
[22:10] Ritsu
    You murderer!
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