E1 - If This Love Is Going to be Over Before It Even Begins... Source: Crunchyroll Translator: Editor: Timer: QC: (Please feel free to edit the speaker names if incomplete or inaccurate. Names are handled on a best-effort basis depending on the info on the source file. Dialogue is left as is.) [00:04] Hisashi     Is this thing on already? [00:06] Mao     Yeah, it's recording. Sit down. [00:10] Mao     Second year, class A. Tsuchiya Mao. [00:13] Hisashi     Second year, class C. Otomo Hisashi. [00:16] Mao     I hereby make three promises. [00:19] Mao     I, Tsuchiya Mao, promise not to share     my roommate Otomo-kun's secrets. [00:24] Mao     I will never tell anyone that     he is gay and has a boyfriend. [00:28] Hisashi     I also promise [00:30] Hisashi     that I will never look at     Tsuchiya-kun in a romantic light. [00:33] Hisashi     I swear to God that I will absolutely     never put my hands on him. [00:38] Mao     If either of us violates our promises,     we shall move out immed— [00:40] Hisashi     Mao, you're forgetting the third one. [00:42] Mao     Oh. [00:44] Mao     We shall respect each other's     privacy while jerking off. [00:48] Mao     This sound shall be our signal. [00:52] Mao     Hey, quit laughing. This was your idea! [00:56] Hisashi     Yeah, but think about it. [00:59] Hisashi     Isn't this weird, Mao?     And you sound so formal. [01:03] Mao     "I hereby..." Oh, "I hereby declare"? [01:06] Hisashi     That's even weirder.     Are you being serious right now? [01:09] Mao     We should quit goofing off and get going.     I don't want to be late on the first day. [01:14] Hisashi     Mao? [01:15] Mao     Hmm? [01:16] Hisashi     Thanks. I couldn't have made it through     first year with any other roommate. [01:21] Hisashi     Let's try to get along for second year, too. [01:23] Mao     Yeah. Let's. [01:26] Mao     I'm glad to be with you, too. [01:28] Mao     Hisashi, got your key? [01:30] Mao     My club starts today, so I'll be late. [01:31] Mao     Sleeping and waking up in     the same room, the same space. [01:33] Hisashi     Oh, it's starting already? [01:35] Mao     Sometimes talking, sometimes not. [01:35] Mao     Yeah. There's a competition so we     have to finish before the festival. [01:37] Mao     "Good morning" and "good night." SIGN    Hiiragi House [01:39] Hisashi     Huh. [01:40] Mao     "I'm back" and "welcome home." [01:42] Hisashi     But the festival's in July.     You've got plenty of time. [01:43] Mao     I didn't know if I could've said     those things to someone else. [01:45] Mao     There's only three months left.     It might not be enough. [01:48] Mao     But now that we've been     together a year, I can. [01:48] Hisashi     It takes that long? [01:50] Hisashi     Wow, film club goes hard. For real? [01:52] Mao     For real. SIGN    Twilight Out of Focus SIGN    Twilight Out of Focus [03:31] Giichi     The first meeting of the year will now begin! SIGN    Second Year Film Club Meeting      STAY OUT!      Especially third years!! [03:36] Giichi     I'm Ichikawa Giichi, serving as director.     I have my eyes on the prize. [03:40] Giichi     I hope you're all ready to knock     the wind out of those third years. SIGN    Director SIGN    Ichikawa Giichi [03:46] Member 1     It isn't even funny     when you say it like that. [03:49] Giichi     Your department assignments     are covered in the handout. [03:52] Giichi     I'll just read out the leaders. [03:54] Giichi     Photography department, Tsuchiya Mao. SIGN    Photography Department SIGN    Tsuchiya Mao [03:58] Giichi     Assistant director, Kagari Runa.     Script supervisor, Kagari Teru. SIGN    Script Supervisor SIGN    Assistant Director SIGN    Kagari Teru SIGN    Kagari Runa [04:05] Giichi     Lighting, Yamada Noboru.     Sound, Todoroki Shinjiro. [04:06] Runa     Hey, Mao. You read the script? [04:08] Runa     It's one of those. [04:10] Mao     I'm reading it now. [04:10] Giichi     Screenwriter and editor, me. [04:11] Mao     A school love story? That's unusual. [04:14] Runa     Yeah, but it's not just any love story— [04:15] Giichi     And now I'll announce the theme of the film. [04:20] Giichi     It's this! [04:21] Mao     B...? [04:22] Member 1     BL? As in boys' love? [04:24] background chatter     Huh? Whoa. Seriously? [04:25] Member 2     What's that? [04:26] Member 3     Stuff like this. Like this. [04:28] Member 4     Never heard of it. [04:29] Member 1     A love story between dudes? [04:31] Member 2     Like unexplored territory? [04:32] Member 3     There must be some reason behind it. [04:35] Member 4     Hey, Ichikawa. Say something. [04:39] Giichi     To tell the truth, I read one     and totally got hooked! [04:44] Giichi     My heart went pitter-patter for real! [04:47] Giichi     The characters were all so pure and sincere. [04:49] Giichi     I was like, "This is what true love means!" [04:52] Giichi     So sublime! [04:54] Runa     Forget about Ichikawa's     offbeat pitter-patter. [04:57] Runa     First, we've gotta check the script. [04:58] Member 1     You're right. [04:59] Member 2     We can talk about replacing him later. [05:02] Runa     No! [05:04] Member 1     Damn, he's a genius! [05:06] Member 2     It's pissing me off how good      this is! I'm gonna cry! [05:08] Member 3     Don't do this to me, man! [05:09] Member 4     Are you some kind of love wizard?! [05:11] Giichi     Har har har. [05:14] Mao     I can't wait to shoot it. [05:15] Giichi     Yeah. [05:17] Giichi     Just so you know,     all kidding aside, I'm not gay. [05:22] Giichi     I've never fallen in love before. [05:25] Giichi     I've never even had a crush on anyone. [05:28] Giichi     What about you? [05:29] Mao     Huh? Well, I... I guess I'm the same. [05:33] Mao     I did kinda like someone before, though. [05:35] Runa     Seriously? Are you guys     still elementary schoolers? [05:38] Runa     You're defective human beings.     No wonder you're film nerds. [05:42] Giichi     Shaddap! [05:43] Giichi     I mean, do any of us really know     what love is, anyway? I doubt it. [05:49] Giichi     So this is for our future. [05:52] Giichi     When we all grow up and get married... [05:54] Giichi     Well, that's right. Same-sex marriage     might be totally normal by then. [06:00] Giichi     You might find someone you     care about, or you might not. [06:04] Giichi     But no matter what happens later, I want you     to always remember what we did here. [06:08] Giichi     In our second year of high school,     we gave love and romance serious thought, [06:11] Giichi     and pushed through our embarrassment      to commit it all to film. [06:15] Giichi     Let's do this right.     Just follow my lead, guys. [06:18] Members     Yeah! [06:18] Members     All right! [06:19] Members     Let's do it! [06:19] Mao     I guess the Ichikawa crew is ready to roll. [06:22] Giichi     Yeah. I'm counting on you, partner. [06:24] Runa     I want to start casting right away.     Did you have your eyes on anyone, Director? [06:27] Giichi     Actually, I wanted to talk to Mao about that. [06:30] Mao     Huh? Me? [06:36] Hisashi     The dorm bath was pretty empty. [06:42] Hisashi     Huh? [06:43] Hisashi     What are you doing? Creep. [06:45] Mao     I'm not doing anything!     Put some damn clothes on! [06:50] Mao     He gives off a lone wolf vibe,     like he won't get too close to people. [06:54] Mao     Part of him seems withdrawn, like     he'd just disappear at any moment. [06:58] Mao     He was right. [07:01] (Flashback) Giichi     He fits the image I have     for the lead perfectly. [07:04] (Flashback) Mao     Hisashi does? [07:05] (Flashback) Giichi     Mm-hmm. You're roommates, right?     With Otomo Hisashi? [07:08] (Flashback) Giichi     Ask him for me. [07:09] (Flashback) Runa     For that lead hoodlum character?     Is that okay? [07:12] (Flashback) Mao     Well, I don't think he can act.     That might be difficult. [07:17] (Flashback) Giichi     The problem isn't acting ability. [07:19] (Flashback) Giichi     It's appearance.     He's got to look like a real punk. [07:23] (Flashback) Giichi     Our school is full of athletes     and liberal arts types. [07:26] (Flashback) Giichi     No one else fits so naturally. [07:29] (Flashback) Runa     I think you're more of a lone wolf     than him, Ichikawa. [07:33] (Flashback) Giichi     Oh, that won't do! [07:34] (Flashback) Giichi     He's needs to have beauty!     Because it's boys' love! [07:37] (Flashback) Runa     Are you a girl, now? [07:38] (Flashback) Giichi     Sweet talk him into it and bring him along. [07:40] (Flashback) Mao     Huh?! [07:41] (Flashback) Giichi     See you. [07:44] (Flashback) Runa     He sure gets stubborn sometimes.     Only thinks about himself. [07:48] (Flashback) Runa     Want me to ask instead?     Since you're roommates, it might be weird. [07:55] (Flashback) Runa     It's a love story between guys,     so there will be kiss scenes. [07:59] (Flashback) Runa     We've gotta be careful so     there's no misunderstanding. [08:02] Mao     If I asked him, what would he think? [08:07] Mao     "The role is a guy who falls     in love with another guy. [08:10] Mao     Everyone said you'd be perfect." [08:14] Mao     He'll probably think that I broke my promise     and told everyone his secret. [08:19] Mao     I'll ask someone else instead. [08:21] Mao     Kagari and I should be able to find someone. [08:25] Mao     I guess there are still punks     like this in the countryside. [08:28] Mao     He does fit the image perfectly, though.     Including the character's awkwardness. [08:33] Mao     He is a lot like Hisashi. Like the way he seems     to glare when he looks at people. [08:38] Mao     The part I really like is scene 8.     I can already see it in my head. [08:43] Mao     It's in the quiet library after school.     He comes in looking for someone. [08:48] Mao     He finds them by the window and sneaks up,     trying not to get noticed. [08:54] Mao     They're alone in the library,     light pouring in through the windows. [08:57] Mao     The protagonist says something to him,     but there's no response. [09:00] Mao     So he tries again. But this time, much closer. [09:04] Mao     Startled, the class president raises his head. [09:07] Mao     They almost collide. [09:09] Mao     Their lips hover next to each other,     nearly touching, like a game. [09:15] Mao     The class president hesitates.     The protagonist says to him, [09:19] Hisashi     "What, did you think     I was going to kiss you?" [09:25] Hisashi     Mao... Mao... [09:28] Hisashi     Mao? Mao! [09:30] Hisashi     Are you okay? [09:34] Hisashi     Did you fall asleep?     The bath is closing soon. [09:37] Hisashi     Hey, come back to Earth!     What's wrong with you? [09:43] Mao     I-I'm going to take a bath! [09:44] Hisashi     Huh? [09:46] Mao     Thanks for waking me up! [09:49] Mao     What the hell is this? [09:53] Mao     Like a weird switch just flipped inside me. [09:56] Mao     No, it must just be because     he's perfect for the role. [10:01] Mao     It was so vivid in my imagination! [10:03] Mao     Yeah, he looked so cool.     I totally got into it. [10:09] Mao     I wanted him to kiss me. [10:14] Mao     Kagari? [10:15] Runa     Hmm? [10:17] Mao     It's about the casting. [10:18] Runa     Oh, you mean Otomo? You talk to him? [10:21] Mao     It's not gonna work.     Let's pick someone else. [10:24] Mao     It would make things too awkward. [10:26] Runa     Okay. I'll tell the director. SIGN    Second Year Film Club Meeting     STAY OUT! [10:33] Giichi     Hey. [10:37] Runa     Wait. You told him about the role? [10:40] Giichi     Yeah. I saw him watching,     so I invited him in. [10:43] Runa     But Mao said... [10:47] Giichi     It'd be tough to work with Otomo?!     You need to start taking this seriously! [10:50] Giichi     What happened to your passion for cinema?! [10:53] Giichi     How dare you?! [10:55] Mao     How dare I? [10:56] Mao     Because he's going to think     I broke my promise. [11:00] Mao     Because it's going to     hurt Hisashi's feelings. [11:03] Mao     And also, because I... [11:05] Mao     Wait, "I"? [11:07] Hisashi     Too late now. [11:08] Mao     Huh? [11:10] Mao     Hisashi... SIGN    Hiiragi House [11:16] Mao     The first day of class. It was a cold spring. [11:19] Mao     When I said, "Hello, nice to meet you,"     he wouldn't even shake my hand. [11:24] (Flashback) Hisashi     Hi. [11:25] Mao     If that's how it was gonna be,     no need to get to know him. [11:29] Mao     I could just live my life,     pretending that he was invisible. [11:33] Mao     But it was still the same tiny room. [11:37] Mao     I'd always see him     out of the corner of my eye. [11:39] Mao     His gloomy posture made me worry. [11:40] Hisashi     Can I come over now? [11:42] Mao     The person on the phone must     have ruffled his feathers. [11:43] Hisashi     Is someone else there? Who is it? [11:45] Mao     He seemed really anxious about it,     and that worried me. [11:50] Mao     The days went by,     and then on the tenth day... [11:56] (Flashback) Mao     Huh? [11:57] Mao     He looks really sick. He did come back     soaked from the rain last night. [12:03] (Flashback) Mao     Hey, Otomo. I've got some     cold medicine you can— [12:18] (Flashback) Mao     Hey! [12:19] (Flashback) Mao     Otomo, you half-asleep or something? [12:29] (Flashback) Mao     Ah! Th-This isn't funny! [12:34] (Flashback) Mao     Hey... Otomo! [12:36] (Flashback) Mao     S-Stop it! Get your hands off me! Hey! [12:41] (Flashback) Mao     Who do you think I am?! [12:43] (Flashback) Mao     Would you get your shit together?! [12:53] (Flashback) Hisashi     Don't run away from me, Sensei. [12:58] Mao     ...he whispered. [13:00] Mao     It sounded like he was crying.     He seemed absolutely miserable. [13:08] (Flashback) Mao     Don't worry. [13:10] (Flashback) Mao     I'm not going anywhere. Don't worry. [13:17] (Flashback) Mao     Otomo, take the medicine. [13:17] [SONG] text     Cold Medicine     Super EX     Gold Plus [13:19] (Flashback) Mao     Then warm up and get some sleep.     Put some socks on. [13:23] (Flashback) Hisashi     Um, I'm sorry. I'm really sorry. [13:28] (Flashback) Hisashi     I'll move out immediately. [13:30] (Flashback) Mao     But why? It was just an accident, right? [13:33] (Flashback) Mao     I shouldn't have gotten close     when you were sleeping. [13:36] (Flashback) Mao     We're both guys, so     a little touching is no big deal. [13:40] (Flashback) Hisashi     This isn't fair to you, so I'll just tell you. [13:44] (Flashback) Hisashi     I'm actually gay. [13:47] (Flashback) Hisashi     So, "we're both guys" doesn't really apply. [13:51] (Flashback) Mao     Oh, okay. [13:53] (Flashback) Mao     Got it. I understand. [13:55] (Flashback) Hisashi     Wait, aren't you scared? [13:58] (Flashback) Mao     Scared about what? Have some water. [14:01] (Flashback) Hisashi     Thanks. [14:02] (Flashback) Hisashi     I mean, wouldn't most guys get scared? [14:06] (Flashback) Hisashi     Like, "My roommate's gay,     he's gonna pounce on me!" [14:10] (Flashback) Mao     What? Really? [14:12] (Flashback) Mao     Do you just randomly attack     guys like that? Like a zombie? [14:16] (Flashback) Hisashi     No, I don't. And I am dating somebody. [14:19] (Flashback) Hisashi     But I have heard that from people. [14:23] (Flashback) Hisashi     They go around talking crap     like that and laughing. [14:26] (Flashback) Mao     Huh. Well, I still wasn't scared. [14:30] Mao     He just seemed so lonely. [14:32] (Flashback) Mao     I'm not like that.     I won't laugh or get scared. [14:35] (Flashback) Mao     I won't tell anyone, either. I promise. [14:39] (Flashback) Hisashi     You're a strange guy. Then I'll promise, too. [14:43] (Flashback) Hisashi     I won't do anything to make you     feel unsafe or uncomfortable. [14:48] (Flashback) Hisashi     So let's start over. [14:49] (Flashback) Mao     Sounds good. [14:52] Mao     Hisashi kept saying we should sign a     blood oath, but that sounded too creepy, [14:56] Mao     so I suggested we record a video. [14:58] Mao     While we were at it, we also settled     an issue that all roommates face. [15:02] (Flashback) Hisashi     By the way, how are you     taking care of things? [15:05] (Flashback) Hisashi     Isn't it awkward when we're sharing a room? [15:07] (Flashback) Mao     Taking care...? [15:08] (Flashback) Hisashi     Going solo... [15:09] [SONG] text     Onanie [15:10] (Flashback) Mao     Let's have a signal     to give each other privacy. [15:13] Mao     So in that cold spring in our first year,     we finally started to really room together. [15:18] Mao     That promise was our     agreement to get along... [15:22] Mao     but I feel its conditions binding me,     however tightly or loosely. [15:26] Mao     I worry, "What if I hurt his feelings?     What if I let him down?" [15:33] Hisashi     Too late now. [15:35] Hisashi     I already told this guy I'd do it. [15:40] Giichi     You heard him. I'm not letting     him out of my sight now. [15:43] Mao     Ishikawa's face is pissing me off. [15:47] Hisashi     Is me being here a problem for you? [15:49] Mao     N-No, that isn't the issue. [15:53] Hisashi     Well, whatever. Let's talk     about it when we get back. [15:56] Hisashi     Maybe we could watch a movie or something. [15:58] Giichi     Do you want to hear all the details     now that the AD is here? [16:02] Runa     Huh. Seems like you guys get along. [16:02] Hisashi     No, I've got to get going. Another time. [16:04] Giichi     All right. No worries. [16:04] Runa     You never bring your personal     opinions into stuff, Mao, [16:07] Runa     so I thought either you hated each other     or he was a serious jerk. One or the other. [16:12] Mao     No, we get along. Despite his looks,     he's actually really nice. [16:16] Runa     Why were you against it, then?     He seems like he'd be okay with it. [16:20] Runa     He might be nervous about some stuff,     but we've all got his back. [16:24] Mao     It does seem like he'd be okay with it. [16:28] Mao     Then why do I still feel like     I'm hung up on something? [16:33] Giichi     Talking him into it was     much easier than I expected. [16:36] Runa     Quit the hand rubbing, villain. [16:37] Runa     Are you serious, though? [16:39] Runa     Are you sure you didn't just     force him to say yes? [16:42] Giichi     Not at all. He actually     seemed very interested. [16:45] Giichi     Maybe my passion infected him! [16:47] Runa     So how'd you bribe him? A week's      worth of cafeteria meals again? [16:51] Giichi     Have some faith in me! [16:53] Giichi     He isn't the type to get bribed so easily. [16:56] Mao     That is your special move, though.     Bribing them with school meals. [16:56] Mao     But it really is unusual     that he agreed to it. [16:59] Giichi     Huh? You know I've got more     to offer than that! [17:01] Mao     He looks pretty wild on the outside,     but he always keeps to himself. [17:01] Runa     Yeah, all that "passion," right? [17:05] (Flashback) Mao     You wanna try, Hisashi? SIGN    Cilantro Chips [17:07] (Flashback) Mao     It's a new flavor. Wanna try some? [17:10] (Flashback) Mao     My film club senpai are taking me out     for yakiniku. Wanna come with? [17:15] Mao     But whenever I invite him, [17:17] Mao     he just smiles a little     and says, "Nah, I'm good." [17:19] Mao     But, unusual— Actually, how would I know? [17:22] Mao     I only know what he's like in our room.     I have no idea what he's thinking. [17:27] Mao     No idea at all. Of course I don't. [17:31] Hisashi     How does this one go? SIGN    Shark Crash [17:32] Mao     They all die. [17:33] Hisashi     And this one? [17:34] Mao     They all die. [17:35] Hisashi     Oh. Then this one? [17:36] Mao     Most of them die. [17:38] Mao     That's what makes them good. [17:39] Hisashi     What the hell, man? Then you pick, Mao. [17:45] Hisashi     I wanted to talk but I can't stop watching.     This is really interesting. [17:50] Mao     I told you so. [17:50] Hisashi     Oh, come on! [17:54] Mao     Oh, crap. This is making me nervous. [17:59] Hisashi     Mao. [17:59] Mao     Huh? [18:00] Hisashi     Maybe I will act in that film club movie. [18:04] Hisashi     I mean, I want to. [18:06] Mao     I've never heard Hisashi so     determined about something. [18:11] Mao     What made you want to do it, Hisashi? [18:14] Hisashi     I wanted to learn more about it. About you. [18:18] Mao     M-Me? Why? [18:20] Hisashi     Why? Because you're awesome. [18:23] Hisashi     I don't have any hobbies.     I've never joined a club. [18:28] Hisashi     There's nothing I want to try. [18:30] Hisashi     That's why I think you're awesome.     You make me jealous. [18:35] Hisashi     You remember when we shot that promise     video last year? What you said to me? [18:40] (Flashback) Mao     I don't care if you believe me or not,     but I never lie when I'm on camera. [18:46] Hisashi     I had no clue what you meant at the time. [18:49] Mao     Did I really say that?     That's so embarrassing! [18:52] Hisashi     I thought, "Whoa, this guy's insane." [18:54] Mao     Huh? Wait, is that what you really thought? [18:58] Hisashi     Well, now, I still don't get     the camera thing, [19:02] Hisashi     but I'm starting to get you. [19:04] Hisashi     And I want to learn more. [19:06] Mao     Oh, I get it. Hisashi     is searching for something. [19:11] Mao     Something he wants to do... together. [19:15] Mao     I'm such an idiot. [19:16] Mao     I don't want to hurt his feelings?     I don't want to let him down? [19:20] Mao     I've only thought     about myself this whole time. [19:23] Mao     Hisashi, let's make a great film together. [19:26] Mao     I actually thought you'd be perfect     for the role. So I'm really happy. [19:33] Hisashi     I'm so nervous, though.     You really think I can do it? [19:37] Mao     All you've got to do is remember     your lines. You'll be fine. [19:41] Hisashi     You make it sound so easy.     But I bet it's difficult. [19:47] Hisashi     I don't talk like this guy does at all.     He's like a really old school punk. [19:52] Mao     I'm sure Ichikawa can rewrite     the lines to fit you better. [19:56] Hisashi     You mean that guy     with the glasses wrote this? [20:02] Hisashi     What? [20:03] Mao     Try reading one of the lines. [20:05] Hisashi     Seriously? Ugh, I'm cringing. [20:08] Mao     Just try it out. All you've gotta do is read. [20:11] Mao     I'll think about how I want to shoot it. [20:14] Hisashi     "I didn't know you were     still here, Class President." [20:14] Mao     To think about... [20:18] Mao     how I really see Hisashi. [20:21] Hisashi     "Do you think you might actually be into me?" [20:27] Mao     Am I... is that it? [20:31] Hisashi     Mao? [20:34] Hisashi     You were spaced out yesterday, too.     Are you sure you're feeling okay? [20:38] Hisashi     You're all red. Do you have a fever? [20:42] Mao     So that was it. The thing I was hung up on. [20:47] Mao     Do I actually like Hisashi? [20:52] Mao     Since when? His face? Personality?     When did this begin? [20:56] Mao     What do I like about him? What started it? [20:59] Hisashi     My hands are cold so it's hard to tell. [20:59] Mao     And why now? I don't know. [21:02] Mao     All I do know is... [21:03] Hisashi     Hold on a sec. [21:07] Mao     I wish I'd never realized this. [21:10] Hisashi     Mao... your eyes are watering,     like you're gonna cry. [21:20] Mao     Forget it. [21:23] [Messenger] text     Cell Phone [21:23] [Messenger] text     Settings [21:23] [Messenger] text     Contacts [21:26] Hisashi     Sorry, it's my boyfriend.     Take some medicine and lie down. [21:39] Mao     Why? Why did I have to notice? [21:45] Mao     If this love is going to be     over before it even begins... [21:49] Mao     then I don't want to realize that I'm in love. SIGN    Pick Me