# E9 - Deep Memories
Source: [Crunchyroll](https://www.crunchyroll.com/watch/GQJUGEG57/deep-memories)
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**[00:01] Beholder**
Fushi lives alongside Gugu and the others.
**[00:05] Beholder**
Through his daily routines,
he slowly gains more stimulation.
**[00:14] Beholder**
Following a falling-out with Gugu,
**[00:17] Beholder**
Fushi takes Pioran's advice to go and find him...
**[00:31] Beholder**
And they reunite.
**[02:06] Man A**
Look. I heard this is it.
**[02:09] Man A**
This is where the monster lives?
**[02:11] Man B**
I don't see anyone here.
**[02:13] Woman A**
I'm scared.
**[02:18] Man A**
There it is!
**[02:19] Woman A**
It's the monster!
**[02:22] Gugu**
Nice, Fushi!
**[02:25] N**
The stronger the stimulation,
the deeper it's engraved in memory.
**[02:30] N**
For example, encountering a monster.
**[02:42] N**
One boy became brothers with a monster.
**[02:49] Gugu**
Did you see that face?
**[02:51] Gugu**
That was hilarious.
**[02:52] Fushi**
Gugu.
**[02:54] Fushi**
Aren't you going back to Booze Man's place?
**[03:00] Gugu**
No way.
**[03:03] Gugu**
Haven't you heard?
Beer Gramps put booze in me.
**[03:13] Fushi**
Gugu!
**[03:14] Gugu**
Weird...
**[03:16] Gugu**
I can't move my body.
***SIGN*** Deep Memories
**[03:28] Gugu**
I haven't had anything
to eat in a long time.
**[03:31] Gugu**
Fushi, do you have anything?
**[03:34] Fushi**
I don't.
**[03:35] Gugu**
Okay.
**[03:56] Fushi**
I got some!
**[03:57] Fushi**
I got some, Gugu!
**[03:59] Fushi**
Wait, I'll make more.
**[04:04] Fushi**
I did it! Eat!
**[04:06] Gugu**
Yum!
**[04:08] Gugu**
I never knew you could make food, too.
**[04:11] Beholder**
The more something stimulated him,
the easier it was for him to create it.
**[04:17] Gugu**
Wow, this is amazing. What else can you make?
**[04:17] Beholder**
The stronger the stimulation,
the deeper it's engraved in memory.
**[04:19] Fushi**
Only this.
**[04:20] Gugu**
Oh, okay...
**[04:22] Beholder**
But depending on how he grows going forward,
**[04:25] Beholder**
he may become able to recall
well and recreate things
**[04:28] Beholder**
that he'd gained through
even slight stimulation.
**[04:32] Gugu**
I'm so full.
**[04:40] Fushi**
Joaan.
**[04:42] Gugu**
Meer!
**[04:43] Gugu**
Did you run away from home again?
**[04:46] Fushi**
Joaan.
**[04:46] Gugu**
That's not right.
**[04:48] Gugu**
This is Meer, Rean's dog.
**[04:51] Gugu**
What's that "Joaan" you mentioned?
**[04:55] Fushi**
Joaan...
**[04:56] Fushi**
Someone said that when he saw my face.
**[05:00] Gugu**
Then that must be your name.
**[05:03] Gugu**
Was it your parents who called you that?
**[05:06] Fushi**
I don't know.
**[05:07] Fushi**
But that person was my first person.
**[05:11] Fushi**
He stopped moving and became
empty, so I became him.
**[05:19] Gugu**
I see.
**[05:20] Gugu**
So the appearance you have now is someone
else's, and that person is dead now.
**[05:27] Fushi**
Dead?
**[05:28] Gugu**
Yeah.
**[05:29] Gugu**
Their time came.
**[05:30] Gugu**
You could become a girl, too, right?
**[05:33] Gugu**
Did that girl die, too?
**[05:37] Gugu**
And that big bear and the wolf?
**[05:42] Fushi**
What's "die"?
**[05:43] Gugu**
It's what you call becoming empty.
**[05:46] Gugu**
Once that happens, you can't
go back to how you were.
**[05:50] Gugu**
That's what death is.
**[05:54] Gugu**
You make new things in
reaction to pain, right?
**[05:58] Gugu**
I wonder if that means you
react to emotional pain, too.
**[06:02] Gugu**
For example, if I die and you become
upset, you could become me.
**[06:08] Gugu**
That's how it works, right?
**[06:10] Fushi**
I think so.
**[06:11] Gugu**
Wow, that's cool. I really like that.
**[06:14] Fushi**
Why?
**[06:15] Gugu**
Even if I die, you'd still think of me.
**[06:22] Fushi**
Yeah.
**[06:23] Gugu**
I'm a loner, you know.
**[06:26] Gugu**
If I'd been born to a normal family,
I'd never miss a meal.
**[06:32] Gugu**
I'd have a soft place to sleep.
**[06:35] Gugu**
If I had a fever, I'd have a
mother to take care of me,
**[06:38] Gugu**
and a father to ask, "How're you feeling?"
**[06:42] Gugu**
And twin older siblings who can be mean,
but still make time to play with me.
**[06:46] Gugu**
And an older brother who teaches me things.
**[06:50] Gugu**
A normal life is one where a lot
of people think of you, right?
**[06:56] Gugu**
And... And then, one day,
I noticed something was wrong.
**[07:02] (Flashback) Employer Mom**
Come, children.
**[07:04] (Flashback) Employer Mom**
We have cake.
**[07:05] (Flashback) Employer Mom**
Let's eat together.
**[07:06] (Flashback) Employer Sister 1**
Yay!
**[07:08] (Flashback) Employer Sister 1**
You remembered our promise!
**[07:10] (Flashback) Employer Sister 2**
Cherry cake, right?
**[07:12] (Flashback) Employer Sister 2**
I love cherry cake!
**[07:14] (Flashback) Shin**
Wait, Gugu.
**[07:16] (Flashback) Shin**
Wait.
**[07:18] (Flashback) Shin**
That's the rule.
**[07:19] (Flashback) Employer Mom**
What are you waiting for, you two?
**[07:23] (Flashback) Employer Grandmother**
Yeah.
**[07:24] (Flashback) Employer Grandmother**
Come over here and eat.
**[07:26] (Flashback) Shin**
Okay. Thank you.
**[07:28] Gugu**
After a while, our family moved
because of my father's work.
**[07:36] Gugu**
But they didn't take us with them.
**[07:40] (Flashback) Shin**
It's just the two of us left.
**[07:43] (Flashback) Shin**
Well, where should we work next?
**[07:48] Gugu**
The people I thought were family
were just our employers.
**[07:53] Gugu**
The only one who thought
of me was my brother.
**[07:58] Gugu**
My brother was nice to me,
even when it was just the two of us.
**[08:03] Gugu**
But that's over now, too.
**[08:05] Gugu**
Things happened, and now I'm all alone.
**[08:08] Gugu**
But you're here now.
**[08:12] Gugu**
Sorry about the other day, Fushi.
**[08:14] Gugu**
For hurting you.
**[08:18] Gugu**
If I die, become me, Fushi.
**[08:23] Fushi**
Okay.
**[08:26] Gugu**
I'm kind of sleepy.
**[08:29] Fushi**
Did you eat too much?
**[08:30] Gugu**
I'm really happy right now.
**[08:35] Gugu**
Only you came here worried for me.
**[08:42] Gugu**
It's almost like we're a real family.
**[08:59] Fushi**
Gugu?
**[09:13] Rean**
There you are! Way out here!
**[09:16] Gugu**
Rean!
**[09:17] Rean**
Sheesh. I looked everywhere for you, you know.
**[09:20] Gugu**
How did you know I was here?
**[09:22] Rean**
I heard Meer barking.
**[09:24] Rean**
He has a habit of running away from home.
**[09:38] Rean**
Why won't you come back?!
**[09:39] Gugu**
Why would you tell me to go back?!
**[09:42] Gugu**
I'm a victim!
**[09:44] Rean**
The old man says he's sorry.
**[09:47] Rean**
He says he'll take the
thing out of your stomach.
**[09:50] Rean**
For free!
**[09:51] Gugu**
For free?!
**[09:52] Gugu**
Of course it'll be free!
**[09:54] Rean**
So you're coming back, right?
**[09:56] Rean**
Let's go.
**[09:57] Gugu**
Wait.
**[09:58] Gugu**
Does that mean everyone wants me back?
**[10:01] Gugu**
Why?
**[10:03] Rean**
Everyone needs you.
**[10:06] Rean**
We love you.
**[10:07] Gugu**
R-Really?
**[10:10] Gugu**
Even you?
**[10:12] Rean**
Yes.
**[10:13] (Flashback) Rean**
Grandfather, Grandmother, I've made lunch.
**[10:20] (Flashback) Rean**
Why don't you cook for yourselves
if you have complaints?
**[10:22] (Flashback) Pioran**
Don't wanna.
**[10:24] (Flashback) Booze Man**
Too much work.
**[10:26] (Flashback) Rean**
I'm not babysitting those two!
**[10:33] Gugu**
I'm not going back, though.
**[10:36] Gugu**
I threw away my mask.
**[10:38] Gugu**
That means I threw away
my life as a human being.
**[10:42] Rean**
I thought that mask was
for attracting customers.
**[10:45] Gugu**
I'm sorry. I lied.
**[10:49] Gugu**
That mask was for hiding my face injuries.
**[10:52] Rean**
You poor thing.
**[10:53] Rean**
So that's why you're hiding.
**[10:59] Gugu**
Wh-What are you doing?!
**[11:02] Gugu**
You're awful! Pervert! Lowlife!
**[11:05] Rean**
What are you doing,
clinging to that tree like a bug?
**[11:08] Rean**
I don't care about your face.
**[11:11] Gugu**
Well, I care!
**[11:13] Gugu**
I don't want people to see it!
**[11:15] Gugu**
Particularly you.
**[11:16] Fushi**
You were showing your face all this time.
**[11:19] Fushi**
Why?
**[11:20] Gugu**
Just be quiet for a second.
**[11:22] Rean**
What?
**[11:22] Rean**
Are you saying you aren't
going to show me your face?
**[11:26] Gugu**
No, that's not really...
**[11:27] Rean**
Fine.
**[11:29] Rean**
You'll stop pretending you're like
a bug if you have your mask, right?
**[11:32] Rean**
I'll go get it.
**[11:33] Rean**
Tell me where you threw it out.
**[11:35] Gugu**
Gee, I don't remember.
**[11:38] Fushi**
Gugu.
**[11:39] Gugu**
Wh-What?
**[11:46] Fushi**
Gugu, your chest hurts every
time you talk to Rean.
**[11:51] Fushi**
Will it stop if you have your mask?
**[11:53] Gugu**
Wh-Wh-What is your problem?!
**[11:56] Gugu**
What are you talking about?!
**[11:59] Fushi**
I'll go find it!
**[12:01] Gugu**
H-Hey! Don't leave me here!
**[12:04] Rean**
What a strange man.
**[12:06] Rean**
But he's kind.
**[12:13] Rean**
Hey, want to see my wound?
**[12:18] Gugu**
Huh?
**[12:19] Rean**
It's a really bad wound.
**[12:21] Rean**
It might make you realize
yours isn't that bad.
**[12:27] Gugu**
W-Wait!
**[12:35] Rean**
See?
**[12:36] Rean**
Isn't it bad?
**[12:39] Gugu**
That's nothing!
**[12:40] Rean**
Nothing?!
**[12:42] Rean**
Th-That's awful!
**[12:43] Rean**
It's been weighing on me a lot!
**[12:45] Gugu**
It's a ball of snot compared to mine!
**[12:48] Rean**
Oh, really? Let's see yours, then!
**[12:52] Gugu**
Listen, your wound's almost
completely healed!
**[12:56] Gugu**
You're an idiot for worrying about that!
**[12:59] Gugu**
An idiot!
**[13:00] Gugu**
You can't seriously be so dramatic!
**[13:03] Rean**
How could you...
**[13:07] Rean**
You say the same things Mom and Dad do.
**[13:11] Gugu**
Sorry... Um...
**[13:14] Gugu**
Wait, things aren't going well with your parents?
**[13:17] Rean**
Don't worry about me.
**[13:19] Rean**
I'm just being dramatic.
**[13:21] Gugu**
But... I mean...
**[13:24] Gugu**
Don't cry.
**[13:26] Gugu**
Come back, Fushi.
**[13:29] Rean**
Those people think I'm a pet or something.
**[13:33] Rean**
They want me to do everything as they say.
**[13:36] Rean**
They're horrible.
**[13:38] Rean**
I like purple, but they keep buying me green
things because that's the family color.
**[13:44] Gugu**
Huh? I like green.
**[13:47] Rean**
That's not all.
**[13:49] Rean**
I was drawing when Mom hired a teacher.
**[13:53] Rean**
I didn't like that, so I started knitting,
and then Mom hired a knitting teacher.
**[13:58] Rean**
I just want to be free.
**[14:01] Rean**
But I was always surrounded by grown-ups.
**[14:05] Rean**
Any time I'd sneeze,
someone would come to me.
**[14:10] Rean**
They'd make me eat,
even when I said I wasn't hungry.
**[14:14] Rean**
They combed my hair four times a day.
**[14:17] Rean**
And even when I got sick of it and went
outside, a servant would come with me.
**[14:22] Rean**
I never had time to myself in my life.
**[14:27] Rean**
It's like they haven't accepted
me as an individual.
**[14:31] Rean**
As long as I'm at that home...
**[14:33] Gugu**
That's so stupid.
**[14:35] Gugu**
They sound like good parents.
**[14:37] Gugu**
You're the awful one.
**[14:39] Gugu**
You count people's kindness as misfortune
and brag as though you're complaining.
**[14:45] Gugu**
That's how it looks to me.
**[14:47] Rean**
You've got the wrong idea!
**[14:49] Rean**
I never expected to be able
to share your values, either.
**[14:53] Rean**
I would have never had this wound
if I hadn't been born to that family.
**[14:57] Gugu**
What?
**[15:00] Rean**
Someone pushed me from behind.
**[15:03] Rean**
People say it must be
someone who hates my dad.
**[15:08] Rean**
Yet no one worries about me.
**[15:15] Gugu**
That's wrong.
**[15:18] Rean**
Did you say I'm wrong?
**[15:20] Gugu**
No.
**[15:21] Gugu**
I said you're an idiot.
**[15:24] Rean**
Hey!
**[15:25] Rean**
How many times can you call
me an idiot in one day?
**[15:47] Rean**
Hey, Meer...
**[15:48] Rean**
Was what I said really that awful?
**[15:51] Rean**
It woofsn't!
**[15:54] Rean**
Hey, how did you hurt your face?
**[15:57] Gugu**
I'm not saying.
**[15:59] Gugu**
You'll hate me if I do.
**[16:01] Rean**
What do you mean by that?
**[16:06] Rean**
Do you like me?
**[16:10] Gugu**
I'm not saying.
**[16:11] Gugu**
You'll hate me if I do.
**[16:13] Rean**
You're not telling me anything, huh?
**[16:18] Gugu**
I'm a freak.
**[16:20] Gugu**
That's all you need to know.
**[16:29] Rean**
Um...
**[16:30] Rean**
Oh, right!
**[16:32] Rean**
The mask!
**[16:33] Rean**
I brought this as a gift for you.
**[16:36] Rean**
The old man says it's from
a traditional tribe.
**[16:40] Rean**
Isn't that amazing?
**[16:42] Rean**
You can use it if you'd like.
**[16:47] Gugu**
I-I don't need this!
**[16:51] Rean**
You're so silly.
**[16:59] Rean**
I don't care if you're a monster or a human.
**[17:04] Rean**
You're still you either way, aren't you?
**[17:08] Rean**
I like how weird you are either way,
**[17:10] Rean**
whether you're spilling your guts out
or you can't help but hide everything.
**[17:15] Rean**
That's you.
**[17:16] Rean**
You're you.
**[17:18] Rean**
Come out already.
**[17:20] Rean**
You aren't going to avoid looking at
me for the rest of your life, are you?
**[17:25] Rean**
I want to get to know you better.
**[17:28] Rean**
Even if you have to hide your face.
**[17:34] Rean**
Hey, the wind's nice.
**[17:43] Rean**
Fushi-san's taking his time, huh?
**[17:44] Rean**
Should we wait? Or should we look for him?
**[17:47] Gugu**
Let's go.
**[17:49] Gugu**
Sorry for the awful things I said earlier.
**[17:52] Rean**
What was it again?
**[18:05] Fushi**
Found it!
**[18:12] Beholder**
Are you enjoying playing human?
**[18:27] Beholder**
The enemy is always looking
for an opportunity.
**[18:32] Beholder**
Be cautious.
**[18:35] Gugu**
I threw my mask out over this way.
**[18:38] Gugu**
So Fushi should be around here, too.
**[18:40] Rean**
Aren't we going to miss each other?
**[18:42] Gugu**
Don't worry.
**[18:44] Gugu**
He'll find us.
**[18:46] Rean**
How do you know?
**[18:48] Gugu**
Well, because he's him, of course.
**[18:50] Rean**
Say what? That makes no sense.
**[18:54] Man C**
Rean-sama.
**[18:55] Man C**
Let's go home now.
**[18:57] Rean**
No! Let me go!
**[18:58] Gugu**
Wh-Who is he?
**[19:00] Rean**
He's a hired thug!
**[19:02] Rean**
I wonder how much money
he's making for catching me!
**[19:06] Woman B**
She's the Cropps' daughter.
**[19:08] Shopkeeper**
What, she ran away from home again?
**[19:10] Rean**
Let me go!
**[19:11] Rean**
Let me go!
**[19:14] Rean**
No!
**[19:20] Gugu**
Run!
**[19:32] Gugu**
Hey, you were running away from home?
**[19:34] Rean**
Yeah, that's right.
**[19:36] Rean**
I bet Dad's hired at least twenty people.
**[19:40] Rean**
They're wandering around town to find me.
**[19:45] Gugu**
Why did you leave home?
**[19:46] Gugu**
Tell me everything.
**[19:48] Rean**
What? I already told you.
**[19:50] Gugu**
What you told me earlier?
**[19:52] Gugu**
That's it?
**[19:53] Rean**
What? Is that weird?
**[19:55] Gugu**
I mean...
**[19:58] Gugu**
Was this mask so that
they wouldn't find you?
**[20:02] Rean**
That's right.
**[20:04] Rean**
I didn't want to get dragged
home before I found you two.
**[20:08] Rean**
Sorry I lied about it being a gift.
**[20:12] Rean**
Are you disappointed?
**[20:20] Gugu**
Have it back.
**[20:24] Gugu**
Thanks for lending me the mask.
**[20:27] Gugu**
I understand you a little better now.
**[20:36] Rean**
Don't worry, I won't look at you.
**[20:39] Gugu**
It doesn't matter anymore.
**[20:44] Gugu**
Thanks.
**[20:55] Fushi**
I got it!
**[20:56] Rean**
Fushi-san!
**[21:01] Gugu**
All right, let's go back to Booze Man's place.
**[21:04] Rean**
Are you sure?
**[21:05] Rean**
You said you didn't want to go back earlier.
**[21:08] Gugu**
That's the best place for you, isn't it?
**[21:11] Rean**
Yeah.
**[21:12] Rean**
But are you not angry at
the old man anymore?
**[21:16] Gugu**
I don't care anymore,
**[21:18] Gugu**
about what he did to me or how I felt.
**[21:21] Gugu**
It's not that I've forgiven him...
**[21:27] Gugu**
But I've lost interest in
my own circumstances.
**[21:32] Gugu**
That's all.
**[21:33] Gugu**
So I can go back now.
**[21:35] Gugu**
Let's go.
**[21:40] Rean**
Okay.
**[21:53] Handmaiden**
Young lady!
**[21:55] Handmaiden**
Where have you been?
**[21:57] Handmaiden**
You aren't going to fool me with that mask.
**[22:01] Handmaiden**
Let's go home.
**[22:02] Handmaiden**
Your father and the others
are worried about you.
**[22:05] Rean**
You must have the wrong person.
**[22:07] Rean**
I don't know of a Rean.
**[22:10] Handmaiden**
You're as endearing as ever.
**[22:12] Handmaiden**
I never said "Rean."
**[22:16] Handmaiden**
Now surrender, and let's go home.
**[22:18] Rean**
No way. That's such a pain.
**[22:23] Gugu**
Just ignore her!
**[22:28] Handmaiden**
Young lady!
**[22:30] Handmaiden**
Young lady!
**[22:31] Rean**
Oh, no! She's still following me!
**[22:33] Gugu**
There'll be trouble if she follows us home.
**[22:36] Gugu**
Fushi, take care of her.
**[22:38] Fushi**
Okay.
**[22:38] Handmaiden**
Wait!
**[22:40] Handmaiden**
Young la—
**[22:45] Handmaiden**
Who is this child?
**[22:48] Handmaiden**
What shall I do?
**[22:51] FushiMarch**
It hurts.
**[22:52] FushiMarch**
It hurts. It hurts.
**[22:53] Handmaiden**
She's bleeding! Oh, no!
**[22:57] Gugu**
There it is! We're almost home!
**[22:59] Rean**
Hey, what about Fushi-san?
**[23:01] Gugu**
Don't worry. He'll be right with us.
**[23:03] Beholder**
I don't know about that.
**[23:09] Beholder**
I don't think he will.
**[23:11] Beholder**
For two reasons.
**[23:14] Beholder**
First, he hasn't acquired anything
of use since the last battle.
**[23:20] Beholder**
Second, it made the first move.
**[23:32] Rean**
Was that a scream?
**[23:33] Gugu**
Fushi sure is making a scene.
**[23:36] Handmaiden**
Somebody! Somebody help!
**[23:38] Handmaiden**
It's a monster!
**[23:39] Rean**
A monster?
**[23:41] Gugu**
I'll go take a look. Go home, I'll be right there.
**[23:43] Rean**
Wait!
**[23:44] Rean**
Don't leave me by myself!
**[23:45] ---**
Huh?
**[23:47] Rean**
I said I can go back by myself.
**[23:50] Gugu**
Right. Get back safe.
**[23:54] Rean**
Okay. You, too.
**[23:59] Gugu**
*Fushi!*
**[24:02] Gugu**
What the... Was that blood?
**[24:06] Gugu**
Fushi!
**[24:08] Gugu**
Fushi!
**[24:09] Gugu**
Fushi! Fushi!
**[24:17] Gugu**
What is this?
***SIGN*** Preview
**[24:31] N**
The unknowable enemy has come again.
**[24:36] N**
Fushi is attacked viciously in the forest.
**[24:41] N**
Gugu rushes to his aid.
**[24:44] N**
The bond between the brothers
offers a narrow escape from death.
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