# E5 - Past
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**[01:32] Mikado**
I got all the trash together.
**[01:33] Mikado**
Make sure you throw it out.
**[01:36] Hiyakawa**
Are you going home already?
**[01:38] Mikado**
Yes, I'm heading out.
**[01:40] Hiyakawa**
I don't quite understand the reasons for it,
**[01:42] Hiyakawa**
but how long do you think you'll be angry?
**[01:47] Mikado**
*By "dirty," do you mean "curse"?*
**[01:53] Hiyakawa**
Oh, Mika—
**[02:02] (Flashback) Mikado**
I...
**[02:04] (Flashback) Mikado**
I want to know you.
**[02:09] Mikado**
*It might be better not to know.*
**[02:12] Mikado**
* Actually, cutting ties with him*
* immediately might be...*
**[02:16] Mikado**
* I need to stop looking for*
* reasons to forgive him!*
**[02:29] Mikado**
You...
**[02:30] Sakaki**
Don't ask a bunch of questions.
It's too much work to answer.
**[02:34] Mikado**
Is... Is this a Benz?
**[02:37] Sakaki**
Huh? Yeah.
**[02:39] Mikado**
This is my first time riding in one.
**[02:41] Sakaki**
I'm happy for you. Let's go.
**[02:50] Mikado**
This is a huge mansion.
**[02:54] Erika**
Thanks for coming!
**[02:56] Erika**
He didn't rough you up, did he?
**[02:58] Mikado**
Uh, just a little.
**[03:00] Sakaki**
I did no such thing.
**[03:02] Erika**
Sorry. He's such a gorilla, you know.
**[03:05] Erika**
He's got yakuza ties.
**[03:06] Mikado**
What?
**[03:08] Mikado**
So why did he bring me here? If you want
to use me in a curse or something...
**[03:13] Erika**
Oh, no, nothing like that!
**[03:15] Erika**
I want you to help me with my homework!
**[03:17] Mikado**
Huh?
**[03:19] Mikado**
What's your homework?
**[03:21] Erika**
English!
**[03:22] Erika**
I heard you graduated from
the English department.
**[03:25] Mikado**
Huh? How do you know that?
**[03:27] Erika**
Oh, uh... Yeah, sorry. This guy
sort of did a background check, so...
**[03:36] Mikado**
I-Is your family involved in...
the stuff he has ties to?
**[03:39] Erika**
No, we're not. I'm sort of
outsourcing, or subcontracting—
**[03:42] Sakaki**
Miss.
**[03:43] Erika**
Come on, what's it going to hurt?
I'm just telling one ordinary citizen.
**[03:48] Mikado**
Ordinary... Well, I suppose I am, but...
**[03:50] Erika**
You see...
***SIGN*** Mystery
**[03:52] Erika**
the root of everything is this
mysterious research group.
**[03:57] Mikado**
Mysterious?
**[03:58] Erika**
Yeah. But I think it might've disbanded.
**[04:01] Erika**
And there's this expert guy who
was a successor to the... first leader?
**[04:04] Erika**
And he's crazy.
***SIGN*** Mystery
**[04:05] Mikado**
Expert guy?
***SIGN*** Dad
***SIGN*** Expert Guy
**[04:06] Erika**
He joined up with the gorilla
syndicate this gorilla is from.
***SIGN*** Mystery
**[04:09] Erika**
He's super insane.
**[04:12] Erika**
When my dad sold me to this expert guy,
**[04:14] Erika**
they made a contract saying
I'd get a bodyguard.
**[04:17] Erika**
And his salary is paid from my wages.
**[04:20] Erika**
So he's my gorilla.
**[04:22] Mikado**
Th-There are a couple of details
I want to ask about, but...
**[04:26] Sakaki**
Miss.
**[04:28] Sakaki**
I think it's best to leave it at that.
**[04:31] Erika; spirit voice**
Idiot.
**[04:33] Sakaki**
You said something in
private just now, didn't you?
**[04:35] Sakaki**
I get an unpleasant feeling
in my ears when you do that.
**[04:38] Erika**
It's a secret!
**[04:40] Erika**
Okay, time to study! Please teach me.
**[04:43] Mikado**
Oh, reading comprehension
of long passages, huh?
**[04:46] Mikado**
Try translating it one sentence at a time.
**[04:48] Erika**
Yes, sir!
**[04:55] Sakaki**
The young miss's friend is visiting.
**[04:57] Erika's mom**
I see. Did you want something?
**[05:00] Sakaki**
Lately, I've noticed that not only
have you not been greeting her,
**[05:03] Sakaki**
but you haven't even been
showing your face around her.
**[05:06] Erika's mom**
That has nothing to do with—
**[05:08] Sakaki**
It does, actually.
**[05:10] Sakaki**
When her mental state weakens,
it negatively affects her work.
**[05:13] Erika's mom**
It doesn't matter what
I do or don't do, does it?
**[05:17] Erika's mom**
Not when—
**[05:18] Sakaki**
I don't know about that.
**[05:20] Sakaki**
She's a child. Even phony platitudes
would likely ease her mind.
**[05:32] female spirit**
Excuse me...
**[05:35] female spirit**
I don't know... the way home...
**[05:39] female spirit**
I want to go home...
**[05:41] Hiyakawa**
Oh, dear. I've gotten used
to having him around.
**[05:45] Hiyakawa**
This is difficult to do on my own.
**[05:50] Mukae**
What a coincidence! Actually,
a bad feeling brought me here.
**[05:54] female ghost**
The way home... I want to go home...
**[05:59] Hiyakawa**
Please don't interfere.
**[06:01] Mukae**
I'm telling you to wait!
**[06:04] Mukae**
You can't get home, right?
**[06:05] female spirit**
Yes.
**[06:06] Mukae**
I see. I'm sure you want to get home.
Look here a minute, okay?
**[06:12] female spirit**
At what?
**[06:14] Mukae**
Your toes.
**[06:17] female spirit**
What?
**[06:19] Hiyakawa**
Why are you doing something so meaningless?
**[06:22] Hiyakawa**
Isn't it careless to speak with
it just because you can?
**[06:25] Mukae**
What? Getting closer to the other person
is a basic tenet of conversation!
**[06:30] Hiyakawa**
Getting closer?
**[06:31] Mukae**
It's not fundamentally a whole lot
different from the way you do stuff.
**[06:35] Mukae**
I mean, we've got the same
goal—to extinguish them.
**[06:38] Mukae**
See?
**[06:43] Mukae**
When you talk to them,
they start to loosen up,
**[06:46] Mukae**
little by little.
**[06:48] female spirit**
Huh?
**[06:49] Mukae**
Once they've come undone like this,
**[06:52] Mukae**
there's no need to take them by force, right?
**[06:55] Mukae**
Now you can extinguish her.
**[06:57] Hiyakawa**
But a method like this...
**[06:58] Mukae**
If you didn't know it before, learn it now.
**[07:02] Hiyakawa**
Learn it?
**[07:13] Hiyakawa**
For what purpose?
**[07:16] Mukae**
Mikado.
**[07:17] Hiyakawa**
What?
**[07:19] Mukae**
People like us end up feeling like
it's "us" and "everyone else."
**[07:26] Mukae**
Mikado's the same. That's why he's with you.
**[07:30] Mukae**
Rather than the safety and
kindness of "everyone else,"
**[07:33] Mukae**
he wants to be with someone like
himself, even if it's dangerous.
**[07:37] Hiyakawa**
Mikado-kun is...
**[07:40] Mukae**
Learn other ways to do things!
**[07:49] Mukae**
See you around.
***SIGN*** After realizing that it was impossible,
she went from trying to make him remember her
to respecting and honoring his feelings.
**[07:58] Erika**
I'm done! Thank you!
**[08:02] Mikado**
Sure.
**[08:03] Erika**
That's a relief. I've had to take
days off school lately, so...
**[08:08] Mikado**
Really?
**[08:10] Erika**
Yeah. You helped a ton.
**[08:12] Sakaki**
Shall I make some coffee?
**[08:14] Erika**
Yea, a latte! I want a latte!
**[08:16] Mikado**
Oh, then I'll have a latte, too.
**[08:18] Sakaki**
Don't get full of yourself, kid.
**[08:20] Erika**
You know, Kousuke-kun,
you're really good at teaching!
**[08:24] Erika**
You should be a cram school
teacher or something.
**[08:26] Mikado**
Well... I did that part-time
while I was still a student...
**[08:32] Mikado**
But I realized that classrooms are
closed off, so there's nowhere to run.
**[08:36] Mikado**
I was scared, so...
**[08:39] Erika**
I get that.
**[08:41] Mikado**
So, your powers... What are they like?
**[08:46] Erika**
Huh? Can *you* ever manage to
explain what you see in words?
**[08:50] Erika**
Isn't it hard?
**[08:52] Mikado**
Well, yeah, but if I could understand it
better by explaining it in words,
**[08:56] Mikado**
I thought it might make
it a little less scary.
**[08:59] Erika**
You mean, like, facing it head-on?
**[09:01] Mikado**
Yeah.
**[09:03] Erika**
Well...
**[09:05] Erika**
Ever since I was little, I've liked to talk.
**[09:09] Erika**
I'd talk about all kinds of things,
even with people I didn't know.
**[09:13] Erika**
And then, even when I'd
tell them they shouldn't,
**[09:16] Erika**
some of them would follow me.
**[09:19] Erika**
I'd say, "Mama, we have a visitor."
**[09:22] Erika**
"There's no one there," she'd say.
**[09:25] Erika**
And the visitors kept wanting
to come in the house.
**[09:29] Erika**
I sort of felt sorry for them.
**[09:32] Erika**
And they were still there late at night.
**[09:34] Erika**
So I'd tell them they could come in, and then...
**[09:39] Erika**
That night, I'd have super
terrifying nightmares.
**[09:43] Erika**
I'd have dreams of dying.
**[09:53] Erika**
"Let me in."
**[09:57] Erika**
"Sure," I said.
**[10:03] Erika**
They didn't mean in my house.
**[10:07] Erika**
They meant inside me.
**[10:10] Erika**
And every time one of them entered me,
**[10:13] Erika**
I'd experience death.
**[10:15] Erika**
All of their deaths...
**[10:17] Erika**
remained inside me...
**[10:20] Erika**
and still do.
**[10:24] Erika**
But they save me.
**[10:28] Erika**
I am beloved by death.
**[10:32] Erika**
Is that a good thing, I wonder?
**[10:35] Mikado**
Does it scare you?
**[10:39] Erika**
If you aren't scared of death,
then you aren't human, right?
***SIGN*** Mystery
***SIGN*** Expert Guy
**[10:44] Erika**
There are people like that, though.
***SIGN*** Dad
**[10:47] Sakaki**
Here's your latte.
**[10:48] Erika**
Yay!
**[10:50] Sakaki**
Once you've finished this, go home, kid.
**[10:54] Erika**
I wonder if there's a way to use
my power for good things somehow.
**[11:00] Mikado**
*The vague emotion I felt*
**[11:04] Mikado**
*was probably...*
**[11:05] Mikado**
*the desire to save someone.*
**[11:11] Mikado**
*Saving someone else would, in itself,*
**[11:14] Mikado**
* also save me, who had*
* always wanted to be saved.*
**[11:18] Mikado**
* That was neither a lie*
* nor rhetorical trickery.*
**[11:22] Mikado**
And that's why I can't just cut ties.
**[11:25] (Flashback) Hiyakawa**
I don't quite understand the reasons for it,
**[11:27] (Flashback) Hiyakawa**
but how long do you think you'll be angry?
**[11:31] (Flashback) Mukae**
You've got a rope tied to you. Like a dog.
**[11:35] Mikado**
If there's really a rope
tying us together, then...
**[11:39] Mikado**
I should be able to pull
it from this side, right?
**[11:43] Mikado**
To pull you.
**[11:48] (Flashback) coworker**
It's not often things develop with
someone you met in a park, is it?
**[11:52] (Flashback) Mikado's mom**
Well...
**[11:54] (Flashback) Mikado's mom**
His bangs were so long,
**[11:56] (Flashback) Mikado's mom**
and I asked if they were annoying.
That was the start.
**[12:00] (Flashback) coworker**
What?! What did he say?
**[12:04] (Flashback) Mikado's mom**
"If they make it hard to see,
they're the right length."
**[12:07] (Flashback) coworker**
He's a weird one. Did you
say he's younger than you?
**[12:09] (Flashback) Mikado's mom**
Three years younger.
**[12:11] (Flashback) coworker**
I see. So your guy from
the park is younger than you.
**[12:15] (Flashback) coworker**
Did he say anything
super romantic to you?
**[12:17] (Flashback) Mikado's mom**
Oh, gosh! What's that supposed to mean?
**[12:20] (Flashback) coworker**
Tell me, Mikado-chan!
**[12:22] (Flashback) Mikado's mom**
Really?
**[12:23] (Flashback) coworker**
Spit it out!
**[12:24] (Flashback) Mikado's mom**
I-I didn't really understand
what he meant, but...
**[12:30] (Flashback) Mikado's mom**
He said, "The air around you
is so clean and beautiful."
**[12:42] (Flashback) young man**
How can I put this? My body is...
I have a sort of disability.
**[12:47] (Flashback) Mikado's mom**
Oh...
**[12:49] (Flashback) young man**
It... doesn't bother you?
**[12:51] (Flashback) Mikado's mom**
Huh?
**[12:52] (Flashback) Mikado's mom**
There are quite a few people like that
where I work. I'm a civil servant.
**[12:57] (Flashback) Mikado's mom**
They face a lot of challenges and
often have a hard time of it.
**[13:03] (Flashback) young man**
That's... true.
**[13:05] (Flashback) young man**
Things get scary for me from time to time.
**[13:10] (Flashback) young man**
So... I'm not very good at socializing.
**[13:14] (Flashback) young man**
Th-Things like love at first sight.
**[13:18] (Flashback) young man**
I never thought I'd...
**[13:22] (Flashback) young man**
Ow!
**[13:23] (Flashback) Mikado's mom**
Oh, I'm sorry!
**[13:25] (Flashback) young man**
It's all right.
**[13:26] (Flashback) young man**
I thought I'd never find
a place I felt safe, so...
**[13:32] (Flashback) young man**
I never imagined someone like you existed.
**[13:35] (Flashback) young man**
You have the power to keep bad things away.
**[13:44] (Flashback) young man**
Can I put my clothes in the top part?
**[13:48] (Flashback) Mikado's mom**
Please do.
**[13:50] (Flashback) young man**
I don't have much, so this'll be done fast.
**[13:52] (Flashback) Mikado's mom**
You'll have more soon.
**[13:54] (Flashback) young man**
I just might.
**[13:56] (Flashback) Mikado's mom**
This is our house.
**[14:00] (Flashback) Mikado's mom**
A house for the three of us.
**[14:05] (Flashback) young man**
Yeah.
**[14:08] (Flashback) Mikado's mom**
I'm off!
**[14:10] (Flashback) young man**
Take care.
**[14:20] (Flashback) young man**
I'm not hanging out with you guys anymore.
**[14:27] (Flashback) young man**
I've found a place where I don't
have to see you anymore.
**[14:40] (Flashback) coworker**
Yay, Kousuke-kun!
**[14:43] (Flashback) coworker**
Oh, there goes the drool...
**[14:44] (Flashback) Mikado's mom**
It's just a huge flood every day.
There's no end to it.
**[14:47] (Flashback) coworker**
That's rough.
**[14:52] (Flashback) coworker**
What is it? There's nothing there.
**[14:54] (Flashback) Mikado's mom**
There it is. His weird pointing.
**[14:57] (Flashback) coworker**
Kids do stuff like that, though.
**[15:00] (Flashback) coworker**
Sometimes they just stare
at empty spaces. Like cats.
**[15:03] (Flashback) Mikado's mom**
Oh, his father does that a lot, too.
He'll just freeze, staring at nothing.
**[15:09] (Flashback) Mikado's mom**
Maybe it's genetic?
**[15:15] (Flashback) coworker**
Oh, what's wrong?
**[15:16] (Flashback) Mikado's mom**
I'm sorry. He cries a lot.
**[15:20] (Flashback) Mikado's mom**
I can't figure out why.
**[15:22] (Flashback) Mikado's mom**
Maybe his body is weak,
or he frightens easily...
**[15:25] (Flashback) coworkers**
They do say that boys are physically frail.
**[15:29] (Flashback) Mikado's mom**
Grow up healthy and strong, okay?
**[15:38] (Flashback) young man**
Photos?
**[15:40] (Flashback) Mikado's mom**
Yep. I had them developed.
**[15:43] (Flashback) young man**
We've sure got a lot of them now.
**[15:45] (Flashback) Mikado's mom**
And we're going to have
even more in the future.
**[15:47] (Flashback) Mikado's mom**
Look, Kou-chan. From the
other day. Was that fun?
**[15:51] (Flashback) Mikado**
Yeah...
**[15:52] (Flashback) Mikado's mom**
Was it really?
**[15:54] (Flashback) young man**
Kousuke doesn't talk much, does he?
**[15:58] (Flashback) Mikado's mom**
No. But he likes books, so I think
he's just a little delayed, is all.
**[16:03] (Flashback) Mikado's mom**
Look at this. You two are just alike.
**[16:05] (Flashback) Mikado's mom**
You're looking in the same direction.
**[16:07] (Flashback) Mikado's mom**
Whoops...
**[16:08] (Flashback) Mikado's mom**
The kettle...
**[16:14] (Flashback) Mikado**
Scary.
**[16:19] (Flashback) Mikado**
Scary.
**[16:30] (Flashback) Mikado's mom**
Oh, what's wrong?
**[16:32] (Flashback) Mikado's mom**
Come to Mommy. Come on.
**[16:34] (Flashback) Mikado's mom**
Oh, right.
**[16:36] (Flashback) Mikado's mom**
When you and Kou-chan are
alone in the house together,
**[16:39] (Flashback) Mikado's mom**
be sure to air it out frequently, okay?
**[16:40] (Flashback) Mikado's mom**
For some reason, the corners
always get all dark and gloomy.
**[16:46] (Flashback) young man**
Huh?
**[16:46] (Flashback) Mikado's mom**
When it's me and you, or me
and Kou-chan, I don't notice it.
**[16:51] (Flashback) Mikado's mom**
Maybe it gets too manly in here
when it's the two of you.
**[16:56] young man**
*You have the power to keep bad things away.*
**[17:13] (Flashback) young man**
This means that her ability
isn't strong enough.
**[17:18] (Flashback) young man**
Not against the two of us.
**[17:21] (Flashback) young man**
Unless one of us disappears,
she'll probably die.
**[17:28] (Flashback) young man**
It's either me or you.
**[17:39] Mikado's mom**
*Hi, it's me!*
**[17:42] Mikado's mom**
*They're making me wait here at the hospital.*
**[17:44] Mikado's mom**
* I'll be home around four. Take care*
* of the house until then, you two.*
**[17:48] Mikado's mom**
*Thanks!*
**[17:51] (Flashback) Mikado's mom**
I'm home!
**[17:53] (Flashback) Mikado's mom**
Man, the hospital was insane!
**[18:04] (Flashback) Mikado's mom**
Huh?
**[18:08] (Flashback) Mikado's mom**
Oh...
**[18:09] (Flashback) Mikado's mom**
Kou-chan, what's wrong?
**[18:11] (Flashback) Mikado's mom**
Where's Dad?
**[18:13] (Flashback) Mikado's mom**
Here we are. You're okay.
**[18:13] (Flashback) Mikado**
Scary!
**[18:17] (Flashback) Mikado's mom**
Wow, your face is a mess!
**[18:20] (Flashback) Mikado's mom**
How long have you been crying?
**[18:22] (Flashback) Mikado's mom**
Isn't Dad here?
**[18:25] (Flashback) Mikado's mom**
I told you to watch him, didn't I? Hey!
**[18:33] (Flashback) Mikado's mom**
Huh? I...
**[18:42] (Flashback) Mikado's mom**
His things... I see. His things are gone.
**[18:47] (Flashback) Mikado's mom**
No, I don't see. I don't understand.
**[18:51] (Flashback) Mikado's mom**
It's not that I understand.
I see that it's happened.
**[18:55] (Flashback) Mikado's mom**
It's happened, but... why?
**[19:00] (Flashback) Mikado's mom**
Why is he gone?
**[19:03] (Flashback) Mikado's mom**
His face... His name...
**[19:06] (Flashback) Mikado's mom**
What is this?
**[19:08] (Flashback) Mikado's mom**
What is this? I hate it!
**[19:11] (Flashback) Mikado's mom**
This isn't right! You were here, weren't you?
**[19:16] (Flashback) Mikado's mom**
Why is it like you were never
here in the first place?
**[19:19] (Flashback) Mikado's mom**
The indisputable proof of it is...
**[19:22] (Flashback) Mikado's mom**
right here, isn't it?
**[19:27] (Flashback) Mikado's mom**
Kou-chan.
**[19:30] (Flashback) Mikado's mom**
Dad... probably isn't coming home ever again.
**[19:37] (Flashback) Mikado**
Scary.
**[19:40] Mikado**
*Scary.*
**[19:43] Mikado**
*Scary.*
**[19:49] (Flashback) Mikado's mom**
I'm your mother, and I'll protect you!
**[19:55] (Flashback) Mikado's mom**
So... it's going to be okay...
**[20:07] (Flashback) Mikado's mom**
It'll be okay.
**[20:15] Mikado's mom**
I'm home!
**[20:16] coworker**
Thanks for having me!
**[20:18] Mikado**
Hey! Welcome.
**[20:21] Mikado's mom**
It smells good in here.
**[20:22] Mikado**
It's roast beef.
**[20:24] coworker**
Wow!
**[20:25] coworker**
My, my, Kousuke-kun.
**[20:28] coworker**
You've gotten even more
handsome since last I saw you.
**[20:31] Mikado**
Thanks, but it's not my doing.
**[20:32] Mikado's mom**
Whose doing is it, then?
**[20:34] Mikado**
My dear mother's.
**[20:37] Mikado**
Oh, man! The microwave!
**[20:39] coworker**
Is he starting to look more like him?
**[20:42] Mikado's mom**
Oh, I don't know.
**[20:45] Mikado's mom**
But, well...
**[20:58] Mikado's mom**
I do hope he's healthy and
well out there somewhere.
**[22:37] sensei**
It's a truly dangerous thing,
to have your name be known.
**[22:41] Erika**
If you tell them your name, it's easier
to put a strong curse on them.
**[22:46] sensei**
That's because of the risk you take on.
**[22:49] sensei**
The more dangerous a curse,
the stronger it is.
**[22:53] sensei**
You should hurry up and forsake this world,
**[22:57] sensei**
and take measures so that
no one can call you by name.
**[23:00] Erika**
Measures?
**[23:01] sensei**
Yes.
**[23:02] sensei**
So that no one can turn
your curses back on you.
**[23:06] sensei**
I've placed light curses on
all the people around me.
**[23:12] sensei**
If they learn my name, they will forget it.
**[23:15] sensei**
If they call my name,
punishment will befall them.
**[23:17] Erika**
What? That's crazy, not to mention...
**[23:20] Erika**
it's way too lonely...
**[23:21] sensei**
And that...
**[23:26] sensei**
That is what is so foolish...
**[23:29] sensei**
about you.
**[23:31] sensei**
No one ever knows who will betray them!