# E12 - Say Goodbye to My Cowardice
Source: [Crunchyroll](https://www.crunchyroll.com/watch/GG1U2G1J9/say-goodbye-to-my-cowardice)
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**[00:00] ---**
*(Isn't that maybe how love's defined?)*
**[00:02] ---**
*Wow! A gift for you!*
**[00:04] ---**
*(So, isn't that true love defined?)*
**[00:11] ---**
*Nothing happening,*
**[00:13] ---**
*every day feels the same*
**[00:15] ---**
*Over and over, just*
**[00:17] ---**
*waiting for time to pass*
**[00:19] ---**
*When I'm with you,*
**[00:21] ---**
*I can feel*
**[00:22] ---**
*something so special,*
**[00:24] ---**
*and I want to make it real*
**[00:27] ---**
*Look, I'm really grateful every day, but you know*
**[00:30] ---**
*I feel like I'm not doing enough in return*
**[00:32] ---**
*"I was just feeling like it.*
**[00:33] ---**
*No real meaning or reason why."*
**[00:35] ---**
*Stop complaining and just take it already!*
**[00:39] ---**
*(Isn't that maybe how love's defined?)*
**[00:40] ---**
*Yeah, there's no way that's how it goes!*
**[00:42] ---**
*(So, isn't that true love defined?)*
**[00:44] ---**
*Whoa oh oh oh oh*
**[00:46] ---**
*An angel just landed*
**[00:48] ---**
*Right in front of me*
**[00:50] ---**
*With a smile that looked*
**[00:52] ---**
*Like her wings spreading open*
**[00:53] ---**
*Hey, that's against all the rules*
**[00:55] ---**
*You look so happy*
**[00:57] ---**
*Wipe off that look*
**[00:59] ---**
*Before my mind goes blank*
**[01:01] ---**
*If you keep this up,*
**[01:03] ---**
*You're gonna spoil me rotten*
**[01:06] ---**
*Come on, you gotta do something about this*
**[01:08] ---**
*So, let's get started*
**[01:10] ---**
*I want to know*
**[01:11] ---**
*A lot more about*
**[01:13] ---**
*The world you live in*
**[01:15] ---**
*So, let's get started*
**[01:17] ---**
*I want to laugh*
**[01:18] ---**
*A lot more with you*
**[01:20] ---**
*In the world you live in*
***SIGN*** The Angel Next Door
Spoils Me Rotten
**[01:23] ---**
*I want to know more*
**[01:25] ---**
*I want to laugh more*
**[01:31] Mahiru**
Amane-kun, I see someone very special in you.
**[01:35] Mahiru**
Someone very cute.
**[01:46] Amane**
The next time you say something like that,
I'll shut your mouth without the hand.
**[02:05] Amane**
Why?
***SIGN*** Say Goodbye to My Cowardice
**[02:13] Chitose**
Hey, hey! What are you doing
for sports day, Mahirun?
**[02:17] Mahiru**
I still haven't decided,
but the scavenger race does look fun.
**[02:22] Chitose**
Oh, it'll be a blast!
**[02:24] Chitose**
After all, I'm on the event committee,
and I'm in charge of that one.
**[02:28] Mahiru**
It sounds like a lot of fun, then.
**[02:30] Itsuki**
Yo, Amane.
**[02:32] Amane**
Yo.
**[02:33] Yuta**
Morning, Fujimiya.
**[02:35] Amane**
Morning.
**[02:37] Chitose**
Morning, Amane!
**[02:38] Amane**
Yeah. Morning.
***SIGN*** Cafeteria
**[02:52] Itsuki**
Hey, Amane, are you two fighting or something?
**[02:54] Yuta**
Huh? You're fighting, Fujimiya?
**[02:57] Amane**
No, we aren't exactly fighting.
**[03:00] Amane**
But it's, well, I don't know...
**[03:03] Amane**
Some stuff just happened.
**[03:08] Amane**
Just some stuff between us.
We're kind of keeping our distance.
**[03:12] Itsuki**
Come on, man. How long are you
gonna mope around like that?
**[03:15] Amane**
Shut up.
**[03:17] Yuta**
Well, Fujimiya does seem
like the cautious type.
**[03:20] Yuta**
I doubt he'll make a move
until he knows the coast is clear.
**[03:23] Itsuki**
Yeah, and that's what I call moping around.
**[03:27] Amane**
If I knew she liked me... if I could be
more confident, it would be easier.
**[03:32] Amane**
I mean, if I were better looking,
I could be more confident that she likes me.
**[03:37] Yuta**
You're really passive despite
being such a quality catch.
**[03:41] Amane**
Says the guy who's pretty
much the top-quality catch.
**[03:45] Amane**
Anyway, even with this going on,
I'm still moving things along at my own pace.
**[03:50] Amane**
Don't try to rush me, okay?
**[03:53] Yuta**
I mean, that's fine if you say so, Fujimiya.
**[03:56] Yuta**
But we're a little impatient over here.
**[03:58] Itsuki**
Totally.
**[03:59] Itsuki**
When's the next meeting of
the Kick-Amane-in-the-Pants Committee?
**[04:03] Amane**
What the hell are you guys plotting?
**[04:06] Yuta**
Hey, this is our way of rooting for you.
**[04:26] Mahiru**
Um, I want to apologize for yesterday.
For leaving before dinner.
**[04:33] Amane**
It's... fine. I'm not worried about it.
**[04:45] Amane**
I mean... about yesterday, you know...
**[04:52] Amane**
Why did you do that, Mahiru?
**[04:56] Mahiru**
I guess I got carried away.
Or I wanted to get back at you.
**[05:00] Amane**
Get back at me?
**[05:02] Mahiru**
Because you... did it too, right?
**[05:06] Amane**
Wait, no...
**[05:07] Amane**
Well, I guess I kind of did.
**[05:11] Mahiru**
So don't I also have the right to?
**[05:14] Amane**
That isn't the point.
**[05:16] Amane**
I mean...
**[05:19] Mahiru**
What is it?
**[05:22] Amane**
Never mind.
**[05:26] Chitose**
I'm on red!
**[05:29] Amane**
Oh, right. Itsuki is on white.
***SIGN*** Second Year Red/White Team Assignments
***SIGN*** Red
***SIGN*** White
**[05:33] Chitose**
Why couldn't we get the teams
that matched our names?
***SIGN*** Shirakawa
***SIGN*** Akazawa
**[05:35] Amane**
Either way, you'd still be competing.
**[05:37] Chitose**
*Let's share the win!*
**[05:38] Itsuki**
*Leave it to me!*
**[05:41] Itsuki**
Is that true? This is tragic!
**[05:43] Chitose**
Bitter rivals drawn to each another
in a forbidden love!
**[05:46] Amane**
Ugh. Whatever.
**[05:48] Itsuki**
What events are you in, Amane?
**[05:51] Amane**
What were the options again?
**[06:03] Amane**
What sports day events
did you sign up for, Mahiru?
**[06:09] Mahiru**
I picked the relay and the scavenger race.
**[06:12] Amane**
Oh, we're together, then.
**[06:13] Amane**
I picked the bag toss and the scavenger race.
**[06:17] Mahiru**
Here you go.
**[06:18] Amane**
Yeah. Thank you.
**[06:20] Mahiru**
Avoiding a workout at all costs, are you?
**[06:22] Amane**
I'm not very athletic anyway.
**[06:25] Mahiru**
Weren't your P.E. grades pretty
average, Amane-kun?
**[06:29] Amane**
Yeah, unfortunately.
**[06:40] Mahiru**
Be honest with me.
You hate sports day, don't you?
**[06:43] Amane**
Yeah. I don't exactly hate exercise,
I just hate being forced to do it.
**[06:50] Mahiru**
I can't disagree with that.
I don't really like to be forced, either.
**[06:56] Amane**
Right? So, you know,
I just play along and get it over with.
**[07:02] Mahiru**
I guess I won't get to see you
in all your athletic glory.
**[07:05] Amane**
Who knows?
**[07:07] Amane**
I might really shine in the bag toss.
**[07:11] Mahiru**
Sure, it could happen.
**[07:13] Amane**
It's still a boring event.
I won't stand out either way.
**[07:16] Mahiru**
You still have to try your best, though.
**[07:19] Amane**
Yeah, I'll do all right.
**[07:21] Mahiru**
Boy...
**[07:31] Mahiru**
Huh?
**[07:38] Mahiru**
This is the really good stuff, isn't it?
**[07:40] Amane**
You can tell?
**[07:41] Mahiru**
Well, I could tell from the container.
**[07:45] Mahiru**
But it's better than I expected.
**[07:46] Amane**
Oh, yeah? Here.
**[07:53] Amane**
*Oh, no! I did it again without thinking.*
**[07:57] Amane**
Mahiru, you can have the rest.
**[08:02] Amane**
I'm making coffee, so I'm good.
**[08:05] Amane**
It's yours.
**[08:14] Amane**
*I was trying to keep some distance between us,*
**[08:18] Amane**
*but it never lasts.*
***SIGN*** Seijo High School
***SIGN*** 41st Annual
***SIGN*** Sports Day
**[08:22] Cheering student**
Go!
**[08:22] Cheering student**
Go, white!
**[08:24] Cheering student**
Don't let them win, red!
**[08:27] Boy A**
I'm pooped.
**[08:28] Boy B**
Me, too, man.
**[08:30] Boy C**
I can barely move.
**[08:32] Yuta**
You don't seem to hate this, Fujimiya.
**[08:35] Yuta**
I kind of thought you would.
**[08:36] Amane**
Well, I got the events I wanted.
**[08:39] Amane**
And it does give us some time off,
so I guess it isn't too bad.
**[08:43] Amane**
But why is Chitose in the relay race
instead of someone from the track club?
**[08:48] Amane**
Is she that fast?
**[08:49] Yuta**
Yeah. Shirakawa-san is really fast.
**[08:52] Yuta**
In middle school, she was
the ace of the track team.
**[08:55] Amane**
What? Seriously?
**[08:56] Yuta**
Yeah.
**[08:57] Yuta**
She never joined in high school, though.
**[09:01] Yuta**
She didn't want to deal with drama
from her senpai in the club.
**[09:05] Amane**
I guess it's funny that she expected drama.
**[09:08] Yuta**
Yeah, well... there's actually
a reason for that.
**[09:13] Yuta**
I think she'd had enough.
She was just kind of tired.
**[09:16] Amane**
Tired of what?
**[09:18] Yuta**
A lot of stuff went on before she
started going out with Itsuki.
**[09:22] Yuta**
It's basically, like...
**[09:25] Yuta**
One of her senpai in track liked Itsuki.
**[09:29] Yuta**
And she also got better times
than that senpai, so...
**[09:32] Amane**
I could have guessed.
**[09:34] Itsuki**
Chi! You're awesome! You did great!
**[09:38] Chitose**
Ikkun!
**[09:42] Chitose**
I'm back!
**[09:43] Chitose**
Did you see?
**[09:44] Yuta**
We did, we did! You were really fast!
**[09:47] Chitose**
Yay! Thanks!
**[09:49] Amane**
I guess I'd better get ready.
**[09:52] Yuta**
Oh. The scavenger race, right?
**[09:54] Amane**
Yeah.
**[09:55] Chitose**
Amanay!
**[09:56] Amane**
Huh?
**[09:57] Chitose**
I'm in charge of the scavenger race!
**[10:00] Chitose**
I promise it won't disappoint!
**[10:02] Chitose**
Good luck, okay?
**[10:05] Amane**
I have nothing but bad feelings about this.
**[10:08] Chitose**
Participating athletes,
please line up in order at the start line.
**[10:14] Chitose**
On your mark, get set...
**[10:26] Mahiru**
Fujimiya-san, you match what's on my card.
**[10:29] Mahiru**
Once you find what you need,
will you come with me?
**[10:32] Amane**
Huh? I do?
**[10:34] Mahiru**
Yes.
**[10:39] Amane**
*I won't let her off easy this time.*
**[10:41] Amane**
By the way, what are you looking for?
**[10:43] Mahiru**
It's a secret.
**[10:45] Amane**
You match what I need, too,
so let's head for the finish line.
**[10:48] Mahiru**
What were you searching for, Fujimiya-san?
**[10:51] Amane**
It's a secret.
**[10:54] Mahiru**
I suppose it is. It'll be fun to
find out at the finish line.
**[10:57] Amane**
Hey!
**[11:00] Girl 1**
Huh? Is Shiina-san holding that guy's hand?
**[11:03] Girl 2**
I'm sure it just means he matches her list.
**[11:06] Boy A**
Fujimiya, you son of a—!
Trade places with me!
**[11:12] Chitose**
Oh, wow! Did they reach the goal together?
**[11:15] Chitose**
And I believe they're both runners
in the scavenger race!
**[11:18] Amane**
We matched each other's item.
**[11:21] Chitose**
Aha. Then let's read what you got.
Who goes first?
**[11:25] Mahiru**
Fujimiya-san, would you go first?
**[11:27] Amane**
Sure.
**[11:29] Chitose**
I'll read the cards now.
The first runner from the red team has...
**[11:34] Chitose**
"Someone I Think Is Beautiful." That's right!
***SIGN*** Someone I Think Is Beautiful
**[11:36] Chitose**
No question, this one is a winner!
**[11:40] Chitose**
And next up is Shiina-san.
**[11:44] Chitose**
Oh.
**[11:49] Amane**
*What item did she think I matched, anyway?*
**[11:53] Chitose**
Um, finishing at the same time,
the runner from the white team has...
***SIGN*** Someone Very Dear to Me
**[11:59] Chitose**
"Someone Very Dear to Me!" Yes!
***SIGN*** The Angel Next Door
Spoils Me Rotten
**[12:23] Boy A**
The hell is going on, Fujimiya?!
**[12:25] Boy A**
Why are you with Shiina-san?
And this "very dear" crap?
**[12:28] Boy C**
Yeah, since when?
**[12:29] Boy C**
You don't have anything in common!
**[12:32] Boy A**
What is it? What the hell
does Shiina-san see in you?!
**[12:35] Boy C**
It doesn't make any sense!
**[12:38] Amane**
I can't answer when you're all asking at once.
**[12:41] Amane**
At least ask me one at a time.
**[12:43] Boy A**
How long have you and Shiina-san been close?
**[12:47] Amane**
Since last year.
**[12:48] Boy A**
Huh?
**[12:49] Boy A**
You mean the guy Shiina-san was with
during New Year's and Golden Week was...?
**[12:56] Amane**
That would be me.
**[12:58] Girl C & D**
Huh?
**[12:58] Boy B**
H-How did you get to know her?
**[13:00] Boy C**
You guys have basically nothing in common!
**[13:03] Boy C**
And you always acted like strangers!
**[13:06] Amane**
We live near each other. That's how.
**[13:08] Amane**
And we acted like strangers because
we knew you guys would freak out like this.
**[13:14] Boy C**
It still doesn't make sense.
**[13:16] Boy B**
Fujimiya, then are you...
g-going out with Shiina-san?
**[13:26] Amane**
We do get along
**[13:27] Amane**
and I think it's fair to say we're
very dear to each other,
**[13:30] Amane**
but we aren't going out.
**[13:33] Amane**
My own feelings are another issue.
**[13:35] Boy A**
Yeah, right. You still acted like you
didn't give a damn about our angel.
**[13:40] Amane**
I *don't* give a damn about your angel.
**[13:43] Amane**
The person I'm interested in is
a real girl named Mahiru Shiina.
**[13:48] Mahiru**
Please don't bully him too much, okay?
**[13:52] Mahiru**
It's lunch break and he can't even eat.
**[13:54] Mahiru**
You're really making trouble for him.
**[13:56] Boy A**
Shiina-san! Is Fujimiya
the one who's "dear" to you?
**[14:01] Mahiru**
Yes, Amane-kun is very dear to me.
**[14:04] Boy A**
So, does that mean, like,
you *like* him or something?
**[14:08] Mahiru**
Supposing it does,
**[14:10] Mahiru**
is there something you want to say to me?
**[14:13] Boy A**
Ah, well, it's just...
**[14:16] Boy A**
If you had to like someone,
why'd it have to be someone like Fujimiya?
**[14:21] Mahiru**
Someone *like* Fujimiya?
**[14:23] Amane**
Mahi— Um, Shiina!
**[14:25] Boy A**
Yeah, he's so dull. It's weird that
you'd go for a guy like that.
**[14:29] Boy A**
There are way better guys out there.
**[14:31] Mahiru**
Oh, are there?
**[14:35] Mahiru**
So, in what way, exactly, is Amane-kun dull?
**[14:39] Boy A**
Huh? Well...
**[14:41] Boy C**
I mean, it's obvious.
**[14:42] Mahiru**
Exactly what part of him is dull?
Would you mind explaining that to me?
**[14:46] Boy A**
H-His style and stuff. His looks.
**[14:50] Mahiru**
So you only care about
people for their looks?
**[14:53] Boy A**
N-No, it's just...
**[14:55] Mahiru**
You would only like someone
for their appearance?
**[14:57] Mahiru**
You would choose a partner,
someone you might spend a long time with,
**[15:00] Mahiru**
just based on the way she looks now?
**[15:02] Boy A**
I-I mean...
**[15:04] Mahiru**
I think the real matter at issue here
**[15:06] Mahiru**
is that you are *wholly*
unqualified to comment
**[15:09] Mahiru**
on who I choose to be with,
for whatever reason.
**[15:17] Mahiru**
Oh, that might have been
a little too harsh. I'm sorry.
**[15:22] Mahiru**
But allow me to correct
what you were saying before.
**[15:26] Mahiru**
Amane is very cool
and he's a very kind person.
**[15:30] Mahiru**
He has a calm, gentle way about him
that I think is wonderful.
**[15:35] Mahiru**
He's a delightful individual who respects me
**[15:38] Mahiru**
and acts like a true gentleman.
**[15:41] Mahiru**
When things are difficult,
he stands by my side.
**[15:45] Mahiru**
He's very thoughtful.
**[15:47] Mahiru**
At the very least, he doesn't insult
others or judge their relationships.
**[15:54] Mahiru**
Was there anything else you wanted to say?
**[15:57] Boy A**
N-No, there isn't.
**[16:01] Boy B**
Sorry to bother you.
**[16:06] Mahiru**
Let's eat together, Amane-kun.
**[16:10] Amane**
Sure.
**[16:12] Students**
One! Two! Three! Four! Five! Six!
**[16:20] Amane**
*I've got to tell her.*
**[16:21] Students**
Seven! Eight!
**[16:22] Amane**
*When I get home, I'll tell her.*
**[16:44] Amane**
*I need to find the right words.*
**[17:02] Mahiru**
Amane-kun.
**[17:14] Mahiru**
I imagine you have a lot to say,
and maybe a lot of questions for me.
**[17:21] Mahiru**
But would you let me say one thing first?
**[17:24] Amane**
S-Sure.
**[17:26] Mahiru**
I feel bad about cornering you
**[17:28] Mahiru**
and giving you a lot of attention
that you probably didn't want.
**[17:35] Mahiru**
I'm truly sorry about that.
**[17:36] Amane**
Huh?
**[17:38] Mahiru**
You see, I knew that this would happen.
**[17:44] Amane**
Yeah, I could tell that you
did it intentionally.
**[17:49] Mahiru**
Huh?
**[17:50] Mahiru**
And you aren't mad about it?
**[17:52] Amane**
No, I'm not mad.
**[17:54] Mahiru**
Really? That's a relief.
**[17:59] Amane**
Now, will you let *me* apologize?
**[18:01] Mahiru**
For what?
**[18:04] Amane**
I'm sorry I'm such a coward.
**[18:06] Amane**
I knew it, but I was too scared to act.
I looked the other way.
**[18:10] Amane**
I pretended not to notice your feelings.
I pretended not to see.
**[18:14] Amane**
I'm sorry.
**[18:21] Mahiru**
Then I think we're both guilty.
I acted basically the same way.
**[18:26] Mahiru**
I wasn't able to make a move either until
I was sure of your feelings for me.
**[18:33] Mahiru**
Didn't I tell you before?
About how selfish I am.
**[18:38] Amane**
I'm not so sure.
**[18:44] Amane**
I think I'm the selfish one.
**[18:50] Amane**
Can I tell you how I feel?
**[18:55] Amane**
You know, I've never seriously
fallen for anyone before.
**[19:01] Amane**
I mean, I never thought I would.
**[19:04] Amane**
I never even thought I could.
**[19:07] Mahiru**
Because of what happened in the past?
**[19:09] Amane**
Yeah, that's why.
**[19:11] Amane**
Because of that, I assumed I'd never
be able to truly care about someone.
**[19:18] Amane**
I didn't expect to be proven wrong so easily.
**[19:22] Amane**
I guess people can change when they
meet someone they really care about.
**[19:27] Amane**
You know, Mahiru, at first
I didn't think you were charming at all.
**[19:31] Mahiru**
I know. You told me straight to my face.
**[19:36] Amane**
I'm sorry I acted that way. Honestly.
**[19:39] Amane**
When we first met, you were bossy,
cold, and mean to me.
**[19:45] Amane**
So I thought things should stay
purely give-and-take between us.
**[19:52] Amane**
Then at some point,
I realized that wasn't enough.
**[19:58] Amane**
I wanted to know more about you.
**[20:01] Amane**
I wanted to touch you.
**[20:04] Amane**
I wanted to hold you
deep in my heart and treasure you.
**[20:08] Amane**
I wanted *you*.
**[20:10] Amane**
I'd never felt this way before.
**[20:14] Mahiru**
I know.
**[20:15] Amane**
I held back. Thought I wasn't good enough.
**[20:19] Amane**
But then you told me I was.
**[20:22] Amane**
So instead of avoiding it, I tried to
think of ways to bring us closer together.
**[20:28] Amane**
Of course, before I could make a move,
you took the first step.
**[20:34] Mahiru**
I was holding back, too.
**[20:37] Mahiru**
I was worried someone else would see
how cool you are and try to take you.
**[20:43] Mahiru**
So I was in a cold sweat over whether
you'd ever start to like me.
**[20:48] Amane**
You're the only girl with
tastes that unusual.
**[20:51] Mahiru**
There you go again.
**[20:58] Amane**
So, I'm going to work hard to
make things less unusual for you.
**[21:03] Mahiru**
Huh?
**[21:05] Amane**
I don't want people to say
you're strange for liking me.
**[21:08] Amane**
I'll become a better man.
**[21:11] Amane**
I'll climb to your level.
**[21:13] Amane**
Well, maybe not that high, but
close enough to feel worthy of you.
**[21:20] Amane**
Mahiru, I care about you more than anyone.
**[21:28] Amane**
Will you go out with me?
**[21:31] Mahiru**
Mm-hmm.
**[21:39] Amane**
*I'll never let you go.*
**[21:42] Amane**
I want to make you happy.
**[21:44] Mahiru**
But you won't promise that?
**[21:46] Amane**
It's my one ambition.
**[21:48] Amane**
I want to bring you happiness
with my own two hands.
**[21:53] Amane**
I give you my word.
I will treasure you. Absolutely.
**[22:00] Mahiru**
Okay.
**[22:11] ---**
* Your big, bright and sparkling eyes,*
* they really flatter you*
**[22:18] ---**
* And your playful voice*
* and delicate hands also glow*
**[22:24] ---**
* Though it's hard for you to smile,*
* when one lights up your face,*
**[22:31] ---**
* One more of the dreams I saw that day*
* might just come true*
**[22:38] ---**
*You see passing strangers come and go*
**[22:46] ---**
*Why do you care about their happiness*
**[22:51] ---**
*As much as you care about your own?*
**[22:57] ---**
* It makes me really happy*
* that you're someone that I got to know*
**[23:05] ---**
* I can say that, and I'll do my best*
* to keep you smiling*
**[23:10] ---**
* Next year more, the next even more,*
* my love will grow for you every way*
**[23:18] ---**
*That's how much I know you fulfill me every day*
**[23:24] ---**
* This message comes straight from me.*
* I want you to know now that these words*
**[23:30] ---**
*Are for you only*