# E8 - If I Keep Gazing at You
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**[00:00] Anne**
Please.
**[00:02] Anne**
May I request an audience with the duke?
**[00:05] Anne**
It is necessary for the creation
of the sugar confection.
**[00:08] Anne**
If possible, I'd like for it to be
just His Grace and I, alone.
**[00:14] ---**
*I don't know how far I can go, but…*
**[00:29] ---**
*It's all right*
**[00:31] ---**
*Even alone, I'll be fine, but…*
**[00:35] ---**
* You know, the truth is*
* that no one is alone*
**[00:42] ---**
* Things like happiness,*
* loneliness, and even anxiety…*
**[00:48] ---**
*We are born to savor all those things*
**[00:58] ---**
*A single spoonful of sparkles*
**[01:01] ---**
*Transforms everything into smiles*
**[01:05] ---**
*That could be what I secretly wished for…*
**[01:12] ---**
*That miracle*
**[01:14] ---**
* We're each searching for*
* our most precious treasures*
**[01:21] ---**
*That's what our journey is for*
**[01:27] ---**
*I don't know how far I can go, but...*
**[01:35] ---**
* Each moment that passes before me*
* shall be spun from hope*
**[01:45] Anne**
There is something I would like to ask
for the sake of making the sugar confection.
**[01:50] Anne**
The lady in the portrait...
Please tell me her name.
**[01:56] Alburn**
Why do you require a name?
**[01:59] Anne**
In order to give the lady form.
**[02:01] Anne**
I believe I need to know even the things
which are not depicted in the portrait.
**[02:07] Alburn**
And then you can make it?
**[02:10] Anne**
I don't know.
**[02:13] Alburn**
Your question intrudes upon my memories.
**[02:17] Alburn**
If you dare to enter there,
stirring things up...
**[02:20] Alburn**
and are still unable to create it,
**[02:22] Alburn**
I'll have you pay for it with your death.
**[02:24] Alburn**
Are you prepared to accept that?
**[02:28] Anne**
I cannot be prepared to die.
**[02:31] Anne**
I have made a promise to a dear friend.
**[02:33] Anne**
And I have something I must say, as well.
**[02:36] Anne**
Which is why I won't die!
**[02:38] Anne**
And because I am resolved to that,
**[02:40] Anne**
I will *not* fail to create the piece!
**[02:45] Alburn**
Christina.
**[02:47] Anne**
Is that the lady's name?
**[02:50] Alburn**
It is.
**[02:52] Anne**
What is her proper fairy name?
**[02:55] Alburn**
Lealis Cil Eril.
**[02:57] Anne**
Why don't you call her by her true name?
**[03:01] Alburn**
Because she desired it to be so.
**[03:04] Alburn**
She wanted to be called by a humanlike name,
**[03:07] Alburn**
and asked me to give her one.
**[03:09] Alburn**
That was when she'd only just been born.
**[03:16] Alburn**
She gazed out idly at the wave crests
from which she'd been born.
**[03:20] Alburn**
That she would be caught
by humans and hurt was lamentable,
**[03:25] Alburn**
so I brought her back to the castle.
**[03:27] Anne**
Where is Lady Christina now?
**[03:31] Alburn**
Dead and vanished.
**[03:33] Alburn**
A year and a half ago.
**[03:36] Anne; internal**
*He was in love with her.*
**[03:39] Anne; internal**
*And even now,*
**[03:42] Anne; internal**
* somewhere in his heart,*
* he's still calling her name.*
**[03:47] Hugh**
I'd heard that he'd been acting strangely,
but I hadn't realized it was that bad.
**[03:51] Hugh**
And I can't help wondering about the fact
that Lady Christina isn't with him.
**[03:55] Challe**
A lover?
**[03:59] Hugh**
A fairy lover.
**[04:02] Challe**
With blue hair?
**[04:03] Hugh**
Yes. Did you see her in the castle?
**[04:06] Challe**
A portrait of her.
**[04:07] Challe**
The girl was ordered to create
a sugar confection using it as a model.
**[04:12] Hugh**
Not the lady herself?
**[04:15] Hugh**
Challe.
**[04:16] Hugh**
How long do fairies born of the sea live?
**[04:19] Challe**
The lives of water fairies
are unstable, so it varies.
**[04:23] Challe**
There are some who live for hundreds of years,
and some who vanish after only a few.
**[04:27] Hugh**
What about sugar confections?
**[04:28] Hugh**
Eating those extends
a fairy's life, doesn't it?
**[04:32] Challe**
There aren't many sugar confections
with that sort of power.
**[04:35] Challe**
With something you've made, it's possible...
**[04:38] Challe**
but it would just be a
few weeks to a few months.
**[04:41] Hugh**
I see...
**[04:43] Hugh**
She's disappeared.
**[04:47] Hugh**
That's why the duke is...
**[04:50] Challe**
Why would a human be bothered
over something like that?
**[04:52] Challe**
They simply buy another companion fairy
and satisfy themselves that way.
**[04:59] Hugh**
She wasn't a companion fairy.
**[05:03] Hugh**
No one can possibly take her place.
**[05:07] Alburn**
She was always saying that water fairies
never know how long they will live.
**[05:16] Anne; internal**
*I didn't understand at all.*
**[05:19] Anne; internal**
*What the duke truly desires is...*
**[05:22] Anne**
May I bring my tools here?
**[05:26] Anne**
I will perform my work
in your presence, Your Grace.
**[05:29] Anne**
As I ask questions about Lady Christina,
I will give her form!
**[05:35] Hugh**
What the duke has been bearing
alone is impossible to fathom.
**[05:39] Hugh**
House Alburn did not rebel
against House Millsland.
**[05:43] Hugh**
They fought for His Majesty, Edmond II.
**[05:46] Hugh**
And yet, what happened next?
**[05:48] Hugh**
The royal family sucks up
all the trade profits,
**[05:51] Hugh**
and they were obliged
to pay a monthly courtesy visit.
**[05:55] Hugh**
How much must they have resented
the treatment they'd been dealt.
**[06:00] Hugh**
It was she who soothed that anger.
**[06:02] Hugh**
Her alone.
**[06:06] Challe**
Someone to take on all that
resentment and bitterness?
**[06:08] Challe**
Such a fairy must have been happy indeed.
**[06:11] Hugh**
Yes, I do believe she was happy.
**[06:15] Hugh**
I've made many
sugar confections for the duke.
**[06:19] Hugh**
I heard that all of them were given to her.
**[06:23] Hugh**
And she said it herself.
**[06:25] Hugh**
She said that, for the duke's sake, she'd
like to live even the slightest bit longer.
**[06:30] Challe**
For the duke's sake?
**[06:33] Hugh**
She was probably worried
that things might turn out this way.
**[06:40] Hugh**
What's going on?
**[06:43] Salim**
Viscount, the earl's troops
are on the road ahead.
**[06:47] Hugh**
That old man...
**[06:50] Hugh**
Earl of Downing!
**[06:51] Earl of Downing**
Mercury, is it?
**[06:53] Earl of Downing**
Your attempts at persuasion
were a waste of time, I see.
**[06:56] Hugh**
You were aware?
**[06:59] Earl of Downing**
We knew of your connections
to House Alburn even before
**[07:02] Earl of Downing**
you were made Silver Sugar Viscount.
**[07:05] Earl of Downing**
However, we will allow
no further interference!
**[07:08] Earl of Downing**
The last sparks of rebellion
in the kingdom must be extinguished.
**[07:11] Hugh**
I will not interfere.
**[07:13] Hugh**
However, Anne Halford is in the castle.
**[07:15] Earl of Downing**
Really? Her?
**[07:18] Earl of Downing**
That is unfortunate.
**[07:19] Earl of Downing**
All we can do is hope that
she has hidden herself well.
**[07:22] Hugh**
But...
**[07:30] Challe**
That girl...
**[07:32] Salim**
Hey.
**[07:33] Salim**
Is this an acquaintance of yours?
**[07:36] Salim**
Apparently, one of the cavalrymen caught it.
**[07:38] Salim**
Open it.
**[07:41] Mithril**
Hup!
**[07:42] Mithril**
Whoops! Ha ha!
**[07:44] Challe**
Mithril Lid Pod.
**[07:46] Salim**
He seems to have eaten
all of the soup as he hid inside.
**[07:50] Mithril**
That's not it! I mean, I did, but...
It isn't like that!
**[07:53] Mithril**
I was trying to fulfill my mission,
but then I got hungry.
**[07:57] Challe**
What's happened to her?
**[07:59] Mithril**
That's right! I came
looking for you for her sake!
**[08:03] Challe**
For me?
**[08:05] Mithril**
Because Anne is calling for you.
**[08:07] Mithril**
Because she wants you to come back.
**[08:10] Challe**
Are you stupid?
She's the one who told me to leave.
**[08:13] Mithril**
Do you really think Anne would
*seriously* tell you to leave?!
**[08:15] Challe**
You little...
**[08:16] Mithril**
That was because that Jonas
threatened Anne and made her say it!
**[08:20] Challe**
What?
**[08:21] Mithril**
Jonas stole my wing
and tore you away from Anne!
**[08:25] Mithril**
And he used that to allow himself to escape!
**[08:28] Mithril**
Anne has been calling for you all this time!
**[08:33] Mithril**
Anne stayed in the castle and she's been
working on the sugar confections.
**[08:36] Mithril**
The duke isn't going to let Anne
leave until she makes something he likes.
**[08:41] Mithril**
And Anne's gotten all stubborn about it.
**[08:45] Challe**
That idiot.
**[08:46] Mithril**
Huh? Hey!
**[08:48] Mithril**
What's all this? Hey!
**[08:49] Mithril**
Hey! What is all this! Let me out!
**[08:49] Challe**
I'll come back for him!
**[08:53] Salim**
Why should I care for something like this?
**[08:54] Mithril**
Something like this?
What's that supposed to mean?
**[08:56] Mithril**
I am the great Mithril Lid—
**[08:59] Alburn**
Artisan, what is it that you're trying to do?
**[09:03] Anne**
I will make it exactly
the same as Lady Christina.
**[09:05] Anne**
Her height, her face,
her expression, everything.
**[09:10] Anne**
Your Grace, when you think of Lady Christina,
how does she appear most often?
**[09:18] Anne**
When I think of a certain person...
**[09:22] Anne**
for some reason, I remember him looking down
at me in a seemingly bad mood.
**[09:29] Alburn**
She's relaxed, leaning against a wall.
**[09:33] Alburn**
And she's smiling.
**[09:36] Anne**
I see.
**[09:41] Dale**
Your Grace.
**[09:44] Alburn**
What is it?
**[09:45] Dale**
More than 300 mounted
troops have surrounded the castle.
**[09:49] Dale**
They're the Earl of Downing's men.
**[09:51] Alburn**
What of it?
**[09:53] Dale**
They've come to demand
the surrender of the castle,
**[09:55] Dale**
and to take you into custody, Your Grace.
**[09:58] Alburn**
Have them wait.
**[10:00] Alburn**
I want to see this.
**[10:03] Anne**
Why would the Earl of Downing
take you, Your Grace?
**[10:07] Alburn**
I haven't been to Lewiston
for a year and a half.
**[10:10] Alburn**
Saying that I lack loyalty must provide
the perfect excuse to strike at me.
**[10:15] Anne**
But why? Doing something like that would...
**[10:17] Alburn**
Quiet, artisan. You just
work on creating that.
**[10:20] Anne**
But why—
**[10:23] Alburn**
You couldn't possibly understand.
**[10:25] Alburn**
To have every scrap of dignity ripped away...
**[10:27] Alburn**
and to be forced to behave in a self-abasing
manner. How that makes you feel!
**[10:31] Alburn**
The only one who understood was her!
**[10:43] Anne; internal**
* For the duke, Lady Christina*
* was the only one who...*
**[10:48] Anne; internal**
*But now she has vanished.*
**[10:52] Anne; internal**
*And now this person is all alone.*
**[10:56] Anne; internal**
*That's what he believes.*
**[11:00] Anne; internal**
*I want to make this.*
**[11:04] Anne; internal**
* I want to make the one thing*
* the duke desires.*
**[11:09] Anne; internal**
* And I want to depict that person's*
* feelings just as they are.*
**[11:17] Challe**
I will have her back.
**[11:20] Anne**
Challe?
**[11:22] Anne**
What?
**[11:30] Anne**
Challe...
**[11:32] Anne**
Are you real?
**[11:34] Challe**
Your idiocy is astounding.
**[11:40] Anne**
Challe...
**[11:42] Challe**
Mithril Lid Pod told me everything.
**[11:45] Anne**
He told you?
**[11:48] Anne**
Challe, I'm so sorry. Back then, I...
**[11:52] Challe**
There is no need to apologize.
**[11:54] Challe**
More important right now is that
we're going and leaving this castle.
**[11:58] Anne**
But the sugar confection...
**[12:02] Alburn**
I will not allow this artisan to leave.
**[12:05] Alburn**
She will stay here
until she makes what I seek.
**[12:09] Challe**
Then I shall cut you down here and now.
**[12:12] Anne**
Wait, Challe!
**[12:13] Anne**
And you, too, Your Grace. Please, wait.
**[12:15] Anne**
I will continue my work, so—
**[12:18] Challe**
Are you in your right mind?!
**[12:19] Anne**
I'm serious! I want to make
a sugar confection of this fairy.
**[12:24] Challe**
What are you trying to do?
**[12:25] Anne**
I took on this work! That's why...
**[12:28] Challe**
This castle is surrounded by soldiers!
**[12:31] Challe**
If they storm this place...
**[12:33] Anne**
I know.
**[12:34] Challe**
It's dangerous!
**[12:35] Anne**
I know that, too.
**[12:37] Anne**
But I cannot abandon my work unfinished!
**[12:46] Challe**
You are exasperating.
**[12:52] Challe**
Make it, then. But I will stay here, too.
**[12:58] Anne**
Will that be all right?
**[13:01] Alburn**
Very well.
**[13:03] Alburn**
Now, work.
**[13:16] Alburn**
It looks very like her.
**[13:20] Alburn**
But the color of her eyes is wrong.
**[13:23] Alburn**
They're silver.
**[13:24] Alburn**
And they have a sense of translucence,
like light striking and reflecting off...
**[13:27] Alburn**
If she had those eyes, she would...
**[13:33] Challe**
That is a sugar confection.
**[13:35] Challe**
What is the point of having
something like that made?
**[13:38] Alburn**
Fairies are born when living things gaze
at an object and that energy condenses.
**[13:44] Alburn**
If I gaze at this,
**[13:46] Alburn**
will something be born?
**[13:49] Alburn**
Don't you think it's possible?
**[13:51] Anne**
It can't be...
**[13:52] Anne**
You think that Lady Christina
might be born once more from this?
**[13:57] Alburn**
Have you ever witnessed
the moment a fairy disappears?
**[14:01] Alburn**
That which made up her form turned to
motes of light and melted into thin air.
**[14:10] Alburn**
Then all that needs happen is for that
which melted into air to be given form again.
**[14:17] Challe**
Not possible.
**[14:19] Challe**
That which is lost cannot be resurrected.
**[14:21] Challe**
No matter how much you wail or wish for it.
**[14:24] Challe**
Even if you keep gazing at that thing,
**[14:26] Challe**
a strange, warped fairy will be born
from it, and that will be the end of it!
**[14:30] Alburn**
I will *not* allow you to say any more!
**[14:32] Challe**
It is the truth!
**[14:32] Anne**
Don't, Challe!
**[14:39] Alburn**
So, we didn't make it in time.
**[14:42] Anne**
Your Grace...
**[14:46] Challe**
What are you doing?
**[14:47] Anne**
I might be able to make a silver color!
**[14:49] Challe**
You're still planning on working
when all this is going on?
**[14:52] Challe**
There is no need for you to play along
with this man's delusions!
**[14:55] Anne**
I'm not playing along! This is my work!
**[14:59] Anne**
It's the only thing I can do,
and it's what I take pride in.
**[15:07] Challe**
You are an idiot.
**[15:08] Anne**
I think I must be.
But... I want to see this through!
**[15:13] Challe**
If that is your wish,
**[15:16] Challe**
then work until you are completely satisfied.
**[15:23] soldier**
The Duke of Philax is in the room above!
**[15:25] Challe**
Stop.
**[15:28] Challe**
I cannot allow you to pass.
**[15:39] Anne**
Ow!
**[15:45] soldier**
The Duke of Philax's warrior fairy?
**[15:48] Hugh**
Hey there! Stop what you're doing!
**[15:50] soldier**
Silver Sugar Viscount?
**[15:52] Hugh**
We have permission from the Earl of Downing.
**[15:54] Hugh**
Challe, I'd heard that you went off
without warning to rescue Anne,
**[15:59] Hugh**
but why are you protecting Alburn?
**[16:01] Challe**
I'm not protecting him.
**[16:03] Challe**
However, for the time being,
I will not allow anyone to pass.
**[16:07] Hugh**
Please understand.
**[16:09] Hugh**
The more time passes, the more
it appears that Alburn is resisting.
**[16:13] Hugh**
It makes it worse for him.
**[16:14] Challe**
I'm sorry, but this is what she wishes.
**[16:23] Anne; internal**
*Right here. Here in this silver sugar.*
**[16:30] Anne; internal**
*I'm begging you, please appear!*
**[16:41] Alburn**
This is...
**[16:58] Alburn**
It's her.
**[17:06] Alburn**
Artisan.
**[17:08] Alburn**
I never asked your name.
**[17:10] Anne**
It's Halford. I'm Anne Halford.
**[17:14] Alburn**
This is what I wanted, Halford.
**[17:19] Alburn**
No matter how foolish
my desire might be, I wanted this.
**[17:23] Alburn**
I simply wanted it.
**[17:28] Alburn**
I wanted to see her again.
**[17:30] Anne**
No one has proven it.
**[17:33] Anne**
Your Grace, if you think of
Lady Christina and keep gazing at it,
**[17:37] Anne**
then one day, something might happen.
**[17:40] Anne**
No one has proven that it won't happen!
**[17:46] Alburn**
Even if those are only words of comfort,
they make me happy.
**[17:50] Alburn**
The promised gold.
**[17:52] Alburn**
Take this and return to your fairy.
**[17:55] Alburn**
Go now.
**[18:00] Alburn**
Halford.
**[18:03] Alburn**
You are a magnificent sugar artisan.
**[18:09] Anne**
Challe!
**[18:12] Anne**
Challe!
**[18:29] Anne**
Challe. Th-Thank you.
**[18:34] Hugh**
You're not hurt, are you, Anne?
**[18:35] Anne**
Hugh?
**[18:36] Anne**
Why are you here?
**[18:38] Hugh**
There were certain circumstances.
**[18:40] Hugh**
I've come to take
the Duke of Philax into custody.
**[18:43] Hugh**
Is he up there?
**[18:45] Anne**
Yes. He's with a sugar confection.
**[18:49] Hugh**
I see.
**[18:51] Hugh**
Let's go.
**[18:55] Anne**
Oh.
**[19:00] Anne**
Challe?
**[19:01] Challe**
For the moment, don't move.
**[19:03] Anne**
But... Oh!
**[19:06] Challe**
Don't make me worry so much.
**[19:08] Anne**
I'm sorry.
**[19:09] Anne**
But I'm a sugar artisan, so...
**[19:13] Challe**
Anne.
**[19:15] Anne**
That's the second time...
you've called me by my name.
**[19:21] Challe**
You remember how many times?
**[19:23] Anne**
Well, because it makes me happy.
**[19:28] Anne**
Challe.
**[19:31] Anne**
I want you to stay with me. From now on, too.
**[19:35] Anne**
Is that all right?
**[19:48] Anne**
Hello, ma'am!
**[19:49] proprietress**
I heard everything! It's so amazing!
**[19:52] Anne**
Amazing?
**[19:53] proprietress**
The Duke of Philax's sugar sculpture!
**[19:56] proprietress**
I was shocked when I heard that
the duke had been taken into custody.
**[20:00] proprietress**
Everyone said that it wouldn't be odd
at all for him to be harshly punished.
**[20:03] proprietress**
But he's only living in seclusion under
the Earl of Downing's supervision, right?
**[20:06] proprietress**
That was quite a magnanimous way
to deal with him, don't you think?
**[20:09] proprietress**
And the rumor is that it's all because of
the sugar confection you made him, young lady!
**[20:16] proprietress**
I suppose it's true that sugar
confections bring good fortune!
**[20:31] Challe**
Have you finished your prayers?
**[20:34] Anne**
Yes.
**[20:37] Anne**
Hoping that we can accept
the deaths of those we love
**[20:40] Anne**
and that those of us who are left behind
are not always trapped by sorrow.
**[20:46] Mithril**
Anne!
**[20:47] Mithril**
The food stand over there
has lots of yummy-looking food!
**[20:51] Mithril**
Let's go and eat, the three of us!
**[20:53] Mithril**
Yay! Yahoo!
**[20:56] Challe**
Shall we go?
**[20:57] Anne**
Yes.
***SIGN*** If I Keep Gazing at You
**[21:16] ---**
*Is it just like the dreams we dream at night?*
**[21:21] ---**
*Do we give names to our other dreams because,*
**[21:26] ---**
* Just as our night dreams*
* are forgotten upon waking,*
**[21:30] ---**
* If they aren't held dear,*
* they will disappear?*
**[21:37] ---**
* No, it's because they aren't things*
* that only special people can see*
**[21:48] ---**
*That day*
**[21:49] ---**
*I reached out again and again*
**[21:53] ---**
*I failed to catch that shining fruit, and yet*
**[21:59] ---**
*I'll reach out once more*
**[22:04] ---**
*If I make my wishes come true myself*
**[22:08] ---**
*I just know it will make you smile*
**[22:14] ---**
*That's why I'm able to say I'm not giving up*
***SIGN*** The Radcliffe Workshop