# E4 - As the River Flows, Shinako Returns Home
Source: [Crunchyroll](https://www.crunchyroll.com/watch/GY9V7KV8R/as-the-river-flows-shinako-returns-home)
Translator:
Editor:
Timer:
QC:
(Please feel free to edit the speaker names if incomplete or inaccurate. Names are handled on a best-effort basis depending on the info on the source file. Dialogue is left as is.)
***SIGN*** Kanto Fine Arts
***SIGN*** Students Wanted
**[00:28] Shakui**
Time's up.
**[00:29] Shakui**
We'll continue after noon.
**[00:31] Shakui**
Remember that finishing your
piece on time is important, too.
**[00:36] A**
Want to go to the cafeteria?
**[00:38] B**
Let's go buy some buns.
**[00:39] C**
Wait for me.
**[01:01] Hayakawa**
That kid...
**[01:03] Takishita**
What's up, Hayakawa-kun?
**[01:06] Hayakawa**
Oh, Takishita.
**[01:09] Takishita**
Are you not feeling well?
**[01:12] Hayakawa**
It's not fair.
**[01:13] Hayakawa**
It's not even fair.
**[01:16] Hayakawa**
People are using tools
I don't even recognize.
**[01:20] Hayakawa**
Some of them are going
straight for the brushes.
**[01:23] Hayakawa**
Aren't we supposed to be
doing pencil sketches?
**[01:26] Takishita**
Oh, you're worried about technique stuff.
**[01:29] Takishita**
You'll bomb the entrance exams
if you try to get too fancy,
**[01:34] ---**
but everyone's got a trick or two.
**[01:36] Hayakawa**
Really?
**[01:41] Hayakawa**
This is nothing like the
fine arts club at school.
**[01:45] Hayakawa**
All the current students
are really good, too.
**[01:48] Hayakawa**
I guess I should have
started from the first year.
**[01:53] Takishita**
If skill is the only thing you want,
**[01:55] ---**
anyone can get there in a year
if they just work at it.
**[02:00] Takishita**
Everyone's desperate to
get good in the beginning.
**[02:04] Takishita**
And then, once you get decent,
it gets kind of boring.
**[02:11] Takishita**
You feel like you're drawing
the same thing everyone else is.
**[02:28] Hayakawa**
I'm home.
**[02:34] Shinako**
Welcome home.
**[02:35] Hayakawa**
Shinako? Why are you here?
**[02:38] Shinako**
My family sent me some veggies from home,
**[02:40] ---**
so I wanted to share some.
**[02:44] Shinako**
But you said you hadn't had dinner, so...
**[02:48] Hayakawa**
Sweet! Good thing I didn't eat out.
**[02:51] Shinako**
Just a second. I'll reheat it.
**[02:54] Hayakawa**
I'll help.
**[03:00] Shinako**
Huh?
**[03:02] Shinako**
Rou-kun, you've gotten taller.
**[03:06] Hayakawa**
I'm a growing boy.
**[03:09] Shinako**
Yuu-kun was 170 centimeters.
**[03:13] Shinako**
You're going to be taller than him soon.
***SIGN*** Sing "Yesterday" for Me
**[03:32] Hayakawa**
Thanks for dinner.
**[03:38] Hayakawa**
By the way, how's my dad?
**[03:40] Shinako**
I think he went to bed already.
**[03:43] Shinako**
I heard you come home late
all the time these days.
**[03:47] Hayakawa**
Well...
**[03:49] Shinako**
He told me what you're
going to cram school for.
**[03:54] Hayakawa**
Damn it, Dad...
**[03:56] Shinako**
What's wrong with that?
**[03:58] Shinako**
Why would you hide it?
**[04:01] Hayakawa**
I mean, I don't want to come
across as a try-hard.
**[04:05] Shinako**
You're so weird.
**[04:07] Shinako**
It sounds rough, though.
**[04:10] Shinako**
Art schools are all so competitive.
**[04:13] Hayakawa**
I guess.
**[04:19] Hayakawa**
*Why do I draw?*
**[04:22] Hayakawa**
*When I was in second grade,*
**[04:24] ---**
* a landscape painting I made won a*
* prize in a prefectural competition.*
***SIGN*** Gold Hayakawa Rou
**[04:30] Hayakawa**
*Ever since then, I was always known as*
**[04:34] ---**
*"the kid who can draw" at school.*
**[04:39] (Flashback) Shinako**
You're so good at drawing, Rou-kun.
**[04:42] (Flashback) Shinako**
Even though Yuu-kun's not so good.
**[04:50] Hayakawa**
* Drawing was the one thing*
* I could do better than my brother.*
**[05:02] Hayakawa**
*My brother was promising, but sickly.*
**[05:08] Hayakawa**
*He was always the center of attention.*
**[05:13] Hayakawa**
*As long as I was drawing...*
**[05:24] Hayakawa**
*As long as I was drawing,*
**[05:27] ---**
* people acknowledged me, even though*
* I was always in my brother's shadow.*
**[05:37] Shinako**
Are you going to your parents'
home for the Bon break?
**[05:40] Hayakawa**
No, I have to take courses.
**[05:43] Shinako**
Ah.
**[05:44] Shinako**
I think I'll go home.
**[05:47] Hayakawa**
Yeah? I see.
**[05:54] Shinako**
What's up?
**[05:56] Hayakawa**
No, it's nothing.
**[05:59] Hayakawa**
It's just that you sounded like
Yuu-kun when you said that.
**[06:09] Shinako**
I guess that makes sense.
You're brothers, after all.
**[06:16] Hayakawa**
Shinako...
**[06:19] Hayakawa**
Are you never going to get over my brother?
**[06:26] Shinako**
Rou-kun...
**[06:29] Hayakawa**
I don't want to see you tied
down to a dead guy forever.
**[06:36] Hayakawa**
But I'd hate it even more if you
looked toward some other guy.
**[06:42] Hayakawa**
I'm not a replica of my brother.
**[06:47] Hayakawa**
I get that I can't replace him,
**[06:49] ---**
and that I'll never be seen as an original.
**[06:54] Shinako**
Rou-kun...
**[06:55] Hayakawa**
All I can do right now is work
hard the only way I know how,
**[06:59] ---**
until you approve of me.
**[07:04] Hayakawa**
So...
**[07:07] ---**
Just watch me.
**[07:17] Shinako**
I think you're just imagining things.
**[07:22] Shinako**
We've known each other since we were kids.
**[07:25] Shinako**
That makes it seem like we know
each other better than we do.
**[07:31] Shinako**
I can only see you as something
like a kid brother.
**[07:36] Hayakawa**
That doesn't matter!
**[07:39] Shinako**
It does matter.
**[07:43] Hayakawa**
What about you, then?
**[07:49] Hayakawa**
You weren't just imagining
things about my brother?
**[07:52] Hayakawa**
Can you be sure you weren't
confusing sympathy for love?!
**[07:58] Shinako**
I can.
**[08:10] Shinako**
It isn't as though I hadn't thought of that.
**[08:15] Shinako**
It's not like you to talk like that.
**[08:27] Haru**
Hello.
**[08:28] Haru**
Milk Hall here.
**[08:29] Izawa**
Hey, thanks.
**[08:31] Amamiya**
Y'know, you should wear
your apron here next time.
**[08:35] Haru**
No way. That's embarrassing.
**[08:37] Haru**
The costume wasn't even my idea.
**[08:40] Haru**
It's the owner's.
**[08:42] Amamiya**
Really?
**[08:44] Haru**
When I was interviewing for
the job, she was like...
**[08:47] (Flashback) Kyouko**
Could you wear a maid outfit?
**[08:49] Haru**
Seriously.
**[08:51] Izawa**
Yeah, she does have a bit of a girly side.
**[08:56] Haru**
Oh?
**[08:57] Haru**
You sound like you know her well.
**[09:00] A**
He was her classmate in high school.
**[09:04] A**
She shot him down at
the graduation ceremony,
**[09:07] ---**
and he still hasn't gotten over her.
**[09:09] ---**
Really?!
**[09:10] Izawa**
You didn't need to bring that up!
**[09:12] Rou**
Excuse me.
**[09:14] ---**
Don't tell Kyouko we talked about this!
**[09:19] Haru**
Thanks for your patronage.
**[09:25] Amamiya**
Did you need something?
**[09:28] Rou**
I brought my registration form
for the summer courses.
**[09:31] Amamiya**
Oh, okay.
**[09:32] Amamiya**
Work hard.
**[09:34] ---**
I will.
**[10:19] Rou**
What the hell?
**[10:21] Rikuo**
That's my question.
**[10:23] Rikuo**
What do you want, young man?
**[10:25] Rou**
I'm a customer. Treat me like one.
**[10:28] Rou**
It's not like I'm here to see you.
**[10:31] Rou**
This convenience store happens to
be on the way to my cram school.
**[10:35] Rikuo**
You don't get a summer break, huh?
Sucks to be you, high schooler.
**[10:40] Rou**
That's right.
**[10:42] Rou**
I don't want to end up like you.
**[10:48] Rou**
Say that again!
**[10:49] Rikuo**
It's the truth, isn't it?
**[10:51] Haru**
'Sup, Rikuo?
**[10:59] Rikuo**
What, do you know each other?
**[11:01] Haru**
It's more like...
**[11:03] Haru**
He's a customer at Milk Hall.
**[11:06] Haru**
Well, not quite a customer yet...
**[11:08] Rikuo**
Thanks for the coffee the other day.
**[11:10] Haru**
No need for thanks.
**[11:12] Haru**
Just come to my shop someday soon.
**[11:13] Rikuo**
That'll be 110 yen.
**[11:15] Rou**
Huh?
**[11:17] Rikuo**
Hurry up and pay.
**[11:18] Rou**
Is that really how you talk to a customer?
**[11:22] Rou**
Here.
**[11:23] Haru**
Rikuo, when do you get off work?
**[11:26] Haru**
Walk me home.
**[11:27] Rikuo**
You say that like you expect it.
**[11:30] Rikuo**
Why should I have to walk you home?
**[11:32] Haru**
That's harsh!
**[11:34] Haru**
Are you telling a young girl to
walk home on her own at midnight?
**[11:38] Rikuo**
You always go home by yourself.
**[11:40] Haru**
But you walk Shinako-sensei home!
**[11:43] Haru**
Walk me home, too!
**[11:47] Rou**
What? Is *that* the relationship
you have with each other?
**[11:52] Rou**
Seriously? You have a backup?
**[11:55] Rou**
I'm going to rat you out to Shinako.
**[11:57] Rikuo**
N-No!
**[11:59] Rikuo**
This thing's nothing like that!
**[12:00] Haru**
Hey, what do you mean, "this thing"?
**[12:03] Haru**
Wait, so *you're* Rikuo's rival?
**[12:07] Rou**
What?! We're not rivals!
**[12:11] Kinoshita**
Uozumi...
**[12:15] Kinoshita**
Dude, quit wasting time.
**[12:20] Kinoshita**
Get over here and help me out!
**[12:23] Rikuo**
Sorry!
**[12:34] Rou**
Huh...
**[12:35] Rou**
You went to Toizumi High School, too?
**[12:38] Haru**
I dropped out, though.
**[12:43] Rou**
Why?
**[12:45] Haru**
I just got tired of it.
**[12:53] Rou**
What was that about?
**[12:56] Haru**
I mean, Shinako-sensei's so popular.
**[13:00] Haru**
What's the difference between her
and this poor Haru-chan here?
**[13:04] Haru**
This may need a serious investigation.
**[13:10] Rou**
Not that she has any interest in me.
**[13:13] Haru**
Really?
**[13:19] Rou**
As much as I hate it...
**[13:30] Haru**
Hang in there.
**[13:31] Haru**
For my sake, too.
**[13:34] Rou**
What do you even see in that guy?
**[13:38] Haru**
I dunno.
**[13:41] Haru**
I can make it from here.
**[13:43] Haru**
Thanks for walking me home.
**[13:45] Rou**
Uh, hey...
**[13:52] Rou**
A-A crow...
**[13:54] Haru**
His name's Kansuke.
**[13:56] Haru**
See you!
**[14:04] Rou**
Wh-What a weirdo.
***SIGN*** Sing "Yesterday" for Me
**[14:31] Rou**
I'm home.
**[14:34] Rou**
Dad.
**[14:36] Rou**
*Right...*
**[14:38] ---**
*He was going back home today.*
**[14:41] Rou**
*Which means Shinako is, too.*
**[14:49] Shinako**
*Rou-kun,*
**[14:51] Shinako**
*Please reheat the curry in the fridge.*
**[14:55] Shinako**
* And please cook for yourself instead*
* of eating out all the time.*
**[14:58] Shinako**
*From Shinako.*
**[15:00] Rou**
I'm so lucky.
**[15:01] Rou**
Shinako's the best.
**[15:05] Rou**
Chow time.
**[15:12] Rou**
Yum.
**[15:17] Rou**
*She hasn't come to my place since then.*
**[15:21] Rou**
* I guess she'll be back after*
* Bon as if nothing happened.*
**[15:27] Rou**
*Shinako knows my personality well.*
**[15:31] Rou**
* That makes it awkward for me*
* to say "sorry" or "thank you."*
**[15:36] Rou**
*I'm still such a brat.*
**[15:48] (Flashback) Rou**
Shinako!
**[15:50] (Flashback) Rou**
The music's playing.
**[15:51] (Flashback) Rou**
It's going to start soon.
**[15:53] (Flashback) Shinako**
But Yuu-kun is...
**[15:56] (Flashback) Rou**
You promised we'd go to
the festival together.
**[16:02] (Flashback) Shinako**
Yes, but...
**[16:05] (Flashback) Rou**
Forget it!
**[16:08] (Flashback) Shinako**
Wait, Rou-kun!
**[16:15] (Flashback) Shinako**
Rou-kun!
**[16:20] Rou**
*I thought Shinako found work in Tokyo...*
**[16:23] Rou**
*rather, that she left Kanazawa...*
**[16:27] Rou**
*because she was trying to forget my brother.*
**[16:36] Rou**
*But I was wrong.*
**[16:39] Rou**
* She was trying to look away from*
* the reality of life in Kanazawa*
**[16:45] ---**
*without my brother around.*
**[16:56] Shinako**
What's in the box?
**[17:00] Dad**
I'm thinking of renting
this house out next year.
**[17:05] Dad**
It looks like Rou and I will be in
Tokyo for the foreseeable future.
***SIGN*** Mathematics I
**[17:17] Dad**
They're Yuu's belongings.
**[17:25] Dad**
I figure you and I both need
something to help us move on.
**[17:32] Dad**
I think it's all right to forget now.
**[17:36] Dad**
We can come back like this
once in a while to remember him.
**[17:41] Dad**
That's good enough.
**[17:55] Shinako**
Scribbles...
**[18:06] Rou**
* She wants to escape the reality*
* of my brother's death.*
**[18:10] Rou**
*She doesn't want to forget my brother.*
**[18:15] Rou**
* I think that's why Shinako*
* went home to Kanazawa.*
**[18:24] Rou**
* In the end, it's something*
* Shinako has to deal with herself.*
***SIGN*** Idiot
**[19:05] Rou**
*I can't become my brother.*
***SIGN*** Idiot
**[20:11] Rou**
So what?
**[20:15] Rou**
I can't give up just because
she rejected me once.
**[20:31] Takishita**
Setting skill aside...
**[20:34] Takishita**
I think your art's interesting.
**[20:37] Takishita**
Why do you want to go to art school?
**[20:45] Rou**
I don't have anything else going for me.
**[20:47] Takishita**
Same.
**[20:50] Takishita**
I'm thinking of making "good at drawing"
**[20:54] ---**
my identity goal in college.
**[20:57] Takishita**
Honestly, I don't think art is
something you learn from others.
**[21:02] Takishita**
If a skillful drawing based on proper
knowledge is a "good drawing,"
**[21:06] ---**
my only option is to keep drawing,
whether it's good or dull.
**[21:12] Takishita**
I like drawing, after all.
**[21:15] Takishita**
You do too, don't you, Hayakawa-kun?
**[21:20] Rou**
Stop with the "-kun."
**[21:23] Rou**
We're in the same grade.
**[21:32] Rou**
*Anxiety and indecision...*
**[21:35] Rou**
* Now that I'm serious, I feel like I'm*
* finally at the beginning of my life.*
**[21:40] Rou**
Yeah, right.