# E11 - What Do I Do About These Feelings?
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**[00:00] ---**
I'm glad we saw this movie.
**[00:08] ---**
Me, too.
**[00:10] ---**
I... I like him.
**[00:16] ---**
I feel so at ease around him.
**[00:19] ---**
Huh?
**[00:21] ---**
What's going on?
**[00:23] ---**
I have no guarantee a kiss or
anything else will work out, and yet...
**[00:33] ---**
Senpai...
**[00:35] ---**
Senpai...
**[00:41] ---**
If these feelings aren't
the real deal, what is?
**[00:46] ---**
Senpai...
**[00:48] ---**
I like him so much, my chest feels tight.
**[00:54] ---**
Whenever I'm around you,
I can't help but feel that way.
**[01:02] ---**
--Mya-*chan*, wanna grab--
--Senpai, um--
**[01:05] ---**
Oh, sorry. You were saying?
**[01:07] ---**
I-It's nothing.
**[01:14] ---**
I was going to say that with so
many people around? Am I crazy?
**[01:19] ---**
"His heart is pounding like crazy..."
**[01:20] ---**
"His heart is pounding like crazy..."
Confessing feelings takes
so much courage...
**[01:23] ---**
"His heart is pounding like crazy..."
And it's only in response...
**[01:26] ---**
When do I say it? Hold on, what do I say?
**[01:29] ---**
Mya-*chan*?
**[01:32] ---**
I don't know how to do this!
**[01:51] ---**
"Sasaki and Miyano"
**[03:07] ---**
--Let's go to a café. We can
discuss the movie more there.
**[03:08] ---**
"What Do I Do With These Feelings?"
--Let's go to a café. We can
discuss the movie more there.
**[03:10] ---**
"What Do I Do With These Feelings?"
--Let's go to a café. We can
discuss the movie more there.
--Masato! Sorry I took so long!
**[03:13] ---**
I just couldn't decide.
**[03:16] ---**
Whoa, you okay? What's wrong?
**[03:19] ---**
Something I had strong hints
about turned out to be true.
**[03:23] ---**
Is it something bad?
**[03:25] ---**
No, more like something
that can't be changed.
**[03:29] ---**
I was considering how to approach it...
**[03:31] ---**
Did I ask for orange juice?
**[03:34] ---**
I couldn't decide, so I sorta
got both. Split it with me?
**[03:40] ---**
Sure.
**[03:44] ---**
That was a classmate I had no negative
opinion of and a *kouhai* I was fond of...
**[03:52] ---**
I like guys, so forget about grandkids!
**[03:59] ---**
Two guys together...
**[04:10] ---**
Ever since I realized I like him...
**[04:15] ---**
Morning, Mya-*chan*!
**[04:17] ---**
...he's seemed cute to me.
**[04:23] ---**
I-It's nothing. Are you going to sit?
**[04:26] ---**
Nah, I'm fine.
**[04:28] ---**
A guy doesn't want another guy
to tell him he looks cute.
**[04:33] ---**
Here I am thinking about him
**[04:37] ---**
the thing that made me so
uncomfortable in middle school.
**[04:40] ---**
Besides, Senpai is cool.
He can act even when I hesitate...
**[04:46] ---**
Oh, hey. Thanks for lending me this novel.
**[04:49] ---**
It was easy to read, so I flew through it.
**[04:51] ---**
Y-You're welcome. What did you think?
**[04:54] ---**
If not for the novel's night-time scene,
I might have forgotten it was BL.
**[04:59] ---**
Yes, there was only a little at the end.
**[05:02] ---**
Yeah.
**[05:03] ---**
The movie felt really natural.
**[05:05] ---**
I'm glad I got to see it live-action.
**[05:08] ---**
Mya-*chan*, are you sleepy?
Did you pull another BL all-nighter?
**[05:12] ---**
No, I'm fine.
**[05:15] ---**
Um, I'm glad you enjoyed it.
**[05:18] ---**
Cool. Thanks for lending it to me.
**[05:22] ---**
Even though all these people are here,
I feel like I might tell him I like him.
**[05:30] ---**
I keep missing my chance to tell him.
**[05:34] ---**
It's so hard to find time alone together.
**[05:36] ---**
We're in different classes and grades,
and we're not on the same committee.
**[05:40] ---**
We're not alone on the way
to and from school.
**[05:44] ---**
But really,
**[05:45] ---**
I let it go so long that I don't
know how to bring it up!
**[05:49] ---**
I'll do it the next time I see him...
**[05:52] ---**
Whatcha doin', Kuresawa?
**[05:54] ---**
Deciding how to report
Miyano's range of emotions.
**[05:57] ---**
--That's just how he always is.
--Should I say I want to talk
and take him behind the school?
**[05:59] ---**
--I got the last bread.
--Should I say I want to talk
and take him behind the school?
**[06:02] ---**
--Bread, huh?
--But that's kinda...
**[06:04] ---**
That reminds me. Miyano.
**[06:06] ---**
Yeah?
**[06:07] ---**
Sasaki was working in a bakery, right?
**[06:11] ---**
Uh-huh.
**[06:12] ---**
What bakery? Is it good?
**[06:14] ---**
Huh, I never went in.
**[06:17] ---**
It was on the way to my girlfriend.
**[06:19] ---**
I'll have to try it.
**[06:21] ---**
I'll go, too!
**[06:22] ---**
You won't be seeing my girlfriend.
**[06:24] ---**
I'm only after the bread!
**[06:30] ---**
Christmas is almost here again! Listen up!
**[06:36] ---**
"Christmas"
**[06:38] ---**
Attention! I plan to throw our first
Christmas party on Christmas!
**[06:43] ---**
That's girlfriend time. Pass.
**[06:44] ---**
Dammit!
**[06:46] ---**
You're unshakable, huh?
**[06:48] ---**
Now's the time, gents. Non-singles,
raise your hands. You'll be excused.
**[06:56] ---**
That's so many!
**[06:58] ---**
Where are you meeting all these girls?
**[07:02] ---**
Hmm.
**[07:04] ---**
Huh? Where are you looking?
**[07:07] ---**
Hold it, mister. What was
that long delay about?
**[07:10] ---**
For real?
**[07:11] ---**
I plan to get a girlfriend
before Christmas.
**[07:14] ---**
Couples that get together just in time
for Christmas break up immediately.
**[07:18] ---**
Drop that idea.
**[07:19] ---**
What?
**[07:21] ---**
I don't intend for it to be just for
Christmas, but it'd suck to be alone.
**[07:26] ---**
You won't be alone! We'll all be together!
**[07:29] ---**
--I wanna spend it with a girl, though.
**[07:30] ---**
--If you get together before
Christmas, you break up?
--I wanna spend it with a girl, though.
**[07:32] ---**
--If you get together before
Christmas, you break up?
--I could dress as a girl.
**[07:33] ---**
--Is that what it would look
like if I answered now?
--Absolutely not. How would that help?
**[07:37] ---**
--Is that what it would look
like if I answered now?
--It's better than being alone, isn't it?
**[07:38] ---**
--I don't want to risk that...
--It's better than being alone, isn't it?
**[07:42] ---**
Miyano, raise your hand.
**[07:44] ---**
Huh? Okay.
**[07:45] ---**
"Miyano"
Miyano, too?! Noted.
**[07:48] ---**
"Traitors Who Will Be Absent"
"Shirahama, Kuresawa, Odori, Yuhi, Miyano"
--Huh?!
--Dammit! All of you, really?
**[07:52] ---**
Kuresawa, what gives?!
**[07:54] ---**
Put it on your calendar anyway.
**[07:56] ---**
You can still go. This way
you have the option not to.
**[08:00] ---**
Really?
**[08:02] ---**
That's a lot of traitors!
Some of you are fibbing!
**[08:06] ---**
Okay, but Tashiro's face is scaring me.
**[08:11] ---**
Miyano, don't tell me you
got Kuresawa Syndrome!
**[08:14] ---**
Tashiro, it's to keep his options open.
**[08:18] ---**
Otakus have a lot going on.
**[08:20] ---**
Oh. Is that all?
**[08:22] ---**
I thought he was finally
dating Sasaki-*senpai*.
**[08:29] ---**
You aren't fazed, huh, Tashiro?
**[08:32] ---**
By what?
**[08:33] ---**
Nevermind.
**[08:35] ---**
You're a good guy.
**[08:36] ---**
You only just noticed?
**[08:41] ---**
Christmas...
**[08:43] ---**
We won't see each other
during winter break.
**[08:46] ---**
To see him, I'd have to invite him...
**[08:49] ---**
Morning, Mya-*chan*!
**[08:51] ---**
Good morning.
**[08:53] ---**
We see each other a lot lately.
**[08:55] ---**
Entrance exams are soon,
so there's prep in the morning.
**[08:59] ---**
We have quizzes every day.
**[09:02] ---**
Aren't the teachers tired of it?
**[09:04] ---**
It wouldn't hurt to just let us
play cards for one day.
**[09:07] ---**
Must be tough to be in charge of us.
**[09:10] ---**
Wouldn't that hurt you in the end?
**[09:14] ---**
The school is holding special
winter classes that I'll be going to.
**[09:18] ---**
But Hirano said he won't be there.
He's going home.
**[09:22] ---**
He'll take a prep course instead.
**[09:23] ---**
I wish I had some of his concentration.
**[09:26] ---**
Oh, sorry for just grumbling.
**[09:28] ---**
You're not grumbling. When are the exams?
**[09:32] ---**
January.
**[09:34] ---**
Have you picked out your college yet?
**[09:36] ---**
Not yet. The teacher told me
to do more research.
**[09:42] ---**
If you get in to your target
school, wanna celebrate?
**[09:45] ---**
Senpai, we can't skip over you.
**[09:48] ---**
Oh, yeah. You'll celebrate
with me? If I get in.
**[09:52] ---**
Of course.
**[09:53] ---**
Then let's do our best!
**[09:58] ---**
Can I see you on Christmas?
**[10:01] ---**
How can I say that?
It would interrupt his studying.
**[10:09] ---**
He's been giving me all the time I need.
**[10:12] ---**
How could I just forget
about what he needs?
**[10:17] ---**
I'm behind you. Not that
I can do much to help.
**[10:21] ---**
Thanks. I'm glad.
**[10:24] ---**
Was it like this for him, too?
**[10:27] ---**
A one-year gap is so big.
**[10:30] ---**
Conveying feelings is so complicated.
**[10:36] ---**
Hey, Mya-*chan*. Do you
have plans on the 25th?
**[10:39] ---**
Huh?!
**[10:41] ---**
There's an... exhibit?
For the movie we saw.
**[10:44] ---**
There's art from the novel. And behind
the scenes stuff. That kind of thing.
**[10:49] ---**
Where was it?
**[10:51] ---**
Somewhere close to the theater.
**[10:53] ---**
If you're free, do ya wanna go?
**[10:55] ---**
Don't you need to study?
**[10:58] ---**
It'll be a little break. Just the exhibit.
**[11:00] ---**
Come with me. That would help.
**[11:04] ---**
I'd love to go.
**[11:05] ---**
Great.
**[11:09] ---**
"Ticket Viewer"
"Exhibit"
Found it.
**[11:11] ---**
Check it out. I think we
don't need reservations.
**[11:14] ---**
Hmm. It says we don't
just to see the exhibit.
**[11:18] ---**
That reminds me. I have a CD from
the band that did the theme song.
**[11:22] ---**
Different songs, though.
**[11:23] ---**
What?! You do?
**[11:26] ---**
I really liked the theme song.
**[11:28] ---**
Wanna borrow it?
**[11:30] ---**
--Thank goodness...
--Can I?
**[11:32] ---**
Sure. I'll bring it next time.
**[11:35] ---**
Thank you.
**[11:36] ---**
...that we're on the train and in public.
**[11:43] ---**
Miyano!
**[11:44] ---**
Chairman!
**[11:46] ---**
I mean, Hanzawa-*senpai*.
**[11:49] ---**
It's been a while.
**[11:50] ---**
I think we last spoke
at the cultural festival.
**[11:54] ---**
Masato.
**[11:56] ---**
The clerk says ten more minutes.
**[12:00] ---**
My big brother. A *kouhai*.
**[12:02] ---**
Hello there.
**[12:03] ---**
Oh, hello.
**[12:05] ---**
Our parents sent us out
to get stuff for Christmas.
**[12:09] ---**
Awful, right? I need to be studying.
**[12:12] ---**
Ma-*kun*, you just wanted to use that
excuse to sneak in time with your friends.
**[12:18] ---**
Oops.
**[12:19] ---**
Hey, we're in public.
**[12:21] ---**
Sorry.
**[12:23] ---**
Ma-*kun*...
**[12:25] ---**
See? He latched on.
**[12:27] ---**
Miyano, your homework
over the break is to forget.
**[12:31] ---**
Got that?
**[12:32] ---**
Don't worry. I'm forgetful.
**[12:35] ---**
Not a reassuring answer.
**[12:38] ---**
Are you Masato's boyfriend, by chance?
**[12:40] ---**
What?!
**[12:40] ---**
He's not. I swear you're incorrigible.
**[12:44] ---**
But you look so happy, Masato.
**[12:47] ---**
Did you know that,
in middle school, Masato--
**[12:49] ---**
Hey!
**[12:51] ---**
I hate how you try to connect
everything to romance.
**[13:00] ---**
Sorry.
**[13:01] ---**
The clerk might be ready now. I'll go ask.
**[13:04] ---**
Okay.
**[13:08] ---**
Sorry about that.
**[13:10] ---**
He just loves talking about
love and romance.
**[13:13] ---**
I seem to remember you
talking about that a lot, too.
**[13:19] ---**
I once saw Sasaki-*senpai*
with his big sister.
**[13:23] ---**
They seemed close.
**[13:25] ---**
I don't have any siblings,
so it was fun to see.
**[13:30] ---**
So you're a younger brother, too.
**[13:36] ---**
And what do you mean by that, Miyano?
**[13:38] ---**
My head is off-limits today.
**[13:44] ---**
You can't just let
anybody touch your head.
**[13:48] ---**
Huh?
**[13:49] ---**
Your head is at perfect
patting height to begin with.
**[13:54] ---**
But you've gotten taller.
**[13:56] ---**
Last year you barely
came up past my waist.
**[13:58] ---**
Oh, come on. That's ridiculous!
**[14:00] ---**
Did you break 5'7''?
**[14:02] ---**
I'm still working on it.
**[14:05] ---**
You might before the end of high school.
**[14:07] ---**
You think so?
**[14:08] ---**
Oh, are you okay on time?
**[14:11] ---**
I'd better get going. Good to see you.
**[14:14] ---**
You, too. Take care.
**[14:17] ---**
He left?
**[14:19] ---**
Yeah.
**[14:21] ---**
I'm sorry.
**[14:23] ---**
What for?
**[14:24] ---**
I hadn't seen you that happy
in a while, so I teased you.
**[14:29] ---**
It's fine. But my *kouhai* has somebody,
so don't drag him into it.
**[14:35] ---**
O-Okay. I won't.
**[14:38] ---**
Is there anything left to get?
**[14:40] ---**
Just the chicken.
**[14:45] ---**
So you *don't* have feelings for him.
**[14:48] ---**
Thin ice.
**[14:49] ---**
S-Sorry.
**[14:52] ---**
It's just, you're close to people,
but you never date them.
**[14:56] ---**
Is it because of us?
**[15:00] ---**
If you need me to,
I'll talk to Mom and Dad...
**[15:06] ---**
Are you under the impression I like guys?
**[15:09] ---**
What? You don't?
**[15:11] ---**
I don't. My attraction is to girls.
**[15:13] ---**
Then what's the deal? You hang out with
girls, but you're not dating any of them.
**[15:19] ---**
Right now I'm enjoying
hanging out with friends.
**[15:22] ---**
Oh, I see!
**[15:24] ---**
I had a period like that, too.
**[15:26] ---**
Okay. Makes sense.
**[15:30] ---**
I'm sorry, too. For being harsh.
**[15:32] ---**
What?
**[15:34] ---**
I don't think there's anything
wrong with your love.
**[15:38] ---**
I know.
**[15:39] ---**
I'm glad I have you for a brother, Ma-*kun*.
**[15:44] ---**
Hey, Mom. I like guys,
so forget about grandkids!
**[15:48] ---**
What?!
**[15:49] ---**
What? Was that a... coming out?
**[15:52] ---**
Whoa. Really?
**[15:54] ---**
Me, too! Me, too! I think.
**[15:55] ---**
What?
**[15:56] ---**
Oh. Welcome to the club.
**[15:59] ---**
What about you?
**[16:01] ---**
I... like girls...
**[16:05] ---**
Okay.
**[16:06] ---**
Then Masato will give me grandchildren,
so you can do what you want.
**[16:11] ---**
Yay! So understanding!
**[16:13] ---**
Okay, now eat your dinner!
**[16:16] ---**
--Man, I was kinda nervous.
--I'm glad it wasn't just me.
--I want a boyfriend, too.
**[16:19] ---**
How come mom sounded relieved?
**[16:25] ---**
You don't need to be so worried, Mom.
**[16:30] ---**
I was taken aback at first,
**[16:33] ---**
but looking back, those two
always looked excited together.
**[16:40] ---**
--I just don't want you
to fall for a bad guy.
--It makes me believe
my brothers will be okay.
**[16:43] ---**
I'll have to find a guy
who passes your test.
**[16:49] ---**
Because those two looked happy.
**[17:02] ---**
"Happy New Year"
**[17:04] ---**
"Huge Sale"
**[17:12] ---**
"Thursday, Jan. 6th."
Miyano, morning!
**[17:15] ---**
"Thursday, Jan. 6th."
Morning!
**[17:17] ---**
Goin' somewhere?
**[17:18] ---**
The seniors'--
**[17:19] ---**
They supposedly have a test.
**[17:25] ---**
Sasaki-*senpai*, um...
**[17:28] ---**
Sasaki, the teacher wants you.
**[17:31] ---**
I'll come by later. Sorry.
**[17:34] ---**
Senpai, I...
**[17:35] ---**
Miyano.
**[17:37] ---**
--Senpa--
--Sasaki!
**[17:41] ---**
Senpai, I...
**[17:42] ---**
Miyano!
**[17:44] ---**
--Senpa--
--Sasaki!
**[17:47] ---**
Senpai!
**[17:49] ---**
Senpa--
**[17:50] ---**
Senp--
**[17:52] ---**
Sorry. Another time.
**[17:54] ---**
--Okay...
--Come on, let's go.
**[17:57] ---**
I can't get him alone.
**[18:03] ---**
Mya-*chan*, let's leave together today.
**[18:07] ---**
Okay.
**[18:08] ---**
Uh, a-also, I need
to talk about something.
**[18:12] ---**
Oh? Okay. Will after school work?
**[18:15] ---**
Y-Yes.
**[18:17] ---**
Got it.
**[18:19] ---**
It's the new year, so I'm past
the Christmas breakup window.
**[18:24] ---**
I'll get off at Senpai's station. Then
I'll take him aside to an empty alley.
**[18:31] ---**
No, I'll seem suspicious.
**[18:34] ---**
I feel like I've seen
the alley thing in BL.
**[18:37] ---**
I'll go home immediately afterwards,
so I don't distract from his studies...
**[18:47] ---**
It's today.
**[18:49] ---**
I'm telling him today.
**[18:52] ---**
I'm ready now.
**[18:53] ---**
Thanks for lending me this CD.
**[18:56] ---**
You're done with it?
**[18:58] ---**
I had it for the whole winter break.
**[19:01] ---**
I was surprised this band
did a BL theme song.
**[19:05] ---**
Most of their stuff isn't love songs.
**[19:07] ---**
Yeah. I was surprised at first, too.
**[19:10] ---**
But I liked a lot of the songs.
**[19:13] ---**
My mom even knew one.
**[19:15] ---**
I see.
**[19:17] ---**
I'm glad you seem to like this band.
**[19:20] ---**
I-I do.
**[19:22] ---**
He's always so direct. It makes me blush.
**[19:27] ---**
I want to be that way, too.
**[19:34] ---**
Hey, I noticed you always move
your bag to the other shoulder.
**[19:38] ---**
What?!
**[19:39] ---**
How come?
**[19:42] ---**
Well, um...
**[19:48] ---**
...it's...
**[19:51] ---**
...so I don't hit you with my bag...
**[20:01] ---**
So that's why. So cute.
**[20:03] ---**
Please just forget I said that.
**[20:05] ---**
Do you do that for everybody?
**[20:07] ---**
Of course not!
**[20:08] ---**
I don't usually walk next to people.
**[20:11] ---**
And you always walk on the left,
so now it's a habit...
**[20:17] ---**
--How long?
--Do I?
**[20:28] ---**
The whole time...
**[20:31] ---**
Miyano-*senpai*! The Chairman
was looking for you.
**[20:34] ---**
The new one. Not Hanzawa-*senpai*.
**[20:37] ---**
We'll be waiting for you.
**[20:39] ---**
--Why today, of all days?
--Uh, o-okay.
**[20:42] ---**
I never noticed...
**[20:45] ---**
...how much he considers me.
**[20:50] ---**
Senpai, I'm sorry, but could
you wait by the entr...
**[20:55] ---**
...ance...
**[21:00] ---**
I like him so much.
**[21:03] ---**
What do I do about these feelings?
**[21:15] ---**
Sorry.
**[21:16] ---**
What?!
**[21:17] ---**
No, it's... um, I...
**[21:25] ---**
I, uh...
**[21:27] ---**
So long, sir.
**[21:29] ---**
Don't slack just because
you don't have to come to class.
**[21:32] ---**
--Don't add to the pressure!
--Let's go to a candy store.
**[21:34] ---**
--You're almost there. I'll treat you
to *yakinuku* when it's over.
--I'm broke right now.
I only have 130 yen.
**[21:38] ---**
--You always say that.
--There's no tax,
so you can get 13 candies.
**[21:41] ---**
--If not *yakiniku*, how about sushi?
--How can that be?
**[21:45] ---**
Oh, right. I'm still at school,
**[21:49] ---**
and Senpai was about to kiss me...
**[21:57] ---**
Sorry. I'll head home.
**[21:59] ---**
What?!
**[22:00] ---**
Senpai, wai--
**[23:35] ---**
"Episode 12: 'Just Beginning.'"