# E19 - Be Still My Beating Heart
Source: [Crunchyroll](https://www.crunchyroll.com/watch/G6ZJENK3Y/be-still-my-beating-heart)
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Stepping out on
an ordinary Sunday
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Stepping out!
A miracle's gonna happen
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It's my day!
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Maybe I'll throw off my pajamas
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and head out to see her right now
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I always turned my eyes away,
thinking she'd hate me
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Now I'm saying goodbye
to that negative attitude
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My favorite shoes
will always take me
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To a place where I'll be happy
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It's not someone else
I want to embrace
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But a version of
myself that's not fake
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I just want to walk
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Not on tip-toe
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Not downcast, either
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Just I'm stepping out
on an ordinary Sunday
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Stepping out!
Making a little try, try, try
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It's my day!
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Why don't you forget Tsukasa...
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and go out with me?
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Huh?
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Am I less desirable than Tsukasa?
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*Who is this person?*
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*Shut up...*
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*I'm not interested in other people...*
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*I'll never understand women.*
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*Is this really Rui Hanazawa?*
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*This pick-up artist is really
the same Rui Hanazawa I know?*
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Hey, it's a joke! I'm kidding.
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You're so serious.
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You're really funny sometimes.
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A-a joke?!
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"Be Still My Beating Heart"
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After all, Tsukasa is my friend.
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It'd be a bad scene all around.
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Or are you disappointed?
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Well, then...
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We could date on the sly.
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That's a joke too, right?
How funny!
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Well, I've got class now, so...
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Makino.
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You've gotten a lot cuter.
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Thanks.
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Oh, my.
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*Hold on... was that for real?
What's going on?*
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*Why is he so casual now?*
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*He's become just like
Nishikado and Mimasaka.*
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*You've gotten a lot cuter.*
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*My heart's pounding.*
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*What's wrong with me?*
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Makino?
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What's wrong, Makino?
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Did I scare you? I'm sorry.
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Wh-what do you want?
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*Wh-what's up with her?*
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Tsukushi, thanks for what you did
the other day.
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I hadn't thanked you yet.
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I really appreciated it... a lot.
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You backed me up, even though
I did such a terrible thing to you...
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I was so happy.
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I guess it's a little late for this...
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but it's true that I looked up to you.
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You and your never-say-die attitude...
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...though it also made me feel inferior.
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But I'm not giving up on Domyoji.
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Huh?
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I may have been ugly in the past...
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...but look how cute I am now.
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And I've got curves out to here.
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I wear a C-cup.
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No matter how I look at it...
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...it's hard to believe
that he'd choose you over me.
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Anyway, that's all I had to say.
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Let's go nightclubbing
together some time, okay?
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Makino.
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Yeah?
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You were just with Hanazawa, right?
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Huh?
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Because you were blushing.
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Wha...
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*What a witch.*
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Get in.
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What's going on?
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We're going to my family's villa.
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V-villa? This is the
first I've heard of it!
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It's an awesome place.
Blue skies, miles of ocean.
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But you never asked!
Listen to me!
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*He's calling all the shots.*
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*He was always pushy,
but he's getting worse.*
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*I have to nip this in the bud.*
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I'm not going.
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My parents will get mad at me...
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...so take me home.
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I made a call to your house already.
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I talked to your father...
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and I could hear him dancing with joy.
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Huh?
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*Why are my parents so awful?!*
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Is everyone aboard?
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Yes, master.
Your guests are all here.
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An airplane?
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Hey, what are you doing? Get in.
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Get in?
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Can't you tell?
It's my family's private jet.
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What?!
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I never rode in a plane before.
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We're going to crash!
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We're all going to die!
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Y-y-you're choking me.
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L-look outside.
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Oh! How pretty! It's beautiful!
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Hey, wow!
We're flying above the clouds!
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Shut up.
What's up with that girl...
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...yelling and screaming.
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*Wow! I can't believe
I'm riding in an airplane.*
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So, where are we headed?
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To an island that my family owns.
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An island?!
Your family owns an island?
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Yeah.
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*Th-this is unbelievable.*
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*He's not your ordinary rich kid.*
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*His family is really loaded.*
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Makino. Let me introduce you.
Come here.
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These two are from
Yamanote All-Girls School.
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I'm Hiroko.
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I'm Noriko. Nice to meet you.
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S-same here.
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*Gee. They're your textbook
young ladies.*
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And this is my girlfriend.
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Charmed.
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H-hi. Pleased to meet you.
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Akira.
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I'm thirsty.
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Okay, okay.
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*I heard he seduced
older women, but...*
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*How perverse.*
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*That light brown hair...*
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*He's here.*
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It's been a year, huh?
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Let's put our luggage in the rooms.
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I almost made eye contact.
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Makino. Let me take
you to your room.
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Oh... okay.
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Woah!
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Do you like it?
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It's the room with the best view.
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Yeah! It's beautiful!
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What a lovely ocean.
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This will be...
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our room.
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Cheers!
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Delicious!
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Everything tastes great
when the air is this clean.
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Domyoji, your family is so impressive.
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They own such a lovely island.
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Amen to that.
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At our school, a lot of our fathers
are presidents of companies...
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...but no one owns an island.
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Tsukasa, your family has ten
other places worldwide, right?
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We only have two...
one in Karuizawa and one in L.A.
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Where were yours, Sojiro?
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Hawaii and Hokkaido...
and one in Monaco.
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My father likes to act big...
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...although he's the head
of a tea ceremony school.
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What about you, Rui?
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My family has one
in Australia and Tahiti...
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...and Okinawa in Japan.
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Wow! Awesome!
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You F4 boys are really...
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...such a wealthy group of young men!
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I'm so embarrassed.
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In our families, our fathers
are presidents of companies...
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...but we only own
one villa each in Karuizawa.
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What about you, Makino?
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Where is your family's villa?
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I guess... my grandma's house
in the country would be our villa.
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Huh?
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Grandma?
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It doesn't make sense to own one
if you don't use it.
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We don't even take care of our villas
in the off season.
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Hey, the steaks are ready. Eat.
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Oh! It looks so delicious!
Thank you.
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What kind of sauce is this?
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It's a red wine *fond de veau*.
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Makino...
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This is yours... P-please eat.
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*This will be... our room.*
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*I wonder if...*
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*If he's thinking that we're going to...*
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*There was only the one king-sized bed.*
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*I still feel his warmth...*
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*...pressing against my back.*
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*But first things first.*
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*I haven't told him how I feel yet.*
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*It's hard to imagine myself
with Domyoji...*
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*...who I hated so much at first.*
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*Not yet...*
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*It's still inconceivable.*
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I'm so jealous of you, Makino.
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Huh?
**[15:22] ---**
Aren't you going to sleep
with Domyoji tonight?
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Wh-where did that come from?
We're not at that point yet.
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I'm a little scared.
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Don't worry! I'm sure...
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You're right. Both Hanazawa
and Nishikado seem experienced anyway.
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Huh? D-did you say Hanazawa?
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Yes. I'm sharing a room with him.
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Oh! It all seems like a dream!
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My heart's pounding.
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Of all the boys in the F4,
I liked Hanazawa the best!
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*How could this have happened?*
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*Why isn't he with Shizuka?*
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*This is so stupid of me.*
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*I thought I put an end to it...*
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*...when Rui Hanazawa went to France
to chase after Shizuka.*
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Oh, Hanazawa!
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*I can't. I can't watch this anymore.*
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Makino... what's wrong?
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Makino!
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I... I'm going back to the room.
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I'm a little tired.
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*It's like there's a little bird
in my heart fluttering around.*
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*Why am I feeling like this now?*
**[17:37] ---**
Do you feel sick?
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Oh... I'm fine.
I'm just a little tired.
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Why don't you lie down on the bed?
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What? The bed?
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H-hold on. I'm not ready to...
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I'll sleep on that sofa bed.
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Sofa bed?
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Let me tell you something.
Don't get me wrong.
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I told you how I feel about you.
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But you haven't told me
how you feel.
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I don't want to sleep with a girl
who doesn't love me.
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*Domyoji...*
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Well, I am a guy.
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And if I told you that I didn't want to,
it'd be a lie.
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Makino... hurry up and decide.
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I'm getting tired of waiting.
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*I wish...*
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*...that I could feel...*
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*...the same way, too...*
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*But... the little bird in my heart...*
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*Is rustling around...*
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Wh-what are you doing there?
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Nothing. What about you?
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Where's Tsukasa?
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H-he went to bed.
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Tell me... are you planning
to stay here all night long?
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Yeah.
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Do you feel sick?
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You must've gotten a cold
from sitting here all this time.
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Wh-what are you doing?
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Ten minutes...
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no, just five will do...
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...hold me.
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What?
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I'm fine during the day,
but I can't handle the nights.
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I'm so cold I can't stand it.
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But... why don't you hook up
with that girl?
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I can't.
I don't know a thing about her.
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You let your hair down a little
**[22:14] ---**
You hid the fact
that you were crying
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I noticed, but I
couldn't ask you why
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I can never be
honest about how I feel
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Until after we've split
up after a bad fight
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I can say it now,
though, over and over
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(Sorry girl, I was
wrong and I love you)
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I can say "I love you"...
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(Sorry girl, I was
wrong and I love you)
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Do you really hate me this time?
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Will you end up running to him?
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I can say it now,
though, over and over
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(Sorry girl, I was
wrong and I love you)
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I can say "I love you"...
**[23:28] ---**
(Sorry girl, I was
wrong and I love you)
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I lied to Domyoji.
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I couldn't leave Rui Hanazawa
hurting and alone.
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But I felt guilty,
as if I had done something wrong...
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...and I lied to Domyoji.
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Rui Hanazawa is the only thing
that's on my mind.
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Next on Hana Yori Dango:
"Night of Betrayal"
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Why can't you be happy?