# E180 - The More Precious the Burden, The Heavier and More Difficult it is to Shoulder
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**[00:30] Shoyo**
I came after hearing about
a corpse-eating demon...
**[00:34] Shoyo**
Would that be you?
**[00:37] Shoyo**
A rather cute demon.
**[00:47] Shoyo**
Did you also take that from a corpse?
**[00:52] Shoyo**
A single child stripping corpses
to protect himself, is it?
**[00:59] Shoyo**
That's very impressive.
**[01:02] Shoyo**
However, you no longer need that sword.
**[01:09] Shoyo**
A sword that's only swung in self-defense,
while fearing others,
**[01:16] Shoyo**
should be thrown away.
**[01:25] Shoyo**
I shall give you my sword.
**[01:31] Shoyo**
If you wish to learn how
to properly use it...
**[01:33] Shoyo**
Then come with me.
**[03:17] Gintoki**
Hey...
**[03:19] Gintoki**
Get your hands off her.
**[03:21] Gintoki**
Get your stinkin' hands off this woman.
**[03:23] Jiraia**
Y-You're...?!
**[03:39] Tsukuyo**
Gintoki...
**[03:48] Tsukuyo**
Why did you...
**[03:50] Tsukuyo**
come here...?
***SIGN*** ["The More Precious the Burden, the Heavier and More Difficult It Is to Shoulder It."]
**[04:03] Tsukuyo**
Look at yourself...
**[04:06] Tsukuyo**
I told you to run...
**[04:09] Tsukuyo**
You fool...
**[04:11] Gintoki**
I won't be dying.
**[04:15] Gintoki**
Nobody will be dying.
**[04:22] Gintoki**
I won't let anyone die in Yoshiwara.
**[04:28] Gintoki**
You see...
**[04:32] Gintoki**
We aren't gonna leave you all alone.
**[04:42] Jiraia**
You followed my threads
to find this place?
**[04:49] Jiraia**
Commendable.
**[04:52] Jiraia**
They say one climbs the spider
thread to reach for paradise...
***SIGN*** [Note: A reference to Ryunosuke Akutagawa's "The Spider's Thread"]
**[04:55] Jiraia**
Instead, you climb up to reach for hell.
**[05:04] Jiraia**
Your idiocy would leave Buddha
and Enma both speechless.
**[05:14] Tsukuyo**
Wait, Gintoki...!
**[05:16] Gintoki**
Don't bother telling me to run again.
**[05:21] Gintoki**
Trying to shoulder the burden
all by yourself?
**[05:24] Gintoki**
Don't be such a stranger.
**[05:27] Gintoki**
Weep and ask for help.
**[05:30] Gintoki**
Lean on me with your runny nose.
**[05:34] Gintoki**
Cry when you feel like crying.
**[05:37] Gintoki**
Laugh when you feel like laughing.
**[05:41] Gintoki**
When you're tearing up with an ugly face,
**[05:44] Gintoki**
I'll give you a good cry
with an uglier face.
**[05:48] Gintoki**
When you're laughing so
hard your stomach hurts,
**[05:51] Gintoki**
I'll laugh in a louder voice.
**[05:58] Gintoki**
That's how it should be.
**[06:01] Gintoki**
It's far better to get dirty while
living true to yourself,
**[06:06] Gintoki**
than to throw away yourself
and die a clean death.
**[06:14] Jiraia**
You offer to carry her burden?
**[06:17] Jiraia**
You will help carry Tsukuyo's burden?
**[06:23] Jiraia**
Don't you understand?
**[06:25] Jiraia**
You are Tsukuyo's burden.
**[06:30] Jiraia**
You people are the reason Tsukuyo
has suffered so much.
**[06:34] Jiraia**
The reason she's grown so hideous.
**[06:49] Jiraia**
Tsukuyo, you must be hungry.
**[06:52] Jiraia**
I shall prepare you a top class meal.
**[06:55] Jiraia**
Of the pathetic worm who followed
the moon into my web.
**[07:05] Gintoki**
I don't give a damn about
who you've betrayed.
**[07:09] Gintoki**
Do whatever you like to the
Shogun or any other lords.
**[07:14] Gintoki**
But you called yourself her master
**[07:17] Gintoki**
and then you betrayed your student...
**[07:22] Gintoki**
who's believed in you
since she was a kid...
**[07:26] Gintoki**
Who's followed in your
footsteps for so long...
**[07:29] Gintoki**
You made her your prey.
**[07:33] Gintoki**
You don't deserve to call
yourself her master...
**[07:37] Gintoki**
You don't deserve to
call her your student.
**[07:41] Gintoki**
Get lost.
**[07:45] Gintoki**
Don't ever show your face around
her again, you sick son of a bitch!!
**[07:50] Jiraia**
This man...
**[07:51] Jiraia**
His eyes aren't that of a prey.
**[07:54] Jiraia**
Nor the eyes of a meal.
**[07:58] Jiraia**
My threads are quivering.
**[08:03] Jiraia**
My web is reacting to an
unprecedented invasion.
**[08:10] Jiraia**
That's...
**[08:12] Jiraia**
Those eyes are...!
**[08:19] Gintoki**
Jiraia...
**[08:21] Gintoki**
You're the one who's been
caught in a web.
**[08:24] Gintoki**
My web.
**[08:25] Gintoki**
Now that you've made
a mess of my place,
**[08:28] Gintoki**
don't expect to leave alive.
**[08:30] Gintoki**
Spill your rotten gut as you die!
**[08:36] Jiraia**
A battle between hunters?
**[08:40] Jiraia**
Amusing.
**[08:43] Jiraia**
I'll show you who the
master of this web is.
**[08:47] Jiraia**
Any place with my threads, be it the
six realms, shall be part of my web!
**[09:04] Jiraia**
You cannot catch me with those injuries.
**[09:09] Jiraia**
Do you intend to escape outside?!
**[09:11] Jiraia**
Fool!
**[09:15] Gintoki**
You're the fool.
**[09:38] Gintoki**
Gotcha.
**[09:43] Gintoki**
Now, time for supper.
**[09:47] Gintoki**
Let's dig in!
**[09:51] Shoyo**
If you wish to learn how
to properly use it...
**[09:54] Shoyo**
Then come with me.
**[09:56] Shoyo**
From now on, you will swing that sword.
**[09:58] Shoyo**
Not to cut down your enemies.
**[10:02] Shoyo**
Not to cut away your weaknesses
and protect yourself.
**[10:07] Shoyo**
But to protect your very soul.
**[10:36] Tsukuyo**
Gintoki!
**[10:43] Jiraia**
How...?
**[10:46] Jiraia**
How can you have power that rivals mine?
**[10:52] Jiraia**
By someone unable to abandon
their sense of self...
**[10:56] Jiraia**
By someone who can't even sever their ties,
just to have a place to return to...?!
**[11:01] Jiraia**
I have sacrificed everything...
**[11:04] Jiraia**
My sense of self, my home,
even my comrades...
**[11:10] Jiraia**
All for my prey...
**[11:12] Jiraia**
For you...
**[11:14] Jiraia**
Yet why...? Why?!
**[11:17] Gintoki**
You still can't understand?
**[11:22] Gintoki**
Some of the things you sacrificed
were too important.
**[11:27] Gintoki**
You abandoned your comrades?
**[11:29] Gintoki**
No.
**[11:30] Gintoki**
You were afraid of losing your comrades.
**[11:33] Gintoki**
You fought alone?
**[11:35] Gintoki**
No!
**[11:36] Gintoki**
You wouldn't have to feel the pain of solitude
if you'd been alone to begin with.
**[11:41] Gintoki**
You abandoned your sense of self?
**[11:43] Gintoki**
No.
**[11:44] Gintoki**
You were running away from the pain
you caused and the pain you endured.
**[11:49] Gintoki**
You're just a coward!
**[11:53] Gintoki**
She's far stronger than
you could ever be.
**[11:58] Gintoki**
A coward is enough to deal
with another coward.
**[12:02] Gintoki**
I'm enough to take you.
**[12:07] Jiraia**
Silence!
**[12:09] Gintoki**
You don't have the right to
call yourself her master!
**[12:18] Gintoki**
You don't have the strength to shoulder
a student and their pain!!
**[12:55] Tsukuyo**
Gintoki...
**[13:02] Gintoki**
Let's go back.
**[13:04] Gintoki**
To your home...
**[13:16] Tsukuyo**
Jiraia! Stop!
**[13:19] Gintoki**
Give up already.
**[13:23] Gintoki**
There's nothing in your web.
**[13:28] Gintoki**
This whole time, there was only
ever a pathetic little spider,
**[13:33] Gintoki**
spinning threads into the sky while
gazing at the distant moon.
**[13:41] Jiraia**
What are you babbling about?
**[13:43] Jiraia**
I already knew that long ago.
**[13:49] Tsukuyo**
Stop! Jiraia!
**[14:08] Jiraia**
Yes...
**[14:10] Jiraia**
This is how...
**[14:12] Jiraia**
How it should be...
**[14:21] Jiraia**
The spider will disappear
in a pool of blood.
**[14:25] Jiraia**
It doesn't...
**[14:28] Jiraia**
feel as good as I expected...
**[14:33] Jiraia**
to be killed by myself.
**[14:39] Jiraia**
I want to kill myself.
**[14:44] Tsukuyo**
Jiraia, were you...?
**[14:47] Zenzo**
Jiraia, your final prey...
**[14:52] Zenzo**
was you yourself, huh?
**[14:55] Zenzo**
Your goal wasn't to kill the clone
you'd raised and trained.
**[15:03] Zenzo**
It was to be killed by your beloved
student, as yourself.
**[15:11] Jiraia**
Th-The boss's son, is it...?
**[15:15] Jiraia**
We met once before.
**[15:19] Jiraia**
Have you come to avenge your
father and comrades again?
**[15:27] Zenzo**
I lost interest in revenge a long time ago.
**[15:34] Zenzo**
I have no interest in crushing a spider
who's fallen to earth.
**[15:40] Zenzo**
...Danzo.
**[15:46] Zenzo**
So you've done your research.
**[15:49] Zenzo**
Jiraia the Spider.
**[15:51] Zenzo**
Real name: Danzo Tobita.
**[15:54] Zenzo**
Born to a country samurai in Iga and mastered
ninja techniques at a young age.
**[15:59] Zenzo**
Your natural aptitude had people
calling you a prodigy.
**[16:03] Zenzo**
The samurai in Iga were
fighting year round.
**[16:07] Zenzo**
The Tobita family was one
of the larger families in Iga.
**[16:10] Zenzo**
With such a talented son in line to take over,
its foes weren't going to stand by idly.
**[16:16] Zenzo**
The only survivors were you
and your still young sister.
**[16:20] Zenzo**
You felt ashamed of the skills which kept
you alive while everyone else was killed.
**[16:23] Zenzo**
With the life of your only remaining
family hostage,
**[16:30] Zenzo**
you were forced to swear fealty to your hated
enemy, what would have been your prey.
**[16:40] Zenzo**
That gave birth to your twisted
sense of devotion.
**[16:44] Zenzo**
Sacrifice oneself for the country.
**[16:47] Zenzo**
You literally sacrificed your sense
of self to devote yourself to work.
**[16:52] Zenzo**
No, you had no choice.
**[16:55] Zenzo**
Your only escape from the hate,
**[16:59] Zenzo**
sorrow, and shame of serving the ones
who exterminated your family
**[17:05] Zenzo**
was to forget your identity and focus on mechanically
carrying out mission after mission.
**[17:11] Zenzo**
You used that intoxication
to escape the pain.
**[17:17] Zenzo**
However, your sister couldn't bear
seeing her older brother like that.
**[17:22] Sister**
No more... No more.
**[17:25] Sister**
Stop pushing yourself for my sake.
**[17:29] Sister**
Dear brother, live your own life.
**[17:33] Sister**
Live freely for yourself.
**[17:40] Zenzo**
Your sister took her own life.
**[17:44] Zenzo**
After all the prey you took,
all the pain to your body,
**[17:48] Zenzo**
you still couldn't protect your sister.
**[17:50] Zenzo**
To this very day, you're still
haunted by that fact.
**[17:55] Zenzo**
And so you attempted to kill yourself
in the worst possible way.
**[17:59] Zenzo**
You would become the enemy of
the beloved student you'd raised,
**[18:07] Zenzo**
and die by her hands.
**[18:11] Zenzo**
That was your self-inflicted punishment
for failing to protect your sister.
**[18:17] Jiraia**
No...
**[18:19] Jiraia**
I was just scared.
**[18:23] Jiraia**
Just as you said,
**[18:26] Jiraia**
I was scared of losing anything else...
**[18:29] Jiraia**
A coward who was too scared
to bear the burden.
**[18:34] Jiraia**
That is why I became drawn to her.
**[18:37] Tsukuyo**
I wanna protect Yoshiwara and Hinowa!
**[18:41] Jiraia**
The child who tried to shoulder
everything on that small back...
**[18:48] Jiraia**
That was why I taught
you everything I knew.
**[18:54] Jiraia**
I didn't want you to be hurt...
**[18:56] Jiraia**
The way I was...
**[18:59] Jiraia**
If we are doomed to experience
the suffering from a loss,
**[19:03] Jiraia**
then why shoulder the
burden to begin with?
**[19:07] Jiraia**
No need for a home or comrades...
**[19:11] Jiraia**
But you defied my expectations...
**[19:15] Jiraia**
You've managed to find
friends... a home...
**[19:22] Jiraia**
You possessed a strength I never did.
**[19:27] Jiraia**
The strength to not run away from the pain
you caused, the pain you endured...
**[19:33] Jiraia**
I was scared of losing
someone else again...
**[19:38] Jiraia**
You were headed somewhere
far away from me...
**[19:43] Jiraia**
I...
**[19:45] Jiraia**
...was trying to draw you back...
**[19:47] Jiraia**
To the same fate I suffered...
**[19:51] Jiraia**
In the end, I wasn't protecting
you or my sister...
**[20:01] Jiraia**
I was only protecting myself...
**[20:05] Jiraia**
And I became tired of myself.
**[20:10] Jiraia**
That was all...
**[20:15] Jiraia**
I planned on never shouldering
another burden,
**[20:19] Jiraia**
yet I'd managed to do it again.
**[20:24] Jiraia**
I planned on never forcing anyone
else to shoulder my burden,
**[20:28] Jiraia**
yet I'd managed to do it again.
**[20:32] Jiraia**
Tsukuyo, I forced you to shoulder
a worthless burden.
**[20:37] Jiraia**
I am sorry...
**[20:53] Tsukuyo**
I wish you had told me this sooner.
**[20:58] Tsukuyo**
I wish you had allowed me
to share your burden.
**[21:04] Tsukuyo**
We would have been able to
arrive at a different answer.
**[21:10] Tsukuyo**
If the master's duty is to shoulder
the student along with their pain,
**[21:14] Tsukuyo**
what is the student's duty?
**[21:18] Tsukuyo**
To grow strong enough
to shoulder the master.
**[21:22] Tsukuyo**
You're light...
**[21:23] Tsukuyo**
So light, Master...
**[21:26] Tsukuyo**
I never knew you were so light...
**[21:32] Tsukuyo**
Can you see, Master?
**[21:53] Jiraia**
Yes...
**[21:54] Jiraia**
Yes...!
**[21:57] Jiraia**
I can see...
**[21:59] Jiraia**
A moon more beautiful...
**[22:02] Jiraia**
than any...I've ever seen...
**[22:10] Zenzo**
That's one helluva student.
**[22:12] Zenzo**
A student's duty is to grow strong enough
to shoulder the master, huh?
**[22:17] Zenzo**
I was always relying on my old man,
**[22:20] Zenzo**
so I was never able to do that.
**[22:28] Gintoki**
...Same here.
***SIGN***
**[24:07] Kagura**
Tsukuyo-chan!
**[24:09] Kagura**
Let's go out and play!
**[24:12] Gintoki**
Hey, wake up, damn it.
**[24:13] Gintoki**
We're hitting the pachinko parlor.
**[24:14] Gintoki**
You probably got a bunch
saved up, right?
***SIGN*** ["Watch Out For A Set of Women and A Drink"]
**[24:16] Gintoki**
I'll blow it all for you.
***SIGN*** [Ohh! JUMP-san!! Don't use profanity in the important parts!]
***SIGN*** [See you next time.]