# E6 - Self-deception Fails
Source: [Crunchyroll](https://www.crunchyroll.com/watch/G50UZV7QM/self-deception-fails)
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(A hundred years ago)
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Look over there.
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Look over there.
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(Ghostwriting)
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My name is Xu Chenghuai.
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Is this a painting stall?
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It's a letter writing service.
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I'm a scholar who travels back home.
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It's said a bookish scholar is useless.
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That's not wrong.
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The breeze is mischievous. Please be careful.
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The breeze is mischievous,
but I'm grateful to it.
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(Fairies Albums: In the Si Mansion)
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(Episode 6 Self-Deception Fails)
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Chongchong,
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I didn't expect that you
actually saved these flowers.
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I have said that as long as I want to,
I will definitely find a way.
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It's really incredible.
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For you, the answers to everything
can be found in books, right?
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Not necessarily.
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I still don't know what's a soulmate.
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Although I have read many related books,
I still only have a smattering of knowledge.
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Stupid girl.
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You and your soulmate should have mutual understanding
and support each other.
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You're happy to see his or her face.
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You feel comfortable to talk to him or her.
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When you meet your soulmate like I did,
you will naturally understand.
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Who's she?
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Her name is Lianxin.
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Lian…
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Three days later,
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there will be a female head here.
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Chongchong, if you're not busy,
please go to Mrs. Hu's and take a look.
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Bring the marital bedding back if it's done.
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I'll go in the evening.
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Mrs. Hu is famously slow.
Now going there might be a wasted trip.
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Then come over and help
me tidy up the cabinet.
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Are these all moved away?
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I have agreed with Master Qiao.
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These books are for those poor children.
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He can also save some money.
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Aren't these your favorite books?
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The greatest significance of books
is to allow more people to read them.
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Moreover, after Lianxin marries me,
she must have a wardrobe.
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You even gave up books just
to make room for her clothes.
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Will you kick me out after getting married?
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This girl. What happened to her today?
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Congratulations!
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Thank you. Thank you all, fellow villagers.
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It should be almost there.
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Look how anxious the groom is.
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Why hasn't she arrived yet?
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She's here.
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The bride is getting out of the sedan chair.
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Lianxin, I'm here to welcome you.
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Miss? Miss, you can come out now.
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Doctor, where is the doctor?
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Hurry to the clinic. Quick.
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How could this happen?
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The bride is dead. Is this… true or false?
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This is a day of great joy.
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It's too cruel.
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Lianxin.
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Lianxin.
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Lianxin.
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Lianxin.
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Lianxin.
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Lianxin.
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It can be so easy to go from
great joy to great sorrow.
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Lianxin.
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Don't go. Don't go.
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I'm not leaving.
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It's you.
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Chenghuai, take your medicine.
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Sick like this, you'll
hurt your body further.
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Why did you put the books in?
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What are you saying?
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I said why did you put the books in.
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This is for Lianxin.
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What's the use? What's the use?
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What's the use of reading so many books?
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I can't even keep the person I love.
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She…She's so good.
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Why?
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Why?
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How good is she?
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Did she wake you up before a fire disaster?
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Did she get drunk with you in the wine shop?
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Did she wake up in your arms on a morning?
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What…What did you say?
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She didn't experience all these with you.
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So she is not your soulmate.
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You said soulmates must
have mutual understanding.
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We support each other and stay together.
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I'm happy to see your face.
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I won't get angry, even if I argue with you.
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So my soulmate is you.
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You…
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If another woman appears between you and me,
I will be very unhappy.
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Very unhappy.
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You…What did you do to Lianxin?
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The book says that indecision
will lead to chaos.
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Except me, no one should stay by your side.
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You also like me.
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Like you?
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Do I like a bug?
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Chenghuai, I know you are kind to me.
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I have seen it in the book.
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Many couples who grow old
together are like you and me
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With inborn mutual understanding,
we never leave or forsake.
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You are sick now. You have to take medicine,
otherwise your body won't be able to bear it.
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You are the one who is sick.
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Chenghuai, let's live together
like a married couple.
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I can also put on a wedding
dress and marry you.
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Marry me?
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We?
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What have I done after all?
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I should have been burned to death back then.
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Being struck by lightning would be fine too.
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I have read thousands of books in vain.
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I actually forgot that evil is evil.
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They can't be friends.
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Chenghuai, I just want to be with you.
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I'll k ill you!
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I don't want to see you
for even another second.
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Don't touch me.
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Don't be like this. Don't
be like this. Chenghuai.
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We can be together. We can be together.
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Get lost.
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I really wish I had never met you.
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I… I don't know what to do.
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I'll go flip through a book to see
if there are any answers.
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Go ahead, go ahead.
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It would be better if we
hadn't met each other.
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Chenghuai, I'm back.
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You often suffer in the summer.
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Today I got some fresh lotus leaves.
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I cooked lotus leaf porridge for you.
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It's the most fragrant thing ever.
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There is minced meat and stir-fried cucumber.
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These grapes are also soaked in well water.
They're sweet and cool.
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Have a taste.
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Come, Chenghuai, don't be afraid.
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You just slipped into the
water and caught a cold.
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Chongchong.
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How did I die?
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No. Not correct.
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I…I have already timely saved you.
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How did I die?
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You…You died from illness.
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You…You…
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I didn't expect Ms. Tao
to be an inexpert swimmer.
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Si Jingyuan, it's really you.
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Don't use so much force.
These old bones could fall apart at any time.
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The obsession of this corpse is too deep.
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Thanks to my half-life, I possessed him
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so that she could see her true pain.
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I think I can still save him.
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Dark Blade can really revive
the dead. I'm not lying.
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What does it matter if you lie to me?
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It's just quite rare
that you've been lying to yourself for 100 years.
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This is what you spit out, right?
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It spat out a trace of black gas just now,
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which turned into this thing on the ground.
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What is this exactly?
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This is called Wind Fruit.
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The land of poisonous miasma has short trees.
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The leaves are like dog teeth.
The fruits are like jade.
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When the wind blows, they turn red.
They are called Wind Fruits.
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But they are not plants, but demons.
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When eaten, it parasitizes the brain
and takes form in dreams.
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It can manipulate memories.
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After that, I confirmed that
Chenghuai died of illness.
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Only the wish to make him alive remains.
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What's the use?
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What's fake is fake.
The truth will eventually be exposed one day.
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The host wakes up. Wind Fruit immediately dies.
This thing is useless now.
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You…
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Don't mistake me for your unlucky crush.
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What are you doing?
You are destroying your own demon soul.
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Even if I don't do this,
you won't let me go, right?
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I have read all the books in the world.
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I know what people don't know.
I can do what they cannot do.
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But I can't stay by your side.
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This defeat is unbearable to me.
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I'm gone. Everything goes back to zero.
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You are not him.
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But you made me see him. Thanks.
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So many people died.
So many innocent people are implicated.
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But this is the result.
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That's because, although
Knowing comes from books,
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it has never really understood books.
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Books are written by people.
People are not plants. Who can be heartless?
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One has to visit countless places, see countless sceneries,
and taste countless hardships
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before he can write something in books.
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In one's lifetime, he looks at mountains
with emotions and water with emotions.
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So much love, hatred, affection, and enmity.
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How can they be solved by books?
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Both flowers and the person disappeared.
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It would be better to not meet each other.