# 101 - To the God I Hate So Much
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*Sharpening my eyes*
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*Worn-out phrases or pretending
to be someone else won't satisfy me*
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*Spark, be gone*
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*You're going to talk big using
borrowed authority again, aren't you?*
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*The best play in the house
in the murky final moments*
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*I don't think I can lose at all
at the forefront of the stage*
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*Twenty-four seven, come on, fight it out*
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*Having lost the sun, I look for the moon*
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*We even lose sight of what
we used to be able to see*
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*and start drowning in a sea of memories*
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*And yet, why are you ignoring
even what we vowed to each other*
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*and getting your next passport?*
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*Rebel one! When will the eternal voice
reach your heart again?*
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*Rebel one! Let me hear
the eternal voice again*
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*Rebel one! When will the eternal voice
reach your heart again?*
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*Rebel one! Turning point*
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To the God I Hate So Much
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Are you both okay?
**[01:48] ---**
Head nurse... We're okay.
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Good.
**[01:51] ---**
That was quite a big shake.
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It's pitch dark... Is everyone okay?
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Head nurse, please don't take the light with you.
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We're okay, too... although the room is such a mess.
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Ouch! I cut my finger on something!
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No way! Even that shock didn't wake Kro-*chan* up?!
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Ahh... The medicine got messed up.
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I can't believe it!
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Lavi, you've got some cuts on your arm.
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Hm? Well, some lights fell, so...
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I'm sorry.
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This is nothing.
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Stop trying to act cool.
Come. I'll treat your wounds.
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I'm not. And I'm okay.
**[02:22] ---**
Oh? It's my job to treat people's
injuries. Do you have a problem?
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I-I'm sorry.
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Hold on a second.
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Hm?
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Hm?
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Lenalee, put on my shoes.
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It's dangerous to be barefoot.
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What? I-I'm all right.
I don't want *you* to get hurt.
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She's right, head nurse. It's dangerous.
I'll lend my boots to her, so...
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Shut up. If you get hurt,
I'll have more work to deal with.
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I'm sorry.
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Seriously, I wonder how many times
I have to tell you guys before you get it...
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Really, this is a tough place to work.
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Conceited injured people, workaholics...
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No one listens to nurses.
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Are they comfortable?
The size should be okay, but...
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Your shoes... feel warm.
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It's not that I forgot to wear shoes.
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I was going to see Hevlaska right away
to synchronize with my Innocence,
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so I purposely didn't wear them.
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My feet... feel warm.
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They feel warm...
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Let's stay here, Lenalee.
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I'm sure it'll be okay. This terrible
morning will be over soon.
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Don't put Innocence inside your body.
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You do understand how Chief feels, right?
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I didn't mean to make my brother feel sad.
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I didn't mean to at all...
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But what do I do...?
He was crying... What do I do?
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I bet it sounded as if I was blaming him.
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I don't think it's okay for me to die!
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I want to live... I want to live together
with my brother and everyone else.
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But in order to do so, I have to fight.
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That's all I can do... even though
I don't want to make him feel sad!
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I hate Innocence! Why do we
have to suffer this much?!
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Why does it make him suffer?!
**[04:38] ---**
Lab 5 has been annihilated!
The Akuma went outside the lab!
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What?!
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The number of Akuma is one. It appears
that it has evolved to Level 4.
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Level... 4...?!
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We haven't been able to confirm
the safety of the Exorcists inside Lab 5!
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Each Section Member!
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Take talismans and hurry
to the Science Section Floor!
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The Akuma left Lab 5!
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It's currently moving towards
the Science Section Floor!
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Ch-Chief!
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"Chief"?
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A white Rose Cross...
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Chief...
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Please get out of here, Chief Komui!
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Talisman... Activa--
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You're the Exorcists' commander
at the Black Order, correct?
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Your head is worth the same
as that of an Exorcist, isn't it?
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Chief!
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Tsk! Komui, you jerk!
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You need to get better weapons!
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K-Kanda-*kun*!
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Are you okay, Chief?!
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Yeah.
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Talisman! Activate!
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Keep the output power at max and
focus all talismans on the target!
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Surround it and don't leave an opening!
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Yes, sir!
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That bastard is...
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...laughing...
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Don't come out. Step back, Komui!
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K-Kanda-*san*?!
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That's reckless! You don't
have your Innocence!
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I won't die so easily.
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Komui, can you hear me?
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Komui... come to me.
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I'll attract the Level 4's attention.
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So you guys take the Innocence
inside me and escape headquarters!
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Fortunately, the ark is connected
to the Asian Branch through a gate.
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So take everyone there!
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As it stands, our casualties
will just keep growing.
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As long as you have Innocence,
you can rebuild headquarters.
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Komui!
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Komui!
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Komui! There's no other way!
**[07:12] ---**
Hevlaska, we can still
use Lenalee Lee's power.
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Rouvelier... She can't do it yet.
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Exorcists aren't tools.
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If the Accommodator isn't ready,
synchronization will kill them.
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Innocence exists in order
to destroy Akuma, doesn't it?
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Why can't we use it?
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Don't... Rouvelier!
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Are you trying to get
yourself killed, Hevlaska?
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I've lived for 100 years at the Order.
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The Order means everything
to me, Rouvelier.
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Rouvelier...
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Lenalee Lee. You are
an Exorcist, aren't you?!
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Come with me.
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What're you gonna do, Komui?
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Section Leaders! I won't repeat this,
so please listen carefully.
**[08:07] ---**
From here on, follow my instructions
to evacuate your section members
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to the Asian Branch
through the ark's Gate 3.
**[08:14] ---**
Evacuate? Doesn't that mean...
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Since the safety of the Exorcists
who're in Lab 5 is unknown,
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what we need to do is to protect
Innocence in order to avoid
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having them all destroyed.
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We will evacuate headquarters!
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First, Finders will--
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Did you hear that? They're going
to use Hevlaska as a decoy.
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I'm asking you if you
heard that, Lenalee Lee!
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I'm saying that an Akuma... the enemy
that Exorcists have to fight is right there!
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What's that look in your eye, Bookman Jr.?
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Director. The chief ordered us to evacuate.
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We, the Order members,
will follow the Chief's orders.
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The Black Order belongs
to the Central Agency.
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Exorcists are at the
Central Agency's disposal.
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Please stop treating these
children as if they're things!
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Leave... Please leave this room!
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Come, Lenalee.
**[09:21] ---**
As your Innocence has evolved,
it might be able to stand up to Level 4.
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You're an Exorcist. Why are
*you* the one being protected?
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Hey...
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Akuma can be destroyed only by Exorcists.
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So why aren't you fighting?!
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Stop it!
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Don't listen to him!
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Fight for the Order, Lenalee!
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Stop it!
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You are an Exorcist, aren't you?!
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L-Lenalee...
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Le...
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No, Lenalee!
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Why...?!
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Don't come, head nurse... Thank you.
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When my brother came on that day,
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I thought I could no longer
escape this place.
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I quit running then.
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I quit running... and became an Exorcist.
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I made him throw everything away.
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It obstructed his future
as well as his freedom.
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I confined him in here.
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In order to live with him, who threw
everything away except me...
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That's right, Lenalee. After all,
you can't escape anyway, so...
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I'm sorry...
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This is wrong... This is wrong!
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Head nurse...
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Lena...
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Am I going after her?
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Is it as a Bookman successor? Or...
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Dammit!
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Lavi...
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Lavi!
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Hurry!
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Get it as far away from the gate as possible!
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You can't run from me, Chief.
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There are more humans
behind this, aren't there?
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I have to stop him... or everyone will...
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You can't even stand up
with those injuries.
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The central exit at the
Gate 3 hall is blocked now.
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Each section is now expected
to evacuate as instructed.
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Please go to Hevlaska, Chief!
Please protect Innocence!
**[12:17] ---**
Hm?
**[12:24] ---**
Where are you going, Chief?
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Hey! You need to evacuate!
**[12:31] ---**
How could I?!
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I-If Kanda-*san* is going,
then I'll go, too!
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If you get on it, I'll punish you.
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What?!
**[12:38] ---**
Hevlaska also has my Innocence right now.
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It wouldn't be funny if you
came back empty-handed.
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The barrier won't hold up that long, either.
**[12:47] ---**
When push comes to shove,
I'll be your shield.
**[12:49] ---**
Don't be ridiculous. I can't
waste your life span like that!
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Then try your best to escape
so that you won't cause me trouble.
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Hurry up, Komui. Collect the Innocence
and cube that are inside me!
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Also... Rouvelier is on
his way here with Lenalee.
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I'll ask Hevlaska to put my
Innocence inside my body.
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Descend!
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Please protect Innocence, Chief!
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I'll play with you, Chief.
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I'll give you just ten seconds.
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Ten...
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Ow...
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It stopped...
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I thought I'd die.
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The quake must've damaged it.
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Well, we were able to get farther than
I thought. From here, we'll take the stairs.
**[13:46] ---**
By the way, why are you here, Bookman Jr.?
**[13:51] ---**
Well...
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Hmph... Is it for what you call recording?
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Bookmen are hyenas that flock
to battlefields, aren't they?
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But, well, since it's an
agreement, do what you like.
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Thanks.
**[14:02] ---**
Lavi...
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I didn't come to stop you.
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If that's what you've decided,
then I can't say anything.
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But... let me go with you.
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Don't... Rouvelier!
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Hm? Is this Hevlaska?
**[14:17] ---**
Level 4 will be here soon.
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We don't have time to wait for Lenalee
and Innocence to properly synchronize.
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We just need a moment. All you need to do
is put Innocence inside her body.
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What?!
**[14:33] ---**
Don't get me wrong. This is
a request from Lenalee herself...
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...as she happened to know of
the experiments from the past.
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D-Don't be ridiculous! Lenalee is one
of my comrades. I can't do that.
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Comrades?
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This is an order, Hevlaska.
**[14:53] ---**
What about it is so different from what
you've been doing to your own family,
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obediently following orders
for the past hundred years?
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You're not a saint.
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You're a family killer.
**[15:18] ---**
This is an order, Hevlaska. Do it.
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Never mind that. Now, we need to hurry.
**[15:29] ---**
Malcolm C. Rouvelier...
**[15:32] ---**
Many of the high-ranking Central Agency
officials are from the Rouveliers.
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And among them, he's the head.
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The Rouveliers rapidly started gaining power
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around the time when the
Black Order was founded.
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There's a record that says
that one of their daughters
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was offered to God as a "saint" at that time.
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However, what happened to the girl
after that wasn't recorded anywhere.
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Since then, the Rouveliers' status
is guaranteed and, at the same time,
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they've had a "duty" imposed on them as
blood relatives of the "saint" for generations.
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There were experiments performed
on Accommodators' blood relatives
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until Komui became the Chief here.
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This "duty" was probably
providing the guinea pigs.
**[16:18] ---**
I can think of many ways
they used to pick these people.
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Their own family members...
For 100 years...
**[16:24] ---**
Director, what's your purpose in being here?
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What do you mean?
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I'm asking, why are you running right now?
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In order to defeat the Earl.
There's nothing else.
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Zero.
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That noise... came from above?!
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What was that noise?!
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Here it comes!
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Hevlaska!
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Big brother!
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Komui!
**[17:25] ---**
Big brother!
**[17:26] ---**
I'll go help them!
It may not be too late yet!
**[17:29] ---**
Hm? That's...
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Level 4!
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Be alive, Komui!
**[17:36] ---**
Big brother... Big brother!
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With the elevator like that, collecting
Innocence is no longer possible!
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Hevlaska! Put Innocence inside Lenalee!
**[17:48] ---**
Now!
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Chief...
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Komui...
**[17:55] ---**
Chief...
**[17:58] ---**
Shoot. The elevator is...
**[18:01] ---**
I wonder if it still works...
**[18:04] ---**
But from how it looks, it may not...
**[18:09] ---**
K-Kanda-*kun*! You got
hurt protecting me?!
**[18:11] ---**
Shut up. Don't make a fuss.
**[18:28] ---**
Chief, are you okay?
**[18:31] ---**
Yeah, thanks. Are you guys okay, too?
**[18:34] ---**
We are...
**[18:41] ---**
Komui! And Yu?!
**[18:44] ---**
Lavi?
**[18:45] ---**
Good! You're still alive!
**[18:47] ---**
Of course we are!
**[18:50] ---**
Lavi is here? Then that means...
**[18:56] ---**
Lenalee!
**[18:57] ---**
Are we done playing tag, Chief?
**[19:03] ---**
You can stay back, you know?
**[19:05] ---**
You're kidding me, right?
**[19:07] ---**
You're kidding me, right?
**[19:13] ---**
Now, Hevlaska. Put her
Innocence inside her body!
**[19:32] ---**
Lenalee...
**[19:35] ---**
I'll be okay.
**[19:36] ---**
I can get through this, Hevlaska.
**[19:40] ---**
I'm sorry, Komui.
**[19:43] ---**
Put it in her.
**[19:53] ---**
Hevlaska!
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Hevlaska! Hevlaska!
**[20:02] ---**
Oh, there are more humans.
What're you doing there?
**[20:08] ---**
Dammit...!
**[20:15] ---**
Lenalee...
**[20:17] ---**
Big brother...
**[20:23] ---**
Inno... cen... ce...
**[20:30] ---**
My sight is dimming...
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No... No...!
**[20:36] ---**
Please...
**[20:38] ---**
Please... The God I hate so much...
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Please return the power to me.
**[20:50] ---**
I've never desired Innocence
this strongly before.
**[21:06] ---**
*Just as a heart-shaped cloud
changes its shape*
**[21:17] ---**
*I will probably change, too*
**[21:25] ---**
*Just like the sun is still there
even though you can't see it after it sets*
**[21:36] ---**
*it's a dream that I cannot let go*
**[21:46] ---**
*I’ll show you that I can change
countless destinies*
**[21:58] ---**
*What exactly can I do now
with these two hands?*
**[22:07] ---**
*Reach out from inside*
**[22:28] ---**
Preview
**[22:30] ---**
Our last moment draws near.
**[22:33] ---**
Lenalee prays to God
yearning for Innocence.
**[22:36] ---**
Is her wish going to be granted after all?
**[22:41] ---**
On the next episode of *D.Gray-man*!
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"The Promise."
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Bring salvation to this poor Akuma's soul!
**[22:46] ---**
The Promise
**[22:49] ---**
*D.Gray* Bonus Theater
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Principal, I succeeded in
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infiltrating the class in question.
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