# 4 - People who do not respect themselves will not be respected by others
Source: [Crunchyroll](https://www.crunchyroll.com/series/G6DK9M29R/caligula)
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**[00:15] Akira**
Poor Smeagol.
**[00:19] Suzuna**
*Lord of the Rings*, right?
**[00:22] Akira**
Smeagol was captivated by the ring's power,
**[00:25] ---**
so he followed after Frodo and Sam,
**[00:27] ---**
ultimately losing his life
together with his precious ring.
**[00:31] Suzuna**
Why does that make him pitiful?
**[00:35] Akira**
Because he was isolated,
paranoid of the entire world
**[00:42] ---**
without respite or salvation.
***SIGN*** The Return of the King
**[00:53] Kotaro**
Hm?
**[00:55] Kotaro**
Suzuna?
**[02:30] Shogo**
You saw it. Everything about this world.
**[02:34] Ritsu**
Yeah. μ said she hadn't
created past that point.
**[02:39] Ritsu**
Which means...
**[02:40] Aria**
Yes, yes!
**[02:41] Aria**
As you've surmised,
this world was created by μ.
**[02:45] Aria**
I don't really remember how it started.
**[02:48] Aria**
Before I knew it, the two of us were
wandering the world of the internet.
***SIGN*** Don't wake me. Don't turn against me. Hate.
**[02:53] Aria**
That world was constantly overflowing
**[02:55] ---**
with the negative emotions of humanity.
***SIGN*** Close your eyes. Don't look at me. I'm pathetic. Fear.
**[02:59] Aria**
Everyone was expelling their
incredible suffering through song.
**[03:03] Aria**
It was so sad that it made our hearts ache.
**[03:09] Aria**
So we wanted everyone to be happy
***SIGN*** Fear. Don't stay with me. Get rid of your ideals. Screw your kindness.
**[03:12] ---**
and created a world where they
could forget all that pain.
***SIGN*** Don't wake me. Drown. Don't speak to me. Real me. Puppet. Isolation.
**[03:21] Aria**
That was how Mobius began.
**[03:23] Ritsu**
"Mobius"?
**[03:24] Shogo**
It's the name of this world.
**[03:26] Aria**
Many people suffering from
trauma in the real world
**[03:30] ---**
sought solace through μ's song.
**[03:33] Aria**
Then μ sealed all their
minds away here in Mobius.
**[03:39] Ritsu**
At some point, I started feeling slight
incongruities with this world.
**[03:43] Ritsu**
Then they started to become real, and one
day everything I saw was full of them.
**[03:47] Ritsu**
By repeating an ideal high school
life many times in this world,
**[03:52] ---**
we were suddenly able to realize it.
**[03:54] Shogo**
That's what the Musicians were after.
**[03:57] Ritsu**
"Musicians"?
**[03:58] Shogo**
They caused that incident
to sift out those like you
**[04:02] ---**
who started to sense incongruities.
**[04:04] Aria**
Mobius is founded on the energy
**[04:06] ---**
collected from the happy feelings
of those who listen to μ's songs.
**[04:10] Aria**
That's why it's problematic if
those like you grow in number.
**[04:15] Shogo**
So the Musicians are using Digiheads
to attack people like us.
**[04:20] Ritsu**
"Digiheads"?
**[04:23] Ritsu**
Those people with the masks?
**[04:25] Aria**
The Musicians use μ's
power to cause the dark,
**[04:28] ---**
insuppressible emotions within
their hearts to explode,
**[04:33] ---**
creating the Digiheads.
**[04:35] Shogo**
Those fanatical believers in μ
**[04:38] ---**
then target those like you
who have noticed the truth,
**[04:41] ---**
and they attempt to restore you
to the state of unawareness.
**[04:45] Ritsu**
You mean...
**[04:47] Shogo**
Brainwashing.
**[04:51] Ritsu**
My family and even my pet took on a
strange appearance. What was that?
**[04:56] Aria**
Those are just bits of data created by μ
to make this world as real as possible.
**[05:02] Aria**
Once someone notices, the same way you all have,
**[05:04] Aria**
that someone also realizes they aren't alive.
**[05:09] Ritsu**
So there are those who want
to protect this world.
**[05:12] Ritsu**
And to them, all of us are...
**[05:18] Shogo**
With the help of Aria,
**[05:21] ---**
I managed to activate this Catharsis Effect.
**[05:24] Ritsu**
Catharsis... A release of repressed emotions.
**[05:29] Aria**
A Catharsis Effect resembles the Digiheads'
power, but it's completely different.
**[05:33] Aria**
It's a weapon controlled by exposing
**[05:36] ---**
negative emotions hidden within oneself.
**[05:41] Ritsu**
Can I use that power, too?
**[05:44] Aria**
Huh?
**[05:45] Aria**
Hmm, you might not be ready yet.
**[05:50] Shogo**
As long as they continue to resort
to any means to protect Mobius,
**[05:54] ---**
I'll continue fighting them.
**[05:57] Shogo**
Because I want to escape from this world.
**[06:00] Aria**
Ritsu!
**[06:01] Aria**
Please! Help us save μ!
**[06:05] Aria**
μ's desire to make everyone happy is too strong.
**[06:09] Aria**
She believes they'll be much happier here
in Mobius than in their harsh daily lives.
**[06:14] Aria**
She genuinely believes that!
**[06:16] Aria**
The stronger μ's power grows,
**[06:19] ---**
the less I'll be able to do, and
the smaller my form will grow.
**[06:25] Aria**
My memory data is already fuzzy.
**[06:28] Aria**
I can't stop μ on my own.
**[06:31] Aria**
So please, Ritsu!
**[06:33] Aria**
Help us!
**[06:35] Ritsu**
How exactly?
**[06:38] Aria**
We'll figure that out together, okay?!
**[06:40] Ritsu**
Huh?! You mean you have no plan?!
**[06:43] Shogo**
We're not completely without ideas.
**[06:45] [Messenger] Screen**
Let's blow the horn on
this world full of static!
Recruiting Band Members!!
Band Name: Guns & Bouquets
**[06:46] Shogo**
They've grown more active since that
incident at the entrance ceremony.
**[06:50] Shogo**
I hope we can reach as many as possible.
**[06:51] [Messenger] Screen**
About my time at SweetP's Tea Party
I thought SweetP's Tea Party would be
dreamy-cute, but it was crazy grotesque.
What, what? Details!
**[06:53] Naruko**
Oh, the Crescent Moon Tea Party Report
is trending well, getting attention.
**[06:58] Mifue**
She really uploaded it.
**[06:59] Naruko**
Hmm, "Spirited Away? My Friend
Went Missing" is a flop.
**[07:07] Mifue**
Hey, is that tweet...
**[07:10] Naruko**
Ohh, it's a shocking fact, isn't it?
**[07:13] ---**
The fighter was more than just a fighter!
**[07:15] Naruko**
It would be a regrettable shame
not to upload this huge scoop!
**[07:19] Mifue**
I don't mean that.
**[07:21] Mifue**
I'm sure that...
**[07:24] Mifue**
It means they might help us.
**[07:29] Naruko**
Then, let's go!
**[07:30] Mifue**
Huh?
**[07:31] Naruko**
It sounds interesting, right?
**[07:42] Suzuna**
Jules Verne, Michael Ende,
Diana Wynne Jones...
***SIGN*** Momo
***SIGN*** From the Earth to the Moon
***SIGN*** Cart and Cwidder
**[07:48] Akira**
They looked like ones you'd like.
**[07:50] Suzuna**
Thanks.
**[08:03] Suzuna**
About what we were discussing earlier...
**[08:05] Suzuna**
I don't think Smeagol's life is that tragic.
**[08:09] Suzuna**
He manages to obtain the ring
he loved more than anything,
**[08:12] ---**
and he's happy when he loses his life.
**[08:16] Suzuna**
That's plenty, isn't it?
**[08:22] Akira**
How many people actually
understand their true desires?
**[08:27] Suzuna**
Smeagol was honest with himself.
**[08:32] Akira**
That's what you think?
**[08:33] Suzuna**
His whole life was about obtaining
and keeping his precious.
**[08:39] Akira**
That's so pitiful.
**[08:42] Akira**
I can't imagine his soul found salvation.
**[08:47] Suzuna**
But...
**[08:49] Suzuna**
That was why he had to rely on the ring.
**[08:52] Akira**
The ring was never going to save him.
**[08:55] Akira**
The only thing that would have freed him
from his incredible isolation was...
**[08:59] Suzuna**
Are you saying he chased after the ring
**[09:02] ---**
because he wanted Frodo and
Sam to pay attention to him?
**[09:05] Akira**
That's one interpretation.
**[09:07] Suzuna**
That's impossible.
**[09:09] Suzuna**
It was futile. There's no way
they would've joined him.
**[09:19] Akira**
Even so, people often
dream of the unachievable.
**[09:24] Aria**
H-Hey...
**[09:24] Mifue**
She's so small.
**[09:25] Naruko**
What a huge scoop!
**[09:27] Naruko**
Fairies are real!
**[09:28] Naruko**
I bet this'll get comments!
**[09:30] Mifue**
Naruko-sempai, this girl feels like
strawberry daifuku when I touch her.
**[09:34] Naruko**
Hmm, hmm, so fairies feel
like daifuku to the touch.
**[09:40] Aria**
Ahh, no!
**[09:41] Aria**
If you hold me any tighter, strawberries
will come out! Strawberries!
**[09:49] Ritsu**
What's this "Let's blow the horn on
this world full of static!" about?
**[09:55] Shogo**
I'm glad you deciphered this
difficult secret message.
**[09:57] Naruko**
No, no, no.
**[09:58] Naruko**
The visuals matched your own perfectly.
***SIGN*** Guns & Bouquets
**[10:01] Naruko**
And this isn't a secret message.
**[10:03] Naruko**
Plus the style's damn old.
**[10:05] Mifue**
This is the only place I could
think of that might have a horn.
**[10:10] Naruko**
And when you talk about music, you think DTM.
**[10:12] Aria**
Of course! You all loved μ's music
back in the real world, after all.
**[10:18] Mifue**
We all liked μ's music.
**[10:21] Mifue**
Then does that mean the Musicians are
fans of μ from the real world, too?
**[10:26] Aria**
Yes. Just like you,
**[10:29] ---**
they're people who carried deep darkness
within their hearts back in the real world.
**[10:35] Ritsu**
The real world?
**[10:37] Shogo**
What's wrong?
**[10:40] Kotaro**
Is the guy with a gun and flowers here?
**[10:42] Aria**
Another one's here.
**[10:43] Kotaro**
I can't reach my friend
who went to the library!
**[10:46] Kotaro**
Help me!
**[10:48] Shogo**
What's this all of a sudden?
Start from the beginning—
**[10:50] Naruko**
You talking about this?
***SIGN*** Probably just ran away from home.
She's probably just being ostracized.
Oh, thanks for the reply.
**[10:54] Kotaro**
Spirited Away in the Library?
**[10:56] Kotaro**
Th-This is bad!
***SIGN*** People who do not respect themselves will not be respected by others.
**[11:25] (Flashback) Girl**
Hey, hey, is that choir-club
girl alone again?
**[11:28] (Flashback) Girl**
They call that having a toilet lunch.
**[11:30] (Flashback) Girl**
So lonely!
***SIGN*** The Loreli
**[11:48] Akira**
What are you listening to?
**[11:50] Suzuna**
Oh...
**[11:53] ---**
Want to listen?
**[12:10] Akira**
This is nice.
**[12:12] Suzuna**
It's "The Lorelei."
**[12:14] Akira**
Heine's poems?
**[12:16] Suzuna**
Yes.
**[12:17] Akira**
Seducing me with song? How troublesome.
**[12:21] Suzuna**
"I know not if there is a reason,
why I am so sad at heart."
**[12:26] Suzuna**
Even though he knows it's dangerous,
**[12:28] ---**
the boatman cannot help but be
charmed by the singing voice.
**[12:32] Suzuna**
I didn't really understand back when
I would sing it in choir, but...
**[12:37] Akira**
I'd love to hear.
**[12:40] Akira**
I'm sure you have a wonderful singing voice.
**[12:43] Suzuna**
N-N-N-No way!
**[12:45] Akira**
Why not?
**[12:50] Suzuna**
Because...
**[12:52] Suzuna**
I can't sing out loud in front
of others right now.
**[12:56] Shogo**
So that girl's in here?
**[12:59] Kotaro**
She should be.
**[13:01] Kotaro**
Damn it. If only I hadn't
left Suzuna alone back then!
**[13:04] Aria**
Talking about those regrets
won't get you anywhere!
**[13:07] Aria**
How can you save your friend like that?!
**[13:10] Kotaro**
Shut up!
**[13:11] Kotaro**
Be quiet, virtuadoll!
**[13:13] Kotaro**
You're probably on μ's side anyway!
**[13:15] Aria**
What? I'm saying this
out of kindness for you!
**[13:18] Kotaro**
As if I'm going to believe
a pipsqueak like you!
**[13:20] Aria**
You might be big, but your heart sure isn't!
**[13:23] Aria**
You cowardly pipsqueak!
**[13:26] Kotaro**
I'm not a pipsqueak!
**[13:29] Ritsu**
His biases are strong, huh?
**[13:32] Ritsu**
His confirmation bias might
be stronger than most others.
**[13:34] Ritsu**
It gives him a tendency to be
hasty and charge in headfirst.
**[13:38] Kotaro**
Enough chitchat!
**[13:39] Kotaro**
Wait for me, Suzuna!
**[13:42] Shogo**
The "charging in headfirst" seems accurate.
**[13:45] Akira**
I think Lorelei and Smeagol
have things in common.
**[13:49] Akira**
In growing too accustomed to isolation,
**[13:51] ---**
they forget how to interact with others.
**[13:54] Suzuna**
But sometimes it's just easier that way.
**[14:01] Kotaro**
Damn it!
**[14:02] Kotaro**
She's not picking up!
**[14:03] Aria**
Maybe she's just annoyed with
you for being such a nuisance.
**[14:07] Kotaro**
Huh?!
**[14:08] Kotaro**
What the hell did you say?!
**[14:10] Ritsu**
There's a chance she's not picking up
her phone because she's in a library.
**[14:13] Ritsu**
Let's start by calming down.
**[14:14] Kotaro**
Suzuna!
**[14:15] Kotaro**
Suzuna, where are you?!
**[14:16] Shogo**
He's honest to his desires, at least.
**[14:19] Aria**
That's about all there is to him.
**[14:19] Kotaro**
Suzuna?!
**[14:21] Kotaro**
Suzuna!
***SIGN*** Good-bye to Moscow Hoodlums
**[14:24] Akira**
It's true that isolation can feel comforting.
**[14:27] Akira**
You can get lost in your own world
without facing harm from others.
**[14:32] Suzuna**
That means living a life
befitting oneself, right?
**[14:37] Kotaro**
Answer me! Suzuna!
**[14:39] Aria**
Be quiet in the library!
**[14:41] Kotaro**
Like I care!
**[14:43] Ritsu**
He's causing such a commotion,
yet it's as though...
**[14:48] Suzuna**
Otherwise you desire more
than what's fitting.
**[14:51] Suzuna**
Dreaming is just pointless by itself.
**[14:53] Suzuna**
It only gets you hurt even worse.
**[14:55] Akira**
But what if you find someone
who understands you?
**[14:59] Kotaro**
No!
**[15:01] Kotaro**
No!
**[15:02] Kotaro**
Suzuna!
**[15:04] Akira**
Suzuna.
**[15:06] Akira**
You understand it, too, don't you?
**[15:08] Kotaro**
No!
**[15:09] Kotaro**
Where are you, Suzuna?!
**[15:16] Kotaro**
I'll...
**[15:18] Kotaro**
I'll save you!
**[15:22] Kotaro**
Everyone, lend me your help!
**[15:27] Aria**
You...
**[15:29] Aria**
Oh, well.
**[15:31] Aria**
Now, let's go!
**[15:33] Kotaro**
Y-Yeah!
**[15:34] Shogo**
How much have you searched?
**[15:36] Kotaro**
I went around all the rooms on the
second floor. Not the third...
**[15:41] Akira**
Smeagol and Lorelei shared
those same feelings.
**[15:46] Akira**
I can understand those feelings, too.
**[15:48] Akira**
I'm sure you're able to as well, Suzuna.
**[15:53] Suzuna**
I wanted them to pay attention to me.
**[15:58] Akira**
Who?
**[16:02] Akira**
Tell me, Suzuna.
**[16:05] Kotaro**
Suzuna!
**[16:08] Kotaro**
I finally found you!
**[16:10] Suzuna**
Sempai?
**[16:12] Suzuna**
What are you doing here?
**[16:14] Suzuna**
Oh, Komori-kun, umm, this is Kotaro-sempai.
**[16:19] Suzuna**
That's right. He's my upperclassman
at Kishimai High School.
**[16:23] Suzuna**
Yes, I know.
**[16:26] Suzuna**
Please hold on a moment. I'll be quick.
**[16:28] Kotaro**
Hey.
**[16:30] Kotaro**
What are you talking to?
**[16:32] Suzuna**
Huh?
**[16:34] Suzuna**
What am I...
**[16:46] Ritsu**
A doll?
**[16:47] Ritsu**
This one, too?
**[16:48] Ritsu**
This one as well?!
**[16:50] Ritsu**
All the dolls here are those
who were spirited away.
**[16:56] Ritsu**
Is that Minezawa from my class?
**[17:02] Suzuna**
No way. It can't be.
**[17:06] Suzuna**
Komori-kun?
**[17:08] Shogo**
We still don't know what's here.
**[17:09] Kotaro**
Suzuna, we're leaving.
**[17:11] Suzuna**
Why? How is this happening?
**[17:13] Kotaro**
Come on, can you walk?
**[17:14] Suzuna**
Komori-kun, we...
**[17:16] Kotaro**
Oh, well.
**[17:20] Kotaro**
What? You!
**[17:32] Ritsu**
That's...
**[17:33] Ritsu**
A Musician?
**[17:35] Kotaro**
I knew it!
**[17:36] Kotaro**
Even you would betray me, too?
**[17:43] Doll**
Kagura Suzuna!
**[17:44] Song**
*Don't speak to me.*
**[17:47] Doll**
I understand!
**[17:47] Song**
*I sealed my mouth shut.*
**[17:48] Doll**
That being alone can mean happiness.
**[17:50] Song**
*Don't smile at me.*
**[17:51] Doll**
Yet still, I...
**[17:53] Shogo**
Even his real body is a doll?
**[17:53] Song**
*I've hidden my face.*
**[17:55] Aria**
I can't believe he purposefully
chose that body in Mobius.
**[17:58] Suzuna**
Komori-kun, listen, I...
**[17:59] Song**
*Let's perform a song of salvation, shall we?*
**[18:01] Kotaro**
Idiot! He's dangerous, Suzuna!
**[18:03] Doll**
You normies...
**[18:05] Song**
* It's the perfect song*
* for the blind like you.*
**[18:06] Doll**
You couldn't even make it this
far without forming a pack.
**[18:09] Doll**
I won't forgive you!
**[18:10] Song**
*The phrase is constantly repeating,*
**[18:10] Song**
I won't forgive you!
**[18:11] Song**
I'll never forgive you!
**[18:13] ---**
Look out!
**[18:16] Song**
*as if it's trying to make you stop thinking.*
**[18:20] Doll**
Trash like you who form huge groups and
gang up on others will face my punishment.
**[18:21] Song**
* I'm buried in isolation,*
* protecting this world.*
**[18:26] Doll**
I'll turn you into a doll so you
can never disgrace me again!
**[18:27] Song**
* I won't let anyone touch*
* this precious place.*
**[18:30] Aria**
Kotaro!
**[18:33] Ritsu**
Are you that afraid of being hurt?
**[18:33] Song**
*Don't look! Don't look at me!*
**[18:38] Ritsu**
You've taken that form and isolated
yourself here in the library,
**[18:38] Song**
* I'm not here. I'm not here.*
* Don't look me in the eye!*
**[18:42] ---**
because you're afraid of
interacting with others, right?
**[18:45] Ritsu**
But you couldn't beat the loneliness.
**[18:47] Ritsu**
So you turned everyone into
dolls to keep by your side,
**[18:51] ---**
and approached that girl as a doll.
**[18:54] Song**
*I don't need your kindness.*
**[18:54] Ritsu**
To avoid wounding your own heart.
**[18:57] Song**
*It'll just make me more pathetic.*
**[18:58] Doll**
Be quiet!
**[18:59] Song**
*There is no justice—*
**[19:00] Suzuna**
Hold on!
**[19:03] Doll**
What...
**[19:05] Doll**
What are you doing?
**[19:11] Song**
*I know not if there is a reason,*
**[19:18] Song**
*why I am so sad at heart.*
**[19:25] Song**
*A legend of bygone ages*
**[19:33] Song**
*haunts me and will not depart.*
**[19:40] Song**
*The air is cool under nightfall.*
**[19:41] Suzuna**
You were always alone.
**[19:47] Song**
*The calm Rhine courses its way.*
**[19:48] Suzuna**
Even in this world, that didn't change.
**[19:52] Suzuna**
So you gave up.
**[19:54] Song**
*The peak of the mountain is sparkling*
**[19:55] Suzuna**
But...
**[19:58] ---**
You also told me, Komori-kun,
**[20:00] Suzuna**
that Smeagol wanted Frodo and
Sam to pay attention to him.
**[20:02] Song**
*With evening's final ray.*
**[20:05] Suzuna**
I understand.
**[20:08] Suzuna**
We're very similar, so I
understand it painfully well.
**[20:12] Suzuna**
You were always hurting.
**[20:15] Suzuna**
You wanted to escape your isolation.
**[20:17] Suzuna**
You wanted someone to pay attention to you!
**[20:19] Suzuna**
Anyone!
**[20:20] Suzuna**
And I want to get to know
you better, Komori-kun!
**[20:26] Suzuna**
So...
**[20:28] Suzuna**
So, will you eat lunch together with me?
**[20:40] Akira**
You can sing out loud after all.
**[20:44] Kotaro**
Huh?
**[20:57] Suzuna**
Komori-kun...
**[20:59] Doll**
My name is Shounen Doll.
**[21:03] Doll**
The one who will guide you
all down the right path.
**[21:13] Suzuna**
I'm sorry for making you worry.
**[21:17] Kotaro**
It's fine. I'm glad you're safe.
**[21:19] Aria**
Welcome, Suzuna. We're glad to have you!
**[21:22] Suzuna**
I'm glad to be with you.
**[21:24] Aria**
Now, now, relax.
**[21:26] Aria**
If there's anything you don't
understand, just ask, okay?
**[21:34] μ**
Hmm?
**[21:35] μ**
Why do they all dislike this world?
**[21:39] Mirei**
Perhaps it's lacking in charm.
**[21:42] Mirei**
I'll teach you.
**[21:45] Mirei**
I'll show you who the most noble
and charming one in this world is!
***SIGN*** Everyone gets hurt.
***SIGN*** Everyone gets hurt. But those who don't realize they're hurting can't be healed.
**[23:29] ---**
But those who don't realize
they're hurting can't be healed.
***SIGN*** Gah!
***SIGN*** He stole my Caligula aphorism!
***SIGN*** Listen... I prefer your Caligula aphorisms.
***SIGN*** Guki-chan...