# 5 - As If Begging for Tears
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EPISODE 5:
AS IF BEGGING FOR TEARS
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*All I've known is that I wanted
to become stronger...*
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*and that I was going to die
after giving birth.*
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*I don't know any other way to live.*
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*I have no idea how I should live my life now!*
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*So...*
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*I'm okay with this.*
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*Damn!*
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*I was going to toss you
into an orphanage.*
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*That bastard, Mephisto...*
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*"Take care of her until a spot opens up."
What the hell am I supposed to do?*
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*So, you and I can be together for always?*
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*Only until a spot
in the orphanage opens up!*
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*I'm going to pass you off as my apprentice.*
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*Make sure you stay out of my way!*
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*Sure...*
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*my dear husband.*
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*Oh!*
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*I may be free now...*
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*but how am I supposed to live?*
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*Shiro!*
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*Shura...*
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*Father is calling for you.*
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*Huh?*
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*What?*
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*But I'm busy right now.*
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*I think it would be better
for you if you went.*
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*Excuse me.*
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*Not an ounce of charm, huh, little twerp?*
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*Look...*
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*I hear that you've been going out
with one brawny guy after another.*
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*At least try to look out for yourself.*
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*The rumors are flying.*
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*Huh? Well, that's because
you won't go out with me, Shiro!*
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*Jeez, not that topic again!
What a pain!*
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*Oh, listen to you.*
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*Come on now, I'll let you touch them!*
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*Hey, cut it out.*
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*That woman's not around anymore,
so can't you humor me a little?*
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*Shura, live your life right.*
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*I mean, you're going to live
for at least another ten years.*
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*Become an exorcist so you can earn a living.*
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*You're at the age...*
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*when you're finally about to be kicked
out of the cram school and dorm, right?*
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*What's up with that?*
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*I don't need to hear a lecture from you,
acting like my mentor, got that?*
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*You've changed, Shiro.*
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*Since you started raising
that woman's kids, I guess.*
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*That's not why!*
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*It's because I got old and feeble!*
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*When you're an old fart,
you start lecturing youngsters!*
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*But you abandoned me!*
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*Stop it! I don't want to see you
old, feeble and all weak!*
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*"Live your life right"?
Don't make me laugh!*
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*I'm going to die anyway,
so what's the point in living my life right?*
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*That's why I'm doing
whatever I damn please!*
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*In the first place,
I don't even know why I'm alive.*
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*Don't say complex things like that.*
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*Don't make it complex.*
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*Eat, sleep, work,
make friends, start a family...*
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*raise kids, get old...*
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*Fear death.*
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*That's how... you should just live
until the day you die.*
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*Live, Shura.*
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*All you have to do is just live.*
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*Is it all right...*
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*for me to just live, too?*
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Th-These flames!
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*Rin!*
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The Exorcist Brothers, Rin and Yukio...
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have arrived!
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To be honest, I don't know
if I can take on this giant thing,
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but I'm going to push myself
to the limit and try!
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So, Shura, come back
under your own power!
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*Satan Bomb!*
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Curses!
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You little brats!
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*Campfire!*
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*So warm.*
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*His control of the burn is perfect.*
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*You've come a long way...*
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*Rin.*
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As usual, what a horrendous name
for an attack!
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Shura was the one who thought of it.
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Shura!
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*Next, do the one
that makes things explode.*
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*Hmm...*
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*"Satan Bomb," I guess.*
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*Totally lame!*
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*Next! The one where you stab
your sword and burn 'em up.*
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*Come on, give me a break!*
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*Hey, I got a rare flash of intuition.*
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*"Satan... Campfire."*
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*Enough already!*
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*It's embarrassing enough to have to come up
with attacks, but you're giving them random names!*
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*At least give me some names
that use kanji characters and sound cool!*
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*Huh? But you can't read kanji, remember?*
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*I sure as hell can!*
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*Oh, but please make sure
they're not complicated.*
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*You know what?*
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*There's actually a point
to thinking up attack names.*
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*To name each and every move
you found effective in all your battles until now...*
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*and to call for them
by their proper names.*
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*That's what an attack name is.*
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*If you can link the moves and the names
in your head and manage them...*
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*you'll find yourself at the mercy
of your flames a lot less.*
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*Oh...*
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SATAN CAMPFIRE
SATAN BOMB
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*Attack names are...*
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*the same as the Death Verses that Arias chant.*
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*By chanting a Death Verse, an Aria can focus
on how he's going to kill a demon.*
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*And ideally, those names
should be simple and easy to remember.*
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*Especially for guys like you.*
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*Sorry for saying you were being random.*
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*You were giving it a lot of thought, huh?*
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*Huh? The attack names are random.*
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*I knew it!*
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*Never mind that, okay?*
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*I'm going to drill you
until your body learns those attacks.*
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*Shura...*
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*Shura!*
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*Come back!*
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Tatsuko?
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Where are you going?
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Tatsuko!
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*Hachiro...*
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*I'm sorry. I...*
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*The truth is...*
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Tatsuko!
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Are you betraying us?
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Tatsuko!
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We'll never forgive you!
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This hair of yours...
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and your torso...
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and your arms, your legs, your teeth,
your eyeballs and your nails...
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Every part of you...
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belongs to us!
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Hachirotaro's regenerative power...
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is about to overpower your flames?
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Rin!
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I-It's no good! Just as I thought,
it's not enough firepower!
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Shura!
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There she is!
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Oh no, Ms. Kirigakure!
Look what's become of her!
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Shima! Now that it's come to this,
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we're going to rescue Shura before Rin's power
is depleted, and get away from here!
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Huh?
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I'd like you to summon Yamantaka and sever
that tongue that's got Shura in its clutches!
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What? That's going to be so much work for me!
What about you, Mr. Okumura?
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I'm going to catch Shura when she falls.
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What's up with that? No fair!
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I'd rather do that myself!
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Unlike you and Rin,
I don't have your physical abilities.
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And I don't have a pact with a demon.
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But to make up for that...
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I'll cover you!
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Rin!
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Hang on just a little longer!
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Right.
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Watch your backs!
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Mr. Okumura, don't you think
you're being more aggressive than usual?
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I thought you were against reckless adventures!
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*I...*
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*don't like that person!*
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*She has talent, but she's so flaky
and never takes things seriously!*
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*Hey, don't be so narrow-minded about her.*
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*She may seem flaky, but she could actually
be thinking about all sorts of things, you know.*
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*No way am I going to let you die!*
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What are those guys doing? Morons!
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Stay away!
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You care about them?
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Hachiro...
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D-Don't do it!
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Shima! Behind you!
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Shima!
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Yukio! Shima!
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Hachiro! Don't lay a hand on those kids!
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I owe this one some payback!
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I'm going to kill him before your eyes!
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Wha...
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Yukio!
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Hachiro...
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I've made up my mind.
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I don't need you anymore!
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I'm going to live!
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Living my life as if I were already dead!
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Today's the last day for that!
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That's right.
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It's over...
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Hachiro!
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N-N-No!
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T-Tatsuko!
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Tatsuko!
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In the first place...
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she's not Tatsuko!
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What?
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She's Shura...
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Kirigakure!
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As if anyone could...
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ever understand...
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this suffering!
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How those in the eternal world
yearn for the mortal world!
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Though we yearn for it...
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we can never have it!
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This suffering!
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No, one day you'll understand.
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Even the one...
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who exists between the eternal world...
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and the mortal world!
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It's inevitable!
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Rin!
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What happened...
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to the snake?
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Huh?
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Hachiro...
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He fled?
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After having repeated the cycle
of physical destruction and regeneration,
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his mind might've also regressed.
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I see.
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Hey...
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Would you mind letting him get away?
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What?
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It's going to take a long time for him
to regain his previous form...
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and they're going to start
surveilling him right away.
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It can be just for a little while.
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*Hachiro...*
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*Right now, it's still cold...*
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*but...*
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*spring is sure to come.*
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*And now...*
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*you, too...*
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*can finally be free.*
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Oh, I got blasted away midway through,
so I was out cold for a while.
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Sorry about that.
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Yes.
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Yes.
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Right, talk to you later!
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Huh?
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You guys!
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Shima! So, you're okay?
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Yes, somehow!
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So, where's Hachirotaro?
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Oh, we let him get away.
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Huh?
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Well, it's just for a short time,
so no biggie.
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I mean, he's just going to get found
and put under surveillance, right?
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And he's pretty tiny now, too.
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Searching for tiny things is a lot of work!
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Hey, by the way, where's Ms. Kirigakure?
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Huh?
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Ms. Kirigakure's hair!
She's the second one after Bon!
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What happened, exactly?
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Please let her be for a while.
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So much happened to her at once
that I think she's still in turmoil.
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Ms. Kirigakure...
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Man, what a relief!
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- Huh?
- Huh?
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Now there's nothing that can bind me!
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Clean slate! I'm going to start fresh!
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My hair's nice and cropped,
which is perfect, huh?
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That hairstyle looks good on you.
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You think it makes me
look like a boy, don't you?
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No, it looks fine.
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You seducing me? Huh! Damn you!
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Come to think of it, what did you say?
"I'll be kind to you," was it?
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Come on, that was just—
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I'll bet you're no stranger
to that kind of thing, huh?
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I would love to go up against you,
my playboy four-eyed teacher!
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Come on, come on, come on!
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I told you, that was just me acting!
Didn't I already apologize to you?
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Also, I'm injured, okay?
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Oh, sorry, Mr. Playboy Four-Eyes!
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Cut it out!
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Hey, can you really afford to laugh?
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You said you were going to become
a Paladin, right?
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Uh...
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You can bet I'm going to see that
through to the end!
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Oh my, what's the matter?
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After that huge show of bravado,
are you regretting it now?
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Nope.
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Bring it on!
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Rin...
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Yukio...
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Thanks, guys.
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I never thought this day would come.
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It's all thanks to you two.
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I'm so glad for you.
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It was our mission,
so we did our jobs, nothing more.
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*Shiro...*
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*If something happens to me,*
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*could you teach those kids under
my guardianship how to wield a sword?*
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*You're the only one I can ask.*
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*But you abandoned me!*
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*You've always been so cruel!*
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*This is Yukio.*
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*I-I'm Yukio Okumura.*
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*He's starting the Exorcism Cram School today.
Look after him, will you?*
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*Huh?*
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*I'm counting on you!*
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*Why should I have to?*
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*As if I'd look after him!*
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*You know what kind of person
I am, don't you?*
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*Right.*
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*I know that very well.*
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*Always looking at me as if he could see
right through me about everything.*
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*Surely...*
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*he didn't see through this, too, did he?*
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*So annoying.*
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No fair! Hug me, too, Ms. Kirigakure!
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It's the backup unit!
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Most likely, there's no damage
to the organs...
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but your upper left chest and forearm,
as well as your ribs, are broken.
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Please undergo surgery
at the hospital right away.
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Thank you very much.
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Are you disappointed?
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If only Rin had stabbed
Hachiro's stomach a little later...
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you would've acquired an immortal body
and Hachirotaro's divine powers, right?
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How long have you been watching me?
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For quite a while, you know.
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Being that I'm a spy.
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Really, that "I will do all that I can to make sure
she's impregnated" was such a masterpiece!
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I came this close to laughing
and blowing my cover!
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Like I said, that was just me acting.
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Oh, you don't say?
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When you lie, you base it on truth.
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Isn't that how the theory goes?
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What are you trying to say?
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Whoa, so scary!
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Either way, in the shape you're in now, you can't
engage in that dangerous, suicidal training, right?
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*So, he's the informant?*
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I warned you before,
but if you're going to do something like that,
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it'd be in your own best interest
to get on with it and consult somebody.
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Or would you like to come? To the Illuminati?
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All right, Mr. Okumura, for now, take care!
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Yukio!
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AOMORI
YUMMY
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What happened?
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Hey! Yukio's awake!
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Rin...
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This is True Cross General Hospital.
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We used the key to come back right after.
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They've already operated on you.
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They say that along with rehab, it'll take
two months for you to make a full recovery.
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Two months...
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Just think of it as a break and take it easy.
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Once you're well again, you can train
or test your strength or whatever.
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There you go!
Have some apples from Aomori!
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Hang in there, Yukio!
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Right.
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YUKIO
OKUMURA
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I'm gonna email everyone that Yukio's alive!
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Rin...
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Huh?
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Did you see Yukio that day when...
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What is it? Is something
the matter with Yukio?
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No.
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Never mind.
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Oh man, I wish I could've had
more time to enjoy Aomori!
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*I guess there's no need to...*
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*just yet.*
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TRUE CROSS GENERAL HOSPITAL
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*I'm no good.*
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*I just don't have time
for anything but myself,*
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*so I can't see
what's around me!*
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*You are weak.*
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*Your soul isn't that strong, either.*
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*I can't go on like this!*
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*I need a broader vision!*
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NEXT TIME
AWAKENING