8 - I Don’t Want to Be Anyone but Myself

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[00:01] Anne
    I decided that it was my
    ambition to be a teacher.
[00:06] Anne
    That very day, Matthew fell
    down clutching at his heart.
[00:12] Anne
    Though, to my great relief,
    no lasting harm came of it.
[00:18] Lynde
    And how has Matthew been since?
[00:21] Marilla
    He had a bad spell, but he's
    all right again now.
[00:26] Lynde
    I'm glad to hear it.
[00:28] Marilla
    The doctor says he must be
    careful to avoid excitement.
[00:32] Marilla
    That's easy enough, for Matthew doesn't go
     about looking for excitement by any means.
[00:37] Lynde
    That he doesn't.
[00:39] Marilla
    But he's not to do any
    very heavy work either
[00:42] Marilla
    and you might as well tell Matthew
    not to breathe as not to work.
[00:48] Lynde
    And so you hired the boy?
[00:51] Marilla
    Yes. His name's Jerry Buote.
[00:54] Marilla
    We hired him to help with the heavy work.
[00:57] Lynde
    That does sound helpful.
[01:00] Anne
    Marilla, where is today's paper?!
[01:02] Marilla
    It's right there.
[01:06] Marilla
    What has you in such a hurry?
[01:09] Anne
    The pass list for Queen's is out.
[01:12] Anne
    M-My name isn't on it!
[01:16] Anne
    And Gilbert came first?
[01:19] Anne
    No...
[01:20] Anne
    I... I don't believe it!
[01:25] Anne
    No!
[01:35] Stacy
    That's enough, class.
[01:38] Stacy
    It sounds as though one of
    us is too hungry to go on.
[01:43] Stacy
    Why don't we break for lunch?
SIGN    Chapter 8
SIGN    I Don't Want to Be
    Anyone but Myself
[03:27] Diana
    Whatever did you doze off in class for?
[03:30] Diana
    It hardly sounds like you.
[03:32] Anne
    I had a dream that
    I flunked the Entrance.
[03:35] Diana
    Oh, dear.
[03:36] Stacy
    I can see you're wearing yourself out.
[03:39] Anne
    Miss Stacy.
[03:40] Stacy
    The exams are not till next
    summer, a long time off yet.
[03:45] Stacy
    Your head will burst if you cram it
    too full, and I wouldn't want that!
[03:52] Stacy
    Remember, learning should be fun.
[03:55] Anne
    Yes, Miss Stacy.
[03:59] Anne
    It was a jolly, busy, happy
    swift-flying winter.
[04:04] Anne
    Then came spring, and with
    it my fifteenth year.
[04:13] Anne
    Here.
[04:14] Marilla
    Th-Thank you.
[04:25] Matthew
    Jerry's a great help.
    He does whatever's needed.
[04:31] Matthew
    Marilla, what's come over you?
[04:35] Marilla
    I was thinking about Anne.
[04:38] Marilla
    She's got to be such a big girl.
[04:41] Matthew
    She has, hasn't she?
[04:44] Marilla
    And she'll probably be
    away from us next winter.
[04:50] Matthew
    She'll be able to come home often.
[04:54] Matthew
    The branch railroad will be
    built to Carmody by that time.
[05:02] Marilla
    I suppose so.
[05:09] Marilla
    You don't chatter half
    as much as you used to,
[05:14] Marilla
    Anne, nor use half as many big words.
[05:18] Marilla
    What has come over you?
[05:21] Anne
    I don't know—I don't
    want to talk as much.
[05:25] Anne
    It's almost a pity, isn't it,
[05:27] Anne
    now that I'm really growing big enough
    to say big words if I did want to.
[05:31] Anne
    It's fun to be almost
    grown up in some ways,
[05:35] Anne
    but there's so much to learn and do and
    think that there isn't time for big words.
[05:42] Marilla
    Do you think you'll be able
    to get through the Entrance?
[05:45] Anne
    I'm enjoying my studies.
[05:48] Anne
    But it haunts me.
[05:52] Anne
    Sometimes I wake up in the night and
    wonder what I'll do if I don't pass.
[05:57] Anne
    If I don't get through, I will never recover
    sufficiently to enjoy another spring.
[06:04] Marilla
    Why, go to school next year and try again.
[06:08] Anne
    Oh, I don't believe
     I'd have the heart for it.
[06:11] Anne
    It would be such a disgrace to
    fail, especially if Gil—
[06:16] Anne
    if the others passed.
[06:23] Anne
    Weren't Miss Stacy's
    farewell words wonderful?
[06:27] Anne
    There wasn't a dry eye in the school.
[06:29] Diana
    It does seem as if it was the end
    of everything, doesn't it?
[06:33] Anne
    You oughtn't to feel
    half as badly as I do.
[06:38] Anne
    You'll be back again next winter,
[06:40] Anne
    but I suppose I've left the
    dear old school forever—
[06:43] Anne
    if I have good luck, that is.
[06:47] Diana
    It won't be a bit the same.
    Miss Stacy won't be there,
[06:52] Diana
    nor you nor Jane nor Ruby probably.
[06:55] Anne
    Please Diana, don't cry.
[07:00] Anne
    You'll start me off again.
[07:07] Diana
    The Entrance is just next week now, isn't it?
[07:11] Anne
    Yes.
[07:12] Anne
    Miss Stacy said that when
    we arrive in town,
[07:15] Anne
    we are to go out walking and not think about
    the exams at all and go to bed early.
[07:21] Anne
    It's good advice, but I expect
    it will be hard to follow.
[07:23] Diana
    I do wish I were going in with you.
[07:28] Diana
    You can't cram every night,
    and you're sure to be homesick.
[07:35] Anne
    I'll write to you.
[07:36] Diana
    Oh yes, do!
[07:38] Anne
    I'll write Tuesday night and
    tell you how the first day goes.
[07:42] Diana
    I'll be haunting the post
    office Wednesday morning.
[07:46] Anne
    The post won't come as fast as that, Diana.
[07:49] Diana
    I guess it won't.
[08:01] Postman
    Whoa, there.
[08:03] Diana
    Pardon me! Do you have a letter
    for me, by any chance?
[08:05] Postman
    Let me see.
[08:07] Postman
    Diana... Diana Barry.
[08:10] Postman
    Here you are, miss.
[08:11] Diana
    Oh, thank you!
[08:17] Anne
    Dearest Diana,
[08:18] Anne
    here it is Tuesday night, and
    I'm writing this in my boarding house room.
[08:23] Anne
    When we reached the Academy,
[08:25] Anne
    there were scores of students
    there from all over the Island.
[08:29] Anne
    Jane and I sat together and Jane was
    so composed that I envied her.
[08:35] Anne
    I wondered if I looked as I felt
[08:37] Anne
    and if they could hear my heart
    thumping clear across the room.
[08:42] Anne
    My hands grew cold then and my
    head fairly whirled around
[08:47] Anne
    as I picked the English
    examination sheet.
[08:51] Anne
    Just one awful moment and then
    everything cleared up in my mind,
[08:55] Anne
    for I knew I could do something
    with that paper anyhow.
[09:01] Anne
    At noon, we went home for dinner and then
    back again for history in the afternoon.
[09:04] Anne
    The history was a pretty hard paper.
[09:06] Anne
    Still, I think I did fairly well today.
[09:07] Jane
    How was it?
[09:08] Gilbert
    Passable, I guess.
[09:11] Anne
    Ruby was in hysterics when
    I reached their boardinghouse;
[09:13] Anne
    she had just discovered a fearful mistake
    she had made in her English paper.
[09:18] Anne
    When she recovered, we went
    uptown and had an ice cream.
[09:24] Anne
    How we wished you had been with us.
[09:27] Anne
    Oh, Diana, if only the geometry
    examination were over!
[09:33] Anne
    But there, the sun will go on rising and
    setting whether I fail in geometry or not.
[09:40] Anne
    I think I'd rather it 
    didn't go on if I failed!
[09:45] Anne
    Yours devotedly, Anne.
[10:03] Marilla
    You'd think they hadn't seen
    each other in decades.
[10:08] Diana
    Anne!
[10:10] Anne
    Diana!
[10:11] Diana
    Anne!
[10:13] Anne
    You old darling!
[10:14] Diana
    It's perfectly splendid
    to see you back again.
[10:16] Diana
    It seems like an age
    since you went to town.
[10:17] Anne
    To me, too, Diana.
[10:19] Diana
    Oh, Anne! How did you get along?
[10:22] Anne
    Pretty well, I think, in
    everything but the geometry.
[10:25] Diana
    How did the others do?
[10:27] Anne
    The girls say they know they didn't pass,
    but I think they did pretty well.
[10:32] Anne
    But we don't really know anything about
    it and won't until the pass list is out.
[10:36] Diana
    I can hardly wait.
[10:38] Anne
    Fancy living a fortnight in such suspense!
[10:41] Anne
    I wish I could go to sleep and
    never wake up until it is over.
[10:46] Diana
    Oh, you'll pass all right. Don't worry.
[10:49] Anne
    I certainly hope so!
[10:51] Anne
    Oh, how good it is to be back!
[10:54] Anne
    Green Gables is the dearest,
    loveliest spot in the world.
[11:02] Diana
    Well?
[11:04] Anne
    It's not here. It was supposed
    to be out in a fortnight.
[11:11] Martin
    Say, who do you think
    will pass the Entrance?
[11:14] Lewis
    Anne and Gilbert are the
    best Avonlea's got.
[11:18] Martin
    Want to bet on which of
    them comes out on top?
[11:20] Lewis
    You're on!
[11:21] Josie
    I'll take that bet, too.
[11:23] Josie
    Anyone can see that
    Gilbert will place higher.
[11:26] Martin
    You've got that right.
[11:27] Lewis
    I'm for Gilbert, too.
[11:28] Josie
    We can't all bet on Gilbert.
[11:31] Anne
    I'd rather not pass at all than not
    come out pretty well up on the list!
[11:36] Diana
    Anne, wait!
[11:40] Diana
    I don't think the list is out yet.
[11:42] Gilbert
    Oh, it isn't?
[11:42] Diana
    Anne, wait!
[11:49] Marilla
    Won't you eat something, Anne?
[11:53] Anne
    My appetite has failed after
    three weeks with no news.
[11:58] Anne
    I don't care how high I pass now,
    just so long as I do.
[12:01] Anne
    What if the others pass and I fail?
[12:05] Matthew
    You'll beat the whole island.
[12:10] Marilla
    Really, Matthew, that's
    too much to hope for.
[12:13] Matthew
    I know you will.
[12:32] Anne
    Diana!
[12:33] Diana
    Father brought the paper home from
    Bright River not ten minutes ago!
[12:37] Diana
    It won't be here till tomorrow by mail!
[12:39] Diana
    Anne, you've passed!
[12:42] Diana
    Passed the very first!
    You and Gilbert both—you're ties!
[12:46] Diana
    But your name is first.
[12:49] Diana
    Oh, I'm so proud!
[12:52] Diana
    You've all passed, every one of you.
[12:54] Anne
    Oh, good...
[12:56] Diana
    You must tell Miss and Mr. Cuthbert.
[12:59] Women
    Well done, Anne!
[13:02] Women
    What an achievement!
[13:04] Lynde
    You're a credit to your friends, Anne,
    that's what, and we're all proud of you.
[13:11] Anne
    Thank you, Mrs. Lynde.
[13:13] Marilla
    You've done pretty
    well, I must say, Anne.
[13:16] Anne
    Yes, but I never dreamed I'd come fir—
[13:20] Anne
    Oh, Matthew!
[13:24] Anne
    I've passed, and I'm first!
[13:27] Matthew
    Well now, I always said it!
[13:31] Anne
    Yes, and you were right!
[13:42] Marilla
    A concert?
[13:44] Anne
    An invitation from the White Sands Hotel!
[13:47] Anne
    They want me to recite!
[13:50] Anne
    Oh, I never dreamed I would
    get to perform at a concert!
[13:53] Matthew
    They're bound to encore you.
[13:57] Marilla
    I don't call it proper, a lot of
    young folks gadding over to the hotel
[14:02] Marilla
    without any responsible person with them.
[14:04] Anne
    But I can go, can't I, Marilla?!
[14:09] Marilla
    Oh, very well.
[14:11] Diana
    Hold still, Anne!
[14:13] Diana
    Don't pull out a single
    curl over your forehead.
[14:16] Diana
    I'm going to braid your hair in two
    thick braids and tie them halfway up.
[14:20] Anne
    Shall I put my pearl beads on?
[14:23] Anne
    Matthew brought me a string from town.
[14:26] Diana
    Yes, but put on your
    organdy, by all means!
[14:30] Anne
    If you say so.
[14:32] Anne
    Oh, Diana, I love this
    little room so dearly.
[14:35] Anne
    I don't know how I'll get along without
    it when I go to town next month.
[14:39] Diana
    Don't speak of your going away tonight.
    I don't want to think of it,
[14:43] Diana
    it makes me so miserable, and I do want
    to have a good time this evening.
[14:48] Anne
    And what happened then?
[14:50] Diana
    Do you really want to know?
[14:51] Jane
    Well, if you can credit it...
[15:09] Anne
    Oh, dear. I don't know if I belong.
[15:21] White Lace Girl
    I smell country bumpkins.
[15:24] White Lace Girl
    Some rustic belle is going to recite
    a poem. It should be such fun.
[15:30] Emcee
    Welcome, ladies and gentlemen,
    to the White Sands Hotel concert.
[15:37] Anne
    Wh-Whatever shall I do? I don't feel ready.
[15:41] Anne
    I wish I were in the audience with them.
[15:43] Anne
    Oh, if I were only back at Green Gables!
[16:00] White Lace Girl
    Oh, look! There's Mrs. Evans!
[16:01] White Lace Girl
    The professional elocutionist, you know.
[16:10] Evans
    The flower that smiles to-day
    To-morrow dies;
[16:14] Evans
    All that we wish to stay
    Tempts and then flies.
[16:19] Evans
    What is this world's delight?
[16:21] Evans
    Lightning that mocks the night,
[16:23] Evans
    Brief even as bright.
[16:24] Evans
    Virtue, how frail it is!
    Friendship how rare!
[16:24] Anne
    I can never get up and recite after her!
[16:25] Evans
    Love, how it sells poor bliss
    For proud despair!
[16:27] Evans
    But we, though soon they fall,
[16:28] Anne
    I want to go home to Green
    Gables this instant!
[16:29] Evans
    Survive their joy, and all
    Which ours we call.
[16:30] Evans
    Whilst skies are blue and bright,
    Whilst flowers are gay,
[16:32] Evans
    Whilst eyes that change ere night
    Make glad the day;
[16:35] Evans
    Whilst yet the calm hours creep,
    Dream thou—and from thy sleep
[16:40] Evans
    Then wake to weep.
[16:49] Emcee
    Next, Anne Shirley will
    recite "The Maiden's Vow."
[16:59] Anne
    What can I do after that
    magnificent recitation?
[17:07] Anne
    Perhaps I should flee, even if it
    means an eternity of humiliation.
[17:12] Anne
    Josie Pye! Gilbert!
[17:15] Anne
    No! I will not run away!
[17:18] Anne
    Just you watch!
[17:21] Anne
    I've made a vow, I'll keep it true,
[17:25] Anne
    I'll never married be;
[17:28] Anne
    For the only ane that I think on
    Will never think o' me.
[17:32] Anne
    Now gane to a far distant shore,
[17:35] Anne
    Their face nae mair I'll see;
[17:38] Anne
    But often will I think o' them,
[17:41] Anne
    That winna think o' me.
[17:44] Anne
    Gae owre, gae owre noo, gude Sir John,
    Oh, dinna follow me;
[17:51] Anne
    For the only ane I ere thocht on,
    Lies buried in the sea.
[18:12] Painter
    If you don't mind my asking...
[18:22] Pink Lady
    My dear, you did splendidly!
[18:25] Pink Lace
    There, they're encoring you—
    they're bound to have you back!
[18:27] Anne
    Oh, I can't go.
[18:29] Pink Lady
    What? Turn down this honor?
[18:32] Anne
    But yet...
[18:35] (Flashback) Matthew
    They're bound to encore you.
[18:40] Anne
    I must, or Matthew will be disappointed.
[18:43] Pink Lady
    Then don't disappoint Matthew.
[18:48] Anne
    I won't!
[18:53] Anne
    Be kind and tender to the Frog,
[18:56] Anne
    And do not call him names.
[19:00] Anne
    'Ribbity-eek'! 'Ahh-keep away'!
[19:04] Anne
    'Slimy-bumpy skin'! 'Croakity-blargh'!
[19:09] Anne
    The Frog is justly sensitive
    To epithets like these.
[19:12] Anne
    No animal will more repay
    A treatment kind and fair...
[19:20] Pink Lady
    You really were wonderful.
[19:24] Pink Lady
    I've been crying like a
    baby, actually I have.
[19:27] Anne
    Thank you very much.
[19:29] Pink Lady
    Please, accept this for the
    gift of such lovely poems.
[19:34] Anne
    O-Oh, I couldn't possibly!
[19:37] Evans
    Anne Shirley?
[19:39] Anne
    Mrs. Evans.
[19:41] Evans
    I could hear how deeply you
    appreciate those poems,
[19:44] Evans
    and you have a charming voice.
[19:47] Anne
    Th-Thank you very much!
[19:56] Jane
    Hasn't it been a perfectly splendid time?
[19:59] Jane
    Anne, your recitation was simply great.
[20:02] Jane
    I think it was better than Mrs. Evans's.
[20:05] Anne
    Oh, no, don't say things like that, Jane.
[20:09] Anne
    It couldn't be better than Mrs. Evans's,
    you know, for she is a professional,
[20:12] Anne
    and I'm only a schoolgirl,
    with a little knack of reciting.
[20:15] Anne
    I'm quite satisfied if the people
    just liked mine pretty well.
[20:22] Diana
    I've a compliment for you, Anne.
[20:25] Diana
    There was an American sitting behind Jane
    and me. Well, we heard him say...
[20:29] (Flashback) Painter
    Who is that girl on the platform
    with the splendid Titian hair?
[20:34] Diana
    Josie Pye says he is a
    distinguished artist.
[20:38] Jane
    But what does Titian hair mean?
[20:40] Jane
    We should have asked.
[20:42] Anne
    Being interpreted it means
    plain red, I guess.
[20:45] Diana
    He did an awful lot of
    sketches over supper,
[20:50] Diana
    so I got one for you.
[20:55] Anne
    I'm not nearly so pretty.
[20:58] Diana
    Oh, but you are.
[21:00] Diana
    It looks just like you.
[21:05] Jane
    Did you see all the diamonds 
    those ladies wore?
[21:09] Jane
    Wouldn't you just love to be rich, girls?
[21:15] Anne
    We are rich.
[21:17] Jane
    Are we? How?
[21:19] Anne
    Why, we have fifteen years to our
    credit, and we're happy as queens,
[21:24] Anne
    and we've all got
    imaginations, more or less.
[21:27] Anne
    Look at that sea, girls.
[21:29] Anne
    all silver and shadow and
    vision of things not seen.
[21:36] Anne
    I don't want to be anyone but myself,
[21:39] Anne
    even if I go uncomforted
    by diamonds all my life.
[21:43] Anne
    I'm content to be Anne of Green Gables,
    with my string of pearl beads.
[21:49] Anne
    And quite content to be
    red-haired Anne Shirley,
[21:53] Anne
    with a bosom friend who has a charming
    smile and dresses me to perfection.
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