# 19 - I’ll Walk the Road to Heaven From Here
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**[00:01] Anne**
*The summer of my first year at Redmond,*
**[00:03] Anne**
* after receiving letters that my*
* parents wrote in days gone by,*
**[00:06] Anne**
*I returned to Avonlea with a full heart.*
**[00:10] Anne**
I have been wondering if I could write a
short story good enough to be published.
**[00:15] Diana**
Why, of course you could!
**[00:16] Diana**
You used to write perfectly thrilling
stories years ago in our old Story Club.
**[00:21] Anne**
One of the junior girls at Redmond
wrote a story last winter,
**[00:24] Anne**
and it was published in the *Canadian Woman*.
**[00:27] Anne**
I really do think I could
write one at least as good.
**[00:31] Diana**
I'm subscribed to that magazine!
**[00:33] Anne**
I might try one of the
bigger magazines first.
**[00:37] Anne**
It all depends on what
kind of a story I write.
**[00:42] Anne**
Say, where is old Mr. Sloane?
**[00:45] Anne**
I can't seem to spot Mr. Cotton, either.
**[00:48] Marilla**
Well, as to that...
**[00:50] Anne**
You don't mean... they've passed on?
**[00:53] Lynde**
Old Sloane had his whiskers
trimmed neat as anything.
**[00:57] Lynde**
I thought at first it was
somebody else in his casket.
**[01:00] Davy**
Say, why do grown-ups get to talk
when it's wrong for children to do it?
**[01:04] Davy**
I want to know.
**[01:06] Anne**
Well, I don't suppose age
has anything to do with it.
**[01:10] Dora**
Oh, here comes the bride.
**[01:14] Anne**
*Billy Andrews,*
**[01:16] Anne**
* the coward who got his*
* sister to propose for him.*
**[01:19] Anne**
*I'm glad to see he's made a good match.*
**[01:23] Davy**
Anne, there's the minister who rode the pig!
**[01:33] Anne**
*Is that...*
**[01:37] Anne**
*Ruby?*
**[01:44] Anne**
Has Ruby injured herself?
**[01:46] Marilla**
She won't live to see fall.
**[01:49] Marilla**
Everybody knows it except
herself and her family.
**[01:53] Marilla**
And her so young.
**[01:55] Marilla**
She's been telling Diana how she'd like
to talk with you when you got back.
**[02:02] Anne**
*I couldn't believe it.*
**[02:04] Anne**
*Brilliant, merry Ruby!*
**[02:06] Anne**
* How could the flame of her life*
* be guttering out?*
***SIGN*** Chapter 19
***SIGN*** I'll Walk the Road
to Heaven
From Here
**[03:47] Ruby**
I've been dying to see you, Anne.
**[03:49] Anne**
Yes, Ruby, so have I.
**[03:51] Ruby**
We're having a little get-together
here tomorrow.
**[03:54] Ruby**
I do so want you to come, Anne.
**[03:56] Ruby**
You must tell me about Redmond.
**[03:58] Anne**
Of course. I'll be certain to come.
**[04:02] Ruby**
You must come!
**[04:03] Anne**
I will.
**[04:05] Diana**
Ruby's been wanting to see
you for a long while.
**[04:08] Diana**
I really couldn't bring
myself to go see her alone.
**[04:20] Lynde**
They've a bitter time in store for them.
**[04:23] Marilla**
We can do nothing now but watch.
**[04:30] Diana**
Look!
**[04:31] Diana**
It's like an island
floating in a golden sea.
**[04:34] Anne**
If we could sail to it in the moonshine,
how nice it would be.
**[04:39] Anne**
Do you think we could find
all our yesterdays there?
**[04:44] Diana**
Anne, you make me feel as if we were old
women with everything in life behind us.
**[04:52] Diana**
What is your story to be about?
**[04:55] Anne**
I don't know yet.
**[04:57] Anne**
The only thing I've settled
on is the heroine's name.
**[05:00] Anne**
It is to be Averil Lester.
**[05:02] Diana**
Averil?
**[05:03] Anne**
I'd like it to end unhappily, because
that would be so much more romantic.
**[05:06] Anne**
But I understand editors have a
prejudice against sad endings.
**[05:10] Anne**
"Nobody but a genius should try
to write an unhappy ending."
**[05:14] Anne**
And I'm anything but a genius.
**[05:17] Diana**
I like happy endings best.
**[05:19] Anne**
But you like to cry over stories?
**[05:23] Diana**
Oh, yes, in the middle of them.
**[05:25] Diana**
But I like everything to come right at last.
**[05:37] Anne**
I don't know anyone here.
**[05:39] Diana**
Where can Ruby be?
**[05:41] Ruby**
Here I am!
**[05:43] Ruby**
Oh, Diana. You've come, too.
**[05:47] Diana**
Go on.
**[05:48] Anne**
What will you do?
**[05:50] Diana**
I'll go get something to drink.
**[05:53] Ruby**
I'm going to teach in White Sands
in the fall, you know.
**[05:56] Ruby**
There's so much to prepare!
**[05:59] Ruby**
I've a blue silk to make up yet.
**[06:03] Ruby**
How do you like my hat?
**[06:04] Ruby**
Too bright, do you think?
**[06:06] Anne**
It suits you wonderfully.
**[06:09] Ruby**
I'm so glad you came today.
**[06:11] Ruby**
I'll be away Tuesday and Wednesday evenings.
**[06:14] Ruby**
There's a concert at Carmody
and a party at White Sands.
**[06:19] Ruby**
Herb Spencer's going to take me.
**[06:21] Anne**
Herb?
**[06:23] Ruby**
Did you think I was engaged to
the Spencervale schoolmaster?
**[06:27] Ruby**
That was only a rumor.
**[06:29] Ruby**
I don't care a bit about
the boys downstairs, either.
**[06:32] Ruby**
They just work themselves up.
**[06:34] Ruby**
Herb is *Mr. Right.*.
**[06:37] Anne**
I see.
**[06:38] Anne**
You know, Ruby, I heard that
you've been poorly lately.
**[06:44] Ruby**
Why, I'm perfectly well!
**[06:47] Ruby**
That congestion last winter
pulled me down a little.
**[06:51] Ruby**
But just see my color.
**[06:52] Anne**
I see. That's good, then.
**[06:56] Anne**
Now, I'd really better be going.
**[06:59] Ruby**
What? Already?
**[07:01] Ruby**
Thank you for today.
**[07:03] Ruby**
I wanted to have a nice good talk with you.
**[07:06] Ruby**
You and I were always
good chums, weren't we?
**[07:09] Anne**
Yes, we were.
**[07:11] Ruby**
Come alone next time.
**[07:13] Ruby**
When can I expect you?
**[07:16] Diana**
Anne!
**[07:17] Diana**
Anne, wait!
**[07:19] Diana**
Anne!
**[07:22] Anne**
Ruby's arms were so thin that I...
**[07:25] Anne**
I felt I couldn't breathe.
**[07:28] Diana**
Anne...
**[07:31] Anne**
What shall I do, Diana?
**[07:42] Harrison**
I wondered who it could be at this hour.
**[07:44] Anne**
Mr. Harrison, it's been far too long.
**[07:47] Harrison**
Home for the summer, are you?
**[07:49] Anne**
Yes. Mrs. Lynde is baking pies
tomorrow. I'll bring you one.
**[07:53] Harrison**
No pie will convince me
to give to the church.
**[07:56] Diana**
Goodness!
**[07:58] Diana**
He wouldn't give to the A.V.I.S.,
and he won't come to church.
**[08:01] Diana**
When did you make friends
with this odd fellow, Anne?
**[08:06] (Flashback) Harrison**
So I do, but my approval doesn't
go as deep as my pocket.
**[08:09] (Flashback) Ginger**
Redheaded snippet! Redheaded snippet!
**[08:12] (Flashback) Harrison**
S-Stop that, you!
**[08:14] Anne**
I know I was incensed at the time,
but look how painting the hall turned out.
**[08:21] Anne**
I've come to think that maybe
Mr. Harrison had the right of it.
**[08:25] Diana**
That was only a coincidence.
**[08:28] Anne**
I suppose.
**[08:29] Anne**
But he doesn't lie or flatter,
**[08:32] Anne**
so when I finish my story, I'll want
you and Mr. Harrison to read it.
**[08:36] Diana**
What does Mr. Harrison know about stories?
**[08:42] Lynde**
How was Ruby?
**[08:45] Anne**
She seemed better than I'd feared.
**[08:47] Marilla**
What, done already?
**[08:49] Anne**
Yes. College students have so much to do.
**[08:53] Lynde**
I'll bring you tea and cookies later.
**[08:57] Anne**
Thank you.
**[08:58] Davy**
Mrs. Lynde may be bossy, but at least
she's not stingy with her cookies.
**[09:04] Lynde**
I can hear you.
**[09:14] (Flashback) Ruby**
When can I expect you?
**[09:17] (Flashback) Diana**
I like happy endings best.
**[09:20] Anne**
*Averil Lester,*
**[09:23] Anne**
*let me write your story.*
**[09:27] Anne**
*I had made up my mind to write a story,*
**[09:30] Anne**
* and although I hadn't planned it to,*
* that summer's goal sustained me.*
**[09:43] Anne**
* I visited Ruby nearly every day*
* and spent the evenings with her.*
**[09:50] Ruby**
My father thinks it better that
I shouldn't teach till New Year's.
**[09:56] Anne**
I agree with him.
**[09:58] Ruby**
Really!
**[09:59] Ruby**
I'll wear my new dress
to some party or other.
**[10:02] Ruby**
The boys will fuss again, and they're
dreadfully jealous of Herb already.
**[10:14] Anne**
* When I got home from visiting Ruby,*
* I threw myself into the world of stories.*
**[10:20] Anne**
* Averil is descended from a noble*
* family fallen on hard times.*
**[10:23] Anne**
* The hero, Perceval, is the heir to*
* a newly minted business empire.*
**[10:28] Anne**
* And Maurice, who persecutes*
* Averil at every opportunity,*
**[10:32] Anne**
* is a parvenu buoyed by*
* political instability.*
**[10:37] Ruby**
At Christmas, I thought the Spencervale
schoolmaster was the man for me.
**[10:44] Ruby**
But I was wrong.
**[10:46] Ruby**
He nearly went insane
when I turned him down—
**[10:50] Anne**
Ruby?!
**[10:51] Anne**
I'll get you some water.
**[10:52] Ruby**
Don't go!
**[10:53] Ruby**
I'm fine. So stay here.
**[10:56] Ruby**
I'll be all right in a moment.
**[10:59] Anne**
Ruby hasn't got much longer.
**[11:02] Anne**
We should have more important
things to talk about.
**[11:06] Anne**
The meaning of life, her goals...
words to remember her by.
**[11:09] Diana**
But that's Ruby all over.
**[11:12] Diana**
She never did talk about
anything except boys.
**[11:16] Diana**
As long as she's boasting about her
beaus, there's nothing to fear.
**[11:22] Ruby**
Herb Spencer is the only one I like.
**[11:28] Ruby**
I've come to see that we're
meant for each other.
**[11:31] Ruby**
I've gotten engaged to him.
**[11:34] Ruby**
We're to be married in the new year.
**[11:37] Ruby**
You must come to the wedding.
**[11:38] Anne**
O-Of course.
**[11:39] Ruby**
I'll have so much to do.
**[11:44] Ruby**
Look, Anne.
**[11:45] Ruby**
They hardly ever come into the yard.
**[11:50] Ruby**
Are they brothers, do you think?
**[11:54] Ruby**
*Or maybe...*
**[12:06] Marilla**
Anne.
**[12:08] Marilla**
Have you been getting enough sleep?
**[12:10] Anne**
Yes.
**[12:11] Marilla**
Every time you go to see Ruby,
you come home looking tired out.
**[12:15] Marilla**
I don't see why you can't stop.
**[12:18] Anne**
I feel as if she's struggling
with an invisible foe,
**[12:22] Anne**
trying to push it back with such
feeble resistance as she has.
**[12:25] Anne**
I can only watch her,
**[12:28] Anne**
but even so, someone must.
**[12:41] Diana**
It's so lovely how Averil and
Perceval marry in the end.
**[12:44] Anne**
You mean it?!
**[12:46] Diana**
Only...
**[12:46] Anne**
O-Only what?
**[12:48] Diana**
Why did you kill Maurice?
**[12:51] Anne**
He was the villain.
**[12:53] Anne**
If I had let him live, he'd have
gone on persecuting Perceval.
**[12:56] Diana**
But that's what I like about him.
**[12:58] Diana**
Well, anyway, it's a perfectly
elegant story, Anne,
**[13:03] Diana**
and will make you famous,
of that I'm sure.
**[13:06] Harrison**
It's shaped up some.
**[13:08] Anne**
I did as you said and cut all the flowery
passages with no bearing on the plot.
**[13:14] Harrison**
Still...
**[13:16] Anne**
Still what?
**[13:17] Harrison**
I don't see why Maurice didn't get her.
**[13:20] Anne**
Maurice was the villain. I don't see why
everyone likes him better than Perceval.
**[13:26] Harrison**
Perceval is too good. He's aggravating.
**[13:31] Harrison**
Listen, stories are all make-believe.
**[13:35] Harrison**
So you've got to make your readers
believe that they could *really* happen.
**[13:41] Harrison**
But your folks ain't like
real folks anywhere.
**[13:45] Diana**
What will you do?
**[13:47] Diana**
Fix it up like Mr. Harrison said?
**[13:51] Diana**
Of course not. It is *your* story, Anne.
**[13:54] Diana**
I just know it will be a success.
**[13:56] Anne**
* I sent "Averil's Atonement" to the*
* biggest of the "big" Yankee magazines.*
**[14:03] Anne**
*But two weeks later...*
**[14:05] Diana**
I never thought much of
that magazine, anyway!
**[14:09] Diana**
Don't be discouraged, Anne.
Send it to the *Canadian Woman*.
**[14:13] Diana**
Remember how Mrs. Morgan's
stories came back.
**[14:18] Diana**
They can't have read it at all!
**[14:21] Diana**
See if I ever read the *Canadian Woman* again!
**[14:24] Anne**
It was just a silly idea anyhow.
**[14:27] Anne**
I'll focus my energies on teaching
after I graduate from Redmond.
**[14:31] Anne**
This is the end of my literary ambitions.
**[14:36] Diana**
Anne, could you see your way to copying
part of "Averil's Atonement" for me?
**[14:42] Anne**
Certainly, if you like.
**[14:52] Ruby**
Anne, would you lend me a hand?
**[14:55] Ruby**
I want to send invitations to my next party,
**[14:59] Ruby**
but they won't go into the envelopes right.
**[15:06] Anne**
You'd better rest!
**[15:08] Anne**
Come on.
**[15:10] Ruby**
I won't go with *you*.
**[15:14] Anne**
Ruby?
**[15:16] Ruby**
Go away.
**[15:19] Ruby**
Leave me be.
**[15:21] Ruby**
Leave me be!
**[15:25] Anne**
Ruby?
**[15:27] Anne**
Ruby! Ruby!
**[15:29] Doctor**
The fever has confused her, I'm afraid.
**[15:31] Mrs. Gillis**
My daughter is fine.
There's nothing the matter with her.
**[15:38] Gilbert**
Anne!
**[15:41] Marilla**
Promise me you won't go again!
**[15:44] Marilla**
What if you catch consumption
and end up like poor Ruby?
**[15:50] Marilla**
I can't bear the thought!
**[15:52] Anne**
You needn't worry, Marilla.
**[15:55] Anne**
I won't be seeing Ruby anymore.
**[16:36] Anne**
Hello, Mr. Harrison.
**[16:41] Harrison**
Is that so?
**[16:43] Anne**
I've given it up completely.
**[16:45] Anne**
I feel refreshed, if anything.
**[16:48] Anne**
To think that writing stories
was such a weight on my mind!
**[16:52] Harrison**
I wouldn't give up altogether.
**[16:57] Harrison**
I'd write a story once in a while, Anne.
**[17:02] Anne**
I don't think I will.
**[17:03] Anne**
Excuse me.
**[17:06] Anne**
How can he say that when he
came down so hard on it?
**[17:09] Anne**
I've had enough. I've suffered enough hurt.
**[17:15] Anne**
"Hurt"?
**[17:22] Anne**
*What does it matter?*
**[17:25] Anne**
*Ruby...*
**[17:26] Anne**
*Ruby is...*
**[17:44] Anne**
Ruby, I...
**[17:46] Ruby**
Look.
**[17:50] Ruby**
How ghostly it looks.
**[17:54] Ruby**
It won't be long now before
I'll be lying over there.
**[17:57] Anne**
Ruby? What are you saying?
**[17:59] Ruby**
You know it's so, don't you?
**[18:02] Ruby**
I know it—I've known it all summer,
**[18:05] Ruby**
though I wouldn't give in.
**[18:08] Ruby**
I'm just... afraid.
**[18:11] Ruby**
I'm not afraid but that I'll go to heaven.
**[18:14] Ruby**
Heaven must be very beautiful,
of course, the Bible says so.
**[18:20] Ruby**
But, Anne, *it won't be
what I've been used to*.
**[18:25] Ruby**
And I'll have to go there... all alone.
**[18:30] Anne**
*Oh, please, give me...*
**[18:33] Anne**
* Give me the words to help*
* Ruby, even a little,*
**[18:37] Anne**
* wise people and elders of Avonlea,*
* of Prince Edward Island, of heaven!*
**[18:45] Anne**
I think perhaps... life in heaven
can't be so different from here.
**[18:51] Anne**
I believe we'll just go on living,
a good deal as we live here—
**[18:56] Anne**
and be ourselves just the same.
**[19:00] Anne**
Only it will be easier to be good
and to—follow the highest.
**[19:07] Anne**
Don't be afraid, Ruby.
**[19:09] Ruby**
I can't help it.
**[19:11] Ruby**
I just can't.
**[19:14] Ruby**
Even if what you say about heaven is true,
I've never been. I've never seen it.
**[19:22] Ruby**
It may be only that imagination of yours!
**[19:27] Ruby**
It won't be just the same! It can't be!
**[19:34] Ruby**
I want to live.
**[19:38] Ruby**
I want to live like other girls.
**[19:40] Ruby**
To be married and have little children.
**[19:45] Ruby**
And then poor Herb.
**[19:47] Ruby**
He loves me,
**[19:50] Ruby**
and I... I love him.
**[20:11] Ruby**
I'm glad I've told you this, Anne.
**[20:14] Ruby**
I've wanted to all summer.
**[20:18] Ruby**
But I *couldn't*.
**[20:20] Ruby**
It seemed as if it would make death
so *sure* if I said I was going to die.
**[20:27] Ruby**
I'll try.
**[20:29] Ruby**
I'll think over what you have said,
and try to believe it.
**[20:33] Anne**
Good. I know you can.
**[20:36] Ruby**
Thank you. For all you've ever done for me.
**[20:39] Ruby**
I've always liked you best of all my friends.
**[20:45] Ruby**
You'll come up soon again.
**[20:47] Anne**
Y-Yes, very soon.
**[20:50] Anne**
I promise.
**[20:54] Ruby**
It's all right.
**[20:56] Ruby**
Nothing seems quite so dreadful now.
**[21:19] Davy**
Ruby Gillis was a great girl to laugh.
**[21:23] Davy**
Will she laugh as much in heaven?
**[21:26] Dora**
I hope heaven is like Avonlea.
**[21:31] Anne**
Yes, so do I.
**[21:34] Anne**
I think she will laugh.
**[21:36] Anne**
I think...
**[21:39] Anne**
she's laughing now.
**[23:56] Sign**
Next Time
**[23:56] Sign**
My World Has
Tumbled Into Pieces