# 10 - I Don’t Know What Lies Around the Bend, but I’m Going to Believe That the Best Does
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**[00:01] Anne**
*I concluded my student days at Queen's*
**[00:05] Anne**
* by winning a scholarship for my*
* marks in English literature.*
**[00:10] Anne**
*Matthew and Marilla were delighted,*
**[00:13] Anne**
* and I came home to Green Gables*
* to prepare for college.*
**[00:18] Anne**
*That is, until one summer morning...*
**[00:24] Marilla**
It's a great help to have you, Anne.
We aren't getting any younger.
**[00:30] Anne**
Good morning, Matthew.
**[00:32] Matthew**
Morning, Anne.
**[00:36] Anne**
Here.
**[00:38] Anne**
What do you think?
**[00:39] Matthew**
Oh well, it tastes fine.
More than fine.
**[00:45] Anne**
I never knew cooking could be so much fun.
**[00:48] Marilla**
Didn't you?
**[00:49] Anne**
No.
**[00:50] Anne**
The boarding house kitchen
was so inconvenient.
**[00:53] Marilla**
Then I suppose you won't mind doing all
our cooking over summer vacation.
**[00:58] Anne**
Indeed I won't.
**[01:00] Anne**
I promise you I'll outdo myself.
**[01:05] Anne**
Matthew? What is the matter?
**[01:08] Anne**
Are you sick?
**[01:18] Anne**
Matthew!
**[01:20] Marilla**
Matthew! Matthew!
**[01:21] Anne**
Matthew!
**[01:22] Anne**
Matthew!
**[01:22] Marilla**
Anne, tell Jerry to go for the doctor.
**[01:25] Marilla**
Then run for the Barrys',
and for Rachel, too.
**[01:28] Anne**
All right.
**[01:28] Marilla**
Matthew!
**[01:31] Anne**
*No.*
**[01:33] Anne**
*No!*
**[01:35] Anne**
*No!*
***SIGN*** Chapter 10
***SIGN*** I Don't Know What Lies
Around the Bend, but I'm
Going to Believe That the
Best Does
**[03:25] Lynde**
Oh, Marilla, I don't think—
we can do anything for him.
**[03:32] Anne**
You don't think—
You can't think Matthew is—is—
**[03:35] Lynde**
Child, yes,
**[03:37] Lynde**
I'm afraid of it.
**[03:40] Doctor**
Death was instantaneous
and probably painless,
**[03:42] Doctor**
caused in all likelihood
by some sudden shock.
***SIGN*** Abbey Bank Collapses
**[03:48] Doctor**
If you'll excuse me.
**[03:59] Marilla**
Matthew.
**[04:01] Barry**
Marilla.
**[04:24] Harmon**
I see. It was that sudden, then.
**[04:27] Mourner**
Keep your chin up now, Anne.
**[04:28] Anne**
I'll be all right.
**[04:36] Marilla**
Still...
**[04:37] Lynde**
Yes, I know.
**[04:38] Barry**
And in that case...
**[04:40] Diana**
I'm coming in.
**[04:46] Diana**
Anne dear, would you like to have
me sleep with you tonight?
**[04:50] Anne**
Thank you, Diana.
**[04:53] Anne**
I think you won't misunderstand me
when I say that I want to be alone.
**[04:57] Anne**
I cannot believe that Matthew is dead.
**[04:59] Anne**
Half the time it still
doesn't seem possible.
**[05:02] Anne**
I want to be quite silent and
quiet and try to realize it.
**[05:08] Diana**
I'll be downstairs.
You must call when you need me.
**[05:13] Anne**
I will.
**[05:39] (Flashback) Matthew**
It was a girl.
**[05:46] (Flashback) Matthew**
My girl that I'm proud of.
**[06:08] Marilla**
There—there—
don't cry so, dearie.
**[06:10] Marilla**
It can't bring him back.
**[06:16] Marilla**
It isn't right to cry so.
**[06:20] Anne**
Oh, just let me cry, Marilla!
**[06:22] Anne**
The tears don't hurt
me like that ache did!
**[06:26] Anne**
Oh, Marilla, how can Matthew be gone?
**[06:31] Anne**
What will we do without him?
**[06:36] Marilla**
We've got each other, Anne.
**[06:43] Marilla**
I don't know what I'd do if you
weren't here—if you'd never come.
**[06:50] Marilla**
I know I've been kind of strict
and harsh with you maybe,
**[06:53] Marilla**
but you mustn't think I didn't love you
as well as Matthew did, for all that.
**[06:59] Marilla**
I want to tell you now when saying
things out of my heart comes easier.
**[07:05] Marilla**
I love you as dear as if you
were my own flesh and blood
**[07:10] Marilla**
and you've been my joy and comfort
ever since you came to Green Gables.
**[07:41] Anne**
I miss him so much.
**[07:44] Anne**
All the time, Mrs. Allan.
**[07:47] Anne**
And yet my heart dances just as it used
to on finding little buds in the garden.
**[07:55] Anne**
Today Diana said something funny
and I found myself laughing.
**[08:01] Anne**
And it somehow seems as if I oughtn't to.
**[08:05] Allan**
Matthew liked to hear you laugh, didn't he?
**[08:10] Anne**
Yes.
**[08:11] Allan**
And didn't he like to know that you found
pleasure in the little things around you?
**[08:17] Anne**
He did.
**[08:19] Allan**
If buds heal your heart, you should not
close your heart to their influence.
**[08:26] Allan**
We should enjoy this life as
Matthew would have wanted to.
**[08:30] Anne**
Yes.
**[08:32] Anne**
I was down to the graveyard to plant a
rosebush on Matthew's grave this afternoon.
**[08:37] Anne**
Matthew always liked little white
Scotch roses the best.
**[08:42] Anne**
I hope he has roses like them in heaven.
**[08:47] Allan**
I'm sure he does.
**[08:51] Anne**
Perhaps the souls of his little white
roses were all there to meet him.
**[08:56] Allan**
Let us believe that they were.
**[09:03] Anne**
I'm back, Marilla.
**[09:06] Marilla**
It's good to see you, Anne.
**[09:13] Marilla**
Is that honeysuckle?
**[09:15] Anne**
Yes.
**[09:17] Anne**
I like the delicious hint of fragrance.
**[09:23] Marilla**
It does smell nice. Real sweet.
**[09:26] Marilla**
Doctor Spencer was here
while you were away.
**[09:29] Marilla**
He says that the specialist
will be in town tomorrow.
**[09:33] Anne**
Oh, good. You must go in and
have your eyes examined.
**[09:37] Marilla**
You won't mind staying here alone
while I'm away, will you?
**[09:42] Anne**
I shall be all right. Diana will
come over for company for me.
**[09:46] Anne**
And you needn't fear that
I'll mistake wine for cordial.
**[09:52] Marilla**
What a girl you were for making
mistakes in them days, Anne.
**[09:58] Marilla**
Do you mind the time you dyed your hair?
**[10:03] Anne**
Yes, indeed.
**[10:05] Anne**
I laugh a little when I think what
a worry my hair used to be to me.
**[10:09] Anne**
But not *much*, because it was
a very real trouble then.
**[10:14] Anne**
I've given up fretting over
my hair and freckles now.
**[10:20] Marilla**
And a good thing, too.
**[10:38] Anne**
Welcome home, Marilla.
**[10:41] Anne**
Diana only just left.
**[10:45] Marilla**
Oh, did she?
**[10:47] Anne**
Are you very tired, Marilla?
**[10:49] Anne**
Do you want to lie down?
**[10:51] Marilla**
Yes—no—I don't know.
**[10:55] Anne**
Did you see the oculist?
**[10:58] Anne**
What did he say?
**[11:01] Marilla**
He says to give up reading and sewing and
any kind of work that strains the eyes.
**[11:10] Marilla**
And I'm to be careful not to cry.
**[11:13] Marilla**
If I wear the glasses he's given me,
he thinks my eyes may not get any worse.
**[11:19] Marilla**
But if I don't he says, I'll certainly
be stone-blind in six months.
**[11:25] Marilla**
Blind! Anne, just think of it!
**[11:28] Anne**
*Don't* think of it.
**[11:29] Anne**
You know he has given you hope.
**[11:33] Anne**
If you are careful...
**[11:35] Marilla**
I don't call it much hope.
**[11:38] Marilla**
How can it be wrong to cry
when we have just lost Matthew?
**[11:43] Marilla**
What am I to do when I get lonesome?
**[12:23] Anne**
What did Mr. Sadler want?
**[12:27] Marilla**
He heard that I was going
to sell Green Gables
**[12:31] Marilla**
and he wants to buy it.
**[12:34] Anne**
Sell it! Sell Green Gables?!
**[12:38] Marilla**
I've thought it all over.
**[12:41] Marilla**
If my eyes were strong,
I could stay here and manage.
**[12:47] Marilla**
But as it is, I can't.
**[12:50] Marilla**
It won't bring much, but it'll
be enough for me to live on, I reckon.
**[12:57] Marilla**
I'm thankful you're provided
for with that scholarship, Anne.
**[13:03] Marilla**
I'm sorry you won't have a home to
come to in your vacations, that's all.
**[13:11] Anne**
You mustn't sell Green Gables, Marilla.
**[13:14] Marilla**
I wish I didn't have to.
**[13:18] Anne**
You won't have to stay here alone.
**[13:23] Anne**
I'm not going to Redmond.
**[13:28] Marilla**
Not going to Redmond!
**[13:30] Anne**
I'm not going to take the scholarship.
**[13:34] Anne**
You surely don't think I could leave
you alone in your trouble, Marilla!
**[13:38] Anne**
I've been thinking and planning.
**[13:42] Anne**
Mr. Barry wants to rent
the farm for next year.
**[13:46] Anne**
And I'm going to teach.
**[13:52] Marilla**
Why, what do you mean, Anne?
**[13:55] Anne**
Just what I say.
**[13:56] Anne**
I understand the Avonlea school is
already promised to Gilbert Blythe,
**[14:01] Anne**
but I can have the Carmody school.
**[14:04] Anne**
That won't be as convenient,
but I can drive myself over and back.
**[14:08] Anne**
And even in winter, I can come home Fridays.
**[14:12] Anne**
I'll make you good tea.
**[14:15] Anne**
And I'll read to you.
**[14:17] Anne**
You shan't be dull or lonesome.
**[14:19] Anne**
We'll be real happy here
together, you and I.
**[14:23] Marilla**
I can't let you sacrifice
yourself so for me.
**[14:26] Anne**
There is no sacrifice.
**[14:29] Anne**
Nothing could be worse than
giving up Green Gables.
**[14:36] Anne**
I *am* going to stay here and teach.
**[14:39] Anne**
That's my ambition.
**[14:41] Anne**
Besides, I mean to study at home here.
**[14:44] Anne**
I'm going to be a good teacher—
and I'm going to save your eyesight.
**[14:49] Marilla**
But what about...
**[14:51] Anne**
You can't prevent me.
**[14:53] Anne**
I'm sixteen and a half,
and every bit as obstinate as you!
**[15:01] Anne**
Oh, Marilla, don't you go pitying me.
**[15:07] Anne**
I'm heart glad over the very thought
of staying at dear Green Gables.
**[15:13] Marilla**
You blessed girl! I feel as if
you'd given me new life.
**[15:20] Marilla**
I guess I ought to stick out and
make you go to college,
**[15:27] Marilla**
but I know I can't,
so I ain't going to try.
**[15:34] Marilla**
I'll make it up to you though, Anne.
**[15:39] Anne**
No, Marilla,
**[15:41] Anne**
you really needn't.
**[15:45] Anne**
Matthew,
**[15:46] Anne**
I think I've come to a bend in the road.
**[15:51] Anne**
I don't know what lies around the bend,
but I'm going to believe that the best does.
**[15:57] Anne**
So keep your eye on me, Matthew.
**[16:03] Josie**
Have you heard?
**[16:04] Josie**
Anne Shirley's given up the
idea of going to college.
**[16:08] Jimmy**
What, really?
**[16:09] Josie**
After all that studying and
winning a scholarship,
**[16:14] Josie**
she's going off to teach in Carmody.
**[16:17] Martin**
Carmody? That's far.
**[16:23] Lynde**
Hello!
**[16:26] Anne**
Hello.
**[16:27] Lynde**
Taking the air, are you?
**[16:29] Marilla**
Yes.
**[16:30] Lynde**
Well, Anne, I hear you've given up
your notion of going to college.
**[16:35] Anne**
Yes.
**[16:36] Lynde**
That's a fine thing you've done.
I was real glad to hear it.
**[16:41] Anne**
Thank you, Mrs. Lynde.
**[16:43] Lynde**
And you're going to teach?
**[16:46] Anne**
Yes, in Carmody. It should be great fun.
**[16:52] Lynde**
Funny. *I* heard the trustees decided to give
you the school right here in Avonlea.
**[16:58] Anne**
That can't be. I thought they had
promised it to Gilbert Blythe.
**[17:03] Lynde**
Gilbert Blythe withdrew his application.
**[17:09] Lynde**
And he suggested that they accept yours.
He's going to teach at White Sands.
**[17:16] Lynde**
Of course he gave up the
school just to oblige you,
**[17:21] Lynde**
because he knew how much you
wanted to stay with Marilla.
**[17:28] Lynde**
I must say it was real kind in him,
**[17:31] Lynde**
for he'll have his board
to pay at White Sands,
**[17:35] Lynde**
and he's got to earn his
own way through college.
**[17:37] Anne**
I... I don't think I ought to let Gilbert
make such a sacrifice for—for me.
**[17:43] Lynde**
I guess you can't prevent him now.
**[17:46] Lynde**
He's signed papers with
the White Sands trustees.
**[17:50] Lynde**
Of course you'll take the Avonlea school.
**[17:53] Lynde**
Gilbert wouldn't want you to refuse.
**[17:59] Lynde**
Why, look at her run!
**[18:02] Lynde**
There's a good deal of the child
about her yet in some ways.
**[18:06] Marilla**
There's a good deal more of
the woman about her in others.
**[18:10] Lynde**
Marilla Cuthbert, you've gotten *mellow*.
**[18:16] Gilbert's Mother**
If it's Gilbert you want, he's gone out.
**[18:18] Anne**
Where has he gone?
**[18:19] Gilbert's Mother**
I don't know. He didn't say.
**[18:21] Anne**
I see. Sorry to bother you.
**[18:29] Anne**
Um...
**[18:31] Gilbert's Mother**
Yes?
**[18:31] Anne**
I heard about the Avonlea school.
**[18:35] Anne**
I don't know how I can thank you.
**[18:38] Anne**
I truly appreciate it.
**[18:40] Anne**
Good evening.
**[18:53] Anne**
Dear old world, you are very lovely,
**[18:59] Anne**
and I am glad to be alive in you.
**[19:28] Anne**
Gilbert!
**[19:31] Anne**
I-I want to thank you for giving
up the school for me.
**[19:36] Anne**
It was very good of you.
**[19:38] Anne**
And I want you to know
that I appreciate it.
**[19:41] Gilbert**
It wasn't particularly
good of me at all, Anne.
**[19:45] Gilbert**
I hope I was able to do
you some small service.
**[19:49] Anne**
You have.
**[19:52] Anne**
I—
**[19:52] Gilbert**
So—
**[19:56] Anne**
You first, Gilbert.
**[19:59] Gilbert**
All right.
**[20:00] Gilbert**
So how about it, Anne? Have you
really forgiven me for my old fault?
**[20:07] Anne**
Of course.
**[20:09] Anne**
I forgave you that day you
rescued me here in your boat.
**[20:16] Anne**
What a stubborn little goose I was.
**[20:18] Anne**
I've been sorry ever since.
**[20:24] Gilbert**
We are going to be the best of friends.
**[20:29] Gilbert**
We were born to be good friends, Anne.
**[20:35] Gilbert**
You've thwarted destiny long enough.
**[20:57] Anne**
I'm home, Marilla.
**[20:59] Marilla**
And good thing, too.
**[21:01] Marilla**
Who were you talking with?
**[21:03] Anne**
Gilbert. I met him by the Lake of
Shining Waters and thanked him.
**[21:08] Marilla**
I didn't think you were such good friends
that you'd stand for half an hour talking.
**[21:13] Anne**
We have decided that it will sensible
to be good friends in future.
**[21:19] Anne**
Were we really there half an hour?!
**[21:25] Anne**
The year's at the spring,
**[21:27] Anne**
And day's at the morn;
**[21:29] Anne**
Morning's at seven;
**[21:31] Anne**
The hill-side's dew-pearled;
**[21:34] Anne**
The lark's on the wing;
**[21:38] Anne**
The snail's on the thorn;
**[21:56] Anne**
God's in his Heaven,
**[21:59] Anne**
All's right with the world.
***SIGN*** Next Time
***SIGN*** I'd Like to Add
Some Beauty to Life